The Dilly-Dally Daily

Friday, January 10, 2020; 0651

(01/10/2020=6)

Rise: 0724

Set:   1653

Full Moon in Cancer

Cold and Cloudy.

Had a lot of difficulty with my back yesterday. Was very uncomfortable by the time I got home. A little tender this morning. A little anxious but still teetering on peaceful. Performed Morning Devotion. I was definitely distracted and sped through it. 

Rune: Hagalaz 

Ok. Let’s start today by me admitting that I do not understand the number 6. It is the one number I just don’t seem to get a vibe on...and...it seems to come up at the most interesting and significant times. One reference I have equates it with home, family, and service. [Jealous and worrisome as negative aspects.] But, this is also in reference to working with Totems. I was reminded this morning that, when working with Totems, you can just look at the animal itself; you can count the number; You can incorporate the direction; You can consider the landscape. That’s what I would call the ‘hang-up’ of any Divination system. What you put into it is what you get out of it. (You Reap What You Sow.) For most of us a quick cursory glance is sufficient enough to put us at ease and set our convictions one way or another. However, if you really want to know what Spirit is trying to tell you then you must include all aspects and attributes. It becomes layers upon layers upon levels upon planes. The Qabalistic Tree of Life - never ending and eternally entwined. 

A book I once owned on Numerology equated 6 to the 2nd level of Creativity - it is the home of logic problems and other thought oriented creation and problem solving. But, that is on a Numerology Chart. 

Personally, I just can’t find the vibe. I have no experiences that I can find to connect the sixes of my life. 0 and 1 I get. I have experience The Void and The Emergence more times than I care to even think about counting. But 6 I just can’t find. Anymore, 6 comes up and I’m just like, “Oh here’s that number I don’t get,” and I give up immediately. I don’t even try to get it. Perhaps today I will try. 

I do not know what yesterday was. Youth it was definitely a potent and powerful day in its own way, it was not even close to what it was planned to be. And, this has left my life a little off-balance. It was like hitting unexpected rapids going down the river. I had a plan, I had a direction and everything was flowing smoothly and perfectly, and then….WTF!

The plan, yesterday, was to begin a 4-Day spackling project for The Professor. The first coat would go on yesterday and I would return today for the next step and so on. 

The day began fairly perfectly. I was right on time, even with all of my adjustments. I had planned on leaving between 0900 and 1000. I left at 1000 on the dot. I ended up doing more in the morning than I had planned. I realized that if I am going to be out on the road, in any way, making money, then I need to get my records in order. The app I had been using for mileage is going dark in a month. Plus, all of my financials were tracked with Quicken on my computer. The computer is down. I have no way of tracking income and expenses. So, I spent a good part of the morning downloading and testing apps. I still haven’t found the ideal, certainly not without paying a subscription fee. 

You may recall from yesterday that I had resolved to drive both routes - one up and one back - taking note of businesses and towns. The idea was to mark my way through things and then see if I could pick up some retail merchandising work along the way. That part of the plan worked and the next time I know I am going up that way I will have a peek at what is available. 

The next thing I realized, as I headed down the highway, was that I could use this as a Questing day. All that drive time had to be useful for something, right? I’m not sure when, exactly, I came to that realization. It may have been after the appearance of the 1st Totem. 

Oh yes there were definite totems along the way. Eventually, I was smart enough to even make physical note of them. There were also some messages, or Themes along the way. And, yes, there was plenty of thought and meditation. 

I don’t even know how to go about describing my day, really. Most of the Totems would appear on the trip out, with the final one appearing on the way home. [Along with quite a few repeats.] As soon as I recognized the Totem pattern, I knew I was on a Quest of some sort for certain. And, as I trekked onward in altitude, it dawned on me - When All Else Fails, Head for the Mountain. [And, just now, it dawned on me that yesterday would have been a 5 Day. Oh, 5, you devilish number.]

So, off I Quested, and that would be a Theme throughout the day. There was a particular billboard I would pass. Well, several of them, but all the same. The words on it were, “Look into the future.” Each time I passed by, and took notice to, one, it would be just before or just after a thought, or revelation. 

Isn’t it kind of funny? I mean, here I am without a clue as to what my future holds, or what I even want from it really, and I am being told to look into the future. Whatever Yule wasn’t broke me into many pieces on all levels and I am just trying to put it all together again. I don’t think it can be helped or hurried. Not by All the King’s Horses, nor All the King’s Men. This is going to be a process. It is not about just picking up and moving on. It is about moving ahead. 

