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Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

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The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Warden

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

The Looch

The Bassett Hound

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

Zason

St. Diane & You

Brother John

Spooky Queen

Senoll #5

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Dick Pointer

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Belle

The Witch Baby

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It is…Sunday, March, 14, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Fun. Time...Absorbing

Theme – A Man with the Faith of a Mustard Seed Can Move a Mountain

I really can’t say too much about this. The thought came to me several times over the course of the week. Anything is Possible and Nothing is as it Seems. I guess it all depends on how much Faith you truly have. “Do you believe it can be done?”

Lesson – You Can’t Chase the Money

This was a Theme from last week, rolled over into a Lesson this week. You would think it is one I would have learned by now. This is something The Pillar has said to me often, “You’re chasing the money too hard.” It’s true. I do it all he time. I ‘feel’ like I always ‘need’ it and I can’t really make enough to get where I want to be. So, I push and I push – taking every opportunity I can – to make it. [to no avail.] The last two weeks are perfect examples of this. I came back to The Valley chasing the money I needed to get caught up and put myself back on track. Still, for all my stress and worry and trying I have not been able to get where I want to be. While I am running myself in circles and driving myself into the ground chasing money that can’t be had, perhaps G-d has something else waiting for me.

Observation – I Live a Simple Life, but My Life is not Simple

I do have a fairly simple life in regards to the day to day goings-on. I go to work or I sit in the Vantasm. On the surface that may seem fairly cut and dry – not a whole lot going on. Yet, underneath that very shallow surface there is a multitude of things going on. First of all, the basics are not so basic. I live in a van. Yet, I still need to…go to the bathroom, take showers, do laundry. All of these things take timing and planning. It’s never as simple as just doing it. To take a shower I need to get to the gym. This usually happens between 4 and 6 AM sometime so that I can get to work. Laundry happens at varying times on different days – dictated by need. The restroom is a whole other thing. Let’s just say that I get where I need to be and take care of business when I need to…but I usually have to drive there first. Then I have life to manage – bills, appointments, etc. Everything must be done on my phone which is possible but not as convenient as one might think. Even taking the Vantasm to the garage is a challenge because they have to work on it while I wait. I have no place else to go and no way to get there. Anytime I want to see the girls or move metal I need to unload and reload the Vantasm repeatedly. If I need a tool or a book or paperwork – such as last year’s taxes – I need to make time to go to The Cave and literally dig it out. I also need to call ahead to make sure it is unlocked. For most of what I do I am limited by daylight. Even something simple like going to the bank has its issues. I can deposit money in one of two ways – mobile deposit a check or drive almost an hour one way to the nearest branch to make a deposit. [I work for cash.] On top of it all, I seem to be on an eternal Quest from G-d. My never-ending friggin’ story. So, yes, I live a simple life – van to work and back to van again – but my life is in no way, shape, or form simple.

The Post

This is my first real week back in The Valley. This was the first full week of work and activity. Last week, though I was home all week, didn’t have a lot to it. I worked some and took care of some things. But, there was a whole lot of nothingness as well. Or, at least, nothing I can remember.

Despite working 6 days and 8 shifts this week, I am still not winning the financial fight. I am making progress but it is certainly very very slow considering how far I need to go at the moment. Now, there will be a stimulus payment and someone I know has received hers already. So, once that comes the stress of it all clears a little bit. But, that won’t cover everything and there will still be some distance to cover. Still, there are little accomplishments. As soon as I was working again, I re-instituted my 10% fund. After that first week, I used it to put The Special Fund back in order. I later decided that this wasn’t necessary.

I had looked at it from a more agricultural viewpoint. I have done The Special Fund for at least 3 cycles. That is 3 sets of [about] 3 months. It has worked in my opinion. Not only have I been able to use that fund for things like time with the girls, but it has been an abundant time. I would say the ground is certainly fertile. Yet, when you have a fertile plot, you cannot continuously plant over and over again. You must give that soil time to rejuvenate. It needs a break in order to become rich and fertile once more. So, I think it is time to let The Special Fund sit for a ‘season.’ This week I am putting the 10% Fund towards a deposit in the bank. I need to get some money in there by the end of the day tomorrow. This is one of the reasons I have been allowing myself to work the heavy schedule. It gives me very little time off in between income. So, for instance, tomorrow after work I only need whatever I am going to spend between then and my shift on Tuesday afternoon. That means I can deposit all other cash and get myself a decent little foothold until paychecks and stimulus checks start rolling in. I have to get current with my car insurance and I am still behind that one payment for The Vantasm. Plus, a host of other things here and there that will need to be caught up and straightened out. But, I am just going to keep on keeping on until I get it all balanced.

