S3EP11: All the Wonder (Wonder Who-be-doo-be-do)

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It is…Sunday, March 13, Two-Thousand and Twenty-New. Time...Aspiring

Theme – Nuances

It’s the little things. It’s the subtleties of any given moment. It is all the things we may tend to overlook and toss aside – the timing, the thoughts, the ‘coincidence.’ It’s those details that seem commonplace, even random, that tell us the most. It’s that song on the radio. A sign along the side of the road. A conversation. A thought or feeling. These are the things that help us gauge where we are – tell us what we need to know.

The devil’s in the details.

Lesson – Focus

This is one of those multi-layer things. It is not just a matter of what to focus on but how to focus. For instance, this week I was fortunate enough to notice and recognize that it takes me more focus to try to do just one thing at a time. I think this is because other things offer brief distractions. When there are no distractions I must focus hard to not allow them to surface. “Focus on what you want,” was a core of this Lesson. That can get a little tricky. But more on that in a bit.

Observation – Now Everything is Perfect

It is so easy to get caught up in what lies ahead of us – next month, next week…tomorrow. The future always holds challenges and obstacles. But, it is always so full of twists and turns that around some of them also wait blessings and gifts. We never know how things are going to unfold. Do not worry about tomorrow. Instead, focus on right here, right now. I find that when I do this, I realize that in the moment, every moment, all is as it should be. In the moment, I am healthy and fed and sheltered. In the moment, I am working or resting – as needed. In the moment, I always have what I need, when I need it. If I do not have it, it is not yet needed.

The Post

This really was quite the week. I’m still kind of feeling it all – shaking it off. “Bad” things happened but it wasn’t bad. Though, nor was it necessarily “good,” despite the immense blessings along the way. If anything, it seemed a perfect blend of both.

I had to deal with my Distractions this week. I’m still dealing with them. Wrestling and struggling from time to time. I’ve even struggled with my Distractions through this writing – being led off from time to time. But I am finding that more and more each day they seem to be slowly dissipating. The more I am in the van the less I can smoke. The less I smoke the less I seem to crave and the more I am able to put off having the next one. The more I have before me to take care of the less I am killing idle time with games. There are still times I have to remind myself the gaming can wait. Of course, it is in these moments that I must use that focus to stay on task. I have a long way to go and a lot of work to do, but for the first time in many years I actually feel like I can conquer all of my Distractions, one by one.

Monday, I was on top of the world. I knew there were shifts and changes waiting around the corner but they hadn’t some yet. I was choosing not to think about them while I didn’t have to do so. I had a whole new week before me. I got up and headed out into my day ready to conquer the world.

For the most part, I did. I had a good strong day on Monday – both financially and spiritually. I was feeling good all around. Monday night all of that would change.

It was towards the very end of the business day. I was in The Nest, chilling and minding my own business. I was just trying to do the day the best way that I could. Then the call came in. This was the call I knew was coming but was happy to put off and ignore as long as possible The Vantasm is being totaled. I knew it was going to be. But I was also being hopeful that it wouldn’t because totaling my only vehicle brings with it a host of problems and hurdles.

No vehicle means loss of work and income. Eventually it means no home. No vehicle means not seeing The Princesses. There was the question of whether the total value would cover the remaining financing obligation. The question of what I would do for work. The question of where I would live after the time at The Nest is through. The question of how I would get The Nest emptied of my stuff. The question of how or when I would be able to get another vehicle. What kind of vehicle?

What would happen when I ran out of income? All of my other bills would stop getting paid. Credit cards. My phone. My phone which would be my only way to even communicate with my daughters. All the streaming services that they use for entertainment at home with their mom.

I even called my daughters to tell them what was happening and to paint the very same worst case scenario for them so that nothing could take them by too much surprise later.

I left a status update on Facebook announcing the total loss and that I would have no vehicle and no income. [I also posted a second one with a brief financial update and plan.]

Someone gave me a hard time about my obviously negative post. Even The Professor suggested that I was worrying a bit too much. I’m not going to deny that I delved into negativity and fear right off the bat. I realize this is not a way to live, but in the long run such an approach seems to help me.

Right off the bat, if I can see the worst case scenario I can accept it. Then, if it happens, it’s not a complete shock to the system. I have already gone through the shock. [Which I did. I’m fairly certain on Tuesday I was still in a bit of a state of shock.]

