Friday, My Day

Friday, January 17, 2020; 0539

No sense in beating a dead horse, I suppose.

WALT: Naw, it’s not as fun as beating a live one.

*blank stare.* Dude, I just don’t know about you. 

WALT: Someone’s got to keep it interesting and controversial. 

So, anyway, it is morning. I am up. I figured I might as well write. Night time wasn’t working out any better. In fact, it was worse. *shrugs.* I tried. 

Don’t get too excited about the title. I’m not exactly sure what that means. Maybe I’ll find out as the day progresses. 

So, yesterday was a good day overall. Though, I didn’t get a whole lot done. While I was writing, I was also talking with Hoagie for a bit and dealing with things on that end. Then I would do the same with Wisconsin. All-in-all it took me until 1000-1030 to get finished writing. 

My next task was to get the laundry going. The laundromat is not that far. A four minute walk, in fact. The first trip over I did not walk though. I decided to take the MattMobile, against my better judgment. In the end, there would be purpose to that. I had a pair of lamps in the trunk that I had been wanting to take to the thrift store down the street. After I got the laundry tarted I went down the road to The Valley’s Favorite Convenience Store [yes, for cigarettes.] The Convenience Store is right next to the thrift store. So, I was glad I took the car for the purposes of getting thos lamps out of the trunk. But, I definitely cannot take the car anywhere else until the brakes are changed - not even to go and buy the new brakes. 

I brought the car back and walked to and from the laundromat at that point. I figured it was supposed to be getting taken care of in the evening, so it was whatever. I tidies up a bit, had some lunch, and when the laundry was done and put away I set to soaking in a tub for a bit. I know this is the second time in just as many days and that is unusual for me. However, the first day, you may recall, I had difficulty relaxing into it because I had work on my mind. [Also, it’s good that I got out when I did, so that I could do that work.] Normally, I would have just moved beyond it, but I had a long-distance Reiki session planned for the day and I wanted to be sure I was in the right state for it. 

This tub didn’t go much differently. I don’t know how long I had been soaking, but I was just really getting into it when there was a knock at the little blue hobbit door. I figured it was ‘Jim’ from upstairs, so he would leave and I could knock when I was done. But, there was a second knock. Till I was able to get myself up and out of the tub, dried off and wrapped, whoever had been at the door was gone. It wasn’t ‘Jim’ because his truck wasn’t out on the street. 

Nonetheless, the tub was done and it would soon be time to set in to the Reiki session. This is only the second long-distance session I have ever done. I must confess that I am, personally, awed at just how much power is behind them. On my end, everything was the same. The energies coursed the same. My hands burned at times. There were visions and shifts. It was [almost] no different than having the client present. 

The client would have her own experiences, both times. She would feel sensations - tingles, chills, warmth - at different times throughout the session. Every single one was appropriate for when and where she felt it. Each one coincided with work I had been doing. She had her own set of visions and meditations. One in particularly, was doubly interesting. 

I had had a vision - a particular image, which has only occasionally come to me over my two decades. If I tried really hard I might be able to say it has happened five times. But, other than yesterday, I can truly only tell you of once. I can remember exactly where I was and what the vision had been. In fact, I’ve never forgotten it. But that may be a story for another time. 

Anyway, I had my vision. She had a vision f her own. A particular image had come to her as well. It is an image that is almost synonymous with a particular Earth-based spiritual practice. There had been a lot of information for the client, and messages, regarding a focus on a more Earth-based spiritual center. These were the things I was hearing that she should focus on, practice, study. So, I think that’s interesting as hell. 

Here’s what makes it doubly so - when she then looked up my image, the one I had received, it actually contained her image as well. 

In regards to the potency of the session, or the experience, as I said, on my need, it was all the same. And I do mean all. There is a definite shift in services, or planes, or even realities for a session. I don’t understand it. I do not know what exactly happens. And, honestly, I don’t know that I ever really noticed before yesterday. Things change. I was having a ‘normal’ day. My thoughts were clear and focused. My vision was clear. As soon as it had been determined that it was time to begin, everything started to shift. Obviously, the physical world around me didn’t change but it all seemed different. It was like, for the first time in all these years, I could actually feel myself switch into the Shamanic State. [Usually, I just wake up in the middle of it.]

Overall, I am torn on how I feel about the Long-Distance sessions. On one hand, I enjoyed it because I didn’t have the actual physical body there to get in my way. There was no concern about accidentally hitting them as my hands flit about. I didn’t have to worry about nudging the body and disturbing the client. ‘Ge never really been one for the actual hands-on portion of Reiki, because I have intimacy issues and I don’t Iike touching people. [Funny, isn’t it? A hands-on healer that doesn’t like to touch people. LMAO.] On the other hand, I have been getting better bout that in general, but there are also times that I like to apply a little bit of pressure to the body. It’s not massage. That’s not what I’m doing. Just a little push to move things along. So I missed that ability a couple of times yesterday. 

However, the other advantage to the Long-Distance sessions is that it can afford me the opportunity to make notes. Reiki is not much different than Tarot in as much as I am always receiving information. I do my best to remember it all by the end of the session but it can be a lot. During a session with the client present I never gave thought to stopping to take notes because I didn’t want to interfere with wherever the client may be. But, yesterday I was inspired to stop and take notes along the way. So, I did. And, I’m glad I did. It left her with quite a bit of information. 

Another possible advantage was with the session itself. I used the session as an opportunity to do my LBRP/BRH for the day. This is not unusual in and of itself. I would always want to cleanse the space as best I could anyway. But, I used it to begin the session, so I projected it into the client’s space as well. Now, granted, the client was Wisconsin, so I didn’t feel intrusive in this. But, I think it is something I must incorporate into all of my sessions in some form. 

