S11EP11: Make a Wish

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

WALT: Welcome to my Life is a Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

BJ & The Bull

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (4)

Brother John & Sister Jen

The Bee Man

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, October 22, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...Faded

Theme – What Kind of Fool am I

*sigh.* I hope I can find the words to bring this thought to light. I’ve said it before and I will say it again – I am awkward and odd. I’m just a little not right. [At least.] But that’s just it. That is precisely what I am. It is how I was made. It is what I do. But it is also what has suppressed me. It is steeped in duplexity. The parts of me that make me the person that I am – the person some people seem to enjoy, the person that in his own mysterious way uplifts – are the same parts of me that so many have ridiculed and abused. They are the parts I began to try to tweak out of being. Always attempting to wear the façade of something else entirely. [But, at the end of the day we are always right back where we started.] I Am That I Am. I have always said that I am The Fool – just a guy, dopin’ along. Again, this is what makes me…me. Dopin’ along is how I have accomplished everything. When I dope along things just fall naturally into place on their own. Meanwhile, in the real world, everyone seems to have plans and schemes and schedules and routines. Again. This is a trait of mine that has been judged and ridiculed and attacked time and time again. I have struggled so hard to do what everyone else does. It just doesn’t work for me. The more I push to do things that way the more troubles I seem to have. Conversely, the more I dope along the easier things seem to go.

Lesson – The Complexity of it All

I drive all day long and my only constant entertainment is thinking. I think about everything and I do have so much to think about. For instance, I see myself as lost for a very long time. So lost I didn’t even realize it. I feel all sorts of ways about this, but as I drive along and I think I can see all of these little moments in time – events, feelings, experiences, etc. – that just slowly over time fed into my being lost. It is this intricate web of moments. As usual, I projected this out onto the world and I see the same thing. Nothing is as simple as we like to think it is. Religions, cultures, governments, science, technology. Everything just overlaps and intertwines. We hold our smartphones in our hands and think nothing of it, but there is a whole history of technology behind the smart phone. In fact, the whole of existence – the beginning of all things – is so much more complex than we ever dare think about.

Observation – No Matter How Far Ahead I Get I am Always Still behind

Needless to say, this is once again a financial inspiration. I had a really good week financially. [All things considered.] I managed all sorts of things that I wanted or needed – some planned. Some spur of the moment. I even managed to pull some more ‘extra funds.’ [This really has been a whole new experience for me. What are ‘extra funds.’] But, in the end, even being ahead has left me not ahead at all. Those ‘extra funds’ have been claimed. They have a purpose in the upcoming week. So, once again, I find myself starting from square one with a mountain of expenses before me to climb. And one after that and one after that and another and then another mountain after that. Kind of reminds me of the drive from Las Vegas to San Diego. [The Bear went over the mountain and what do you think he saw?] I’m not being negative in any way. Believe me on that. It’s just an Observation. I think it is a natural cycle of life. I see it outside of finances too. I no sooner finish a project and there are three to take its place. It’s just how things go. At the end of the day, no matter how far we have come, we are always right back where we started. I’m beginning to wonder if the notions of ‘getting ahead’ and ‘advancement’ aren’t just illusions we create so we can feel as though there is a point or a purpose to it all – a reason for ‘being.’ [There is. But that’s a whole other Observation.]

The Post

I loved this week. I did. And I don’t even know why really. At first glance it looks like any other week. I worked. I slept. I took care of business here and there. But, everything just feels good right now.

October is a strange month for me anymore. Obviously, there is Samhain. Not only do I find that to be a particularly potent Holi-Day, but it also marks the Anniversary of my devotion to Spirit. Of course, October also brings the anniversary of my Day of Death. [Interesting, ena?] Now, October brings with it another anniversary – The Day I Knew. [Or, should have known.] October 5, 2022. Tuesday, I believe. [I was close. It was a Wednesday.]

That’s the day when everything began to shift with The Homestead. That’s the day that Spirit demonstrated itself to me in incredible ways.

The end of the month brings with it the beginning of The Dead Season. As usual, I can’t fathom or imagine how it all goes. I only know it goes. Yule happens whether I am ready or not. [Somehow, I always seem to end up ready.] And, it is all about Yule. 6 weeks prior for preparations. 6 weeks following for adjustments. Yule just teetering somewhere in the middle.

So, I have been a little extra contemplative of late I think.

For instance, I just had a random thought. Mom bought me one of Craze’s albums on eBay. It’s actually one of my favorites he recorded. Not to mention, it is by far one of my favorite album covers of all time. I was just looking at it and thinking about how I miss dad. Then I thought about how distant we were for so long. [Again, complexities and all of that. No one at fault and no one to blame. Just life happening the way it unfortunately did.]

So, my thought was, “It’s sort of like – better than saying I’m sorry is not having to. Better than mourning a lost past is making sure you get the most out of it without ego and anger and pettiness.”

[No regrets though. One can never regret. Such a wasted mindset,]

As I said in The Trinity, I have been thinking a lot about my life path – getting from there to here and all of the very bizarre and sometimes unfortunate points in between. I think it is all part of the healing process that began with the post from a few weeks ago. The healing is happening. I can feel it. And…it is a definite process.

Part of that is me. I am a stubborn, thick-headed sunnabitch. There is just a part of me that refuses to let go, move on and grow. [But…still I try.]

I’ve been thinking about The Homestead a lot this week. I don’t know if anyone can truly understand how much I appreciate The Homestead and how grateful I am for it. It’s not just an occasional thing either – like just sitting around one day and waxing sentimentally. [G-d I hope I got that right. The words came and then got stuck on the way out.] It is an everyday occurrence.

One good example of this is bedtime. No one will ever really know how much it means to me to not only be able to go to my own room at night but to actually have a bed. I think about that every night as I get in it. I think about it and I give thanks for it. Then I smile and snuggle in the blankets and get all cozy like a little kid satisfied with today and looking forward to tomorrow.

The biggest accomplishment this week was getting our first heating oil delivery. I’m such a grownup now. [Shh. Don’t tell anyone I said that.] We are running it a bit these past couple of days. Mostly because I am in a holding pattern for getting pellets for the stove. We had been using the stove overnight to keep a mild temp in the core of the house. Daytime is generally fine. The house stays warm on its own. Right now I just have the burner on.

I like this experience. The whole house is a comfortable temperature. Its not one room being overly hot because of the stove and another being cold because the heat doesn’t reach there. I don’t have to worry about warming up a room before I use it. I can be comfortable and relaxed without having to wear many, many layers.

I know a lot of people try to wait as long as they can to turn heat on. I do not. First, between having no hair on my head and very little circulation in my legs and feet, I get chilly very easily. I always have and I do not like it. I’ve never liked the cold. Heat I can do. I can tolerate heat. I’ve been through the desert in a car with no air. [Yes, you can sing that to the tune.]

Second, I have lived without proper heating – in vehicles, a tent, a treehouse. I’m not doing that to myself on purpose. I’m not making that choice. Fuck that shit. I work my ass off to have a home so that I can live comfortably and feel like a normal human being. I’m not gonna be cold just to prove a point or save a penny.

As I mentioned earlier, financially this was a really good week for me. I, honestly, don’t know how it worked out the way it did. It wasn’t even looking this promising at the end of the day yesterday.

Nonetheless, I managed all of my bills and expenses – even the ones that haven’t processed yet. This includes what I needed to get my support payments all caught up. Not just caught up from the missed payment last month but all caught up. No more arrears. [Though I’ll continue to pay as if there was.] Now that is not nearly as impressive as it sounds, Fellow Travelers, believe me. But it is still a nice feeling.

I did a few extra unexpected things this week. Like I went to Dollar Tree for all of the miscellaneous things that have been on my fridge list for over a month. I even went a lil heavier at Wally World this week. And, I even treated myself just a bit.

After all of this, I still cleared extra money – all above and beyond current needs. Now, as I said, that money has a purpose next week. It is just over the amount I need to close the gap in my budget and catch up the whole of my credit card payment – including what was missed last month. After that I am back to square one. I will need to start building up extra funds again. [Which is budgeted for next week. I just hope I can do it.]

Another advantage to the extra funding is that it gives me something with which to start my week. I have money there so that I can just do my tomorrow as I need to do it – which includes grocery store and pellets and such. I replace it with the money I make. But, it is there to start and that makes things a whole lot easier.

I think that is all for now, Fellow Travelers. As usual, I could prattle on for hours. [Which, technically, I have.] I think I have hit all of the important points at the moment so I am going to sign off and take some time for myself on this Day of Days.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Deer – Gentleness and Innocence – Gentle Luring to New Adventures

They have been able to adapt to every sort of habitat. Buddha is often pictured with a deer. Antlers are symbols of antennae, connections to higher forms of attunement. Look for new perceptions and degrees of perceptions to expand for as much as the next five years. Can indicate that there will be opportunities to stimulate gentle new growth increasingly over the next few years. Leads us back to the primal wisdom. A deer’s senses are very acute. Find increasing ability to detect subtle movements and appearances. Begin to hear what may not be said directly. Time to be gentle with yourself and others. A new innocence and freshness is about to be awakened or born. There is going to be a gentle, enticing lure of new adventures. Are you trying to force things? Are others? Are you being too critical and uncaring of yourself? An opportunity to express gentle love that will open new doors to adventure for you.

Fly – [*from trustedpsychicmediums.com*]

When the fly spirit animal makes its way into your life, this usually serves as a warning that there’s danger lurking somewhere.

It means to catch your attention when you are spending too much of your time with someone or on something that has a destructive influence.

The fly meaning brings to focus to anything that’s causing harm to your life, whether of your own choosing or not. An example of this is giving in to societal pressures and indifference.

Just like the cricket spirit animal, the meaning of the fly also speaks about hate, spite, malice, or blame. It buzzes to be heard and flies overhead annoyingly until you are forced to swat or kill it with anything you can get your hands on.

