S4EP5: Overthinking - It’s What I Do

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It is…Sunday, April 17, Two-Thousand and Twenty-New. Time...Begetting

Theme – Pushing Forward Only Leaves You Behind

For me, this was so much of a Theme that I cannot help but believe there will inevitably be a Lesson all wrapped up in there somewhere. I noticed it first with working – more importantly income flow. I have pushed and stressed and tried everything I could think of to try to generate income in order to keep myself steady on the path I believed I was following. It was all in vain – to no avail. Things fell through. Offers got delayed. Unexpected expenses popped up. All of my efforts and struggles to keep things together and push forward only had me moving backwards. Not only did I not accomplish anything in my efforts but I wore myself out and stretched myself thin and I didn’t accomplish any of my own personal goals either. But, I also saw it on Saturday morning when I picked up The Princesses. The whole plan was to have their mother meet me so I wouldn’t have to drive this borrowed car all the way to their house. I picked them up just fine and we got about a third of the way back to The Nest when they realized they forgot something [that they considered] important. So I ended up turning around and driving to their house anyway because their mom was on her way to Reading after dropping them with me. So, again, my efforts to control things were all for naught.

Lesson – There is but One Source

I think, in our world of labels and compartments, we easily forget this. We see things in such very definite terms [when there are indefinite possibilities before us.] So, when we want something – something to have, something to accomplish – we see it in those definite terms. “To have A, I must 1, 2, 3.” And so on. But it is not always that certain or laid out. There is but one source of all existence. Everything stems from that One – one moment, one miracle, one molecule. [However, you want to see that One.] From the One, all things are possible. Our compartments and labels, only work to limit The One. Let’s see if I can use a somewhat personal example. I needed a home. I didn’t realize how badly I needed a home. I wanted one, but I was also very accustomed to not actually having one. Well in order to have a home you must work, earn money, pay rent, and utilities, etc., etc., etc. All very true. So true, in fact, that I had taken my eye off that ball. Financially it was just too far away. Yet, for just about 4 months, I have had a home [albeit temporary.] Still, I have had a home. And quite the perfect home I might add. Though working at a particular place brought me here, I haven’t actually ‘worked’ for it. The money I have made working at that place has not gone towards it at all. If I apply this to other areas of my life, then solutions become simpler. For instance, I have been hooked on this notion that I ‘need’ a car. [And, I do.] I ‘need’ it for work – for income. I ‘need’ it to see my daughters. I ‘need’ it to take care of life. Yet, for three weeks now, I have done all of those things – but one – without a car. I did readings from my living room. I have been to work at The Theatre several times. I even made it to The College for a day. I have walked to the store and even had groceries delivered. I carried my laundry down the street to wash. So, I worked and had income without a vehicle. I took care of life without a vehicle. And, when it came time to see my daughters, I had a vehicle with which to do it. So, it matters not what is temporary and what is permanent; what fails or what succeeds, for all of it comes from the same One. There is but One Source. It knows what we need and…It’s Already Done.

Observation – It’s Already Done

You will hear this so often on a spiritual path. You hear it a lot in magickal practices. Once you put it out there, consider it done. It is not about believing it is done. It is about knowing that it is done. This is not about ego nor greed. It is a natural process – “Ask & it is given.” I feel like I saw a few moments of this over the course of the week. Some things were even done before I knew they needed to be done. Whatever is happening right now, the conclusion is already in place. It’s just a matter of getting there.

The Post

If ever there was a week, this was it. It started at The End and finished at The Beginning. You may wonder how this is possible. I’ll tell you, Fellow Travelers, I do not know. And, yet, that is precisely what happened.

On Monday, I had reached The End. I was done. All of the pressure and stress, of this whole process and experience, that I was not allowing myself to succumb under had finally taken hold. I literally collapsed. I couldn’t see another moment. I didn’t want to. I couldn’t imagine making it to another moment. But, I didn’t want to. I wasn’t suicidal. Do not fear that, Fellow Travelers. That train derailed in December 2018 and there are no plans to put it back on the tracks. I just…stopped.

Looking back, it was as if I had died inside. I felt no passion, no drive, no motivation. I couldn’t keep pushing. I have pushed like a madman for weeks and it seemed I had gotten absolutely nowhere. I could no longer hold my body up let alone push. And then, something happened – One moment – to change the course of everything.

Now, we find ourselves at the end of the week and everything seems so different. I feel calm and peaceful. I have this strange [new] passion for life. I feel this resonating twinge of motivation to move into whatever is next. I feel a drive to move into my future. But I do not have the need to push to get to it – for I am already there. Despite the fact that I do not understand what is behind me nor can I conceive of what lies ahead, I cannot help but feel like this is The Beginning of something very new.

I’m not exactly certain of where we left off, Fellow Travelers. So much happens, so many things flip and flop, along the way. [It’s no wonder I am never certain when in Time a thing has happened…or is going to.]

My life has flipped upside down. Everything is topsy-turvy. [Oh, it’s a definite Disney reference.] I have been without a vehicle for three weeks now. I have been actively pursuing one since before I was without one. I have been to a new car dealer. I have been in touch with buy here, pay here. I have scanned over hundreds of options searching for a possibility. So far, things just have not aligned. When I had money to work with there were no possibilities before me. I pursued options that went nowhere. More recently, I am encountering other options that could be possibilities – if I only had the money.