I’ve also managed to gather change. I like change. It is money not had that has never been spent. We very often treat change as if it’s not there. We toss it aside and let it sit while more gathers. So, it is money not had. Yet, it has not been spent, for right there it is. So, I like when it gathers because then one day it will become money that I had that can be spent. Also, I like when I don’t have to break bills in order to do laundry or vacuum the Vantasm. I have now done two weeks of laundry and vacuumed once and not broken a single bill to do it. [It’s the simple and silly things that satisfy my spirit.]

The Diner has me on again this week 6 days and 8 shifts. I will have to see how this week plays out and how I am feeling at the end of it. This past week was very chaotic and unexpected in so many ways. Monday and Tuesday I lost my afternoons to unexpected events and tending. Thursday afternoon and evening were planned but I never expected those plans to stretch into an 8 hour venture. At this point, I do not have so much of that in the week ahead. I have work scheduled and whatever tasks, etc. that I can squeeze in between. That could make it all a little easier on me, because this past week sucked. It was just very hard on me on all levels and I was definitely a miserable person by Friday night.

This could be my last week for working a schedule like that. I may stretch it into one more week but it is not something I can continue doing long term. I know The Diner is not going to care for that very much and it is a conversation I am not looking forward to having. But, it really does hurt me on all levels. Physically it is just too draining and I just don’t have the proper means of recuperation. [What with living in The Vantasm and all.] Then it starts to wear on all three of the subtler levels. My defenses become weaker and more scattered as my body and my mind get tired. Soon, everyone’s negativity starts to weigh on me. It is a natural process. It happens all the time. But again, I do not have the proper environment to really deal with that.

But, also, I have a life to which I need to tend and that is not happening on this schedule. Like I said, I may see a difference in that this coming week, but I may not see enough of a difference. The Cave is a disaster area. Things are jam packed and tossed about. I can barely get into it, let alone function out of it. I do not yet know how I am going to approach this project. I can’t move anything around without moving it someplace else and I have no place to move it at the moment. It may come down to me finding a small storage unit that I can rent for a few months. If I can get about a good quarter of the stuff out I should be able to move around enough to make it all work and eventually get that stuff back in. [After a good clean out, of course.] I also do not know how I want to handle the stuff. I still have all of my tools and supplies, but there really is no current vision of me being able to raft again anytime soon, if ever. So, maybe it is time to just let them all go. That’s a hard call to make. Kind of sad as well.

Beyond all of that, I do have bigger things to consider. Two things came to the surface in New Orleans. First, I said that I needed to get back into some heavier spirituality. Second, the reader mentioned working with the Angels. I enjoy both of these things. I do. They bring me great joy. They can skew reality a little bit but they fill the soul immensely. However, they both take a lot – a lot of time, a lot of energy, a lot of space. None of which do I have currently. There are ways to work on minor levels and get by for a while. Still, even those will take a lot out of me. These are not simple magicks that I am being asked to work with and they do take their toll on the body and soul.

Monday was an interesting, but challenging day. I was scheduled to serve at The Diner, but instead spent all but one hour of my shift running the Young Owner around. I was taken care of financially and that’s not really the point to the matter. It was one of those unexpected moments that really threw my week off. In order to run him around I needed to empty the front seat. [Something I had planned but had not yet done.] But, also, I needed to make room for everything we bought at the restaurant supply store. My life was literally turned upside down until after my shift on Tuesday. I didn’t have time to fix it on Monday because after my shift I spent two hours running the Older Owner around for two hours trying to get his tire fixed. So I was not able to change clothes or find anything. I wasn’t able to get out of the front seat except to leave the Vantasm.

Tuesday I pulled everything out and started fresh. This is when I added the air mattress. Much to my dismay that meant taking it all out again and deflating the mattress for Thursday’s dinner. [Which, in turn, meant, I had to put it all back when we were done on Thursday.] I think the pulling out and rearranging is done for the time being.

