Just Another Day

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Wednesday, February 12, 2020; 0623

It’s a 9 Day. [By full calculation.]

I think that’s interesting because just before I realized that I had calculated that I need to make it through 9 more days before I get my first full pay. This is a level of completion. From that point on, I should have the same amount of money coming in every two weeks. Plus, whatever I can manage along the way.

Honestly, I don’t know how I feel about this. I should feel good about it. And, for the most part, I do. But there is apprehension. I think I am just worried about what comes next. [And, I shouldn’t be.] This is why we are given markers of time by which to gauge. [3 weeks, 3 months.] All I can do right now is wait and see what the third week yields.

Yesterday was as yesterdays tend to be lately - different than I thought it was going to be when I started it.

I muddled through my morning again. It wasn’t as bad as Monday but it was very close. A little of this, a little of that, and then a little rest for Matt. I had scheduled three gigs to do later in the day when I was out and about. I knew they would hurt my back but it was $23 that I desperately needed at the time. [Or, so I thought.]

Through the morning I met myself on point, all across the board. I took care of WTML stuff - writing, updating, etc. I managed all of my Practices, including journaling them. I even got a few phone calls made. One of these was to my cellular carrier.

I got my money back. They did not give me much of a hard time. Only once did a representative try to suggest that the money get credited to next month. I straightened that out quickly. Then, we were on our way. A-B-C, easy as 1-2-3. The woman who took care of it told me I would have the money back in 1-3 business days. This was just when I would need it and a shorter amount of time than I thought I’d be told. I actually had the money back yesterday already.

This changed my perspective on the extra gigs. Sure, I could use the money. I can always use the money. But, I had to consider my back. It is still somewhat tender, even this morning. I really can’t risk starting my work week in pain. That’s how my first work week started and, in the end, I lost 4 hours of work because I just couldn’t stand anymore. So, I certainly can’t risk that happening a second time. But, also, even if I survived the week I have the decompression time of next week. [And I don’t know how those days off are going to work quite yet. They may not be Monday/Tuesday and they may not be back to back.] Nonetheless, it took me almost two full days to recover from last week. I made use of my days off but not as much as I would have liked. I just needed rest. [Of course, there were all of those other energies on Monday.]

I had until 2000 last night to complete the jobs. There was a planned Safety Meeting at The Putter’s. The Professor was down off his mountain. He was up my way and offered to stop in but I wasn’t sure that he would be able to manage the steps in and out of The Dormitory, so i told him I would just see him down there. I decided that I would go to The Meeting and see how I felt afterwards.

After the meeting, my back was feeling a little tender. It was stil early enough in the day that I could go home and rest for a bit. Long story short - I didn’t do the gigs. I decided that I have what I need for right now and I just couldn’t risk the back problems. What’s interesting to me is that I hesitated taking them in the morning. There was something telling me not to, but practicality, responsibility (and fear) dominated and won.

As for Craze, he apparently had ear crystals. I had never heard of any such thing before. Nonetheless, they have done what they needed to do and he is home. I was with The Putter when he got the text update from Boom-Dee-Aye. That’s right, she texted The Putter and The Warden and everyone else, but still no word to me. I even got an update from Cuddlebug later in the night, but not from my mother nor my sister. The Warden texted me as soon as she had gotten word.

Anyway, I was sitting there when he read the text and I joked that dad was growing things in his ears because he didn’t want to have to hear the two of them anymore. The Putter kinda chuckled and made this face, “We can hear them in our house...in the winter.”

“Yeah, they’re loud,” I said.

He nodded agreement and added, “And, I’m hard of hearing so I can’t imagine what it’s like for The Warden.”

“Imagine what it’s like inside the house,” and shrugged.

They are both very loud, my mother in particular. Thy both bark and command and demand. They both need to be the most dominant force present. But, I suppose, that’s neither here nor there.

All in all yesterday was good. I felt blessed [for the most part.] There is something that doesn’t quite sit right with me, but I don’t really know what it is.

On Sunday, I wrote [I believe] that the Lesson was Notation. I have for a long time used the Principle Write it Out. Whatever it is, write it out and free it from your mind. Or, rather, free your mind from it.

Have a goal - write it out.

A hope, a dream, an aspiration - write it out.

Have something you’d like to work on, heal, within yourself - write it out.

To do lists, to get lists, lists, lists, lists - write it out.

It’s like decluttering the mind. I believe we hold thoughts better than we think we do. We remember more than we realize in most cases. The mind is constantly at work. If we take what thoughts we can and write them down, the mind becomes free to work on other things. I have even had times when I have written something out and within days I would have the thoughts I needed for whatever the next stage would be. I cleared the mind of one thought and allowed it to form the next.

Writing things out also makes them more real. It is a good way to manifest. I had it happen already this year, when I have written out my list of financial obligations [or woes as it were] and one by one I would see them get taken care of as needed.

Notations was a Lesson because I realized just how interval writing things out is to my productivity. I have so many things to keep track of and tend to that, if I really want to do this, I must keep lists. I have, or should have, lists for everything.

I have to do lists - To do for The Ministry, To Do for crafting, To Do for finances, To Do around The Dormitory.

I have to get lists - groceries, supplies, tools, etc. They span the breadth of all my activities as well - Ministry, Crafting, Personal, etc.

I keep a journal of my Daily Practices - A Spirit Journal. It is where I notate all of the things I was putting at the start of each post when The Experiment began - and more. I track the numbers and the planets and the weather and how I am feeling in all of my bodies. I track the experiences of my Practices - how they felt, how I felt afterwards, how strong were the energies and/or visualizations.

I have a ‘Calendar of Events’ to keep in mind.

And, this blog. This blog requires lots and lots of notes. It always has, and I have often be very weak in this area. Many times it is because I am someplace where I can’t make note of a thought - like driving - and then I lose it before I get to a place I can write it out. In fact, I have a whole list of things here in front of me that were forgotten along the way. Including - Notations.

I should have gotten into that on Sunday, but until I had a handle on the Lesson, the post was written and I was beat. I figured I could do it on Monday, but then Monday I forgot. Several of these things are things I wanted to make mention of already and forgot until the time came.

For instance, I recently came to the conclusion that, while I am at work, I need to use my Center. It will not only keep me centered but it would also bring support, in particularly to my back. I only became aware of this because of my Daily Devotions. When done properly and functioning right, the Devotions should find the practitioner in his/her Center. It is no different than a dancer in control of her movement. Or, an singer supporting his breath. It all comes from the same region. [And, once again, The ARTs overlap, teaching us things for daily use.]

I have found that I am more centered in my Devotions lately. It happens automatically. My body has remembered how to hold and support itself.

The last note I have here is from Monday. As I traveled about on Monday I took notice to some animals. I mean, I always do - animals, numbers, signs - my mind is always tracking and calculating these things. It is what I have learned. It is what I have experienced. It is what has led me this far. But, on Monday, I suddenly realized that this was more than a few random messages and energies. There was a connection. Spirit was building a Totem Pole. Again, I should have written them down immediately. I did not. But I do have a list here. I feel like I am missing one and there is one repeat. They are in order of appearance:

Falcon

Hawk

Deer

Hawk

Butterfly

I do not know to what they should be applied. Was it a message for the day? For the week? For the upcoming trek towards Beltane?

I do not know.

Nonetheless, there they are.

That is all I have for today, Fellow Travelers.

Peace and Blessings.