Truth Be Told

Truth be told, I don't know what I'm writing this week. Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true! 

WALT: Welcome to my Life is a Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Big 'D'

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, Sir Richard Slouch, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

 Looch

BJ & The Bull

Ace

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Wilson

Zason

Mysteria

Lydia the Tattooed Lady

The Drunken Maid

St. Diane & You (4)

Brother John

The Bee Man

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

PDT

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, January 18, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Fix. Time...Drifting.

The Post

Truth be told, I don't know what I'm writing this week. I'm not sure if I know how to write this week. I'm sitting here in an attempt to remain committed to the life I've been given. WTML is, no doubt, a part of that. No matter how much time passes between posts, I always come back to it. No matter how many times I've "set the pen down" and walked away I never stop thinking about it. It's ingrained in me at this point. I think in terms of Lessons, and Principles, and Themes, and so on. I always notice Totems. I consistently find threads connecting the life I am living and the life I wrote.

Truth be told...It's quite annoying.

Truth be told, I'm frustrated with it all. I've been doing it for so long now and I'm not sure there is an actual purpose - for the audience or me. I just don't get it anymore. I believed once there was a point, a purpose. Somehow it was serving the greater good. My little piece of the puzzle. Perhaps it has all been just a big waste of time and energy - mine...and yours, Fellow Travelers.

Truth be told...that's how I am feeling about most of my life at this moment.

Right This Moment, it all seems such a waste of time and energy. The waste of a perfectly good flesh suit.

What have I done? Really? What?

What have I accomplished other than a lifetime of failures? Jobs, hobbies, business ventures, fatherhood, having a home. It all failed.

No matter how hard I've tried, what approach I've taken - mentally, emotionally, spiritually, or physically - no matter how much I think I am loving and nurturing something...I just straight up fail.

I don't know how to feel about any of that.

I don't know how to feel about me.

Truth be told, I am so very lost right now.

I did not deem this The Year of No Thing for some greater spiritual purpose. I didn't really have a choice. I have lost everything I was loving and working for - all of it...gone. My daughters, The Homestead...even driving and crafting have become great struggles.

So, I have no direction. I don't know what to focus on or try for. Everything about my existence has become so limited and challenging. My living conditions. My income. My body. I have no hopes nor dreams. I see no future.

Truth be told...I am a lie.

Do not believe anything you see or hear, Fellow Travelers. I will tell you I am OK. But inside I am a torrential mess. I will bounce into the room and spread my joy then sit in solitude and ache. I may look lively but I am merely an empty shell.

Hence, The Year of No Thing.

I am simply adrift. I have become like space trash hurling aimlessly through the vastness without a gravitational pull.

Truth be told, I'm OK with this. It Is What It Is...and it's all good. For all of it's challenges to the Ego, it's rather liberating. It is almost the Pinnacle of Spiritual Practice. I truly have no life, no moment, beyond this one right now.

and now this one.

and this.

And so my days go. On an on just like that. Moment by moment until the sun sets and rises again.

 If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt. And there is the newer TikTok @WTML23

I appreciate you all.

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak Pocket Guide

Lynx (Hidden Revealed) - Trust in what you see and feel might be hidden. Perceptions are amazingly strong. Keep confidences and secrets to avoid problems.

Raccoon [R] (Disguise) - Transformation comes from putting on a proper mask. Masking is going on - for good or for bad. Disguising intentions may be necessary.

Cardinal (Renewed Importance) - Accept your life's importance. Accept yourself as a source of light and do not be afraid to conduct yourself accordingly.

Wolf (Guidance) - Though not apparent yet, change is occurring. Trust in self to find your path. Take control. Protection surrounds you in journeys.

Owl (Spirits) - Spirits are strong around you. Attend to dreams and to heightened senses. It's up to you to act on that guidance.

Duck (Emotions Soothed) - Seek out emotional comfort and protection. Stay in comfortable environment. Difficulties will be easily handled.

Bear (Inner Voice) - Inner potentials are awakening. Trust your own unique rhythms - not those of others. This will bring the honey you seek.

Moose (New Power) - New birth of power is coming. Invitation to deepen awareness approaches. A unique and sacred energy is being awakened.