The interesting part to Monday is that it was marked – twice. I recently told of the two rides not given along the Tour. I commented that this told me I needed to make room for a passenger because the next person to ask is the person I need to take. The Young Owner was the next person to ask. But also, on Sunday I had received one of the infamous, “Tomorrow” whispers. I can’t tell you what was significant to it all but it happened. It was frustrating and unexpected, but I managed through it all.

Also, somewhere between Sunday and Wednesday I received a ‘3-Week’ Marker. I don’t what that means. [I never really do until it’s finished.] At this point, based on what I do know and the trend I see developing, I am working under the understanding that in 3 weeks I will have myself a little more financially grounded and some of the work completed on The Vantasm. All Just Enough to get the job done and place a foundation for whatever is next.

Thursday was a dinner with The Princesses. This was, without a doubt, the highlight of my week. I cannot speak for them but I have such a good time when we are together. We have casual chats and serious talks. We vent and we dream and we plan. And…we laugh. My lord, do we laugh. I thought they were going to have to have to ask us to leave the restaurant. I even offered to move to the farthest corner away from others. We were very fired up.

After I picked them up, on the drive to the restaurant, we talked about some of the revelations of New Orleans. I asked them how they’d feel if on one of these trips I decided that I wasn’t coming back. They were both ok with it as long as they could visit and I lived someplace cool. On the way back to their house we would chat once more about the possibility of me moving. What I learned through the course of the night is that I cannot move until they are out of school and onto whatever the next part of their lives may be. Their time with me is their release and their expression. They need that. We all do. I may not be able to give much of it to them at the moment, but I can give what I can when I can. And I can give more being here than I could being someplace else. In fact, at one point during dinner, I found myself looking up and telling G-d, “see, this is why I need a place.”

I had a few interesting moments this week. One of the nights, parked at The Diner I awoke in that dreaded hour between 3 and 4. I do not know how long I had been sitting there awake. Suddenly, from the right came 4 deer. They were flying and all I cold think was that something spooked them. This is not surprising considering the things that roam at that time. Within 10-15 minutes it happened again. 4 deer from the same direction all at full running speed.

I don’t know exactly what to make of this but I thought of it later in the week during a conversation with Belle. She was commenting to me that she felt like there was a shift coming. She mentioned that she had been having more and more synchronistic events – to the point that [I guess] she wondered if she was imagining things. I assured her that she was not imagining anything. There is a definite shift afoot. I do not know much about it, except that it seems very potent and powerful. I do not know what area of life it impacts, nor do I know if it is a simple personal shift or something more Universal. One of the synchronicity examples she gave was that one day while driving she had these two moments. In both of them, first she felt as if something was going to jump out at her. Then moments later some deer would cross her path. This is what made me think of my 2 sets of deer. [The gentle alluring to new adventure.] For her, it is interesting because she was able to sense it before it happened. But also, because deer as a totem is significant for her.

Belle’s experiences were magnified for me, when later in the week I would hear from another friend. Now, it is interesting to note that I treasure both Belle and my friend deeply. I respect and admire who they are as people. But, they are very different people. Belle is very into the whacky-woo-woo. She had personal experiences [some of which I was around for] that shifted her perception of things. My friend, however, refers to himself as a non-believer. I do not know exactly what he means by this. Is it G-d he doesn’t believe in? Or Spirit? Or energies and Magick? Or Synchronicity?

Or, maybe, it is all of it.

Nonetheless, he too had had some interesting experiences. He called them ‘dumb, little moments’ I believe. I found them to be so much bigger than that. In one, he had a thought about an item that hasn’t been selling. Feeling it should be selling better, he moved it to a new spot on the floor. He almost immediately received an online order for two of them. I see this as simple validation. The sales, though unrelated to the physical act of moving the item, were a way to validate that his notion was correct.

In the second, he was to have a meeting with a vendor to discuss…I guess you could say – better service, cheaper prices. [The two cores to every meeting.] Anyway, he had come up with some ideas to present to the vendor. When they sat at the meeting the vendor began describing his own plans – which were identical to what my friend had devised. In fact, he said they were word for word.

In the third, He decided to look into the history of his company a little deeper. Most especially, the previous incarnation. Next thing he knows, at a meeting, someone suggests a theme night based on the previous incarnation.

Mere coincidence, my friend said. All just coincidence.

Perhaps.