The other thing it allows me to do is then work backwards, seeing the worst case scenario happening piece by piece. Eventually, I can compartmentalize all of that. I can put everything into it’s proper perspective and keep moving onward, ready for [almost] anything. If this happens then I need to do this, this and this. If that happens then these are the challenges I face next.

In this way, I am, at least, mentally prepared. Everything is in it’s place – time frames and all. So, I am prepared for but not focusing on the worst. One of my favorite quotes is, “You cannot promote peace and prepare for war.” You cannot say one thing and do another. What you put out comes back to you. What you feed grows. So, it becomes a tricky thing but I think this approach balances it out. Once I have explored the possibilities I can put them all aside and keep on keeping on in the most positive manner I can. For example, in a panic on Monday night/Tuesday morning I was thinking about having to empty out The Nest. Right away I was ready to start doing it while I still had the rental vehicle to use. But, the truth is, there isn’t much to it and I have until the end of April. It is legit a two day project. I can be packed up one day and then move it out the next [in one or two loads.] Maybe I have to rent a truck or have a friend help me. But, that is a problem for then not now.

That’s the thing when we live in worry. We see all of the challenges and hurdles as one. We see the conglomerate of what they are and not the individual pieces. If we separate them then we can put them into perspective. Most of the challenges become a problem for any number of tomorrows. And, we all know – Do not Worry About Tomorrow for Tomorrow Shall Take Care of Itself.

So, moving on. During my initial conversation with the salvage claims for this other insurance company, I learned that the total value was not going to cover the remainder of the financing. However, the question was raised to whether or not I had Gap Insurance. I was unsure and that paperwork isn’t with me. It’s stored in The Cave. And, already, in that first dialogue, we jumped the first hurdle.

Currently, I have a rental vehicle – on this company’s tab. They wanted to end the rental on the 18th. However, The Princesses and I have plans which include their friends. I was able to get the rental until the 21st. [Yes, essentially, I have one more week before real challenges may start.] Nonetheless, I have preserved that time with my daughters.

Like I said, I called them and we went over the worst case scenario. We talked about my inability to travel and see them. We talked about the subscriptions that would end. And, we talked about what might be our last two weekends for some time. Next weekend when their friends are coming and also this weekend that has now passed. We talked about the possibility of me taking this weekend off from The Theatre so that we could really spend some time together without me having to go to work for several hours a day.

When I was finished with The Princesses, I took a second call from the salvage claims. On this call I would learn that they had talked to my finance company and that the finance company said I did have gap insurance on The Vantasm. That was one worry put to rest.

Before Monday night came to a close, someone gifted me $500. [Of course, I offered to do some work in exchange for it, but for now, it is still a gift.] I now had, at least, the beginning of a down payment for something else.

It’s important to recognize that, financially, I started this week the same as I have every week for some time now – at square one. My bills of the past week were caught up and paid and anything I needed to spend this week I also needed to earn. This has been the pattern for a while now. Honestly, it is better than the pattern just before it when I was starting each week just a little bit behind and my first day of work was earning money for things already spent.

Monday was done and now it was time to face Tuesday. I was a little tired and spent. There wasn’t much sleep on Monday night and there was even less rest. But I got up and set out to face my day.

The thing about Tuesday is that there was a safety meeting planned for 1100. This is never a good time for me to stop working, but The Professor was going to be down from the mountain and that’s when he would be here. I made no promises when the subject had come up but I did set out to manipulate things into place for it. I had enough notice that I was able to work ahead just enough to cushion myself for taking that time off. However, I was going to tell The Professor [and I did] that I can’t do them at that time anymore. 1400 is the earliest I can think about stopping the clock.

Anyway, I headed out into the day. I figured I could get a few or more hours of deliveries in before I set off to the meeting. Now like I said I was tired. I was still in a haze of shock and also fighting off the weight of the negative possibilities before me.

Follow the Flow.

Let things unfold naturally before you. I wrestled with that through my morning but near the end of my driving shift I had finally reigned it in a bit. I got this ding for a delivery. Now you need to know that they only tell you the basics. The app will tell you where you are picking up and show you an overall map so you can see approximately where you are going. This app also includes a listing of the nearest crossroads to the delivery. So, I had a vague idea of where I was going. I was picking up here and dropping off somewhere over there.

