S2EP9: All’s Well That Ends Well

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

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Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

The Bassett Hound

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You

Brother John

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

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It is…Sunday, December 26, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Fun. Time...Ticking

Theme – Have a Plan

This kind of goes along with the Lesson. It was actually a message during Dreamtime one day and I haven’t been able to pinpoint exactly what it was referencing. The more I looked at it, the more I realized that everything I have going on right now requires a plan. Moving into the apartment needs a plan. Christmas with the Princesses requires a plan. Just that weekend with them will require a plan. Getting myself balanced again will require a plan. Always have a plan. [But know that nothing goes according to plan.]

Lesson – Be Ahead of Yourself

Again, similar to Have a Plan. It seems no matter what you do, it is best to be a few steps ahead of yourself. It’s part of the reason stores are always a season ahead. I find in life it is best to be a season ahead as well. I need to start now looking ahead to what I want in the spring. The same was always true for crafts as well. Christmas crafts need to be done by October, not started in November.

Observation – I’m Lost

I can’t break this one down more than that at the moment.

The Post

It is Christmas Day. What a very strange Christmas it is, too. Though similar to so many before it, this day is still very different. This is the first Christmas [ever] that I am spending entirely alone. It s not odd for me to spend time alone on this day but there is always some interaction somewhere in the day. Once upon a time, I would wake with The Princesses, do Santa stuff, and they would be off. The rest of the day was mine. Still, I had those moments in the morning. Of course, that changed when I left Old Geistopia. Two years agoI was at Hoagie’s and spent the day with him and Spike. Last year, I was at Mama’s for breakfast with The Princesses and then off to Gettysburg for dinner with some friends. But, this year I am entirely on my own.

Like I said, I’ve been alone on this day before. It is not foreign to me and generally I have enjoyed it. It was one of the few and rare times that I could find peace in Olde Geistopia. After Mama left, I had stopped doing family Holi-days. It had nothing to do with her really. I mean, other than that I probably would have stopped long before that if it were not for her and The Princesses. The thing is – no one in the family really talks to me. They haven’t for a very, very long time. They don’t even have conversations that I could engage in because they have entirely different lives than I. So, I started staying home, unless I had The Princesses.

Christmas Day was the one and only Holi-day that I never had them. It was arranged that way – for their sakes. My family always did our thing on Christmas Eve. Mama’s did theirs on Christmas Day. It didn’t seem right to me to have them miss that in order to spend the day alone with me. So, I had them every Christmas Eve until 9 AM on Christmas morning. After that, the day was mine. At first, I would use it as an excuse to play games all day. Then, eventually, it would become a day for cleaning. I could only clean when no one was around [for my own reasons] so with everyone out of the house it worked perfectly. But, no matter what I am doing, this day has always been one of peace, revelry and revelation.

Today is also different because for the first time ever I am spending it in space of my own. [Albeit temporary.] This was all a blessing, a sort of gift, itself. Months ago I was looking at renting a room for the two nights around Christmas, figuring there would be very little work available and few places to go or things to do. It seems, now, that I wouldn’t have been able to afford that. But, once again, The Lord provides. Two different people at The Theatre had the same thought and so here I am – cozy, warm and safe on Christmas Day.

The Princesses and I will have our Christmas but not until New Year’s and since that is still within the reach of Yule it is acceptable. We have made our plans and we will be following through on some traditions the best we can. The request has already been put in for Daddy’s Famous Homemade Hot Chocolate and on Saturday we will be making a family meal built around Daddy’s Honey Glazed Ham. [Also requested.] I am certain Saturday or Sunday will also include one of Daddy’s Breakfasts. [In case you hadn’t caught on – daddy likes to cook.] And, one of the days next weekend we will be going to see the new Spider-Man movie as part of our Christmas.

It is later in the day than I would like it to be. I haven’t done much. But then I suppose that was the plan. This is the one day I can guarantee not having to do something, so somewhere, deal with someone. I have essentially been on the move constantly for about a year. The last six months, in particular, have been hectic and crazy. Never did I anticipate spending so much time at The Theatre. For a while it made it very difficult to function. But, with some tweaking, things became more manageable. In fact, I got everything under so tell just in time to make this move.