So, the session came and went and it was good. (And, G-d saw the light and the light was good.) Afterwords I was in a haze. ‘Jim’ actually did come by right after the session was over and he kept asking me if I was ok. I was perfectly fine. I was just on a very intense spiritual high. This is one of the things I love about doing Reiki. It leaves me feeling so ‘Divine’ in the end. It leaves me mellow and peaceful and just…”ahhhhhh.” 

My Reiki Master, and an early guide of mine, always use to giggle at me. “You’ll get over it.” She was referring to the awe I am left in after my experiences. She insisted that the day would come that they would be so commonplace that it would’ve no more exciting than the act of breathing. It would just be so natural. 

No. I don’t think I will. I don’t think I will ever get over it. I mean, sure, maybe it will get to a point when things do seem commonplace and natural and it just is what it is. But, there will always be moments that heighten my passion and my belief. Those moments will always leave me in awe at their power, potency and accuracy. 

I was in communication, off and on, yesterday with the person who is offering assistance with the brakes. He was going to come by last night, but his life took a turn of its own. So, the brakes still are not done and the clock is ticking, as it were. I had hoped to see The Princesses this weekend. I haven’t had time with them since the Sunday after Thanksgiving. They will be at Old Geistopia this weekend. This is not the only time I can see them but it is the easiest, most convenient way. I am still in communication with him and trying to figure out if this is something I can take care of myself, maybe today. It’s not just a matter of doing the work - I may or may not be able to get myself through that. I changed brakes on one of my cars many, many years ago. It is also a question of the financial aspect. 

I have some money and I could buy a set of brake pads. However, if the rotors are now damaged, I cannot afford that. Also, the money I have I was trying to generate for the purpose of getting my car insurance all caught up again. [Before it gets cancelled.] In the Grand Scheme of things, there are still several days before I have to worry about it being cancelled, and, so far, on this journey things have worked out just right at just the right time. [In particularly in the weeks of our current experiment.] So, I don’t mind buying the brakes instead of paying the insurance right this moment. But, I won’t lie that a part of me just wants to pay it and rest my head from it. 

The car insurance is not the only money hanging over my head for the upcoming week. On Wednesday, that obey is due. On Thursday, I have to go in about support again. I am still behind and I am still not making enough money to keep up with the payments. In December, my case worker said that if I could get at least $119 in to them he would cancel the January appointment. I had hoped to make that happen. I thought for a moment I was going to make that happen. But, Right This Moment, I am nowhere even close. 

My next hope is that I can generate the money [or at least some portion of it] before that appointment, first thing Thursday morning. I do not know how that could happen. I can’t, personally, see how it would be possible. But, the Lesson of late seems to be Detachment. 

Attachment begets expectation. Expectation creates limitations. 

For instance, things have shifted in The Dormitory situation. As I wrote yesterday morning, my current approach has been to continue on as if nothing is changing - living my life and taking care of business - yet at the same time preparing for the changes that are coming - making those preparations part of living my life and taking care of business. 

Yesterday afternoon, Hoagie would call me. He has decided that he is not asking me to leave. Basically, we are going to wait on that decision until the court date and we see what the court has to say on the matter. So, for now, that burden has been relieved and I can continue on my way. 

It has been the pattern of late. Something occurs and I keep myself detached and things work out. I am really only looking at the past few weeks. It has happened with being places and earning money and paying bills and taking care of business. My approach to everything has been to acknowledge it, do what I can and just live my day as it happens. So far, I am not disappointed in the results. 

At this point, my day has shifted so much already. So, let’s see if we can figure out quick what it may be. 

I am still working at figuring out the brake situation. I have one person I am in communication with and another I want to contact. I may even heft it to the auto store and back [7 miles round trip] and try to do this on my own. My challenge is the weather more than anything. I would like the brakes done for Sunday so i can see the girls. But, there is no easy way for me to do it today. I don’t know if it can be done this evening. And, tomorrow we are uploaded to get ice and snow. All I’m telling the Universe is this...I don’t think I care how it happens but I would really like to see my daughters. 

That is the major thing on my list. Brakes, or insurance, or whatever I do have a little bit of funds left over, so another priority today may be going for some small amount of groceries. Just Enough to get through a few days. 

Other than that I have no real plans or direction today. [After yesterday, I am ok with this.] I have a list of things to work at and focus on. I will take them as they come. Each has steps that can be taken and each has obstacles to overcome. I have job hunting to do. I have apps and resources downloaded, but I need to get signed up with all of them. Also, I am still waiting on a better resume [hopefully] from two different sources. I do have one together to use if I find something immediately that I want. 

I have some crafting to do. I’m not sure how focused or organized I am for that. And, if I do take it on there is one project in particular that I would find myself focusing on right now. 

I have some marketing I would like to do. Just some general posts reminding people of my services and availability. [This is probably a main priority today. It will take moments to write it up and post it. Then it is done. Then it can attract what it will as I move on to other things.]

Now, before I sign off for the day I want to bring up last night’s Dreamtime. I did have a dream. I know it was a big one. I be;ieve just about everyone from my life was in it somewhere at some point. I do not actually remember any details except for the very end. It’s my own personal thing and I don’t want to share it [yet.] I just want to sit with it for a while and let it gel. But, drifting into Dreamtime, there was another whisper of ‘Tomorrow.’

If you have been with me for any length of time now you are familiar with the ‘Tomorrow’ and how I feel about it. I get the message often and almost as often I don’t really know what was so significant about ‘Tomorrow.’ This may be one of those times. Or, perhaps we will see something grand and stupendous. 

So, let us see what is ahead, Fellow Travelers. Until tomorrow...Peace and Blessings.