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It is…Sunday, July 23, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...Wxpanding

Theme – Quest

I can’t tell you how many times I stumbled across this word throughout the week. I can tell you it was enough times to shift my perspective a bit. I mean, I thin of my life as a Quest to begin with, but when The Universe points it out repeatedly then it is something bigger. Knowing there is a Quest in play makes it a little easier to take my eye off the ball and just follow the flow of things. There is always more to a thing than what we see.

Lesson – Always Perfectly Imperfect [or is it Imperfectly Perfect]

I needed this reminder. One thing that is clear about my life is that it never seems to go right – it is imperfect. Yet, somehow, at the end of the day, things tend to work out. When things seem to be going wrong somewhere they are going right.

Observation – I’m Reluctant to Love

I actually had this Observation just tonight. I’m not just talking about relationships. It’s everything. Without getting too deep, it certainly is because love has hurt me so many times before. There are plenty of times when I brought this upon myself. But there are just as many when it just happened. Anytime I have loved someone or something it has just, one day, would be gone – oft times ripped away. This has made it very difficult for me to become attached to people and places and things. I had the Observation because I realized I was putting up the same barriers with The Homestead. Since the beginning [in my head] I have told myself I don’t deserve this, I can’t do it, I’m going to lose it. All I really have to do is love it – The Homestead, my life, the person I am becoming.

The Post

Lately, I have been having a lot of trouble recalling the events of the days at the end of the week. But, I also do not have a lot of spare time to be writing each and every day. I still say there is something going on, something shifting. I am trying to understand it. I am trying to capture the moments to see – in retrospect – which ones were indicative of the changes. So, once again, I am going to try to just take notes each day.

Monday, July 17, 2023; 2010

I have been having a very rough day today. I haven’t felt right for several days now. My body feels weakened and my mind is cloudy. I don’t see any of this as bad. I think it is just side effects from the experience. In fact, this is partially responsible for me thinking something is going on.

I woke late this morning. 0600 is too late no matter what day of the week it is or what I have planned for the day. It was like the third or fourth day in a row that I have woken up this late and also that I have woken up very cloudy in the head.

If I didn’t have to make money today I wouldn’t have gone out. That’s how I was feeling. But I did get myself out in time for lunch. I made most of my money. I came in like $15 shy of the Goal. Still it was time to return to The Homestead. I was really struggling today.

As I said, my head was cloudy and I found myself feeling groggy more often than usual. I know I passed out for a little while at one point.

\I was also very emotional today. A lot of spontaneous and brief sobbing. I don’t know why. So, for now, I will just assume it is a cleansing process. However, that added to my issues of the day. By the time I decided to come home my eyes were so puffy and burning from tears.

My stomach has been off for like a week now. It always feels empty…but not hungry.

My legs have been hurting the last few days. Mostly right across the top near the hips.

My right shoulder has been tense and sore. I do not know if this is from moving the big ass tree branch I found laying in the yard yesterday morning or if it is residual karma from sending a bit of Reiki to someone who was complaining about her shoulder. I over heard it while I was waiting on an order and I was bored and feeling curious. You are not supposed to work on someone without their permission and I honestly never have before. But like I said, I was bored and curious to see if it would do anything while I was there. It was her right shoulder.

I got myself straightened out and caught up at The Homestead. It was a crazy few days and I just haven’t been able to get to things like washing dishes. This drives me crazy. So now it is all caught up and I am prepped and ready to head out on the road tomorrow.

It is the New Moon and I am planning a Ritual Soak for tonight. I’m very much looking forward to it. I would probably be in the tub already but I am waiting on a call from Big ’D’.

I don’t know that I have anything else from today. I feel good – worn and weird, but good.

Tuesday, July 18, 2023; 1741

UGH!

Let me say it one more time.

UGH!

I was having a really good day. “Was” being the operative word in the sentence. Just like that it went in the opposite direction.

So, as usual, I started my day in the negative. However, I had well over half of it waiting to be transferred. I set out to make the rest of what I needed as well as enough to cover at least one of the charges pending for tomorrow. It was going so good.

I was up and out the door at a proper time – like so many mornings before. It seemed touch and go for a bit, but by the end of lunch I was at a perfect place with my earnings. I jumped back and forth on how I wanted to handle the rest of the day. I could go home and take a quick rest or I could stay out and try to get my day in with help from the afternoon and then call it a little early.

This was my preferred option. I like my afternoon breaks but they can only ever be so productive – if they are productive at all. Of course, they always provide a rest. I looked at the clock and it was 1230. Way too early to call it for lunch. But I was starting to suffer from a headache and not feeling well overall. I decided to keep pushing through.

I had an order that brought me close to the house and I thought for a moment it might be a sign. Still, I decided to push some more and headed back towards my parking spot. It was still just a bit too early to call it. Then, I got another order that brought me close to the house. This time I decided to give in. I was close again, my head was really hurting.

I dropped the order off and headed for New Geistopia. I immediately went down to the couch and laid down. It took me a bit to get rested enough to sleep, but sleep I did. I was in that place in between – partially awake and aware and partially asleep and dreaming. I was brought to a fully awakened state by the phone. It was The Two Sisters. They had an order.

I got myself together and headed out. It wasn’t late in the afternoon. I delivered the order and decided to start dinner shift early. It was going real slow. But then it was also still the afternoon. I re-calculated myself and all I really needed to avoid an overdraft fee for the day was a lil less than $4.

Soon after I calculated I got a ding for an order that was just over $3. It wasn’t quite enough to cover the whole amount, so I just chuckled and looked to the sky. “You’re a smartass, ya know that,” I said. I didn’t take it because I wouldn’t have under any normal circumstances. It was not enough money for me to start driving and way to low for where I was picking up and dropping off.

Another bit of time later and another offer. This one was more. I started the car and went to leave. That’s when it happened. The Power Steering sensor came on. It is steering but not like it should. Now, I needed this order so that I wouldn’t get another overdraft fee today. I continued the pick up and called The Mechanic on the way. I actually had to call twice.

So, my car doesn’t use Power Steering fluid. It is some sort of electronic sensor or pump or something. There is a chance – a slight one, but one nonetheless – that it will reset itself over night. Obviously, this is what I am hoping for. Needless to say that at this point in my life it is not what I am expecting.

In the morning I will start her up and see what happens. One way or the other – whether the sensor comes on or not – I will get her to The Mechanic to at least be looked at and I will see where things go from there. I already know they are busy and they can’t work on her tomorrow. So, I imagine – unless they give me the go ahead – I am not working tomorrow.

So, I just looked things up online and, yes, my pump is bad. And, yes, I shouldn’t drive the vehicle until it is fixed. One of the warning signs is a squeaking noise when you start the car and sometimes when you make a turn. I have been hearing the turn noise for a little while and it was something I was going to mention when I took The Rocket in for the OTHER issue it has been having. It was late yesterday when the noise started during the startup. It was so bad today that I was thinking about getting to The Mechanic, but I wanted to do it in the morning so I could finish my day strong and not have to stress tomorrow.

I just don’t know how to feel. It’s enough to make me want to give up. This isn’t just every so often really bad shit happens to me. This is a constant stream. Every time I think I am getting myself to a place where I can move forward strong The Universe thrown just another wrench in the system. This isn’t even a small one. They can’t fix the car tomorrow and from what I just read trying to drive it, especially the amount I drive, is out of the question. I’m not even willing to chance it. But this leaves me in a terrible place. Whereas I was getting caught up and ready to take it all on, I am now going to be far behind again and fighting to catch up before I pay too many overdraft fees. [And I will pay them at this point. At least 2-3 before the week is over. Maybe more.]

Still, as frustrated as I am feeling…

Trust in the Lord Your G-d.

Everything Happens for a Reason – Precise & Perfectly Placed.

I can only imagine there is a reason. The Father knows what you need before you need it.

Perhaps it is another Lesson in being careful what you wish for or how you speak. For weeks, I have been commenting that I wish I could a whole day off and just get some things done around here – weeding and gardening and projects in the shop. Maybe tomorrow is that day.

For now, the rest of the night, I don’t know what I am going to do. It is too early for bed and too late to get motivated. Not to mention I still have that headache. I even took some medicine so that should say something about the pain. My stomach doesn’t feel right.

I’m gonna call the writing here and let life ride. I’ll check in tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 19, 2021; 0658

OK. So, The Rocket has reset the power steering indicator. However, this does not mean I am out of the water. It is still going to need to be fixed. It still gives the warning signs. One of those is a noise when you start the car. I definitely have that. I had it all day yesterday. I had it this morning.

I am struggling this morning because I don’t exactly know how to play this. It is going to have to go in to be fixed. The Mechanic is very busy at the moment. In a perfect world [hahaha] this is how it would go:

I drive today and make the money that I need to make. I drop The Rocket at the Mechanic tonight. The Mechanic has The Rocket done by the end of the day tomorrow.

Sounds very simple, but there is more to it than that. The whole reason for trying to drive today is to avoid overdraft fees tonight. Nothing is slated to process tomorrow. I can’t afford to lose a day of work, but I am going to one way or the other. At least this way I don’t suffer more than needed.

I’m nervous about trying to drive today. I mean she was working fine yesterday too…until she wasn’t. I can’t have her go out when I am someplace in the middle of nowhere – far from The Mechanic and far from home.

So, that is my plan for the day. *crosses fingers* Let’s see how it plays out, Fellow Travelers.

[I am really feeling like a Vision Quest. Not like I need to take one but that today is one. My Spirit is tingling and my Mind is processing. It is all a very familiar feeling.]

1728

So, this day did not go anything at all how I was hoping. I’m not getting upset about it though. [I’m pretty sure I saw it coming.] It took longer than I thought at The Mechanic this morning. Then my first gig ended up being a waste of 45 minutes. Lunch was OK and for a moment I thought maybe I would pull this day off. Then it slowed down a bit. I had another gig that ended up being a waste of like 30 minutes with no pay. Then, traffic got fucked all over the place. It was backed up everywhere and it wasn’t even rush hour yet.

At that point, I called the day. I was fighting a losing battle.

Nonetheless, I am home now and I have about 38 ½ hours until I can pick up The Rocket. I need to make the most of that time. It’s not just about getting some things done but I also need to work on my Spirit a bit and put my mind back in order. I need to allow for waking meditation.

I do not need to rush through any of my projects or processes. There is more than enough time. I do need to stay engaged though. I may take some time to play game later [just to unwind a bit] but I cannot get too distracted or sidetracked. Whatever this ‘moment’ is, I am counting it as a blessing. [Not a curse.]

Real quick – some Totem stuff.

Fly – there has been a fly everywhere today. One on the back door when I left this morning. One at The Mechanic’s and one in the car later.

Mouse – I found a partially decayed [or partially eaten] mouse today in The Shop. I’m intrigued by this because I am out there almost every day for at least a bit and I have not seen it before. It was in the middle of the floor. At best, I didn’t go out at all yesterday. So where did it come from in a day?

That is all for now.

Thursday, July 20, 2023; 1539

It’s been quite the day. I was up about 0530 and I set to going and went until about 1215 when I finally decided to pause for a moment.

The morning was filled with productivity, revelation, understanding, healing. I am satisfied in the day I had. It sucks that it is throwing off my finances, but it was a needed day. It was almost too much day. I can’t quite get into anything else at the moment. I’m feeling very mellow and almost worn. Yet, I still want to take on the world with my one window of opportunity.

I do have some things I want to do. I want to straighten The Bar Room and do some more dishes. I’ll make some sandwiches for tomorrow. I might soak. I might play some game. I really don’t know at this point.

I feel strangely good.

Friday, July 21, 2023; 1728

I can’t remember when I have had such a seemingly perfect day – even in all of it’ imperfections. When I first woke up I thought I knew how my day was going to go. Big ‘D’ was going to pick me up and give me a ride to The Mechanic. Then I was going to take her back to Olde Geistopia because she was leaving her car for inspection. I was going to hit the store and come home to put the groceries away. Then I would be off to Bassett Hound’s to do some yard work.

They were calling for high humidity and scattered rains today. So, I shifted my plans. I made arrangements to do The Hound’s work tomorrow. I did ask him if he could still pay me a small portion of the ‘fee’ today – just so I could get out of my negative balance without incurring any more fees. I figured if he gave me some I could make the rest in deliveries today.

So, I dropped off mom and headed out to make my day driving. Before the morning was over The Hound would forward me the whole amount which I was able to transfer immediately into my bank account [for a small fee of course.] This got me out of my negative and put me in the positive. I was able to face the rest of my day with no stress.

The car cost me nothing this time around. One thing was just a simple and quick process and the other was covered under a warranty.

The remainder of breakfast and lunch were decent. I did OK. Things slowed down at the end of lunch. I hang in there for a bit and then decided to go for groceries and gas before I headed to Baker’s to review things for taking care of their cat this coming week.

I spent way les son groceries than I had budgeted and gas as well.

At this point, based on my calculations, I needed to make another $30 today to keep on pace for my budget until Tuesday. While at The Baker’s they talked to me about mowing their lawn as well while they are away and will be sending me $50.

I decided to come home and settle in for the night – groceries away, administrative work caught up, pack my lunch and stuff for tomorrow, and to just rest since I will be busting my ass tomorrow.

In the morning, I need to go take care of the cat and then go meet someone about a project he wants done and then head to The Hound’s. There is where I shall spend my day. Hopefully, I am home with enough time and energy to get my own yard mowed.

For now, I am going to see what the rest of my night holds.

Saturday, July 22, 2023; 1930

I cannot tell you what my night was last night. That is soooo Once Upon Ago at this moment. Today, however, was the kind of day I love. The kind of day I needed.

I was up before 0500. I mellowed and chilled my way through my morning because I knew I wasn’t leaving for a few hours. I edited some video and I got out into The Workshop to cut some pieces for a bird feeder. I packed my lunch and made my coffee and I was out of here by 0815.

First stop was The Baker’s for some cat care – feed and medicate. Then I had to head over to The Meeting Place and catch up with a guy that has a small project he would like me to take on. That should be simple enough and I am looking forward to getting to it. From there, I headed to The Bassett Hound’s to do some yard work.

I was there for a total of like 4 hours. May have been 4 ¼ or 3 ¾. Nonetheless, I got the worst of it done. Everything got cleared and pulled and raked into piles. I have to go back tomorrow to load it up for disposal. Now, in the time I was there, I chatted with Bassett Hound for a few minutes here and there, took a cigarette break and a sandwich/cigarette break. I also took a few minutes to talk with the neighbor about coming to do some work in his yard.

I came home and showered and changed. Then I went down and laid on the couch. I absolutely passed out for a bit. When I woke, I ate some cereal then got dressed and went out and mowed my own lawn. I did some more video editing and then went and did cat care for the second time today.

Tomorrow should be fairly straightforward. I have a certain amount of money I need to make [which isn’t a terrible amount for a Sunday.] But, I do also need to sneak over and finish up at Bassett Hound’s. Plus, of course, cat care twice.

As for the rest of tonight…I don’t know. I have some routine daily whatnots to which I should tend. Other than that, I just don’t know. I do know that my body hurts. My first thought is that I certainly am getting old. But then my second thought is that, though this may be true, I also spend all day sitting in my car – 7 days a week. My body is just not use to moving like that.

Sunday, July 23, 2023; 1934

Holy crap!

I think this is one of those weeks when I am glad that I took notes daily. Even this morning seems so very Once Upon Ago.

I had my day so very figured out. I was going to drive until I made my needed income and then go over and load the trailer with yesterdays yard scraps. Of course, plans change.

Let’s start with I was awake at 0345. I really don’t know how that happened…or why. I didn’t let it throw me. I got up and tried to make something of my time. Making something of my time [all day] was challenging, but only because I was so very sore and worn from the work yesterday. I was ready and out the door just after 0730. I went and did my morning cat care and then hit the road.

It was starting out to be a strong day. Along the way, I made my arrangements for loading the trailer. Then…BAM! The day changed. I got a text from Lil Boss. They needed a dishwasher today. This shifted the whole of my day. Bassett Hound was OK with me not loading the trailer. I had to come home and change my clothes. I also took a rest while I was here. I needed it. I would have never gotten through the dishes without it. I know this because I am so very sore again. However, that did not stop me from going next door and mowing Wilson’s lawn when I got home.

It goes like this. He has been wonderful and gracious in helping me with my lawn. When I saw him earlier this week he mentioned that he recently had some eye surgery and he isn’t supposed to get dust in his eye. So, he hasn’t been around since then and I noticed the riding mower was parked behind his house. I decided if I could get it started I would mow his lawn, or part of it. I was able to get it started. I did for him what I do for me. I mowed the front and middle parts of the yard and I let the very back go until someone can get to it.

And, now it has taken me two hours to write this much. I really am kind of fried and burnt out…and I’m loving it.

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The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Ant - Industriousness, Order, and Discipline

Symbol of work and industry. Wisdom and intellect in their endeavors is often acclaimed. Social. Community activity. Gathering, hunting, growing. May find that the cycle of industriousness and building of goals may increase over a period of twelve years. Cycle of twelve - days, months, years - will be of significance. Teacher of how to build, how to be the architect of your own life. Show you how to construct our dreams into a reality. Greatest success occurs with persistence. Examine your own industriousness. Are you disciplining yourself enough to accomplish the tasks at hand? Are you or those around you looking for the quick and easy way? Are you neglecting important activities? Are you laying a good foundation? Are you adding new structures to your life with each passing year in some fashion - education, jobs, hobbies, etc? Are you being patient with your efforts? Are you being patient with yourself? With others? Are you making things greater and more difficult than they need to be? Are you missing the opportunity to initiate new creativity and endeavors? Can teach how to harness your own power to design and recreate your life. Can show you how best to work with others for the good of everyone. Regardless of circumstances, if the effort is true, the rewards will follow - in the most beneficial time and manner. The promise of success through effort.

Bat – Transition and Initiation

Symbols of initiation and rebirth. Implies a loss of one’s faculties if unwary about changes. Also holds the promise of rebirth and coming out of the darkness. The breaking down of the former self through intense tests. It is a facing of your greatest fears – that it is time to die to some aspect of your life that is no longer suitable to you. You are being challenged to let go of the old and create the new. You may see some part of your life go from bad to worse. That which worked before may no longer. The ability to move to new heights. The piercing of new barriers and the opening to higher wisdom. Awakens ability to hear spirit. An increasing ability to discern the hidden messages and implications of other people’s words. Listen as much to what is not being said. Trust your instincts. A new beginning that brings promise and power after the changes.

Cardinal - Renewed Vitality through Recognizing Self-Importance

They remind us that, regardless of the time of day or year, we always have the opportunity to renew our own vitality and recognize our own life roles. Whistles are often reminders to listen closely - to pay attention to what is blowing on the winds. Reflects that we should be listening to the inner voice (the feminine) more closely for our own health and well-being. Almost always reflects a need to assert the feminine aspects of creativity and intuition more strongly. Can reflect a need to b more careful about your diet, that what you are eating may be injurious to yourself and affecting your overall vitality. Reflects the rhythm of 12 that is going to become more predominant within your own life. Reflects lessons associated with responsibility and the recognition of the task at hand. May reflect past-life connections with the church, or even a reviving of more traditional religious beliefs, regardless of denomination. Remind us to add color to our lives, and remember that everything is of importance.

Fly – [*from trustedpsychicmediums.com*]

When the fly spirit animal makes its way into your life, this usually serves as a warning that there’s danger lurking somewhere.

It means to catch your attention when you are spending too much of your time with someone or on something that has a destructive influence.

The fly meaning brings to focus to anything that’s causing harm to your life, whether of your own choosing or not. An example of this is giving in to societal pressures and indifference.

Just like the cricket spirit animal, the meaning of the fly also speaks about hate, spite, malice, or blame. It buzzes to be heard and flies overhead annoyingly until you are forced to swat or kill it with anything you can get your hands on.

However, before you dismiss the fly as nothing but bad and undesirable, the fly symbolism also speaks about cures for sicknesses (just like the deer symbolism).

The meaning of the fly also serves as a reminder that you reap what you sow.

What you put out there to the world will come back to you a hundredfold, so make sure that your actions, thoughts, and words come from a place of love and goodness.

The fly spirit animal symbolizes abundance and prosperity during times of adversity.

It sends the message that by being persistent, consistent, and determined even in the face of tragedy will result to victory.

The fly signifies encouragement, because it does a very excellent job of goading you with its presence until you surrender to what it wants and let you be.

It will always fasten on you, arouse you, reproach you, or persuade you, and will not be satisfied until you get on your feet and achieve what you set out to achieve.

Fox - Feminine Magic of Camouflage, Shapeshifting and Invisibility.

New world opening up. The process of creation is beginning. Guide to enter the Faerie Realm. Unless a male can recognize the magic of the feminine - in himself or others - and learn to use it to Shapeshifting his own life, it will ultimately lead to destruction. The Kundalini, and the freeing of the creative life force. Practicing and using camouflage. Working to blend in with surroundings, to come and go unnoticed, moving silently about without revealing your intentions. Learning to control the aura. Adjust its frequency and intensity so that you harmonize more with others. Levels of energy and fertility. If the focus stays on the creative energies, any sharp turn in the individual’s life will be handled with ease. Fox people have the ability to insulate themselves from anything that may seem cold, especially in relationships. Can appear larger than they are - for personal protection or for making greater impressions. Establish a trotting pace. Ability to move into new directions. Call upon new resources instinctively. Excellent ability to hear what is not being said. The ability to hear spirit. Size people up accurately. Develop the ability to see spirit. Aromatherapy. Awakening of the Kundalini. Higher forms of discrimination and discernment. Capture any prize.

Mouse - Attention to Detail.

It is either time to pay attention to details, or an indication that you cannot see the forest for the trees. You may be getting so locked into details that you forget the big picture. Are you taking care of the trivial, yet necessary, things of life? Are you getting so lost in big dreams that you are neglecting other aspects of your life? Are you becoming so focused on one or two activities that you are neglecting other opportunities? Are you missing what is right in front of you? Is there something obvious that you are missing or need to focus on? Are you trying to do too many things at once and therefore scattering your energies? Mouse can show how to pay attention to detail; how to attain the big things by working on the little things. Lessons associated with attention.

Swallow – Protection and Warmth for the Home and Proper Perspective

Communications may be more than what they appear. Are people saying things that actually have other meanings. Are we saying more than we realize? Do we need to listen more closely to what is being said and not be put off by who is saying it and what is said.It may even indicate that there is hidden wisdom in your own words or in the words of others. Do you need to be more controlling of things in your life? Are there a lot of little irritations Are there a lot of little irritations that are accumulating? Are you being too much of a “pesky insect” to others? Are you becoming to engrossed in the petty mundane activities of life and not moving on? Are others doing so? Do not allow yourself to become to enmeshed in the mundane. The swallow will often show up when you are allowing yourself to rehash old issues and problems and not move on. If swallow has shown up, it may be telling you that you are weakest when trying to handle things from strictly a mundane perspective. Rise above it. You are weakest in solving problems when you do not distance yourself from them. Objectivity is the key.