Nonetheless, it is Christmas Day and here I am. I have tried to make it a lil more festive in the apartment. I bought a few simple decorations at the dollar store. I have a silly lil tree with beer cap ornaments that I put up. I’ve been watching the rest of my Christmas movies and now listening to Christmas music. I bought myself some Starbucks Christmas blend coffee that I am drinking. I even splurged on some dinner for tonight. I will be making myself some steak and baked potatoes and some corn and bean mix. The only thing I am missing is rolls but buttered bread will suffice.

And, I treated myself to a Christmas present of sorts. I bought some lottery tickets. It’s been gnawing at me for several weeks now but I just was not comfortable spending money to lose money. The lottery thing has worked out for me before. In fact it saved my ass when it was time to take Cuddlebug and her friends to the beach for the day. But, I have also had it work the other way as well. So, I was waiting. I don’t necessarily believe I have the money to throw away now either but t is Christmas and no matter what these tickets give me a gift. If I do not win any significant amount of money, if nothing else, these tickets give me the gift of hope – even if just for a moment. [I’ve been waiting to scratch them until after this post is complete. ]

The apartment has been a thing. I cannot express just how grateful I am for this opportunity. It is temporary and mostly brief. At best, I am here for four months. But, they are the best four months to have it as well. Just in time for the cold weather. And, if you want to talk about blessings, we did not have a night in the 20’s until two days before I moved in here. Last year by mid December we had seen nights in the single digits. I woke up one morning in the past couple of weeks and my thermometer on the Vantasm read 49 degrees.

I have been hustling hard to get settled in here as fast and best I can. Hustling so much, in fact, that I inadvertently missed Sunshine’s Holiday Concert at school. She handled it better than me. I have been absolutely heartbroken over it. But, everything happens for a reason 4- precise and perfectly placed. You can’t believe this in one moment and not the next.

I moved in on Tuesday afternoon. I spent six and a half hours unloading stuff from the van, putting away groceries, unpacking and organizing. I have been back and forth to The Cave everyday. I am definitely settled in but there is definitely more to do. I had forgotten just how quickly time can pass when you actually have things to take care of. I’m getting things done but never as much as I would like in one night.

The experience is so odd to me and I do not think that it has quite set in yet. I have this nice cozy two bedroom apartment to myself and it offers me so many opportunities and advantages.

Needless to say, the ability to stay warm at night is a big plus. But, also I have a bathroom readily available. I can take a shower at night instead of having to get up at 5 AM to beat the gym crowd. I can make food and coffee.

I have a place where I can see the girls and I anticipate that they will be here more weekends than not.

But, the apartment also offers me the chance to bring some balance and harmony to my life. I feel more settled because there is a place to ground myself, there is a place to Zen. I have been able to all but completely empty The $%Vantasm. This gives me the chance to clean it better than it has been in months. I was taking a day every week or two and going to Olde Geistopia to empty the Vantasm, clean it out real good and then go to wash it. But, with the time spent at The Theatre, the ability to empty and reload the Vantasm all the time became difficult. Now it is empty and I will clean it and wash it later this week. I am waiting only because I want it as clean as possible when I pick up the Princesses next weekend.

I can also sort and organize all the stuff that was in the Vantasm. I gather so much randomness in my life – even while living in a vehicle. I can sort through it, get rid of what I need to, reload stuff back into the Vantasm in a more organized way and take anything else to The Cave.

Speaking of The Cave – the apartment is also goin to let me get that under control. I drift in and out often and quickly. Things get organized and then chaos ensues. I re-organize and chaos comes once more. This is because I move things about based on the current need. It doesn’t help that I don’t have any place to move things except outside. Now, I can bring things here a little bit at a time – sort, organize, relax and ship back. I can get to things and clean things out. This will be the greatest purge to date.

Hopefully, the apartment will also allow me to balance financially. I will definitely save a lot of money on coffee each week. [you really don’t want to know how much I spend on my bean juice.] I will spend more on food, but I will be eating better and more regularly. I could even save a bit on gas because there are all those early morning and late night hours when I would be running it for heat but not working.

I’ve made an observation about our bodies. Or at least mine.

It has a mind of its own. Lol. So, for instance, I am using the bathroom more than I have for months. I imagine it is because my body knows it can. There are no restrictions nor limitations. I don’t have to wait until I can find a place. But, I have also been eating more. For months, I have eaten but once a day. If I felt a lil hungry before an appropriate meal time I would just snack a little on this or that. Suddenly, I eat breakfast in the morning and by noon I have eaten all of the food I prepared for the day. I figure all of this will balance out.

