S11EP12: Devine Immaculation

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It is…Sunday, October 29, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...Entertaining

Theme – Divine Grace

What can be said on this? Divinity blesses. It blesses everyone. All the time. It matters not – sinner or saint. G-d has always been forgiving. That is what Divine Grace is. G-d ever by our side. No matter what. I just can’t find better words thatn that at the moment.

Lesson – Some Goals Aren’t Meant to be Made

This is a tough pill to swallow. We set Goals because we want to meet them. We see them as accomplishment. We use them as guides to our productivity. Yet, some Goals don’t get met. I suppose it breaks down to not being about winning or losing but how you play. I didn’t make all of my Goals this week , but I put in the best effort that I could and I adjusted where necessary. I do not see it as failure but simply a step in the process.

Observation – Don’t be too Dismissive

I found my faced with a couple of different scenarios this week, both of which challenged my ‘space’ as me. One challenged my devotion to G-d. Accused me of being more about my fleshly life. My initial reaction was dismissal and denial. But, as I thought on it, I realized there may be some truth to it. I mean, at the end of the day, I am always devoted to G-d. But, maybe I have been distracted by my worldly existence – worrying too much about money and things and occasional pleasures. The other one was different. I don’t want to get into details – that would just lead to further issues. Nonetheless, it was a situation in which I offended – inadvertently – and this person attacked me for it. I have my feelings on things. I didn’t really do anything wrong and I didn’t appreciate her voicing her feelings in the manner she did, still, I cannot be too dismissive of others’ feelings – even when I don’t understand them.

The Post

It’s been a week. But, then, It is always a week. I can’t say that it was particularly good or bad. It just was.

I made the decision early on Monday morning that I was going to take the day off. That had not been the original plan, but, as I waited around for Cuddlebug to get up so we could go take care of something, I just really wasn’t feeling it.

I’ve had this resistance to days off – ever since The Homestead came into play. Still, they always seem to happen. I thought about this on Monday morning and then I went back and looked at my previous weeks. [This is why I keep record of everything.]

With the exception of just one week, every week for the past 8 weeks [now 9] I have either had a day off or a day that had such very low income it is obvious that I stopped somewhere in the middle of the day. I know some of these were days when I went out early and both breakfast and lunch were slow so I headed home. But, most of those weeks were just full on days off.

I looked at that and I thought about it. I don’t like taking the days off for financial reasons. Yet, they’ve been happening on their own. And, still, here I am. I’ve made it this far. I thought about how Spirit had put an emphasis on downtime for so long. So, I decided to just do it.

It was a productive day. First on the list was to run and pick up some old tires I had found. One of my customers on Saturday had a whole bunch of them and he said I could help myself. I want to use them for some gardening projects. [And there may be a tire swing in the plans.]

On the way home from there I stopped at the hardware store up the street and grabbed some wood pellets. I came home and unloaded. Then I piddled around with this and that before heading out to do grocery shopping. I may have done some laundry that day. I don’t know what all I got done. The day is kind of overshadowed by what I consider maybe the greatest ‘gift’ received since The Homestead.

I went to The Club Store on Monday. I have taken to getting a few items there regularly – my soda, our bread, the general use coffee, paper goods. A Penny Saved is a Penny Earned. I save enough pennies just between the soda and the bread to make it worth a journey to more than one store.

Anyway, as you enter the main part of the store – past the electronics – there is a cellular carrier kiosk. As I walked past, the associate stopped me. I got the whole pitch. This was a deal for Club Members only. I couldn’t even get this deal at the same carrier’s retail stores. I am getting unlimited services – calls and texts and data and hotspot. I have a much upgraded phone. For the first time ever, I am only 1 generation behind in iPhones. It is 5G+. It has double the storage. It has a much better camera and severely better audio. I am paying $20/month for the phone. This is quite the difference from the $8/month I was paying for the last phone. I am paying $18/month for a protection plan with up to 8 claims. {this is good for a clutz like me.] All of this for less than what I was paying my last carrier.

Now, my previous carrier paid my Netflix bill. They covered a portion [up to a certain dollar amount] and I paid them the difference. I could add Netflix back in, even at the extraordinary fee they are charging now, and still be saving about $10/month.

This does not include the $6-7/month in bill credits I will receive [up to $250.] Nor does it include any Autopay discounts [up to $10.] Nor does it include a downgrade in Netflix subscription.

All of this and I am saving enough each month to make it a blessing. [Plus, I get a $100 gift card for the Club Store.]

This was a necessary move – not just financially. I needed a new phone. My old one was just that – old. It did not have the service I needed. The audio was shit and that made it difficult to work. I had to Bluetooth my phone to the radio in order to hear. I haven’t had to Bluetooth this phone once. I did it once, but I didn’t have to do it.

Ultimately, it is at least partially a business expense so that is also a bit of a consolation.

After that, the week was as every week is really. I went out and worked. I came home, did some stuff, went to bed and repeated it.

I think my shifted, or forged itself between Monday and Wednesday. As I said, I took Monday off and I feel that was a necessary step. However, Wednesday I had a credit card payment due. This is one of those two bills that I missed last month. I fixed the one and I was really hoping to do the same with this one.

I didn’t quite make it. I wanted to. I wanted to despite the fact that I hadn’t quite made the money in time. I considered that it could be seen as an act of Faith. There was time to make the money or fix mistakes. So, I thought maybe I should just pay the full amount and roll the dice.

I don’t know if any of y’all have ever gambled with me, Fellow Travelers, but my luck is historically not the best. So, I decided to just pay what I could, which was what I had budgeted, and it was somewhere in between – not the lowest, not the highest.

I don’t like that it went down that way. It could have gone down different if I had worked on Monday. But…Monday was perfect, so how can I doubt or regret the choice. Some Goals are not Supposed to be Met.

I got through my week. Just barely. At the close of today, I had what I needed to finish covering my bills for the week, plus $9 and some change. It’s not the win for which I was hoping, but it is a win I will take. I need to be cautious though, Fellow Travelers. The situation almost evolved into old habits – borrowing ahead and figuring I can deal with it later.

Sunshine is coming up for dinner tomorrow night and the three of us are going to continue our Halloween tradition of Nightmare Before Christmas. Every year, we watch this on [or close to] Halloween. We consider it the transition movie. It marks the beginning of our Christmas Movie Season.

We weren’t sure if Sunshine was going to make it up and I flat out told Cuddlebug, “This is my start to Christmas Movies. I cannot start watching them until I have watched this. I am not going to wait long before I just watch it.”

So, she is coming up and we are going to have our English muffin pizzas [I still can’t believe how much Cuddlebug loves those to this day.] We’re also going to have some mozz stix and I have some sort of like cinnamon toast crunch cookies to make. [That might have been muffin tops. Nonetheless, I have sweets to bake.] I may even make the first batch of hot chocolate for the season.

My challenge is this – I have no funds. I need some groceries. Tomorrow is Monday.

The plan, originally, was to start just taking Mondays off. I need a day to take care of miscellaneous projects and tasks. A day when I can focus on them. ‘Tis best to have that day planned, ena? But, I need the groceries, which means I have to make the money before I can buy them. So, my plan is to work lunch, make the money I need to cover my day, and then be done. [All in all, I think I need to make like $65, which should be doable.]

We will see. I may change the plan once more. We shall see.

Overall, I feel good about life at the moment.

My own life.

The world is another story. I’m not sure I wish to delve into all of that at this particular moment. Just as I said early this year that this would be the year we find out there are aliens, I say that something is coming. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know when it is. We can speculate, and we can dabble with prophecy, but we will not really know until it is here and by then it is too late.

[This is why I didn’t want to get into this. Don’t be too Dismissive.]

So, in one of my many religious debates on Facebook this week [and this is a sin I really must give up – though it does humor me so sometimes] someone exposed me to passages from Revelations of which I believe I had previously heard but never read. When I read them I saw a very specific image. The image had been burned into my mind and has replayed itself many times in the past week.

This is precisely why I think Revelations should not be in The Bible.

