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Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true! 

WALT: Welcome to my Life is a Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

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It is…Sunday, January 12, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Jive. Time...???

Theme – Just Be Glad

 We all face issues andchallenges and things we don't like. I imagine most of us face them more often than we care to think about. They can be our own personal or they can concern ones we love. But, no matter the situation, there is always a bright side, a silver lining - something to be glad about. For instance, my current condition and situation suck. I can't move right nor function at a regular pace,. My whole life has been turned upside down. It's all very frustrating really. But, it could all be so much worse. I survive. I get by> And each day there is some little advancement or another. So...Just Be Glad. Or, I have this thing with Cuddlebug lately. I'm concerned about the current direction of her life. She is very distracted by both friend and boyfriend. But Just be Glad she's happy and healthy and safe. Just be Glad she's got people close to her. Just be Glad She's living life.

Lesson – Listen Every Time

 I'm an intuitive. I'm not always a good one. I listen OK in Readings and Reiki sessions. But, in my own personal life - not so much. My incident two years ago proves that. I heard one thing, I did the opposite. It's not just big things though. It's every day living things as well. The Universe is always communicating with us. We all have The Voice - that part of us that knows. Sometimes I find it very easy to listen and things work out. [I had an example from this week, but it is now Once Upon Ago.] Despite the positive track record, sometimes I don't listen. That's when things blow up on me. They all eventually work out, I get through them. There's just a whole different set of bumps and twists and turns. I do have an example of this. I had some things on my 'to get' list. I wanted new sage smudges and loose leaf. I wanted more incense. I had already earmarked the remainder of my gift card for that purchase. I decided it was time to make that purchase. I've been doing some readings and that is a trend I would like to see continue. I sage the room before works. I sage myself. I already sage the house frequently but even that will become more. Same with incense. The more time I spend at home, the more incense I will burn. I burn it often and randomly - in the morning, at night, in the middle of the day. One room. Three rooms. Every room. I also tend to be particular about which I am burning. So, it was time to increase the collection. While I was putting the order together on Amazon I came across a particular oil that I use. Again, the more works I do, the more I will use it. I decided to get it. tThe total for the order came out to be about 50 cents more than the total on the card. I thought about taking the oil off and had at one point in my calculations. After all, I do have some. But, it is hard to get. I searched for years to find a place that carried it. Now I found one but they only had 1 left. I heard it again. "just let it go." But, ego andfear of lack and whatever else kicked in. I thought, "maybe they will split the payment. I have 2 cards in the system." They did not. In the end the money came out of my bank account. Now, almost half of it came back through a refund from something else. I've found a practical way to use up the rest of the card. It's all balancing out. It's just a lot of extra hooplah. And for what? I should have just listened.

Observation – Make the Time

 As you know, Fellow Travelers, I have been trying to create a new routine for myself. Very often there are things in a day that I will skip. I just choose other things. When I do choose to follow through on my list I get those things done as well as plenty of other things. I go to bed those nights and sleep the sleep of the just. I kust need to prioritize them. I need to Make the Time. In thinking about this, I realized how often in life we "don't have time." We don't have time to do. We don't have time to relax. Don't have time to go. To learn. To try. We have to Make the Time and then its there. I went deeper. I have these exercises/stretches they had given me at therapy. They have been on my Routine List for some time now. Yet, every day they go undone. I just can't seem to find the right moment in my flow. I decided I just needed to pick a time of day. For example, I can do the morning exercises first thing in the morning. That's always my most unproductive and wasted time of day. I can do them while I watch the morning news. All I had to do was Make the Time.

The Post

 Wow it feels like this week went so fast. I imagine that part of that is the fact that I got the last entry posted so late. Still, it did seem to fly by. That's interesting to me because sometimes each day feels so long.

It was a good week. A productive week. I motivated and managed and muddled through.

I had my assessment for van transportation. That was an adventure. Fairly painless.

Mostly annoting. Nonetheless, that is done and I just need wait on a decision. In the meantime, I also tracked down the info I need to get rides through my health insurance. I should be covered for appointments now.

I also learned that insurance transportation "needs" can vary by program as well as state. For instance, in Las Vegas the insurance "medical transportation" covers being taken to The Strip for a gambling jaunt.

I received a letter from disability informing me that they are currently reviewing my case. I had kind of figured that since I submitted many forms and hadn't gotten a decision as of yet. Talk about a wasted letter. I wonder if the Department of Government Efficiency will look into such wasteful spending.

I received a few more donations. [AMEN and thank you!]  

I had a Tarot Reading. I really do love the experience of them. The feeling I get from them is somewhat indescribable. I just feel so peaceful and whole and complete. I'd love to do more of them. It would be great if I could do enough to make a third to a half of my needed weekly income. But that would take a big shift of things that is mostly inconceivable.

I finally made my carbonara. Next weekend I'm trying potato soup again.

I got all of my Christmas stuff packed. Except for the net tree which will take some extra effort on my part and a couple straggling santas which may stay where they are. Things being what they are, I need the kids to help me get the tubs downstairs. But, then, it's all put away [and better than last year.]

