Haberdashery

Wednesday, January 8, 2020; 0530

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Rise: 0725

Set:   1651

Rune: Ehwaz

Chilly/icy. Mostly sunny day ahead

Feeling good on all levels today. My body is still a little off but nearly what it has been. The mind is relaxing and the spirit is at rest. 

Yesterday becomes an interesting moment in history for me. I realize that I recognized it as a holi-day, but i have never truly acknowledged it as one. It’s not really a day I celebrate in any way. It just sort of came to me along the way. I noticed some time ago that, try as I might, the first week of January never quite gets off the ground right. Even though I would get through the Yule observation, I would find myself still in a very similar ‘funk.’ [And ‘funk’ might give a more negative connotation than what is intended.] After some investigation I uncovered Epiphany and eventually realized there was Orthodox Christmas. Neither was of any great matter to me, but both, it seemed, would keep me in my holi-day haze. 

The day becomes interesting for me because it was the first day this season that I felt, or recognized, the magic of the Spirit of Christmas. I received gifts yesterday. It was reminiscent of ‘The Good Ole Days.’ Before my adventures of the day were through I would accumulate stuff. I love when this happens. 

First, and foremost, I accumulated the rest of what I need to begin/complete this current paying project. I received a gift to pass on to Hoagie. I came home with two shelves to put up. I was given a tool to start a project. I actually have the tool I need, but I was given a much better one. I received storage containers. [If you know me at all, you know I love storage anything. It was definitely one of the things I hoarded while at Old Geistopia.] And, I was given a collection of mini projects to complete and with which to entertain myself. 

So, I finished my writing yesterday and attempted to set into business. I was going to make my steak and eggs yesterday, but after the cinnamon rolls I was not hungry. I will do this today. [I’ve really been thinking about the steak & eggs.] Do not fret, Fellow Travelers, I did not buy steak. I had two dinners with friends over the weekend. Both served steak. Both sent home leftovers. I did, however, spend 99 cents on a dozen eggs. Hehe. 

I was going to settle into cleaning, but found I just could not motivate self in that direction. This would be a good thing, because I would receive the call to go to The Putter’s earlier than I had thought. Cleaning will also happen today. 

[I had to pause a moment to do my Morning Devotion. I had stopped 3 minutes to the hour because I knew it was getting close. I officially stopped at 5 minutes past the hour to do it. That is happening to me more frequently of late - the awareness. It was always something I admired about the Devotions - eventually they became such a part of my day, my existence, that I could feel the times, the Gateways, in my body, in my soul. Always within a half an hour - give or take. The visualizations today were strong, despite the fact that my mind was distracted. Perhaps a bit rushed.]

So, anyway, I headed off to The Putter’s for The Weilersville Chapter of the Safety Meeting. There was talk of holding a Mahanoy City meeting tomorrow. We will see what happens. Nonetheless, it was a good visit and fun times were had by all. Before I left, though, I would schedule a Tarot Reading for Monday evening. This is actually my only repeat client…ever. I’ve always been very transient, working here or there. Plus, I go in waves of when I am doing it and when I am not. Also, there is the fact that my readings tend to lean more towards the self than the future. I don’t know. But, still, here she is and this is her [at least] third reading in a year. 

Business did take place at The Safety Meeting. The Professor and I would seal the deal and that project begins tomorrow. I also received half upfront. A little more actually. I was able to fill the tank on The MattMobile. I got myself some dinner Nd treats. The rest would be deposited in the bank. I actually ended up driving in down to the bank after leaving the Safety Meeting. Long story short, my closest branch was 20 minutes from The Putters and left me with 50 minutes to get home to The Dormitory. 

Anyway, some of that money went to paying the music subscription. I did do this so Sunshine could work at her project, and I strongly encouraged her to do so while she has the access. However, I cannot lie. I am very happy to have it back myself. I very much missed my way of doing music. I don’t really like the radio. I’ll listen to it when there is nothing else, such as the car, but I try to keep it to non-com radio stations. I don’t like my music being interrupted by ads - radio or streaming. Plus, I had become very accustomed to, literally, a world of music at my fingertips. Music for any moment - to suit any mood or need; to set any tone or atmosphere. I could never afford in a year the amount of music that I actually listen to or download through my streaming service. 

