S10EP: CliffsNotes

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

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Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

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The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

The Bassett Hound

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (3)

Brother John & Sister Jen

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

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It is…Sunday, June 4, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...Disappointing

Theme – 33

33 is the last of The Master Numbers. I have been seeing it everywhere lately. In fact, Thursday I saw it about 5 times on the same [long] drive. I don’t feel very masterful. Honestly, I barely feel like a 22.

Lesson – Speak Less, Say More

It’s hard as a storyteller to say less. The devil is in the details. For a storyteller every little nugget of information is deemed important enough to share. Every piece shadows and contours the story. Still, sometimes a greater impact can be made with fewer words. I’m working on this.

Observation – Transmutation

A challenging Medicine to learn but oh so powerful when mastered. I have a lot in my life that I can transmute – habits, distractions, attitudes, mindsets. I must reverse the polarity – turn my negatives into positives. I must take the detrimental things and transform them into their positive counterparts. Basically – turn that frown upside down. Again, I am working on this.

The Post

I used the ‘Time’ word very specifically this week. This week was disappointing. Well, actually it was last week that was disappointing – financially speaking. This week brought the repercussions of that…and they were very disappointing. In fact, that was the word Brother John used and it just me in a certain kinda way.

Anyway, as you may have noticed, I missed a post last week. I actually had one completed. Then I went back to work on The Trinity and realized that it was just too many words. I didn’t follow the Lesson. So, now I am going to try to catch you up on two weeks, Fellow Travelers, using up as little space as possible.

[This could be interesting.]

Ok. So, financially, it is the same old song and dance. I catch up a little then fall further behind. I maintain my balance but it is not going smoothly. Problems may be mounting. I still maintain that if it weren’t for The Princesses I would give up on the house. It’s just way too much and, try as I might, I have not been able to figure out how to do better for myself.

A good example is when I try to be out on the road for most, if not all, of the day it seems the days are extremely slow and I find myself just sitting for hours. This frustrates me because then I am not only not making money I am not getting things done either.

On the front of getting things done – The garage is just about transformed. I took advantage of a very, very slow work week and got all the cabinets and tools up here. Since then, I have been going out every time I have a cigarette and working just a little bit at a time. I also have the yard to a manageable point. There is still a lot I would like to do, but for now the routine work is manageable. Of course, it helps that it hasn’t really rained in weeks and nothing is growing very much.

In regards to settling in and putting New Geistopia in the shape it needs to be in to do what it must do, I am feeling good. The major tasks are all just about done. The garage [soon to be known as The Workshop] is all but done. I just need to sort through ‘décor.’ Then I just have to tweak some thing into place down in The Matt Cave. Other than that it is the girls’ actual mattresses, which should be coming this week, and I have two dressers to pick up. It just seems almost pointless. What is the purpose in moving and settling in if I can’t turn things around and maintain the home?

I still believe this is all part of The Divine Plan. I do believe that we belong here. I just never imagined I would find so many challenges in being able to maintain it. As I have said repeatedly in the past – everything I try to do to make things better just fails. It has been one brick wall after another.

Along the way, I try to make the most of every opportunity that G-d offers – The Theatre, The Two Sisters, Random tasks for friends. This has made things interesting, but it has never brought me more. At best it has just been a bit of a supplement.

I am still trying to understand messages and vision. The time markers still seem to be lining yup but thus far there has been no significant moment. No, “A-ha! Now I get it!” The next Marker is the Solstice. I am watching it closely.

The truth is, after June, my scheduling conflicts should be minimal. The Princesses are done with school so there are no more events to which I must run. The Meeting Place is at rest for the summer. Graduation is in as is the obligatory party. All that is left is Cuddlebug’s birthday party and one or two more visits to the garage. [Hopefully only one or two.]

I’m confused by other messages though. I’m being told to relax and enjoy my life. How do I do that when no matter what times I work or how many hours I put in I still can’t make enough money to [at least] balance myself out.

I’ve been trying to just enjoy the experience of being. I do enjoy my work so that makes that part easy. I am trying to appreciate and enjoy the work that is going into The Homestead. Occasionally, I even take a moment to just rest and enjoy. Like the other night when I forced myself to eat dinner on the couch in The Matt Cave and watch a little TV. [Instead of eating at the desk while I tried to work on something or the other.]

As I said, graduation and the party both came and went by now. Both were nice The party was a real eye-opener for me. Mam’s family was more receptive and cordial to me than the members of my own family. My niece stood 5 feet from me at the food table and didn’t even acknowledge me until I spoke to her. Her mother walked past me and didn’t say anything until I said hello and then stepped towards her – forcing her into an uncomfortable kiss on the cheek. My oldest sister, as usual, didn’t come anywhere near me. In fact, I think it was Sunshine who said she didn’t even say anything to her the whole time.

I’m not hurt by it anymore. There’s no need to be hurt by it. Ultimately, it is their loss. I’m not perfect, but I believe that I am a good person to know. I try to be anyway. I said to friends yesterday that it is sad that it is my own family that has taught me that my life goes on with or without you. Mourning, pining, struggling to know how to make amends – all wasted energy. They have no interest. My life is going to be what it is going to be whether they choose to be a part of it or not.

I struggle to understand though. I have never done anything to any one of them. Not a one of them has had a personal, nor direct, confrontation or problem with me. Their issues stem from problems with Big ‘D’ and Craze. Well, Craze and I made our peace well before he passed and Big ‘D’ and I have found about as much peace as we will. So what are these other fuckers holding onto so tightly?

I am struggling in my path. I am not as connected to Divinity as I should be. A lot of this is the distraction of trying to survive. [I was much less distracted when living in my vehicles.] Some is other distractions, which I hold would not exist if I has time and money to balance and could be productive in other ways. Instead, my life is constantly stagnant. It’s like every day I have to pull the muck from the waters just to see a trickle of flow.

I think that covers what needs to be covered for now. Other tidbits have been written in other places for other times.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Ant - Industriousness, Order, and Discipline

Symbol of work and industry. Wisdom and intellect in their endeavors is often acclaimed. Social. Community activity. Gathering, hunting, growing. May find that the cycle of industriousness and building of goals may increase over a period of twelve years. Cycle of twelve - days, months, years - will be of significance. Teacher of how to build, how to be the architect of your own life. Show you how to construct our dreams into a reality. Greatest success occurs with persistence. Examine your own industriousness. Are you disciplining yourself enough to accomplish the tasks at hand? Are you or those around you looking for the quick and easy way? Are you neglecting important activities? Are you laying a good foundation? Are you adding new structures to your life with each passing year in some fashion - education, jobs, hobbies, etc? Are you being patient with your efforts? Are you being patient with yourself? With others? Are you making things greater and more difficult than they need to be? Are you missing the opportunity to initiate new creativity and endeavors? Can teach how to harness your own power to design and recreate your life. Can show you how best to work with others for the good of everyone. Regardless of circumstances, if the effort is true, the rewards will follow - in the most beneficial time and manner. The promise of success through effort.

Deer – Gentleness and Innocence – Gentle Luring to New Adventures

They have been able to adapt to every sort of habitat. Buddha is often pictured with a deer. Antlers are symbols of antennae, connections to higher forms of attunement. Look for new perceptions and degrees of perceptions to expand for as much as the next five years. Can indicate that there will be opportunities to stimulate gentle new growth increasingly over the next few years. Leads us back to the primal wisdom. A deer’s senses are very acute. Find increasing ability to detect subtle movements and appearances. Begin to hear what may not be said directly. Time to be gentle with yourself and others. A new innocence and freshness is about to be awakened or born. There is going to be a gentle, enticing lure of new adventures. Are you trying to force things? Are others? Are you being too critical and uncaring of yourself? An opportunity to express gentle love that will open new doors to adventure for you.

Flamingo [spirit-animals.com]– Flamingo symbolism is reminding you to get in touch with your emotions. It is a good idea to allow yourself to feel so that you can process your feelings. Furthermore, this spirit animal will enable you to grow through releasing issues. In other words, if you bottle things up, you will find yourself reacting rather than acting appropriately. Therefore, the Flamingo meaning dictates that you must allow yourself to release your feelings so that you can come into balance again. Alternatively, like the Prairie Dog, Flamingo symbolism may be letting you know that it is time for you to get out and socialize. Therefore it is time to have some fun in your life. Moreover, socializing will help let go of stressful situations and coming to terms with changes in your life. Correspondingly, this bird also brings new ideas and options that will come to you while immersing yourself in the company of others. It will also allow you to find balance and gratitude for what you have. It will give you a greater appreciation of those around you. Conversely, Flamingo symbolism may be pointing out that you are blending in a bit too well right now. In other words, you need to allow yourself to be different and to think for yourself. Thus, the Flamingo meaning prompts you to maintain your individuality within the crowds.

Fox - Feminine Magic of Camouflage, Shapeshifting and Invisibility.

New world opening up. The process of creation is beginning. Guide to enter the Faerie Realm. Unless a male can recognize the magic of the feminine - in himself or others - and learn to use it to Shapeshifting his own life, it will ultimately lead to destruction. The Kundalini, and the freeing of the creative life force. Practicing and using camouflage. Working to blend in with surroundings, to come and go unnoticed, moving silently about without revealing your intentions. Learning to control the aura. Adjust its frequency and intensity so that you harmonize more with others. Levels of energy and fertility. If the focus stays on the creative energies, any sharp turn in the individual’s life will be handled with ease. Fox people have the ability to insulate themselves from anything that may seem cold, especially in relationships. Can appear larger than they are - for personal protection or for making greater impressions. Establish a trotting pace. Ability to move into new directions. Call upon new resources instinctively. Excellent ability to hear what is not being said. The ability to hear spirit. Size people up accurately. Develop the ability to see spirit. Aromatherapy. Awakening of the Kundalini. Higher forms of discrimination and discernment. Capture any prize.

Goose - The Call of the Quest and Travels to Legendary Places

A totem reflecting a stimulation of the childhood thrill and belief in stories and legendary places. These stories either reflected an imprint for this life or they may have even imprinted you with certain seed ideas. Also be a totem to aid you in communication especially through the use of stories. Individuals wishing to write - be it stories or anything - can facilitate this process by working with the goose as a totem. It will stimulate the imagination and help move you through creative blocks. Also a symbol of fertility and marital fidelity. It may reflect a need for more vegetables in the diet, and maybe even becoming a vegetarian for a while. It reflects an ability to move forward or backward. It reflects movement, and a call to the spiritual quest. Stirs our imagination and makes us want to seek out new worlds and dimensions. Calling us to follow them on the great spiritual quest. It speaks of the fulfilled promises that great quests bring. Epitomizes the mystery of migration. Reminds us that as any one individual mass his or her quest, it becomes easier for others to do so as well. Reminding us that we should not undertake any quest in life without having a full view of what it entails. In this way the journey is facilitated for others. Reflects an opening to new possibilities. New directions and new possibilities. Reflects an openness to new ideas. Usually indicates we are about to affix ourselves to a new path. Reflects great fertility that should be acted upon if growth is desired. Greater vision, physical and spiritual, will occur. Can reflect that you are about to break free of old childhood restraints and begin to come into your own. You can expect to have the imagination stirred towards new travels to distant places - whether in the body or mind.

Duck – Emotional Comfort and Protection

Linked to the feminine energies, the astral plane, and to the emotional state of humans. Can remind us to drink from the waters of life as well as to nurture our own emotional natures. Reminding us we can find sustenance in our emotions. May reflect an inability to feel comfortable with most people in your life. It may reflect a need to find comfort in your own element and with those of life mind and spirit. Can remind us that we are going to have such an opportunity. May reflect past-life connections. They can help you to handle your own emotions with greater grace and comfort. Teach you how to maneuver through various waters of life.

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill.

Heron - The Call of The Quest and Travels to Legendary Places.

Reflects a stimulation of the childhood thrill and belief in legendary places. [The story(s) we most loved in childhood often reflect the life quest we have come to take upon us in this lifetime.] Can also aid in communication especially through the use of stories. Individuals wishing to write can facilitate the process by working with a goose totem. It will stimulate the creative process and help to move through creative blocks. Also a symbol of fertility and marital fidelity. May reflect a need for more vegetables in the diet. An ability to move forward or backward. Reflects movement. A call to the spiritual quest. It reminds us that as any one individual makes his or her quest, it becomes easier for others to do so as well. We should not undertake any quest in life without having a full view of what it entails. Opening to new possibilities. Affix ourselves to a new path. Great fertility that should be acted upon if growth is desired. Greater vision, physical and spiritual, will occur. Can reflect that you are about to break free from old childhood restraints and begin to come into your own. You can expect to have the imagination stirred toward new travels and distant places - whether in the body or in the mind.

Horse - Travel, Power, and Freedom

Associated with burial rites and birth. Associated with appeal and persuasiveness. Symbols of freedom. Powers of divination. Can express the more magickal side of humans. Can represent movement and travel, or maybe it showed up to help you with movement. Symbol of desire - especially sexual. May be time to examine aspects of travel and freedom in your life. Feeling constricted? Need to move on or let others move on? Time to assert your freedom and your power in new areas? Doing your part to assist civilization in your environment? Are others? Are you using what this civilization has given you? New journeys. Teach you how to ride into new directions to awaken and discover your own freedom and power.

Rabbit - Fertility and New Life

Often seen as an animal that can lead one unknowingly into the Faerie realm. A symbol for sexuality and fertility. Usually, you will begin to see a cycle of 28 days beginning to manifest in your life. Those with rabbit totems will see movement occur in their life in varying degrees of hops and leaps. It won’t be steady step-by-step movement. The leaps and hops do not usually take more than the cycle of The Moon (28 days) to occur. Plan for possibilities. May indicate the need to do some more planning or review those you have already set in motion. You do not want to box yourself into a corner. Important not to foreshadow your moves. Learning to shift from freezing to great speeds will aid in your success and enables you to take advantage of opportunities that may present themselves for brief moments. May need to examine the kinds of food being consumed. For the greatest health and well-being, a vegetarian diet, even if only temporary, will strengthen and heal. How to recognize the tides of movement within your life. This in turn will enable you to become even more fertile in your life.

Robin – Spread of New Growth

You can expect new growth to occur in a variety of areas of your life – not just one. Connected to the Kundalini. Reflects its activation in a manner that will stimulate new growth in all areas of your life. Fights over territory are usually in song. Physical confrontations are more symbolic without injury. Reflects a need to sing your own song forth if you wish new growth. Any confrontations or hindrances are more show than actual threats, so go forward. Powder-blue egg. A color that is often used to open the throat chakra in humans. Reflects the innate ability of those with this totem to assert the will force to create new growth in his/her life. Help you in this process. May reflect you have been doing so inappropriately or ineffectually. Robin will show you how to do it successfully.

Skunk - Sensuality, Respect, and Self-Esteem

Teaches how to give respect, expect respect, and demand respect. It helps you to recognize your own qualities and assert them. Can teach you how to be more self-assured and how to assert yourself. The owl should be studied as it is a contrary medicine. Teach us how to get more attention without being arrogant and irritating. Sometimes it shows up to help us deal with those people in our life who are outrageously irritating. The sense of smell has ties to sensuality and sexuality. The use of fragrances will elicit dynamic responses in those associated with. Can usually expect to experience stronger sexual responses to others and in their response to you. A greater ability to attract people will begin to unfold. Cycles. Must learn to balance the ability to draw and repel people. There is a natural cycle. Solitary animal. There are times best for drawing people and there are times to avoid people. Indication of the active flow of the Kundalini or life force (ties to the sexual energies and the life force active in every aspect of the life process.) Kundalini is usually already active. Time to amplify and teach the use and control of this life force more effectively. The ability to be able to turn on and off the creative force and direct it along several lines. Good for those people with this totem not to blow their own horn. Sit back and let others do the noticing for you. Teach you when it is best to be noticed and how o go about it most effectively. Going to have opportunities to bring out new respect and self-esteem. Lessons and times associated with increased sensuality physically, sexually, psychically, and spiritually. Examine your self-image. People are going to notice you. How they notice and remember can be controlled by you.