Yesterday was an odd day for me. It was my day off this week [And apparently next as well…which actually means 7 days, 9 shifts before a day off.] I had so much I wanted to do. I needed to do laundry. I needed to wash and clean out the Vantasm. This was no easy task and took up the greater part of my day. I had to completely empty it and then come back later and load it back up – one puzzle piece at a time.

I have changed my load significantly. First, I have put my air mattress in the back. This is great for sleeping and even afternoon naps like I had today. But, it is not much for functionality. Eventually, the comfort will need to be sacrificed again. I have also gone down to more of a bare minimum. I have my work clothes and my gym clothes. I have my other bag of clothes, but even that has been reduced in size. I have my daily needs and my paperwork and such. I have removed pretty much everything else. I also have a small container with food and a small cooler for drinks. I figured progress in my life is currently moving at a snail’s pace anyway, so perhaps I should just carry with me what I need for the moment and take it from there. I should have enough to keep me occupied and entertained until at least Thursday.

I had the strangest of vibes yesterday. Suddenly, and out of nowhere, I was feeling as if all of this is soon coming to an end. (Sooner than you may think.) But I just felt this momentary flash of it all being lifted – the life of living in The Vantasm.

I do not know what that means. However, I know it makes a bit of sense. The simple fact of the matter is that I cannot continue on like this. It is becoming almost counter-productive. This is all good and well in and of itself, however, as I stated, Spirit has put a quite a lot on my plate. I cannot do the works I am being asked to do if I am living like this. So, something must shift.

Interestingly enough…and I offer, nor encourage, any attachment one way or another to the matter…yesterday, I also learned of a home that will be coming up for sale or rent – sooner rather than later. Now it is easy to shrug this off. After all, I certainly do not have the financial resources to do either at this moment. But, we are talking about G-d. What do I know? I am not saying that I think this could be the place, though, it would certainly be the perfect place at this time.

It has 3 bedrooms and a full bath upstairs. 3 bedrooms is perfect. One for each of the girls and I haven’t had an actual bedroom in over a decade. Downstairs there is an eat-in kitchen, complete with a breakfast bar. There is a powder room off the kitchen as well as, I believe a laundry room off the back. There is a nice sized living room. It is cozy and comfortable and good for certain social occasions. But, there is also a family room off the other side of the kitchen. It is more ideal for movie nights and game consoles and general chillin out. The living room, for me, would be more of a place to see clients. Especially since they could enter through the front door and I could still have the kitchen door for family and friends to use. Off the back of the family room is a small office. I need an office. I want an office. I want a place to keep all of my work separate from my life. At Olde Geistopia my office was in the family room where everyone passed through. Or, I had office stuff at various times in The Cave with me. But never it’s own space. This would also be suitable to re-imagine the JustUs Productions Studio.

The attic has been finished into two separate rooms.

Off the outside of the family room, through the sliding glass door, is a quaint and charming fenced in patio. The patio lets off into a fenced off garden which includes a firepit and a pond/waterfall. The perfect Zen. There are three outbuildings. A shed for garden and outdoor purposes – such as riding mowers, etc. A storage shed for a multitude of uses. And, a prime workshop.

This place is exactly what I would create if I had a place.

But also, I am familiar with the property and its spirits. This means that there would be no testing grounds between us. I know the spirits and their energies and they know me. We can already work together without first having to become familiar. But, also – spiritually speaking – this location is perfect for doing the works I am being asked to do. It sits on a wellspring of magick.

It is my Fillory.

[Also, this property yearns to be reunited with her sisters and my presence there would actually be the first step in that possibly happening.]

I am not saying that tides will turn miraculously in my favor and I will find myself moving there. I mean, it is possible. Anything is possible. [And nothing is as it seems.] But, the timing is interesting. Coincidental, to say the least. All of these pieces coming together – all of this information coming to light – all somewhat related. All timed so close together.

No. It may or may not be an omen that this is the place I find myself. But I would say that it is certainly validation that before too long I am going to find myself someplace. A new life encroaches. It may be abundant but it will bring with it much responsibility. It will require my discipline and focus.

WALT: There ya go, rubbin’ Johnny’s balls again.

JOHNNY: Aw Reverend, you know just what I like.

You’ve corrupted him.

WALT: Maybe a little. We’ve had a lot of down time.

