Rainy Days & Mondays

Monday, January 27, 2020; 0510

It’s a strange day. I feel like I should be in panic mode, and yet I am not. 

I just learned yesterday that I have much less money than I thought I had. In fact, I have none. I have two weeks until my first paycheck and four weeks until my first full paycheck. I have a half of a tank of gas in the MattMobile and I should have Just Enough food for today. Beyond that, I have absolutely no idea how this plays out. 

I have put it out to my social media world. I have put faith in Spirit. I don’t really know what else I can do at this point except wait. It is totally possible that by the end of the week I am out of food and walking to work. Now, I may be able to get some meals at work. As long as they continue to be free. The moment I have to pay for one I am done. 

Speaking of work, technically, I am supposed to buy shoes and pants by Friday at the latest. 

This is a similar situation to what I found myself in with The Distributor. Except for having to buy the shoes and pants. I have two weeks to survive until my first pay. I have no money to get to that point and once I start my work schedule my time available for making extra money will be limited. 

And, even when that first pay comes, I am not out of the water. Automatically out of that check comes my support payment. [Yay!] My phone comes out the next day. Plus in that two week period, all of my subscriptions come due, totaling about $55. 

I really have no idea how I do this. 

Yesterday was a strange day as well. First, I had come to this realization about my financial situation. I didn’t ever once feel stressed about it. I just sort of acknowledged it and moved on. In fact, I was feeling very up all day. I was impish and playful. I giggled quite frequently. But, then, there were other energies in the air as well. 

Hoagie has been going through some stuff lately and, it seems, yesterday morning was all about trying to get him balanced out. We burned sage in rotation. Candles burned all day long. Plus, we burned through one whole cycle of Chakra Incense - from Root to Crown, in order. 

His energy went extremely wonky and out of control early in the day and we spent most of it trying to get it to mellow out. For the most part, I would say that was done. 

Beyond that, I focused on some crafting yesterday. I had a bunch of projects that were sitting around waiting to start painting. I usually gather like this for the first round of painting. The first round of painting is always a priming round. I like t get a good solid base coat of white on each project - occasionally black. It helps with the actual painting process. Not only does it allow the colors to go on smoother and in fuller coats, but it also helps them to be a bit more vivid. Not to mention, it makes it easier to see when you have missed a spot. 

So, that is pretty much my plan for today - to continue painting. Let’s see just how far I can get. I shouldn’t limit it to just painting though. I do have some other crafting I can work on - bottles to prepare, things to cut out, etc. 

As far as what I started working on yesterday, there are only a few sellable pieces. Most of what I was working on is personal little projects. I realize that probably doesn’t make sense. But, I am working project by project. I manifested what I needed to work on each of those projects. So, I figured it was best to get them moving. One of my missions right now is to not let things get all backed up the way they did at Old Geistopia. 

So, I work with what I have, when I have it. 

I may venture out to The Putter’s. It wouldn’t be the wisest choice, fiscally, but I do not know when I will get down that way again - between work schedules and lack of fuel. So, I may go down that way for just a little bit of R&R. Who knows? Maybe I will find a little bit of work/income along the way. 

There were so many more things I could leave talked about in yesterday’s post. Of course, I was distracted quite a bit with the work on Hoagie. For instance, I think it’s interesting how all the Numbers are coming into play all on their own. 

I mentioned, previously, that I won’t get my first full paycheck for another 4 weeks. 4 - the Number of Foundations and Building. That will also be Week 7 of The Experiment. 7 is a Number of Healing and a Minor Number of Completion. And, this is what I was trying to talk about yesterday. I can’t make that stuff happen. It happens all on its own. All I can do is notice and acknowledge. 

I’m still in my head about this email to Big ‘D.’ I feel more and more each day like it is imperative and important. But, again, I need to be as positive as possible. This is no easy task considering the situation. If nothing else, I need closure on it all. 

I have other things in my head that I believe I need to tend to as well. 

Well, that’s all there is for today. Overall, despite my situation, I feel good and positive. As always, Fellow Travelers, let us see how the road before us unfolds. 

Peace and Blessings.