A Pause for Station Identification

Saturday, October 6, 2018

10:19 PM

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life - where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I'm Freedom, and I'll be you host - coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

Welcome to my life is a project an experiment in life and ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise is that you can, and do, experience the life you choose. It is based on the use of The Wheel of Life and The ARTs for The New Millennium as life building tools.

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It is Saturday, October 6, 2018. Time…Current.

I thought I would take a brief pause from our current trip into the past and see how it relates or feeds into now. Since the start of this run of posts, several times, I have mentioned that three years ago was a significant timeframe. I have never known, nor understood why.

In true WTML, living storyboard, fashion I am reading these entries just prior to posting them for you. So, I really am just along for the ride on this one. The Proxperiment was an attempt to move life forward.

Here is what I know of three years ago, before we started reading. It was a time of change. That was the June of 'The Cave-In.' That September something would shift. I went through a very rough period right around Sunshine's birthday that year. That was the year of The last set of videos, including Moments of Freedom. It is in Moments of Freedom that I make the statement that I "will have great debt to repay." It was three years ago that I really started talking about having to 'break my habits.' And, finally, sometime between then and a moment prior to now is when the chicken foot would show up on my door. In the spring, which would be the spring three years prior to this coming spring, I would begin to focus on a better future - something more. [But, unsure of the path there.]

Here is what I know of now. I am still talking about breaking all of those habits. The Cave has been re-forged into something better. (Something…more.) I have begun a new series of videos - which is very similar in fashion and theme as Moments of Freedom. I am still looking towards a future. The image has changed a bit, but the future is still better…and more. I am [almost] (partially) living it. I find myself reveling in gratitude - even for the things that bring me frustration. I am accepting The Nothingness of Self. I continue to recover from my time with The Daemon and I still have flashing moments of depression when The End could be just a click away.

I was intrigued when this series of flashback entries began. It seemed from the writing that everything was going good. At that time I obviously believed change was inevitable…and close. That's not a surprise. I get that feeling often. I've had it recently. I can say that changes and shifts haven't happened. But, they seemingly have never been the ones I feel I need and want. I find it to be no different this time around…so far.

What has me curious is that if everything was going so good then what happened? What changed? What shifts in course occurred to find me, not only missing the mark then but, where I am now? Or which didn't happen? This seems to have become part of my pattern or 'The Cycle.' Things start looking up. I start feeling good about the direction of life and then…nothing. I don't think I've really felt that way since that time three years ago. Not until recently anyway.

The lottery thing amused me. It read very different than it was ever intended. (Kind of.) Don't get me wrong. I'd be more than happy to score a jackpot. Who wouldn't? But that wasn't really the moral of the story. Since the beginning, the real change has always been visualized as…sort of a Big Bang, I suppose. All I have know from day the first is that one day it is all very different. And, it has always been seen as just sort of happening. Almost like waking up into it one morning. I've never quite understood it myself. But, whenever the message comes that is how it comes. It is just, "One day it will all be very different." POP! So, from time to time, I use the lottery to reaffirm the notion.

Truly, it is the only way that I can think of that it all 'just changes.' I imagine there must be other ways, and I'd like to believe that I am still on the path to them. Somedays, one just has to wonder though. It's why I never questioned the Reader in The Wildwoods when she said there would be a large influx of money. Of course, she did also say that she didn't see it as the lottery, but that there would be contracts signed. It hasn't come and I still haven't given up faith.

So, now we will return to the 'Flashback' posts. The nest one is a little odd. It is merely a series of entries from a day of working. At first glance, there is nothing overtly important or even relevant to them. Yet, they are there. It has been my Observation that when that happens there is actual relevance….somewhere. Not too long after that post, time will jump ahead to March, 2016. There are a lot of entries from that day until the end, which appears to be April 29, 2016.

So, I guess I'll see you on the flipside, Faithful Readers.