Anyway…I can’t really say I know anything, nor have I ‘seen’ anything. But here is what I have come to currently understand, what I am vibing on –

There is something about 3 weeks. This could be anything in any arema – large or small. But, whatever it is, in 3 weeks it should start to clear up a lot of little details.

There is a sense of a shift in the air. Again, this could be any number of things and range from seemingly insignificant to grandiose.

These two things may be related.

There is still a second leg to The Quest. I do not know when or how. I do not know the what really. I only know it is to happen. It could be anytime between now and next February.

There are adventures to be had with The Princesses. They have submitted a request to return to Mystic [this makes my soul so very happy] and the beaches of Rhode Island. I believe there may be something else in the works as well.

There has been a great deal of synchronicity of late – my own and others’. The Universe is speaking in so many ways. For instance – I acknowledged the Theme of the letter ‘E’ starting so many of my ‘times’ for WTML. My Quest(ion) for a connection led me to the temple at Delphi. Then, one day, while minding my own business, I was approached by a Raven and I recognized him as a messenger. I would later that day learn that he was one of Apollo’s. The next day, as I studied the lessons of Delphi, I would learn that it was a temple dedicated to Apollo. As I worked to know more about Apollo so that I might better understand his message I would discover that he associates with the likes of Hermes, Mercury, Jesus, and Raphael – all connected by the caduceus. Just a few moments ago, I was texting with The Princesses about those potential plans – big plans *doing his best [worst] Trump impersonation* really great plans. The greatest and the biggest plans. Plans like you’ve never seen before.

WALT: And Mexico’s gonna pay for it.

Anyway, I had just finished saying that I didn’t know how it could or would work but lets see what develops when I get a text from FaeriePrincess. It was a commentary on the new moon and the change from retrograde. It talked about veils being lifted and a sense of opportunity abound. It mentioned manifestation and meditating on that which you wish to attract. Then, at the very bottom, it said to draw a caduceus to aid in the manifestation. [So much coincidence in one little moment, eh?]

There is a vibe that my living conditions are going to change.

And, my latest vibe – I do not know how, or what it could mean, but, I believe this may be the most potent, powerful, and magickal Yule I have seen since I began working for The Old Imp of The North.

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt.

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, it out hesitation…for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Cardinal - Renewed Vitality through Recognizing Self-Importance

They remind us that, regardless of the time of day or year, we always have the opportunity to renew our own vitality and recognize our own life roles. Whistles are often reminders to listen closely - to pay attention to what is blowing on the winds. Reflects that we should be listening to the inner voice (the feminine) more closely for our own health and well-being. Almost always reflects a need to assert the feminine aspects of creativity and intuition more strongly. Can reflect a need to b more careful about your diet, that what you are eating may be injurious to yourself and affecting your overall vitality. Reflects the rhythm of 12 that is going to become more predominant within your own life. Reflects lessons associated with responsibility and the recognition of the task at hand. May reflect past-life connections with the church, or even a reviving of more traditional religious beliefs, regardless of denomination. Remind us to add color to our lives, and remember that everything is of importance.

Deer – Gentleness and Innocence – Gentle Luring to New Adventures

They have been able to adapt to every sort of habitat. Buddha is often pictured with a deer. Antlers are symbols of antennae, connections to higher forms of attunement. Look for new perceptions and degrees of perceptions to expand for as much as the next five years. Can indicate that there will be opportunities to stimulate gentle new growth increasingly over the next few years. Leads us back to the primal wisdom. A deer’s senses are very acute. Find increasing ability to detect subtle movements and appearances. Begin to hear what may not be said directly. Time to be gentle with yourself and others. A new innocence and freshness is about to be awakened or born. There is going to be a gentle, enticing lure of new adventures. Are you trying to force things? Are others? Are you being too critical and uncaring of yourself? An opportunity to express gentle love that will open new doors to adventure for you.

Raven - Magic, Shapeshifting, and Creation.

Bird of birth and death; mysticism and magic. Messenger of the great spiritual realm. Bring forth life and order. Can help you shape shift your life or your being. Knowledge of how to become other ‘animals’ and how to understand their language. Teach how to stir the magic of life without fear. Strong creative life force. Can be used to enter The Void and stir energies to manifest what you most need. Expect Magic. Somewhere in your life, magic is at play. Activates the energy of magic, linking it with your will and your intentions. Teaches how to take that which is unformed and give it the form you desire.