Baffled

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It is…Sunday, November 10, Two-Thousand and Twenty-More. Time...Enigmatic

The Post

 Tuesday, November 5th, 204; 2131

I am starting this much later than I had intended. But that is how it has been . The last two days have been very odd and strange. There is an energy about that I just cannot put my finger on what it is.

Personally (as in not my life, or the world, in general) I feel like I'm in a void of some sort. I don't know how to phrase it better than that. I feel connected to everything of late and yet detached from it all.

The last two days have been exactly what I meant when I said, "I don't want to jinx it." Nothing has gone right. I am just a little more than entire day's income short. I lost my glasses.

I shouldn't really drive in the dark without my glasses. But it is dark over dinner rush and I need that money. I feel like they are going to randomly appear. Why the fuck not? That's the kind of weird shit that happens in my life all the time.

But then again, they may not. And I need to figure out how I am going to work around that.

Once again, I don't have heat in the car. The Mechanic keeps trying but this lever just will not stay in place. I've been fortunate so far with temperate or even warmer days. But the early morning is a killer. I get very very cold. I also get chilly when the sun goes down. My only relief is the heated seat.

My week is not yet crumbled. It will be rife with struggle. But I have struggled every week for the past 96 weeks and here I am. ANd, though I don't really know numbers at the moment, I can't imagine it is worse than anything I have gotten through thus far.

These past two days have been a struggle. I haven't been on the road like I usually am. Garage appointment, standing in 2 different voting lines, discovering I didn't have my glasses, both candidates coming to the area at the same time on the same day.

Still, I have managed to keep myself afloat financially. I have just covered everything for the past 2 days. But, that says nothing for the rest of the week and its obligations. I have [just now] gone through my budget and eliminated all unnecessary things.

Despite the bumps in the road I have been feeling good the last two days. Like - it just is what it is...and I'm getting through it. I feel good overall. I could be stressing the money. Instead I am enjoying and appreciating the time and my home. For instance, I took time tonight to meditate.

Sunday, November 10; 2011

Once again, I don't know what I wrote on Tuesday. So, I will just pick up with my thoughts now.

Here we are at the end of the week and, overall, I can say it was a good week. Not perfect. Very far from perfect. I had to skip The Mechanic payment this week. I didn't get to pull the savings money aside. I cut way back on groceries.

I know what you're thinking - How is that a good week?

Simple.

I survived it.

I scoured enough of Tuesday's writing to know that I talked about how Monday and Tuesday went. It didn't get any better from there. It seemed like something screwed up at least just a little bit of each day. It was like not a day could run smoothly. Today did. I think.

The week was so intense that yesterday is definitely Once Upon Ago. I have no real clear recollections of the week. I know it happened. I know things happened along the way. I know it's over.

I have a rough 8-9 weeks ahead of me. Not impossible. Just challenging. A lot of financial hurdles. The holidays impact twice. not only do I have extra monies to spend - food, gifts, etc., but I also lose one day each of three weeks - Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. I am trying to plot and plan ahead as best I can. To look at the weekly budgets now is kinda unnerving. Most weeks, I have more to make daily than I actually can.

Of course, i won't know until I get there. This week was a perfect example of that. I didn't pay The Mechanic this week. Because of that I ended the week about $17 ahead of myself. I wasn't shooting for that at all. I was just trying to break even for the week. I not only pulled off $17 dollars to carry into next week but I managed a few unaccounted expenses.

I have a check to send to the turnpike for tolls. I've been trying to send it for weeks now, but at the end of the week the funds just weren't there and I wasn't going to send it without. I also had to make a couple Amazon purchases today. First, my phone cords have been acting up. Now, I was already thinking of buying one r two to have extra around the house. I kept putting it off. It has become necessary. So I am getting a pack of different length cords. I don't expect them to be very good or to last terribly long. But they will suit the purpose for now at least.

I am getting 2 - 3' cords, which will both go in the car. [I keep two phones with me in the day.] There are 3 - 6' cords. One will go to my bedroom. One will come to the desk [I need about an extra foot/foot and a half of cord when working at the desk.] And, one will be spare. Finally, there is a 10' cord. Also available when needed. The outlets in this house are a little odd compared to furniture placement.

I also need to get a heater for the car. There's a piece inside my heating unit that is broken. In theory, it should just need to be turned. [It is the lever that is broken.] We have done it before. However, I have been to The Mechanic twice to have him flip it and it doesn't stay. We are going to try one more time and he is going to show me what I have to do so I can tweak it if needed. So, just in case - as a back up, I am getting a portable car heater.

Both of those purchases were actually on next week's budget.

That's how each week goes. I just don't know till it's done.

My head has been in a haze for days now. I just can't seem to keep track of where in time I am. I'm drifting - often. I am way in the past. I am ahead at Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm just constantly moving about energetically. I don't mind. I kind of like it. It just makes it hard to feel grounded some days. But then...maybe I'm not supposed to feel grounded.

I'm slowly gearing up for Yule. I'm actually finding it harder than I thought to switch gears into that season. I need a small transition period I suppose. I thought it would be easy because for many, many years now I am always reminded that "The Yultide Spirit begins with All Hallow's Eve." This was something I stumbled upon Once Upon Ago. It made sense. It still does and I have never forgotten it. It is the reason I use Nightmare Before Christmas as my last Halloween movie and first Christmas one.

Nonetheless, this week I had trouble watching things. Honestly, a large part of that is that the Streaming Serivces haven't quite made the switch yet. SO I am challenged in finding some movies. I mean, there are some available. It's just that I am very particular about when I watch certain ones.

For instance there are the Dad movies on Thanksgiving. Miracle I try to watch with The Princesses. The rest aren't so much about order as they are placement. The more magickal the story - the more Santa oriented - the closer I want it to Christmas/Yule. That eliminates a lot of choices. My other challenge is that some must be rented. It's the only way to see them. So far, this year, I have watched Nightmare, The Love Boat Christmas Cruise and the 1976 Sonny & Cher Christmas Special.

I have listened to a little bit of Christmas music so far.

Something is happenening. I don't know what it is. I can't put my finger on it but I can definitely feel it. I'm not sure yet how to capture it but I feel like I must. I think that's all I got at the moment.

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So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

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WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak