March (Hare) Madness

Saturday, March 26, 2016

6:51 PM

I am settling into the next 24 hours. I don't know what that means. I know that it has been coming. I know that I have some things to do. But that is all I know. I do not know what comes from it all or where it is headed.

It has been quite the week and I don't think that I have quite recovered from it all yet. I'm not surprised really. A void should have been expected and a void there was.

Tuesday erupted into nothingness. Wednesday was a day of getting my feet firmly planted, plotting a course and pushing ahead. Thursday was a day of commitments, which made it difficult to get into anything hardcore. Friday was a day I could not have foreseen. I was fried from the get-go and never really regrouped from it. And, today was spent being with and tending to the girls. Finally, I have reached a point of stillness.

I haven't really had that since the incident on Tuesday morning. Tuesday was spent picking up the pieces and tending to the potential damage. Wednesday I was determined to make as productive as possible. I set a routine and put things in place. I started a little of this and a little of that. I looked for employment and scheduled some work. Basically, I got myself rooted and ready to continue moving onward. Thursday, as I said, was blocks of time - Routine, then soon off to some work, home from there and soon off to the doctor's. And, Friday…I just don't have the words for Friday. It was there and things happened but I feel just so disconnected from it all.

Today was a stall…but a stall of awareness and vague activity. I spent the morning taking care of a sick child. Then this afternoon I finally made it to the cave and began my day. I realized today that I don't quite feel ready to start my day until I get myself rooted in The Cave. It's like setting up home camp and then I shoot off into different directions from there. It is the Operations Center of my life and Geistopia.

Now I am drifting into something different. There are many energies and moments happening at once right now. First there is the Holi-Day. And, Holi-Days are usually accompanied by at least a few hours of an empty, quiet and still house. I'm dealing with the process of transition, plus I am still recovering from my encounter with that Demon of Daemons. I am also at a documentation point for The Proxperiment.

I know that by the conclusion of tomorrow I am supposed to have cleaned, organized, documented and also have taken time to enjoy the quiet and stillness of the house.

Oh…and of course I have a WTML post to complete.

Right now, as I see it, the plan is to do as much of the cleaning tonight as I can. Perhaps just leaving the floors for tomorrow when the house clears out. In the morning I can do the first round of pictures for The Proxperiment. The goal is to be ready to Chillax as much as possible right when they leave. Once I unwind and get the energy of the house flowing then I can finish off anything that is left. Then, during the quiet I think I would like to play a little bit of Xbox. That is an enjoyment that I really do not partake in often enough. By the time they are home I should have myself to a place that I can begin WTML. Perhaps I will have even started it.

Then it is on to Monday - The Day After - whatever that will be.

It's weird…for as much as is 'wrong' right now I just feel so right…which makes me feel like something is wrong.