My experience with Revelations is minimal. The reason is that I cannot read past the first few verses. Revelations is steeped in symbolism – from beginning to end. I do not believe there is a single thing in that book that should be taken literally.

What you should know, Fellow Travelers, is that my mind is programmed towards symbolism. I recognize it. I don’t always know what it means but I recognize it. There have been times I have recognized it without knowing what it was and finding out some time later. I know that I have read a quote, something along the lines of, “When man learns to understand the language of symbols, he will know everything.” [Not verbatim at all I don’t think.]

The minute I spot symbolism, some part of my mind begins to cypher and play. It happens more in a day than one would ever care to know. It has happened for as long as I can remember.

There is a book – one I will not name at the moment. In the book there is a code. It is just a string of letters. No pattern. No system of cryptography that we know of. I do not, in this moment, recall any numbers. (Numbers really wouldn’t make sense.)It is said that the person who can translate it is…I don’t know…’The One.’ [The One what I’m really not sure.]

I can remember reading that code. I can remember the way it etched itself into my mind and my visions, just as the one from Revelations. In fact, I can still see bits of the code in the depths of my mind. I will accept this, because up until 2 months ago, I haven’t thought about that code since the day I read it.

I can remember, the girl I was involved with at the time got huffy with me. “Why do you always think you have to be the one to know?” Valid point, but in this case…I know. I don’t know what the code says. What I know is that somewhere deep in my consciousness is the answer. I know this because I recognized that code on a very deep soul level. I recognized it on a level equal with those that have guided me through so much.

That is exactly how I feel about my Revelations image. I got an image. I got precisely the image one would imagine. But that image is now what I ‘saw.’ It’s not what I felt. That image is just that. It is an image meant to allude to something else. Something, I fear, that is much, much bigger.

In other new – I met a person this week. A female person. Now, this is not to announce, nor herald, some wonderful event. It is simply a recounting of a moment.

The encounter was mostly business with a dash pf personal. It flowed well – back and forth. Not just from me to her but from business to personal. It was a nice interaction. One like I haven’t had in quite some time. Again, I am not making anything out of anything. The moment left an impression with me so I would like to mark it.

What has my attention more than anything is that I am realizing that she just sort of drew me in – on an energetic/soul level. In fact, she so drew me in that, as I look back, I can recognize The Haze. I went slightly on the defensive with her.

After we were done and I had walked away I remembered the first time I saw her. You see, Fellow Travelers, this was the first time we spoke but it was not the first time her energy caught my attention. I can remember that moment. I can feel it.

I loathe to say it, because I never thought I would ever say it again in my life, but…I think she was a Timestopper. I know that vibe. Everything comes to a hault for just a moment and that moment is etched into the mind. It happened with Mama Rabbit and with DancingQueen. It happened with The Girl. It happened every single day with She Who Shall not be Named.

I don’t even know how to process the presence of a new Timestopper in my life. Quite frankly, I refuse to even give it consideration.

Nonetheless, it may have all been but a fleeting moment or there could be other things on the horizon. Perhaps a friendship. Or, if nothing else, maybe she will become another of the many fun acquaintances whom I have strewn around The Valley.

One final thought.

I have a lot of healing and work to do. I’ve been trying, but that is the problem – I’m trying. There is no try. There is do or do not. Do not misunderstand. There are improvements and shifts every day of my life. But, the big things really need some focus and those will take commitment on my part.

It’s time. It’s too late, really. But, it’s time.

So, I must begin making different choices. Stronger choices. Healthier choices. I know I have it in me. I have caught glimpses of the remnants from days gone by. That spirit still lives. If I can’t do it for myself, then I must do it out of certain gratitude to Spirit. My life has changed drastically this past year and The Homestead has been a great part of that.

With that being said, I am going to sign off, Fellow Travelers. We are still under the Full Moon and my soak is long overdue.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Blue Jay - Proper Use of Power

It can reflect lessons in using your own power properly. It can also reflect lessons in not allowing yourself to be placed in a position in which power is misused against you. It has the ability to link the heavens and the earth, to access each for greater power. This is a totem that can move between both and tap the primal energies at either level. Higher knowledge that can be used. The main problem will be dabbling in both worlds, rather than becoming a true master of both. Usually have a tremendous amount of ability, but it can be scattered or it is often not developed any more than is necessary to get by. Not unusual to find individuals with the Jay totem being dabblers - especially in the psychic and metaphysical fields. They know a little bit about a lot of things and they use that knowledge sometimes to give the impression that they know more. Wear the crown of true master ship requires dedication, responsibility, and committed development in all things in the physical and spiritual. A reminder to follow through on all things - to not start something and then leave it dangling. A time of greater resourcefulness and adaptability is about to unfold. Going to have ample opportunities to develop and use your abilities. Look for ample time to develop and use your energies to access new levels. Actually a member of the crow family, most crows have no fear. It is because of this the Jay can help you connect to the deepest mysteries of the earth and the greatest of the heavens. This sense of seeking pleasure - often at the expense of others - can reflect an imbalance. Sometimes jay shows up when this is happening in your own life. A tremendous ability for survival with the least amount of effort. They reflect great talent, but that talent must be developed and utilized properly. It indicates that you are moving into a time where you can develop your innate royalty that is within you, or simply be a pretender to the throne. It all depends on you.

Duck – Emotional Comfort and Protection

Linked to the feminine energies, the astral plane, and to the emotional state of humans. Can remind us to drink from the waters of life as well as to nurture our own emotional natures. Reminding us we can find sustenance in our emotions. May reflect an inability to feel comfortable with most people in your life. It may reflect a need to find comfort in your own element and with those of life mind and spirit. Can remind us that we are going to have such an opportunity. May reflect past-life connections. They can help you to handle your own emotions with greater grace and comfort. Teach you how to maneuver through various waters of life.

Fly – [*from trustedpsychicmediums.com*]

When the fly spirit animal makes its way into your life, this usually serves as a warning that there’s danger lurking somewhere.

It means to catch your attention when you are spending too much of your time with someone or on something that has a destructive influence.

The fly meaning brings to focus to anything that’s causing harm to your life, whether of your own choosing or not. An example of this is giving in to societal pressures and indifference.

Just like the cricket spirit animal, the meaning of the fly also speaks about hate, spite, malice, or blame. It buzzes to be heard and flies overhead annoyingly until you are forced to swat or kill it with anything you can get your hands on.

However, before you dismiss the fly as nothing but bad and undesirable, the fly symbolism also speaks about cures for sicknesses (just like the deer symbolism).

The meaning of the fly also serves as a reminder that you reap what you sow.

What you put out there to the world will come back to you a hundredfold, so make sure that your actions, thoughts, and words come from a place of love and goodness.

The fly spirit animal symbolizes abundance and prosperity during times of adversity.

It sends the message that by being persistent, consistent, and determined even in the face of tragedy will result to victory.

The fly signifies encouragement, because it does a very excellent job of goading you with its presence until you surrender to what it wants and let you be.

It will always fasten on you, arouse you, reproach you, or persuade you, and will not be satisfied until you get on your feet and achieve what you set out to achieve.

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill.

Owl - The Mystery of Magic, Omens, Silent Wisdom, and Vision in the Night

Symbol of the feminine and the night. Ties to fertility and seduction. Bird of magic and darkness, of prophecy and wisdom. Symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection and magic, both black and white. Hints of the light of the sun, alive in the dark of night. Meditation on this alone will reveal much about the magic of Owl within your life. Will be able to see and hear what others are trying to hide. What is not being said. See what is hidden or in the shadows. Detect and pinpoint the subtleties. Unique ability to see into the darkness of others’ souls. And life. Their medicine can extract secrets. If your neck is stiff and inflexible, you are hindering your perceptions to a great degree. Often reflects that you were born very perceptive - with a vision of others that you may or may not have recognized or acknowledged. Unique ability for seeing into the eyes and souls of others. Keep silent and go about your business. Eliminate those aspects that are not beneficial and unhealthy.