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Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true! 

WALT: Welcome to my Life is a Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Big 'D'

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, Sir Richard Slouch, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

 Looch

BJ & The Bull

Ace

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Wilson

Zason

St. Diane & You (4)

Brother John

The Bee Man

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

PDT

Fucker

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, October 26, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Jive. Time...Resetting

Theme – Ch-Ch-Changes

 The only thing constant is change. Life changes. We change jobs and homes. We change habits. Relationships change. I have seen a great deal of change over the past few months and I believe there are quite a few more on the horizon.

Lesson – The 'Why' Doesn't Matter

 When things happen in our lives - in particularly challenging things - we tend to ask 'why.' Why Lord? Why me? why now? The 'why' doesn't matter. We are so very disconnected from the 'why.' It's the other questions that are important. Who - who was involved, who moved you. What - what happened, what did you think or feel, what caught you're attention. Where- where were you. When - when in time did it happen or click. These are the things that will give you clarity and direction. 'Why' doesn't matter. [It might not even have anything to do with you.]

Observation – I Really Don't Function Like Other People

 Last Saturday is a perfect example. It's a moment that cannot be described properly. One would have to experience it to know. I have experienced it more than enough to know what it was. Or, the rounds of drinks. In my mind - not the best time for such things. But it is the deal that was made and I have been through to much to dismiss such a thing. I'm not focused on the same things. I am less concerned with what my life is and more with how I use the life I have.

The Post

 It has taken me all day to get to a writing point. I drove this morning. Then this afternoon I worked a last minute shift at one of the Seasonal Stores. [Boom-Boom asked for help...so I went.] In between, I have been slowly recovering from my last two weeks.

The tire debacle really threw everything off. It took up my whole day and forced me to move around all of my miscellaneous tasks into times that were not set aside for such. Then there were shows and shifts. There was the excursion from last Saturday plus two from this Saturday. [And something a lil extra on Friday.]

I'm recovering from a hectic schedule, the experience one has when a show closes, the New Moon and whatever bit of magick I was under for 8 days [or more.] Not to mention the heaviest run of alcohol consumption I've had since before the stroke. [I now remember why I don't drink a lot of whiskey.]

Today was a rough day. [Honestly, I'm still a bit off.]

But all so well worth it.

Let's see if I can recall [Just Enough] of the week, Fellow Travelers.

I lost some driving time this week. I was just not where I needed to be to get the job done. This has left me a little strapped - but not destitute. I had to make adjustments in the budget but there are still some funds offering wiggle room.

I've managed to get The Cave [mostly] under control. Everything is where it needs to be on the living side and is finding its way on the workshop side. I got windows cleaned - inside and out - finally. They technically could use another go but I am satisfied for now. I am slowly getting wood cut for the stove. Of course, I'm starting to use it almost as fast as I can cut it.

I have to videos to edit together. One from last week and one from this weekend. They are complex and involved so this could take a while.

Apparently, last Friday I missed my phone interview for renewing my benefits. I have been trying to get someone on the phone since then, but to no avail. My concern is the health coverage. I really can't afford to be without it. I will keep trying this week.

The show closed this week. This is a bittersweet thing. On one hand, I am glad to have the time requirement off my plate. It wasn't a lot of time but the when was slightly messing with my driving schedule. On the other hand, I will miss doing it. I will miss the cast.

I really came to love the whole group of them - as actors and as people. I want each of them in my life - in some capacity - for some time to come. I have never enjoyed a show or cast as much as I did this one.

As for the magicks - they leave me curious. Now that it is all said and done I can see they were deeper and more widespread than I had first [or even second] calculated. I knew there was one and she was a tough one to get to, but it seems it spread to almost all of them. I am so intrigued by how things played out - from last Saturday to this Saturday.

So last Saturday was 'The Night Out.' Only 3 other cast members came out that night. But, we had a good time and I enjoyed getting to know them better. I'm hoping I formed a bond with at least a couple of them. I also met 3 new people in the process. One of whom seems to be of particular interest.

I won't deny that I found myself very attracted to her. It was almost too comfortable of an attraction. However, that is something that could not and would not be. So there must be some other reason for her entry into my life. It is significant. Of this I am certain. I felt a definite shift in my life the next morning.

This makes it so much more interesting to me that I had done a full blown preparation ritual prior to leaving that night. I'm talking the kind of thing I do before seeing clients or entering a circle or sacred space. The kind of thing that lets you know Spirit is serious. So I'm curious. Very, very curious.

Of course, I kept my commitment to buy the first round. [And then some.]