Over there was going to position me closer to The Putter’s. I figured if I would have another hour-ish of available work and if I chose my deliveries wisely I could keep moving in that direction and making money at the same time.

So, I picked up the order and set off for the destination. I was feeling OK at this point. I wasn’t quite my full vibrant self yet but I was also not feeling the excess weight of my worries. I was in a sort of Void in-between. As I started to get closer to my destination I took a closer look at where I was going. I was dropping off at a car dealership. Suddenly, all of these bells and whistles started going off in my head.

When the accident first happened, I went through the same worse-case scenario experience. Coming out of that one I had thought about the last time my car was hit and damaged beyond repair. Ultimately, that is what put me in The Vantasm. That vehicle was an absolute blessing for me and changed my life significantly. Perhaps, I thought, this accident will hurl me towards something even better. Maybe it would lead me to a new vehicle.

Now, here I was, on my way to a car dealership. I decided that while I was there I would talk with someone briefly – drop my basic scenario and my contact information and we would talk in depth later. I walked into the reception area to learn that it wasn’t this car lot I was delivering to but the one next door. It’s on the same property and run by the same dealership, but it is a different make of car.

More bells and whistles. This particular make of vehicle had just come up between me and my mechanic within the last week and a half. I was asking him about a couple of different makes of vehicle that had caught my eye while I was out and about in my day. He said, “if you’re gonna go with one of those, go with this one.” And now here I was.

I delivered the food and they put me in touch with a salesman. I actually spent more time there than I had originally intended. In fact, I spent the rest of my working hour there – and then some. We looked at a vehicle and talked this, that, and the other. The next set of bells and whistles went off when he mentioned that I could hold the vehicle for $500 down. I just so happen to have that. I transferred the money and we continued on.

Now, things went a bit south when it came to the financing. In fact, we had to downgrade the vehicle. The one I was looking at now was definitely quite a bit smaller [especially for potentially living in shortly] but it was workable. It was Just Enough of everything I need to maintain my current course. They needed some documentation from me and I would have to email that to them. They didn’t take the $500 payment because this snag would slow the process down a bit. They left me with two suggested routes. First, come up with more of a down payment – which I have been working on. And, second, find a co-signer. That is a much more sensitive matter and I don’t even know if I can fathom it enough to even really contemplate it.

I left the car dealership and though I wasn’t victorious – I saw no big wins – I didn’t feel defeated either. I left without a small glimmer of hope, vague and dim as it might be. The Safety Meeting went well. It was actually longer than I would have ever planned for, but it was all necessary.

By the end of Tuesday I would have four Tarot Readings scheduled. I am always grateful for the work but sometimes it is a bit disheartening that I only ever seem to get clients out of destitution. I am always happy when I can do this work. I would just love if, for a change, I had a regular stream of it. Nonetheless, my week was taking shape.

I started doing some video on Tuesday night. It will most likely be the next in the series. I continued to video on Wednesday and Thursday. Each day brought a little something – like The Park on Wednesday.

Between Wednesday night and Thursday night [and Thursday morning] I managed to get those readings done. It was such an incredible experience for me. I have been out of it for a while now. I have a new deck. I just recently started pulling a card a day to try to get the juices flowing again. Then suddenly I find myself with four to go.

It was an intense few days. At night I was doing the readings and struggling to keep myself centered and balanced on focused. I kept holding on to the messages of belief. During the day things were different. They were very good and I didn’t have to work at it. I was almost Questing. I felt up and positive. I was not looking to my troubles but focusing on the work and the day that was right in front of me. I felt ‘right’ even though everything seems so ‘wrong’ at the moment.

The weekend brought time with The Princesses. When I picked them up on Friday, I told them that I had not taken off for Friday and Saturday. I explained that it just didn’t feel right to me. [And I do mean feel – as within.] Practically speaking it wasn’t the best choice either. I still need to be making money. Depending on how this goes they may be my only resource for any kind of income for a while.