Have I mentioned how important I think music is?

So, I ended the day feeling satisfied, feeling…’Good Tired.’ [And they can take me away.”] I lived, I breathed, and that is a good start to any day. I visited friends. I took care of business - scheduling clients/jobs, making deposits, etc. I made money. Just Enough to get the job done. I managed my devotions [mostly] and my writing. I kept on path with my current Mission of Mindset. I received gifts. 

I returned home to The Dormitory and ‘Jim’ would inevitably knock. I hung out for a bit, but found that I was very run down. I needed to shut down for a little while. I wasn’t really up for the socializing. This all becomes awkward because, not only is this a studio apartment, but my cot is right up by the kitchen where we hang out. Still, I apologized and excused myself. I didn’t really sleep, not at first. Instead I just drifted into a deep meditation. I was aware of what was happening around me, I just wasn’t moving or opening my eyes. At one point I even heard them commenting on me lying there in my state of rest. It was actually quite a splendid meditation. My energy raised quite a bit. I could see and feel The Divine Light and I was just in a complete state of wholeness, contentment, and Peace. 

I didn’t really need to lay as long as I did, but like I said, I just couldn’t do the socializing last night. I needed some recovery from the magicks and powers of the day. Byt the time ‘Jim’ left and Hoagie would drift off to sleep I was actually tired and didn’t want to get up to do anything. I was slightly disappointed in this because I had so much I wanted to piddle around with, but at the same time I am glad because I was up and ready to go at 0500 this morning. That is always the goal. 

That is my day. This has been my week. This was week 0. I want to reflect back on it one more moment, if I can. 

It was a difficult week. I was just coming out of Yule and it would be several days before I was able to even be aware just how traumatized my bodies had become. So, the beginning of Week 0 was shaking all of this off. [The End.] I had a day or two when I didn’t know what was going on or how I was moving forward with any part of life, but I also took that time to not care - to release and relax. [The Formlessness.] It was during this downtime that I came to many self-realizations, from past issues to future desires. I guess you could say I decided ‘what I want to do’ with my life. I realized, in this time, that what I had before me was the perfect opportunity to just give over to the Principles. [The Conception.] I let the rest of the week play out as it would, one day at a time. Each As It Comes. In those days, I developed a routine and regimen. I have scheduled and discussed work/projects - current and future. I manifested income. I spent time with friends and, by the time I reached today - the beginning of Week 1 - we have been given [The Beginning.] 

I must say, without really trying, that’s a pretty darn good demonstration of 0. 

I carry from Week 0 an Observation. 

When I had a better understanding of the course we were about to set here, I made a list of upcoming things with which I was going to need to deal. All were financial. In that week, without really trying - without pushing, without stressing - the funds have manifested for all of them, except one. So, my ‘Commitment Mindset’ has already shifted to February. [With that one exception, of course.] I will still need things like gas and groceries along the way, but that stuff always ebbs and flows so naturally. But, my major commitments, the things I find myself stressing over the most, are all settled until next month - excepting one. 

If I could sum up the Observation it would be - 

Do Not Worry About Tomorrow, For Tomorrow Will Take Care of Itself. 

It is with this mindset that I shall approach my next financial obstacle. The next major thing that I must take care of is my support payment. Currently, I believe, I am scheduled to appear downtown, at the offices, on January 23rd. My case worker had mentioned that if a full payment was received [and processed] before then that he would cancel the appointment. Needless to say, this is the ultimate goal. These appointments aren’t worth the time and energy they require and consume - not for me nor the system. 

My first goal was to try to pay it by mail. This would save any fees for taking it to a payment center. However, for that to really work - mail, process, cancel the appointment - I should be sending that payment in the next day or two. As of Right This Moment that is not going to happen. Of course, Six Minutes is an Awfully Long Time, and Anything Can Happen in Six Minutes. The secondary goal is to have the funds to make the payment, plus the fees, and make the payment by like Thursday next week. I can honestly say that Right This Moment I have absolutely no idea how that might work. But, that would be the plan that would avoid the meeting. Worst case scenario I have until the 23rd to come up with the month’s payment. It’s not a terribly high amount. It’s almost rather embarrassing really. But, Mama went for support at a time when I had no guaranteed income. Some weeks there was work and some weeks there weren’t. The case worker, at the time, unrest stood my dilemma but said that he had to put something through for it - which I also understood.

Nonetheless, it is what I am left with. Not bad when you consider that the list was much longer a week ago. But, in that week, the most current and pressing things managed themselves. The phone was saved. [Thank you again.] The subscriptions will be paid [and then some.] Groceries and necessities were bought. The MattMobile is back in action [thank you again for the battery,] including a full tank of gas. I have Just Enough money to keep gas in my tank for traveling these next several days. I have enough food to manage at least that long. The one thing left is the support payment. I mean, I’m sure other things will arise here and there, they always do. That list is eternal. 

All I can do with this is handle it in the exact manner I did everything else. I have now put it out to the Universe. Write. Release. Realize. With it out there, I do not need to hold on to it and I can let it manifest itself as it will…[or not, I suppose.] 

So week 0 comes to a close and today is Day 1 of Week 1 [The Emergence.] It also happens to be a Day After. I don’t mind this so much. The Day After energies will keep me mellow and fluid. Sticking with our baby analogy - what does a newborn do immediately after being one - the day of emergence? Not a whole hell of a lot - Sleep, eat, breath, and adjust to ‘be’-ing. That is precisely where I am at. Being The Day After I will just kind of drift through the day, but I am also adjusting to the Emergence of my new self, my new life. 

I do have things I would like to accomplish today. I want to clean The Dormitory and organize the shop [Take Care of the Shop and the Shop Will Take Care of You.] I want to get my laundry done. These acts will have me all caught up and balanced and prepared to begin another week. I also want to wks a moment to make sure I have what I need for tomorrow’s project, and I need to reach out to a few people in the day. Of course, I also want to make my Steak & Eggs.

I guess, at this point, the question is what has Week 0 left me with, how do I begin Week 1?

I start The Emergence with, not a new but, a re-visited mindset. I realized that for as much as I have known the Principles I have not really allowed myself to live them, to embrace them fully. I am facing this new year [new me] motivated and determined to do so. 

There is still no real notion about a job but I am slowly working and making the money I need. As long as that is the case I can take everything one day, one step, at a time. The rest will figure itself out, just as things managed themselves this past week. 

I have what I ‘need’ for now [so there is no needing, only having.] I have a few days of work ahead of me and a client set for next week. For all intents and purposes, all of the ‘Importants’ of my life are set, organized and aligned until this time next week. By the time we reach the beginning of Week 2 I will have to have discovered what comes next. But, until then, all I can do is drift and allow it to come. 

As I allow my physical life to rebuild itself, I must rebuild my spiritual self. Not only must I return to my spiritual practices and studies, but I must do things that feed and nurture my spirit. 

One of the things I can do, towards that end, is to craft. This is also one of the things I have been left with as I ‘Emerge’ into Week 1. I have a workshop, some tools and some supplies, and a host of projects. None are necessarily critical or a priority, but they are all there. So, one of my goals is to drift through that, as I am drifting through everything, approaching each project, or part of a project, as it comes - until things are done. [Then we see from there.]

I did check on another job yesterday - one in the field I claim to want and be willing to get Barack into. They promote from within and do not hire management off the streets. It’s not really worth starting all the way at the bottom. Unless, I start at the bottom with a very distinct and definite plan [on both parts] to advance quickly. So, it is not completely off the table, but it is not as simple as apply and work either. 

And, this is where we find ourselves, Fellow Travelers. We have reached both the finish line of Week 0 - which I proclaim a success - and the starting line for Week 1. Which, I must say, shows a lot of promise. From here it is time for my Steak & Eggs. 

Peace and Blessings, Fellow Travelers.