By the end of my week I was fairly on point with my daily routine. There are still two thigs on the list that are skipped more often than not. I just need to choose a time for them now. I need to Make the Time. I will pay attention this week and see when I tend to have lingering time. It's all fairly consistent right now. It is a fine balance of active/productive time, a blend of daily routine and just taking care of the business of living.

I am making use of the systems and routines that have been established along the way. I can now look ahead and plot out the plans and projects in the week with ease and confidence.

The body is healing, I suppose. I can walk, but the walk isn't proper. I am working on that. I take longer walks now - to the mailbox, or the shop, or moving waste cans for trash day. I can take the stairs, as needed. To walk down the steps just one step after the other - as one normally would - is still very challenging. The left leg just doesn't really want to do it. It's tight and weak. Still, I walk them that way.

My arm and hand aren't as reassuring lately. They're there. I can use them to a very limited degree. The improvement seems to have steadied out for the time being. I try not to be discouraged. I'll keep pushing as much as I can.

Healing is not just taking place physically. My mind and Spirit are going through their own processes. I am only at the beginning of these though. The worst is yet to come. I can feel it inching nearer. I like what is happening and how I am feeling. But I know that sooner or later my beings will have to delve into the deepest, darkest depths of themselves and come to terms with the things they have been trying to leave forgotten. The calmer and slower my days become, the closer that time creeps.

I don't know if my heart will ever heal.

The finances are still wavering. I am holding steady right now at keeping the general January bills covered, as well as the incidental stuff that comes up along the way. Rent is still an issue. [But we're getting that electric paid and that's something.] The GoFundMe seems to have flat-lined. Assistance is still on hold. I don't know what kind of work I can do or even where to look for possibilities. I guess I should Just be Glad I can do what I am and that nothing is critical at the moment.

As a whole, my life is very surreal at the moment. Every aspect of it seems odd to me. It's a sucky situation to be in. It's a sucky way to spend the days but It Is What It I What It Is. I can take some comfort in knowing that it is what must be - whether by my own doing spawned my stubbornness and resistance, or just simply that it was The Universe's plan all along.

Though, I must say, I can see how a stroke survivor might wrestle with depression. I imagine that there is a percentage of a chance that I, myself, will before its all over. I mean you're still the same person with all the same interests, hobbies, habits, dreams, desires. But you have limited, or no, ability to do these things. You can get out and drive about. You keep pushing in spite of thoughts of uselessness or hopelessness.

Now, in the back of my mind I know that things will eventually be more normal. Eventually, I will be able to drive. In the meantime, I must keep myself busy in order to calm the restlessness and keep the cabin fever at bay.

I know that eventually I will regain more of my hand and better use of my leg. I will actually be able to do things. In the meantime, I need to find things that I can do - within the scope of my mobility - in order to feel productive and purposeful.

I know that eventually I will return to work. I don't know when or how much I can work each week. I don't really know what the work will be. I will most likely return to driving because its all I know. But maybe the Universal Plan has a new course in mind. Only time will tell. For now, I must accept that tending to the business of living is my work and have faith that it and Spirit will sustain me until other work is possible.

Amidst the chaos and confusion of my existence, I finds that I am coming to re-discover parts of myself. Parts of myself from past lives. Lives lived at Olde Geistopia - before things went off the rails. Parts of myself that I truly enjoyed.

I am comfortable in this chaos. I am adept at adjusting and shifting with things. I enjoy the constant juggling of multiple things at once. I find stability and grounding in the constant note taking and the to do lists.

I find that as well as working on my overall healing I am starting to pursue things I have enjoyed in the past. Enjoyment that turned to guilt for spending time on the - such as this blog. The same with the videos. Even taking time to read or watch a movie.

Basically, all the things I have been denying myself for 2 years.

My sleep pattern is erratic and I love that. I am up and active at all times of day and night. Oh, how I’ve missed that. The deep of the night has such a different and special energy. The other night I woke around 1 and was up till 4. I got so many random things done. At one point, I randomly decided to take some stuff to the shop and on my way encountered a rabbit. That is why rabbit is a Totem. I found it to be a particularly randomly perfect moment. So, I must take extra mind to the messages of Rabbit.

I think that’s all I have for now. I haven’t even a notion as to what my future holds. All I can do is take each day as it comes and keep faith that I am on the proper course.

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt. And there is the newer TikTok @WTML23[at least for another week.]

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak

Rabbit - Fertility and New Life

Often seen as an animal that can lead one unknowingly into the Faerie realm. A symbol for sexuality and fertility. Usually, you will begin to see a cycle of 28 days beginning to manifest in your life. Those with rabbit totems will see movement occur in their life in varying degrees of hops and leaps. It won’t be steady step-by-step movement. The leaps and hops do not usually take more than the cycle of The Moon (28 days) to occur. Plan for possibilities. May indicate the need to do some more planning or review those you have already set in motion. You do not want to box yourself into a corner. Important not to foreshadow your moves. Learning to shift from freezing to great speeds will aid in your success and enables you to take advantage of opportunities that may present themselves for brief moments. May need to examine the kinds of food being consumed. For the greatest health and well-being, a vegetarian diet, even if only temporary, will strengthen and heal. How to recognize the tides of movement within your life. This in turn will enable you to become even more fertile in your life.