I also explained that What You Feed Energy Into Grows. I don’t want to project the worst so therefore I do not want to live as if we are facing it. The truth is, whether I was going through this or not, whether it was at The Theatre or not, if I have them on weekends I have to do some degree of work. So, I wanted to keep that seed nurtured for future growth. That is what our life would be if our life wasn’t so very much Make-Believe.

It turns out the weather forecast for Saturday was not good – snow and blizzard conditions and all – so they decided to cancel Saturday’s two shows. This gave me and the girls all day and night on Saturday and a good part of the day on Sunday to just be together and spend time.

It was the best weekend we have had so far at The Nest. We were all here. We did not have a lot of other distractions or interferences between us and we were able to just relax and be and let things flow as they would. We ate meals together. We played lots of games together. We even just hung out together for a bit. This is what I have been wanting since we got here. I did get a little emotional at the end but I do not think they noticed. They also let me video them [which I never thought would happen.] So there could be video coming up with them in it.

I came into the week very financially strapped. Nothing worse than I have been facing for some time. Part of my imbalance has been The Special Fund. This is my daily exercise for adjusting my mindset towards abundance. One dollar a day for three Full Moon cycles.

I have had trouble getting it going and keeping it going up until December. I was able to start again and I was determined to keep up with it. A few weeks ago I had to pull from it just to ensure we got through our weekend. I used only the cash that was necessary, figuring I could return the rest that Monday.

By that Monday, I decided to just hold on to that cash and use it to continue feeding The Fund. I had been doing so good with it and I couldn’t bare the thought of stopping – which is what would have happened if I had just returned the money. So, basically, for the past few weeks, I have been stealing from Peter to pay…well…Peter.

All the while I told myself I just needed to have The Fund caught up by the next [and final] Full Moon. That is this coming Friday.

So, I came into the week already further behind than I had wanted to be. Monday’s news sent me back even just a little further. It gave me more money to make and less time in which to do it. It seemed bleak and hopeless. But, if we take Each as it Comes – each day, each moment, each challenge – we can find that things balance themselves out on their own and all we have to do is just nurture what is already happening – do the caretaking.

By the end of the week I had earned all of the driving money that I needed or wanted to make. This covered my bills and obligations. Included in this are two bills that I managed to shift around to offer me some temporary relief. One of those is to the garage for previous work done. That money for this week and the one coming is directly earmarked for vehicle down payment. Eventually, I will have to get back on point with that.

The other was my 1st of two monthly car payments. I have pushed it back as far as I can at the moment with the hopes that by the time it would be taken out we will have everything resolved and they won’t be taking it out anymore. That money is earmarked as General right now.

I can’t go wild and spend it freely. I can’t use it for vehicle down payment until I know it won’t be needed for an actual payment on this loan. But, I can use it to buffer myself at the beginning of this week. For instance, I can use it to pay my gas forward [trust me, it’s a thing, and one that I have been trying to get started on.] This means that I can have my money for gas fill-ups up front and, for instance, I am not working Monday to directly pay for the gas. I would still need to earn the money, but the stress is not involved.

When all was said and done by the end of the week, I seem to have balanced out at least a little.

The Distractions still pose their problems but I am slowly conquering each one – ending it, manipulating it, using it to my advantage instead of disadvantage.

I had my time with The Princesses (and then some.)

I managed to have a vehicle for Just Enough time. I am contemplating extending the rental for one more week [on my dime.] My insurance will cover it for at least that much longer. It would also give me one more week of flexibility and mobility to make money extra money – for living and for whatever happens with a vehicle.

I heard from the dealership on Saturday morning. They left a voicemail that they were still working on it and that they had sent the info to a few more banks. Perhaps it will still go in the direction I need it to but I do have one or two more alternatives that I can investigate in the meantime – such as Buy Here, Pay Here.

Till the week was done and all calculations were in – income, expenses, extra work, even my manipulations – I came out $17 ahead of what I had been projecting all along. That was even after some unexpected expenses along the way. So, I made what I absolutely needed to make and all bills and obligations are covered. I pulled another $200-250 towards a down payment. I got my Special Fund back on track and I even managed a few straggling dollars in my wallet. [Which I ended up giving to the neighbor kids after they shoveled the sidewalk. I realize they were doing it just for fun. But, it was just as fun for me to surprise them with a couple of dollars each.]

