S11EP8: A Title Eludes Me

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

WALT: Welcome to my Life is a Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

BJ & The Bull

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (4)

Brother John & Sister Jen

The Bee Man

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, September 24, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...???

Theme – The Psychology of Being

I find the mind to be a curious thing. We know it is a complex thing and yet I feel as though we take it for granted. It has such subtleties to it. Here is the most subtle from my week. I have a portable work table in the kitchen that I use as an island counter. I spent a long time tweaking it [sometimes by the millimeter] into place. I wanted it placed so one could move around it comfortably and it wouldn’t interfere with nor block any large appliances. The kids have been moving it when they are cooking in the kitchen. I realized this the other morning – not because I could see it. It happened as I was moving around the table to the fridge. I turned and found that I had to pop my hips out to the side to make the turn without hitting the table. I thought, “that’s outta place.” My body, my mind, knew exactly where to turn based on every other morning. It’s a subtle thing. Slight. But it shines a light on how the mind might process. Likewise, I noticed that when the handle came off the door, I had a brief moment of panic. Irrational of course, but it happened. Just a flash of “WTF! How do I get out of here.” Completely irrational, but it happened. Naturally. Even though I knew better. Or how, when I was manipulating things to get out of The Rocket each time – open the window, reach out and open door, close window, turn off car – I would automatically reach for the door handle even though I knew it wasn’t there. It’s just funny. The Mind.

Lesson – Sometimes You Just Have to Suck it Up

This came first with the door handle. I wanted so bad for them to be able to fix it on Monday. I just wanted to avoid the aggravation and added stress of it all. I realize it wasn’t a great burden. I just didn’t feel very much in the mood for it. It wasn’t done Monday or Tuesday. It wasn’t even done Wednesday or Thursday. I had to deal with it until Friday morning. It also came this week by way of the heating system in The Rocket. It’s been messed up for a few weeks now. It hasn’t messed with me too much until this weekend. It was cold and damp and rainy all weekend. It was an almost miserable experience. I managed. I found ways to fake it. Such as using the heated seat to pretend I was warm. N both situations I just had to suck it up. I feel like there is going to be quite a bit of this in the near future.

Observation – The Key to Finishing is Beginning

Obviously. It seems so simple. And I know this. But it came up twice this week and it just got me thinking about the whole of life I guess. It was mentioned with The Putter as we discussed my current staff crafting projects. I said, “I guess the best way to go at it is to just sit down and do it.”

The Post

I have been sitting here for just over an hour trying to start writing. I know there are things to write. I know there are 1,000 things on my mind. I do not know if it is a difficulty in finding words or a challenge in focusing. Maybe I just don’t know where to begin.

Monday morning I had a hard time getting myself moving. I wasn’t really feeling the day. The first thing I had to do was run to The Mechanic about the door handle. I was really hoping that maybe they could get it done later that day. I figured I could deal with it for several hours. Unfortunately, they could not. We needed to order the part and get it to the shop first.

I don’t know if I used this as an excuse to stay home for the day or recognized it as a sign to do so. In either case, I went back home. I felt frazzled. I did not want to add to that with the chaos of just trying to get out of the car. I also had to order the part. When we looked on their auto parts sites the piece was coming up $50-100. I commented that I had seen it for like $11 on a google search.

I did find the part on Amazon. It actually came to $9.53 total. I joined a trail membership of Prime for the free shipping. I chuckled a bit at this because I am sure we will just keep it and this was The Universe’s way of forcing me into a membership. There are always things I need or want, but it is often difficult for me to find them or to get to a place where I know it is. I also try to budget myself $20 for random things every week. [It is also usually one of the first things to be cut from the budget.] I’ve never really used Amazon for anything because I wasn’t paying the shipping. With the inclusion of Prime Video in the membership, I see it more as just another streaming service. Only this one offers me free shipping.

I spent the day in a zone. I’m not even sure I can describe it for you Fellow Travelers. I moved slow that day. I’m looking at my notes but I still can’t tell yo0u much about that day. I know I was feeling very spiritual and zenful. I couldn’t quite figure out why. The Moon was over.

Nonetheless, I did spend some time communing with the property. In particularly, the red maple in the front yard. It spoke to me. Showed me things. At Old Geistopia there was a large maple tree right at the edge of the driveway. It had been growing there all of my life. There was something about that tree. People were drawn to it. People loved to climb up and sit in it. Cuddlebug used to call it Friend Tree. I believe that this maple is the new Friend Tree.

I also spent some time in revelry over The Homestead. This happens every so often, but in brief and fleeting moments. This was a more drawn out thing. I honestly don’t know if I will ever really get used to it all, but I am so very grateful that I have it.

I have notes here for Tuesday as well. Very few of them mean anything to me. The only one that makes sense is ‘bills, groceries, gas.’ With Monday off, these things would have been a challenge for me on Tuesday.

After that, I kind of lose the week. Things happened, but I don’t know if I can tell you on which day or when or how. For instance, at one point, amidst the haze and confusion of whatever was going on with me, I realized that it was Rosh Hashanah. That moment made the whole of everything suddenly make sense.

As I said, I was going through this haze/. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. I knew the New Moon was over so there should have been nothing of its influence. But, Rosh Hashanah, that would make perfect sense.