This week there were cast gatherings twice on Saturday. The first was a little unexpected. They had decided they wanted to do something between shows. It was just a handful of us - 6 maybe. Of those 6 - I was 1, 3 had come out on Saturday. 2 of them were unable to go out that night. It was a nice time. I got to talk to with a cast member who I hadn't really had the chance previously. I got to know her better...and like her more. I got to connect a lil more with another cast member, whom I've kind of taken to. I like him. He's a good kid. Of course, I also got to share more time with the other 3 as well.

From there, I went back to The Cave to wait for the 2nd show to end. Then we gathered once more. A slightly different mix of people. # from the afternoon came - making 3 times I hung out with 1 of them. 3 new one joined us - including my dear friend Piz, who had been part of the show. And, there were 3 new friends.

I held true to my original deal with G-d. I still owed every cast member at that table a drink. 5 of them had not come out last weekend and 1 had not had a drink last weekend. [Not even water.] It was a harder bite to chew this time, and between the two times far exceeded my original budget for such shenanigans. But, it went down how it was supposed to go down - this week as well as last.

Of the new cast members joining this week, there was one of particular interest.

The one who has come to be known as My Dear Fucker.

This is the young woman I have mentioned previously. I have this particular and peculiar fondness and softness for her. I adore her. I do. Since my 2nd day of rehearsals I have felt this almost magnetic draw to her. I've been trying so hard to sort it out. All this time I just couldn't hone in on the vibe. I knew it wasn't attraction - though she is a very attractive young woman. But, I also knew that a pursuit of understanding the vibe and trying to establish a connection could very easily be interpreted as attraction. So I have been treading lightly.

Saturday night we finally got to really talk. We had chatted earlier about my total admiration for her talents and abilities on stage. I even turned her on to a show because I would love to cast her in the lead role. [That's how much I like her on stage. She made me want to direct again.]

But this was different. I learned that at just 22 she has already done some Questing. [Not that we used that term. But that's what it was.] We have had similar experiences. Her mission and Goals were very different than mine. Still, we traveled many of the same roads and passed through some of the same regions. We even spent time in a same town.

We are kindred spirits.

Our relationship shifted in the last week. In part - I forced that. What's interesting to me is that I become much more 'aggressive.' I started treating her as if I have known her forever. I started calling things as I saw them. I started speaking more blunt and to the point - just as I would to anyone I have known and respect.

The reason this is interesting to me is because it was only made possible through my encounter last Saturday. Meeting and spending time with [Nickname Needed] made me certain that what I was feeling for My Dear Fucker was not attraction. Mostly because what I was feeling for [Nickname Needed] was attraction. I was very well aware of that. THAT was attraction. I knew because it was a feeling I hadn't felt in a very long time. I can't say with any certainty that she was a Timestopper at any point. But then, it would have been hard to discern that. From the moment we clicked my whole night, my entire focus, was her. Even knowing it was something that would never develop, I just let myself feel it and experience it. I truly have not felt that way in such a very long time. So, I decided to let myself experience and enjoy it for whatevcer it was right that moment.

But what of My Dear Fucker. There is a definite degree of love I feel for her...but it's not attraction. So then what is it? I've decided that the best way to describe it is to say that I feel for her like I do The Princesses. I admire and respect her. I see such power and potential in her. I want to see her acheive the most and the best that she can.

I could adopt her.

I fully intend on pursuing a friendship with her and perhaps even a professional relationship. But there must be a momentary pause. There were a great number of magicks moving about this week and anyone touched by them must take a pause, step back, be away from me so that those energies can do their thing.

As for me...I don't know.

I need to survive my way through this upcoming week. The show is done. The Seasonal Store is coming to a close. I have 2 shifts left - one Monday and one Friday. Appointments and obligations are winding down to just 2 appointments on Wednesday mornings.

My life will be mine once more. I can just do what I do and dope along until it makes itself known to me. Of course, we are about to enter The Void of the year so I am not hopeful for much clarity until after Yule.

I am concerned about the winter and keeping warm in The Cave. I can tell already that a heater is not going to cut it. So I am going to have to rely heavily on the wood stove. That has problematic potential.

We will see.

In the meantime, I must get myself recuperated and toigether so that I can focus my energies and magicks on the Mystic/Salem trip. My finances and budget have not been ehat I was hoping in order to be prepared for the trip but there is time to bounce back.

I need to adjust my approach to the trip a bit - spiritually. I need this trip and it will be good for me. However, the trip is actually about The Princesses. My daughters have grown up and they have forgotten all about their adventures in Neverland. If I give them the time and space they need, Salem is the perfect place for those dreams to be dreamed once again.

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt. And there is the newer TikTok @WTML23

 I appreciate you all.

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak

Cat – Mystery, Magic, and Independence

Goddess Bast, Goddess Freyja, Goddess Shasthi. Study Mouse and Dog as well.