I don’t exactly know what happens from here. Currently, I have a week of the rental left. Though as I said I am contemplating carrying it for one week on my own tab. This will afford me one more week of work and trying to et things straightened out. But, it will also cost me money that I will have to take from the down payment fund. Nonetheless, this is a call I have to make tomorrow.

I have to give time for the other insurance company to get the papers I sent in and then I need to give a couple of days for them to process through. By early next week I can contact my finance company to make sure that is all taken care of and to see if I need that payment after all. That is not something for this week – unless I get very bored and curious by Friday.

I put out another feeler. This time to a But Here, Pay Here place. I picked up information on another avenue to pursue. I am going to reach out to the used car place where I bought The Vantasm. I did send a message last week but I have not heard back from them yet.

I have all of the ‘Norms.’ I have work this week and video to edit. I have laundry and washing/vacuuming the car. I have groceries – which will be quite the investment [of time and money] as I prepare for this weekend with the girls’ friends and what might be out last weekend together for some time.

I have a meeting Tuesday night.

I have one more avenue I am pursuing in the way of funds or assistance and a side job hanging on the line at the moment. I’m also going to see [tonight yet] what I can do about GoFundMe.

When I moved into The Nest I was really hoping that it would help launch me forward into a better life. I saw it as a chance to re-establish myself. Not as much in a financial sense but in a personal way. I saw, and am seeing, many financial advantages as well. But more important to me has been the chance to really see me as a whole. I’ve never had the time nor the space to really ‘Do me.’ I’ve always been bending my habits and routines and rituals and way of living around where I was living. Now where I am living bends to me.

I came in all too aware just how temporary it is. Still, I was hopeful that somehow through this I would find my way to a stronger life. Now it is 7 weeks from being complete and the only back-up for a home I had is now gone. I am faced with losing my main source of income and not having a home to go to after The Nest. I have finally re-established a sort of rapport with them and we may very well be estranged once more.

As we enter the new week I find myself so very In-Between. I have absolutely no clue how all of this is going to play out. I am nervous and apprehensive. Yet, I am instilled with messages of Faith and Hope. Even though I cannot see it, a good part of me believes that however this all works out it works out just fine. Even when I try to be more grounded and ‘realistic’ I cannot quite bring myself to worry.

I face the possible ruin of life as I know it and still I am dopin’ along just doing my thing. I’m just facing the week as it has been written. I am doing my best to just live my life normally, as it needs to be lived, day to day. Meanwhile, I continue to brace for a strong impact.

I said that Focus on What You Want was a big part of the Lesson Focus. What do I want?

I want a home. Now that I have actually had one for me I have come to like what it offers. It is nice having a place to which I can retreat to ground and center and nurture myself. It is nice to have a place to be with The Princesses – uninterrupted. I have put a lot of time and energy into settling into The Nest, as well as settling it around me. It feels like home. It feels right. It feels like I belong here. Even if it is temporary it serves as home for now. I want a home after this.

I want the van I’m driving right now. I need a vehicle and this is the one I truly want. It is higher end and certainly out of my realm of possibilities Right This Moment. But, it is truly what I want. It is made by the very manufacturer I swear by. I love their vans and all but one of mine have been one of theirs. It is a van and serves all my purposes – work, daughters, hauling and what not, and quite possibly living. It is just the right amount of space and comfortability. It has the Bluetooth connectivity so I can GPS right to the screen and that makes a huge difference across the board for me. It has a lot of bells and whistles that I don’t necessarily need but they are all features that could [and would] have use and serve purpose. Even if I didn’t have to live in it, I would want this vehicle for my life. Like I said, though, Right This Moment, that is not something I can conceive of achieving. (That doesn’t mean it’s not possible.)

I want to continue delivery driving. It has done so much for me in my life. Financially, it is the best pay I have seen in my entire working career. [That’s not saying much.] There’s room for me. But there is also the room for me to make more. I am still tweaking the systems and there is potential there. I just have not tapped it quite yet. Nonetheless, it has provided me with strength and calm. But, most importantly, it has given me the greatest control of every aspect of my life – my income, my time, my flexibility, my tasks and priorities. I also want to see more Readings in my life. I do enjoy doing them. There are lots of things out there that I miss doing and could provide me with some satisfaction and perhaps even income but these two are the most readily accessible and also give me the greatest peace.