I had thoughts about being on the road. I do enjoy it and I do find a great sense of peace in it. Whether I am traveling for pleasure, or any combination of business, I just like the experience of being on the road. I thought about all of these little towns I was passing through - some I knew, some I did not. But, each had its own personality, character and charm. Each has a story to tell, an experience to be had. I thought, “What if I dedicate part of my blogging to visiting these places .” I could visit and experience and dine and then share the stories and the pictures. 

Then I just thought about being on the road again. I don’t mind it. If this is something Spirit is asking of me, I am ok with it. I enjoy it. Again, whether I am Questing, or blogging, or visiting, or merchandising, or whatever...I enjoy it. So, if this is what Spirit is asking of me is it so bad? No. But, then, is it too much to ask Spirit to help me get into a vehicle more conducive for such? One that may be a little newer, a little more reliable. One that perhaps I do not have to worry about whether it will start again when I stop for gas? Maybe even one that is a little more modern in its technology, making life on the road a little safer and easier?

Now, I want to back up a second. These thoughts came somewhere later in the morning trek. I can’t tell you which roads I was on anymore. Before that were the Totems. The first four all came on the initial stretch of highway. The Eagle was first. And, then the Hawk, with a repeat of the Eagle. [That would actually happen throughout the day. The Eagle and The Hawk were abundant in their appearances.] After the reappearance would be the Vulture and the Cardinal. It was the Cardinal that made me decide maybe I should write it down. There was a Theme developing - all birds, creatures of the Air. That would change and the next three would all be mammals, creatures of the Earth. 

So, the first four appear and as I head up the mountain I am struck with these thoughts. I had plenty of other thoughts yesterday, but many of them I do not know if they came before or after my visit with The Professor. 

For instance, I thought about a home. I would like a home from which I can fully function. I have definitely stepped up through Hoagie’s kindness, but at the same time I am not reaching peak productivity. I am limited and restricted by the living arrangements. This is not a complaint, nor anyone’s fault. It is just what it is. But, I do not know how i get to a home, so I let that thought fade. 

I thought about how I would really like to continue and solidify traditions with my daughters this year. I’m all about traditions. But, our living circumstances for years has made solidifying traditions difficult. For example, there is a faerie festival we grew fond of. There have been years we could go and years we could not. I would like to go this year. I would like to go for two days and enjoy it. I would like to go this year and every year until they are old enough and deciding to do their own things. 

There is also a semi-famous Halloween parade in the area. This has been the same situation. There have been years we could go and years we could not. I would like to continue going while we can. 

I would really like to establish some holiday traditions with the girls. Traditions that belong to us. For instance, our Christmas Eve Homemade Hot Chocolate. I really missed that this past season.

So, I get to The Professor’s and nothing is actually ready for me to work. It seems there has been a glitch and we are holding for right now. This throws so many wrenches into the system. Everything was aligned so perfectly - I had the time to work and I had the money to invest in the gas until the job was done. Now, I would have to readjust both time and money. Not to mention, I made a drive for nothing - both wasted time and money. 

Needless to say, I wasn’t very happy. Nor was I surprised. If for no other reason, another thought on my drive was how I am afraid to feel comfortable and relaxed because I am just waiting for something to go wrong. It’s been too good for too long now. [And, it hasn’t been long at all.] But, I voiced my concerns and feelings on the matter and we moved on. 

Nonetheless, I stayed and unt out and socialized. I shared my lunch and then I started my way back. In the end, I did manifest Just Enough to top off my tank and set me back to where I had begun the day. 

Now, and I apologize that my thoughts are truly so scattered, before I arrived at The Professors I would come across the Deer [Buck, in particular] and the Groundhog, which came with a message - “Ready to be blown away.” This would actually repeat itself later while visiting with the Professor. 

On the way home to The Dormitory I had a [not-so] random thought, “What would you do with a million dollars?”

I decided to venture down that path and amuse my mind with it. After all, please keep in mind, the Theme for a long time has been ‘SNAP...it all changes.’

Well, I thought, first, half of that goes to the government. Then, there is an agreement, a deal, a contract from many, many moons ago that would require 10% of that million. I figure I’m down to about $400,000 at this point, right? 

Now, I woudn’t feel right if I did actually come into that kind of money and I didn’t tithe 10% back. So, I would have to find ways to contribute another 10% of that million. 

I would want to clean the slate with my parents. That has always been a goal. So, I think a fair amount is just about another 10%.

I would want to take care of my daughters. I’d want too know that they have a cushion in their lives. I would take another 10% and split it into equal accounts/investments for them. 