Dog – Faithfulness and Protection

Different dogs will mean different things. Examine the qualities of your breed and the individual dog. It takes a lot to break a dog’s spirit. It’s ability to love, even when abused, is tremendous. It’s spirit and willingness to love and to be a companion is great. What is this saying about your need for or lack of companionship? Are you being faithful? Are others around you? Are you showing unconditional love, or receiving it? Do you need to be more protective of your territory? Do you need to play a little more? Does your spirit need bolstering? How about those around you? Examine your territories. Dog knows its own home ground.

Eagle - Illumination of Spirit, Healing, and Creation. 

Balance of being of the Earth, but not in it. The soul, the spirit, and warmth of life. The resurrection. Punishment and reward. Greater sight and perception. Reflects an awakening ability or the need to learn to walk between worlds. Heroic nobility and divine spirit. The rediscovery of the inner child. Alchemy. Involvement with creativity. A willingness to experience extremes in a controlled condition. A willingness to use your passions to purify and to use your abilities, even if you get scorched a little in the process. The need to stay connected to and use things of the Earth. Important to know when to speak, how much, how strongly. New vision will open. The ability to hear - spiritually and physically - may also increase. Cooperative responsibility. A healing role. Opportunities (even those thought long lost) will arise - learn to see and snatch them up. A new sense of timing and movement will begin to develop Primal force inherent and easily awakened. Take on the responsibility and the power of becoming so much more than you now appear to be. Events will now fly faster, repercussions for everything you think, do and say (or fail to) - positive and negative - will be both stronger and quicker. A powerful new dimension to life and a heightened responsibility for your spiritual growth. Touch all of life with healing and become the mediator and the bearer of new creative forces within the world. 

Goose - The Call of the Quest and Travels to Legendary Places

A totem reflecting a stimulation of the childhood thrill and belief in stories and legendary places. These stories either reflected an imprint for this life or they may have even imprinted you with certain seed ideas. Also be a totem to aid you in communication especially through the use of stories. Individuals wishing to write - be it stories or anything - can facilitate this process by working with the goose as a totem. It will stimulate the imagination and help move you through creative blocks. Also a symbol of fertility and marital fidelity. It may reflect a need for more vegetables in the diet, and maybe even becoming a vegetarian for a while. It reflects an ability to move forward or backward. It reflects movement, and a call to the spiritual quest. Stirs our imagination and makes us want to seek out new worlds and dimensions. Calling us to follow them on the great spiritual quest. It speaks of the fulfilled promises that great quests bring. Epitomizes the mystery of migration. Reminds us that as any one individual mass his or her quest, it becomes easier for others to do so as well. Reminding us that we should not undertake any quest in life without having a full view of what it entails. In this way the journey is facilitated for others. Reflects an opening to new possibilities. New directions and new possibilities. Reflects an openness to new ideas. Usually indicates we are about to affix ourselves to a new path. Reflects great fertility that should be acted upon if growth is desired. Greater vision, physical and spiritual, will occur. Can reflect that you are about to break free of old childhood restraints and begin to come into your own. You can expect to have the imagination stirred towards new travels to distant places - whether in the body or mind. 

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill. 

Mouse - Attention to Detail. 

It is either time to pay attention to details, or an indication that you cannot see the forest for the trees. You may be getting so locked into details that you forget the big picture. Are you taking care of the trivial, yet necessary, things of life? Are you getting so lost in big dreams that you are neglecting other aspects of your life? Are you becoming so focused on one or two activities that you are neglecting other opportunities? Are you missing what is right in front of you? Is there something obvious that you are missing or need to focus on? Are you trying to do too many things at once and therefore scattering your energies? Mouse can show how to pay attention to detail; how to attain the big things by working on the little things. Lessons associated with attention. 

Squirrel – Activity and Preparedness

The gray squirrel is the most common and the most enthusiastic. If confronted the gray squirrel will usually run away and avoid any fight. Predominant predators are foxes and raptors such as hawk or owl. Two litters per year. On their own in 12 weeks. All squirrels can be quite sociable. Individuals with squirrel totem learn better by doing than studying. Squirrels are also quite communicative. Examine your own activity and preparedness. Are you too active? Not active enough? Are not planning at all for the future at all – distant or near? Are you becoming too erratic – running to and fro and not accomplishing anything? Do you need to learn how to save and ration on any level – money, time, energy, etc? Are you afraid you will never have enough? Are you too hung up on collecting and accumulating? Are you gathering and not giving? Squirrels can teach us the balance within the circle of gathering and giving out. Masters at preparing. Also reminders that in our quest for our goals, we should always make time to socialize and play.