It’s interesting to me to be on my own like this. I’ve never really had a space of my own. I did have that one bedroom apartment for a few months after prison but I was a different person in very different head space way back then. But, I spent years living in Olde Geistopia and then how many months at Hoagie’s. It’s always been someone else’s space and I have always had to kowtow to their way of being. So, I don’t really know how I function.

For instance, Big ‘D’ and Boom-Dee-Aye always used to comment on how lazy I was. And, admittedly, I wrestled with the notion. I have always tried to keep myself busy but when it came to moving about that house I never felt comfortable taking up space. [That’s neither here nor there at the moment.] The thing is, I’m not lazy at all. Up until today, I haven’t stopped moving in this apartment. I’ve worked all day then come home and made dinner and done things. Then I shower and sleep. Then I get up in the morning, have breakfast, fix food for the day, do things and eventually head out for the day. Even sitting still today has been difficult and uncomfortable. But I have been forcing myself to do so. This is the only day of stillness I am guaranteed. So, why shouldn’t I enjoy it.

But, speaking of doing things, I should get around to fixing dinner and having that soak in the tub. I’m really not sure which one to do first.

It’s all just so very strange.

I do plan on working tomorrow. I don’t really want to at the moment. There’s so much to do here. I have The Vantasm stuff to sort through. I want to give the apartment a really good cleaning. But, I also need to organize it a bit. With so many actors in and out, there is stuff left everywhere. If I was only going to be here even a month I wouldn’t care. But four months is long enough that the disorderly nature will impact me. But there is time for all of that. Every night when I come home. If I just do a bit each night, it will all be done in no time.

Another thought on the blessings of the apartment. [Sorry, my mind is purging.] There is internet but there was no television. Bert-on used to work on TVs so I asked if he had an old one laying around. He did. So, now, I have a 40” flat screen TV. It is a Smart TV [and my favorite brand.] I haven’t been able to get it to connect to the wifi as of yet but that is ok because I have an AirTV Mini which has been allowing me to stream TV and music. And, I think I am going to bring over the pallet coffee table that I made to hold it. Right now it sits on a rom table and I think it is too high. When the time comes and I am leaving, I can leave both of them here. By then I will have hooked up the internet to the TV even if I have to run cable to do so. Then when the actors come they can stream on the TV instead of little devices. They could even watch things together as a group. [And getting that coffee table out of The Cave will help me work better in there.]

I think this is going to be my last post for the year. I have The Princesses next weekend and a lot to do before they arrive.

I’m hoping this experience will help us all manifest better in the future. This is the first time we can see what our lives are really like. For instance, there are two bedrooms and two of them. They will each have a bedroom of heir own. This is something they have never had anywhere in their lives. As for me, I am perfectly content sleeping on the living room turn and truly it is all the space I need.

Let us see what the new year brings. I feel more shifts but I do not know what they are. I am trying to get my work life under control – between the driving and The Theatre and everything else I can and want to do. [Speaking of which, another advantage to the apartment is that I can get back to Reiki and Tarot…and I have my first long distance Reiki session this Thursday.]

I am trying to get my financial life balanced out. And my how all of that has changed in just a year. I have car payments and credit cards and lord knows what else going on.

Another side note [I’m telling you – purging. Weeks of thoughts.] – So, I decided I wanted to OD on Christmas Spirit this year. I have done nothing but listen to Christmas music and I set out to watch all the lives that I could. In the quest I have ended up more streaming apps than I can keep track of at the moment. Some of them I subscribed to outright. Some came free with this or that and will eventually run out. I want to sort through these too. I’m not opposed to spending the money on the streaming if I can make use of it. But right this minute I don’t even know what I’m paying for anymore.

I still want to finish The WhooDoo VooDoo Tour. I do not know when or how that happens but it haunts me every day.

Only time can tell what the future holds. I don’t know about you Fellow Travelers, but I am very intrigued by what secrets hide within the ticks of that clock.

I hope each and everyone of you has a marvelous remaining Holi-day season and that you find peace, health and prosperity as we move into Twenty-Twenty New.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

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