This would leave 10% of the original million for me. I would get myself the perfect vehicle - perfect for doing the job and perfect for being on the road. Perfect for me and perfect for my family.  I figure this could potentially take up to half of that last 10%. [And, yes I’m being serious. WhenI say I want a right vehicle, I want a right vehicle. The Right Tool for The Right Job. No skimping.] 

So, what would become of that last bit of funds? I think I would ask to have the girls for the summer and just completely dedicate those months to spending time with them and taking them on quests and adventures - both large and small. Some even right from the comfort of home. 

Still, as I type all of this out, I have another thought on what I would do with a million dollars. One that is a little more selfish, but also ‘looks into the future.’

The drive home was about as expected. I know this particular route well. I drove it many times to visit Encyclopedia in Hazleton. And, Jim Thorpe is along the way. So, I was relaxed and more at home on this leg of the journey. I knew where I would get hung up and I knew where I wanted to stop. The same little convenience store I stop at every time, whether I actually need to or not. There’s just something about it I appreciate. 

It was on the way home, and before my next thoughts, that the final Totem - Bear [Black, in particular] - would appear. He would not come alone though. He was heralded by the Ram. When I took notice to the Ram I recognized that he was not a main Totem, but it reminded me that there was one left. Of course, I can always apply the Rule of Plus One to the mix. The Angelic star has 8 points - one for each of the 7 archangels and one for G-d. It is no different than the Pentagram which has one point for each direction/element and one for Spirit. In fact. In the Chinese/Feng Shui version, I’m pretty sure Spirit is listed among the elements. 

So, perhaps the Ram comes by way of 8 - infinity, abundance and Divinity. 

I was back in familiar territory when I would have the next thoughts. For all intents and purposes I was off the mountain as I was going to get. 

I had thoughts of The Rabbit Hole. I told you, Fellow Travelers, I cannot escape it. 

I spotted two properties near the end of my drive - both available, both on an extremely heavy traffic road, a commuter road, a corroded road, and both offering pros and cons. 

The first was a building, on a corner. It is for lease/sale as store/office. Based on its construction I would say it was a general store or hotel of some sort at some point in its history. It has the right structure and location for such. It has the right facade. It presents the perfect tone and would be very workable. I do not know what is on the upper floors - if it is apartments or just more office/retail space. I do not know what parking would be like. But, again, it is a heavily traveled road and it is a ‘you can’t miss it’ kind of building. It is just right there in your face. 

A little further down the road I would pass a larger property for sale. It had been a farm at one point. I’m not sure how much of the farm is still attached. Nonetheless, there was acreage available. I did not take notice to how much. What caught my eye is that the house and barn are included. They both sit right up on the road. 

For me, this is the ideal location for The Rabbit Hole. For all of my searching, I don’t think I have ever come across something so perfect. The barn could be transformed into the business and I could live in the home. Truth is, part of the home could probably go towards the business as well. I don’t really require a lot of space. But, the idea has always been to try to live on premises. It just makes it all so much easier. That is one of the things I always liked about the storefront in Jim Thorpe. OIt has an apartment upstairs. But, with the crazy hours I tend to keep, having home and business on the same property would be very good for me. Especially if we are going to do things like make our own baked goods and desserts. I could easily be up at 0500 doing that. Hell, I could possibly be up at 0200-0300 doing that. 

So, this would take care of the business and a home. The business would have incredible exposure. Then there is the property. For both The Rabbit Hole and a home I have always wanted a property with which I could play. I want to create words of experience for people. So this is a two-for. 

So, maybe I would do that with a million dollars. I have the plan in my mind and I do not doubt the vision. The Rabbit Hole will succeed. I have enough information and resources available to get the job done. What I have never had is the funding. Nor have I ever been able to find a partner who did. 

So, this was my day. All sorts of spiritual and at the same time sending me a bit off course. If it’s not bad enough that this project is delayed, my Tarot Client moved her appointment back to Wednesday. This isn’t so much of a problem, except Wednesday is when the next bill is due and I am not sure that my funds will stretch that far. 

I’m not panicking though. I’m not worrying. I’m not stressing. So far, since this process began, everything has fallen into place perfectly - with very little effort on my part. All I have really done each day is show up and do my best to get through it. I can’t tell you how hard that actually is for me right now. I know I am healing because I can feel it on all levels.

But, like any other rehabilitation, no matter how good I am feeling there are always limitations. 

My adjustment for today is to go check out a new metaphysical store that opened up around the bend. Someone tagged me with it yesterday and I realized I couldn’t go until next week. Now I can. 

So, I am going to step away from the writing, make myself some breakfast and settle in to whatever is next in this day. 

I am going to save ‘analysis’ of the Totems until Sunday. 

Peace and Blessings, Fellow Travelers.