However, before you dismiss the fly as nothing but bad and undesirable, the fly symbolism also speaks about cures for sicknesses (just like the deer symbolism).

The meaning of the fly also serves as a reminder that you reap what you sow.

What you put out there to the world will come back to you a hundredfold, so make sure that your actions, thoughts, and words come from a place of love and goodness.

The fly spirit animal symbolizes abundance and prosperity during times of adversity.

It sends the message that by being persistent, consistent, and determined even in the face of tragedy will result to victory.

The fly signifies encouragement, because it does a very excellent job of goading you with its presence until you surrender to what it wants and let you be.

It will always fasten on you, arouse you, reproach you, or persuade you, and will not be satisfied until you get on your feet and achieve what you set out to achieve.

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill.

Mouse - Attention to Detail.

It is either time to pay attention to details, or an indication that you cannot see the forest for the trees. You may be getting so locked into details that you forget the big picture. Are you taking care of the trivial, yet necessary, things of life? Are you getting so lost in big dreams that you are neglecting other aspects of your life? Are you becoming so focused on one or two activities that you are neglecting other opportunities? Are you missing what is right in front of you? Is there something obvious that you are missing or need to focus on? Are you trying to do too many things at once and therefore scattering your energies? Mouse can show how to pay attention to detail; how to attain the big things by working on the little things. Lessons associated with attention.

Owl - The Mystery of Magic, Omens, Silent Wisdom, and Vision in the Night

Symbol of the feminine and the night. Ties to fertility and seduction. Bird of magic and darkness, of prophecy and wisdom. Symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection and magic, both black and white. Hints of the light of the sun, alive in the dark of night. Meditation on this alone will reveal much about the magic of Owl within your life. Will be able to see and hear what others are trying to hide. What is not being said. See what is hidden or in the shadows. Detect and pinpoint the subtleties. Unique ability to see into the darkness of others’ souls. And life. Their medicine can extract secrets. If your neck is stiff and inflexible, you are hindering your perceptions to a great degree. Often reflects that you were born very perceptive - with a vision of others that you may or may not have recognized or acknowledged. Unique ability for seeing into the eyes and souls of others. Keep silent and go about your business. Eliminate those aspects that are not beneficial and unhealthy.

Raccoon - Dexterity and Disguise

Also study Bear. Diet - vegetables and fruits. Expert at disguise and secrecy. Can teach you how to mask and disguise and transform yourself. Can teach you how to become dexterous in the masks you wear. Can show you how to wear a healing mask or show you the face of what you will become. Holds the knowledge of how to change our faces. Do you need to present a different face to people for greater success? Are you hiding your true self? Are others hiding their true selves? Learning to use masks to put one area of yourself to sleep so that another can be awakened. Will help you develop dexterity in using masks to achieve new and altered states and dimensions. 20 week cycles.

Raven - Magic, Shapeshifting, and Creation.

Bird of birth and death; mysticism and magic. Messenger of the great spiritual realm. Bring forth life and order. Can help you shape shift your life or your being. Knowledge of how to become other ‘animals’ and how to understand their language. Teach how to stir the magic of life without fear. Strong creative life force. Can be used to enter The Void and stir energies to manifest what you most need. Expect Magic. Somewhere in your life, magic is at play. Activates the energy of magic, linking it with your will and your intentions. Teaches how to take that which is unformed and give it the form you desire.

Penguin - Lucid Dreaming and Astral Projection

Reflects an awakening of dream consciousness. Expect to experience lucid dreams. As you change the dream state you also change the same energies that are playing upon you in your own waking life as well. The ability to leave the body. How to consciously go out of the body. Expert at slipping in and out of the body - in full consciousness. Feminine, birth-giving energies. Reflects a greater assertion and expression of that within your life. Very likely to be a two-month period in which you nurture, protect and help hatch your creative energies. Greater awakening in dreams, altered states and creation.

Eagle - Illumination of Spirit, Healing, and Creation.

Balance of being of the Earth, but not in it. The soul, the spirit, and warmth of life. The resurrection. Punishment and reward. Greater sight and perception. Reflects an awakening ability or the need to learn to walk between worlds. Heroic nobility and divine spirit. The rediscovery of the inner child. Alchemy. Involvement with creativity. A willingness to experience extremes in a controlled condition. A willingness to use your passions to purify and to use your abilities, even if you get scorched a little in the process. The need to stay connected to and use things of the Earth. Important to know when to speak, how much, how strongly. New vision will open. The ability to hear - spiritually and physically - may also increase. Cooperative responsibility. A healing role. Opportunities (even those thought long lost) will arise - learn to see and snatch them up. A new sense of timing and movement will begin to develop Primal force inherent and easily awakened. Take on the responsibility and the power of becoming so much more than you now appear to be. Events will now fly faster, repercussions for everything you think, do and say (or fail to) - positive and negative - will be both stronger and quicker. A powerful new dimension to life and a heightened responsibility for your spiritual growth. Touch all of life with healing and become the mediator and the bearer of new creative forces within the world.