Or in another moment – one day I was washing something at the kitchen sink. I was talking to myself. [And the camera.] I said some sort of, “Amen,” or, “Halleluiah.” I can’t remember what I said. I just know that I got this weird vibe. My head popped up and I said, “Who did I just call? That was not a normal Jesus call.” Next thing I know, I’m muttering, “Mas…Mas…Mas” [Like Maz] over and over again. Finally, I went and got my angel books. Sure enough. There is an angel – Maskiel. All I have found on ‘him’ [angels don’t really have a gender] is that ‘he’ is “one of the guardians of the First Heaven.”

Beyond that, for the most part, I would say it was a typical week. I still struggled with that work/home balance. Some days I think it is working. Other days I am not so sure. I did get some stuff done around The Homestead – including a little bit in The Workshop. Just little bits at a time.

I have been working on a OneNote Notebook for The Homestead. Just something to organize thoughts and help keep all three of us on track with what we need and what needs to be done. I managed to get that together a little bit. Enough to print out some focus pages to hang on the fridge anyway.

I was able to go and see Sunshine in the band at the Fair. I did not make the second day, because that is actually when they worked on the door handle.

I juggled my finances as always. I managed to finish the week $7 and change ahead of myself. I don’t carre if it is only several dollars. Starting even slightly ahead of myself is so much better than always startng $100+ behind myself.

However…

As usual in my life, there has been an odd development. For reasons I cannot explain [mostly because I do not understand them and cannot get clear answers] I have been suspended from instant payouts on one of the apps. This has created quite a situation.

You have to figure that that app is about 50% of my income. Some days it is the higher amount. Some days it is the lower. Every day it is needed. So, right off the bat, in the first three days, I had to figure out how to get by on just the one app’s income. It wasn’t terrible. Fortunately, there were no huge bills coming out in those days.

The bigger problems start tomorrow. First, I do not know when, exactly, I will get the money. They say payout on Monday, but that could potentially mean that it won’t clear until Tuesday. Now, I did make an attempt. We will see how it works. I looked a things and [I believe] I have set the payout to go to my debit card instead of the bank account itself. That should get it to clear tomorrow. We will see.

But, tomorrow, I also face the problem I didn’t have last week. I have some big bills due this week. One of them is due tomorrow. There is no way I can pay it. Won’t make that kind of money in one day on just the one app. It’s not just the bill I need but also gas money.

Once again, all I can do is just take the days as they come and see what I can make of them.

I’m still analyzing all of my meditations and insights from last week. I thought I would write on them tonight but I still do not feel ready. It is a lot of information.

The week ahead could be interesting.

First, I am dog sitting and pet tending for The Mudder. They have flown off on adventures of their own and needed someone to tend to the pets. The dog has come to stay with us at the house. She is too much of a love bug to be alone in that house for a week. The others I just need to pop in for a moment twice a day and feed, etc.

The challenge will be Saturday when the dog has to go back. I also have a parade for Sunshine that day./ Plus I am very much [to my knowledge, but then what do I ever know about my own life] very much have to work.

I have looked at my week several times now. I already can’t pay this first bill on time. It is not critical and I may just let it slide for the moment and clean up the mess on the back end. There is another large bill this week. It too may have to be brushed off and dealt with on the flip side.

I have a Meeting Place event on Tuesday. The Parade on Saturday. And Sunshine’s birthday party on Sunday.

We shall see.

First, I need to survive my atonement.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill.

Heron - The Call of The Quest and Travels to Legendary Places.

Reflects a stimulation of the childhood thrill and belief in legendary places. [The story(s) we most loved in childhood often reflect the life quest we have come to take upon us in this lifetime.] Can also aid in communication especially through the use of stories. Individuals wishing to write can facilitate the process by working with a goose totem. It will stimulate the creative process and help to move through creative blocks. Also a symbol of fertility and marital fidelity. May reflect a need for more vegetables in the diet. An ability to move forward or backward. Reflects movement. A call to the spiritual quest. It reminds us that as any one individual makes his or her quest, it becomes easier for others to do so as well. We should not undertake any quest in life without having a full view of what it entails. Opening to new possibilities. Affix ourselves to a new path. Great fertility that should be acted upon if growth is desired. Greater vision, physical and spiritual, will occur. Can reflect that you are about to break free from old childhood restraints and begin to come into your own. You can expect to have the imagination stirred toward new travels and distant places - whether in the body or in the mind.

Owl - The Mystery of Magic, Omens, Silent Wisdom, and Vision in the Night

Symbol of the feminine and the night. Ties to fertility and seduction. Bird of magic and darkness, of prophecy and wisdom. Symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection and magic, both black and white. Hints of the light of the sun, alive in the dark of night. Meditation on this alone will reveal much about the magic of Owl within your life. Will be able to see and hear what others are trying to hide. What is not being said. See what is hidden or in the shadows. Detect and pinpoint the subtleties. Unique ability to see into the darkness of others’ souls. And life. Their medicine can extract secrets. If your neck is stiff and inflexible, you are hindering your perceptions to a great degree. Often reflects that you were born very perceptive - with a vision of others that you may or may not have recognized or acknowledged. Unique ability for seeing into the eyes and souls of others. Keep silent and go about your business. Eliminate those aspects that are not beneficial and unhealthy.