I’ve been contemplating the lottery – scratch off tickets. I know. You’re thinking that seems an extraordinary waste of money at a time like this. And, I agree with you. However…

Last year, I had plans to take Cuddlebug and her friends to the beach for the day as a birthday present to her. I was putting it together slowly, but just as we got a few weeks out, I found myself hitting a slump with income. Much like recently it seemed that the harder I tried to get out and do better, the worse I did. I was stressing as we got nearer and nearer to the date. I prayed every day. I can suffer through a lot but disappointing my daughters is a thing I cannot bare. Eventually, I would get the notion to play the lottery. In all, I won $1050. This was enough to catch me up from my weak income and give me enough to do what I needed for Cuddlebug. So, anything is possible. At this moment, I am waiting to see if I can discern if it would be an act of inspiration or an act of desperation..

We just don’t know what lies ahead, Fellow Travelers. But, as usual, Only Time Will Tell.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Goose - The Call of the Quest and Travels to Legendary PLaces

A totem reflecting a stimulation of the childhood thrill and belief in stories and legendary places. These stories either reflected an imprint for for this life or they may have even imprinted you with certain seed ideas. Also be a totem to aid you in communication especially through the use of stories. Individuals wishing to write - be it stories or anything - can facilitate this process by working with the goose as a totem. It will stimulate the imagination and and help ove you through creative blocks. Also a symbol of fertility and marital fidelity. It may reflect a need for more vegetables in the diet, and maybe even becoming a vegetarian for a while. It reflects an ability to move forward or backward. It reflects movement, and a call to the spiritual quest. Stirs our imagination and makes us want to seek out new worlds and dimensions. Calling us to follow them on the great spiritual quest. It speaks of the fulfilled promises that great quests bring. Epitomizes the mystery of migration. Reminds us that as any one individual mass his or her quest, it becomes easier for others to do so as well. Reminding us that we should not undertake any quest in life without having a full view of what it entails. In this way the journey is facilitated for others. Reflects an opening to new possibilities. New directions and new possibilities. Reflects an openness to new ideas. Usually indicates we are about to affix ourselves to a new path. Reflects great fertility that should be acted upon if growth is desired. Greater vision, physical and spiritual, will occur. Can reflect that you are about to break free of old childhood restraints and begin to come into your own. You can expect to have the imagination stirred towards new travels to distant places - whether in the body or mind.

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill.

Fox - Feminine Magic of Camouflage, Shapeshifting and Invisibility.

New world opening up. The process of creation is beginning. Guide to enter the Faerie Realm. Unless a male can recognize the magic of the feminine - in himself or others - and learn to use it to Shapeshifting his own life, it will ultimately lead to destruction. The Kundalini, and the freeing of the creative life force. Practicing and using camouflage. Working to blend in with surroundings, to come and go unnoticed, moving silently about without revealing your intentions. Learning to control the aura. Adjust its frequency and intensity so that you harmonize more with others. Levels of energy and fertility. If the focus stays on the creative energies, any sharp turn in the individual’s life will be handled with ease. Fox people have the ability to insulate themselves from anything that may seem cold, especially in relationships. Can appear larger than they are - for personal protection or for making greater impressions. Establish a trotting pace. Ability to move into new directions. Call upon new resources instinctively. Excellent ability to hear what is not being said. The ability to hear spirit. Size people up accurately. Develop the ability to see spirit. Aromatherapy. Awakening of the Kundalini. Higher forms of discrimination and discernment. Capture any prize.

Groundhog – Mystery of Death without Dying – Trance - Dreams

The ability to get deep within an area of interest. A time when a new area of study is going to open up. Two years to come to full fruition. Important to give definite signals to the boundaries you wish to have respected in your life. Death without Dying. A time of initiation. A symbol of opening fully to the Dreamtime. Increasing ability to develop lucid dreaming. Clarity and power of altered states will be amplified. Dreams will become more significant. Opportunity to explore deeper states of consciousness. Lessons associated with death and dying. Revelations about its process. Knowledge of metabolic control.

Cat (Black)– Mystery, Magic, and Independence (Protection, Birth, Magic; Secretiveness, Sacrifice)

Goddess Bast, Goddess Freyja, Goddess Shasthi. Study Mouse and Dog as well.