When I lost the vehicle, I also lost my main source of income. I still had the little bit ahead of me at The Theatre, but I could no longer do the one thing that was sustaining me for so long. Of course, without the vehicle and its obligatory costs my expenses dropped significantly. Still, there would be plenty of expenditure. I had other bills to pay – phone, support, and so on – plus I would need money towards a vehicle.

So now, along with desperately hunting for a vehicle, I was desperately trying to generate funds. I’ve posted [and am now creating] ads for Readings and Reiki on Facebook. I made arrangements to start some work at The College. I’ve taken an odd job here or there. I even started a GoFund Me. Everything has done something. Every effort has brought at least a little bit of relief. I have had several Readings. It has tapered off, but it was strong at first. It’s been rough getting started at The College. I got there. Getting back may be a different story. Nonetheless, that is a small bit of income sometime in the future. There have been a handful of Odd Job offers – the biggest of which has been postponed indefinitely. The rest, mostly in the near future. The GoFund Me has brought in a bit. It is a fair and decent amount. It is certainly generous. But it is still, technically, a bit.

Every step seems to have come with its own set of twists and turns. Vehicle possibilities have not worked out, forcing me to change direction more than once. There have been unaccounted for expenses such as tax returns and a weekend with The Princesses which I was not quite prepared for the way I had planned. There was a weekend when there were no shows at The Theatre and so that income disappeared. Of course, I missed some hours this weekend to spend some extra time with the girls…and that was just too important. All the other work possibilities I have been able to attain are now income for the future. My future, when I get there, seems fairly balanced and stable. The trick is – I have to get there.

Despite all of my efforts and my pushing, I have reached the point I feared the most. I am about to tap into the car funds for getting through things. How far I will dip, I do not know. But, it is going to happen. It would seem, the timing couldn’t be worse either.

I found a van – two of them actually. They were on the website of a dealer who has association with friends of mine. I scoped it all out slowly and eventually talked with him and even told him the whole of my story – homelessness and all. I proceeded with the credit application and away we went. He even called me later that day to let me know that he had taken $1000 off the price of the van by telling them that I was giving a $2000 down payment. It seemed as though things were finally going in the right direction. That is, until the finance company said they needed my tax return.

It wasn’t done yet. Not only was I technically still waiting on a 1099, but I was afraid to do them. I knew I was going to owe this year and I did not know how I was going to handle that on top of everything else at the moment. Truth is, I had seriously contemplated not doing them because I had no idea how I was going to financially survive it.

That all gets us to Friday, the Last, Fellow Travelers.

On Monday I woke up, hellbent to get the taxes done so I could get the return to the dealer. I literally rolled out of bed and started on them immediately. It’s true. I fixed my first pot of coffee in between. As far as I was concerned, everything was riding on this One moment. It would put me back to work. It would put my life right again. But, most importantly, if we wrapped it all up by week’s end, I could see my daughters. This was important to me to begin with but, in light of my dialogue with Cuddlebug the night before, it had become even more critical.

When I found the vans I let the girls and Mama know that I found one, I was in the process of trying to get it and that I was planning on Easter. After my phone call on Friday and time to think it over, I let the girls know that they shouldn’t give up on coming but that they should have alternative plans in mind. For instance, Cuddlebug wanted to see her boyfriend. With our original plans this was covered while she was with me. [Also keep in mind I was under the false impression that there were no shows at The Theatre this weekend.] But, if I didn’t have a vehicle she would have to make other arrangements.

She contacted me Sunday night to let me know that she had worked out arrangements, but her mother was being uncooperative. I get it. I do. The boy lives an hour from their home. That’s a two hour round trip. Its not easy. Its frustrating. And, it is a lot to ask. However, for some months now, I have been doing all of that driving and then some. I did it because it was important to our daughters and also to help alleviate some of her stress. This was important as well. Not only has it been several weeks since she has seen him, but she left stuff at his house that she needed to do her hair for prom.

Now, I am really feeling the pressure of this. Now, I really needed this to all work out. It was no longer just about getting back to work or even seeing the girls. Now, it was about helping my daughter. I had to push onward and it had to work. I needed to believe that it would, despite the fact that financing has been the snag each and every time. I was nervous, but onward I pressed.

I got through my return. Dotted all of the Is and crossed all of the Ts that I could find. I was going to owe just as I had predicted. I was going to owe quite a bit for a guy in my predicament. But, I was aware that I could apply for a payment program for the Federal and would soon learn of the same option for the State. This didn’t stop me. But something else did.

I got as far in the process as paying for the taxes to be completed. It was substantially more than I had projected, even after I started actually accounting for the expense. I stopped. I didn’t know how I was going to do this. I didn’t know how I was going to do any of this. That’s when I broke. I had the mother of breakdowns. I was literally crawling across the floor because I did not have the strength to keep holding myself up. I just gave in to the weight and pressure of all the pushing I have been doing.

I wasn’t going to see my daughters and I didn’t know when I would be able to again. I wasn’t going to be able to help Cuddlebug with her predicament. I was crushed. Destroyed. It was like I felt life leave me. Then I thought about why I wouldn’t see them. I thought about all the other things having no vehicle would bring. I thought about everything I had tried so far and all of the disappointment and failure that ensued from it all. All the effort and ciphering and calculating and manipulating and bending. It all seemed for nothing because I found myself further behind than when I started. I was now standing in a pit which I had to get myself out of and I had nothing to get me there. Not a vehicle. Not a strong enough income.

All the while, I have The Voice whispering in my ear, “Relax. Stop. It will all be fine.” This really only made matters worse for me. I could not see how, through all of this mess, all would be fine.

Then the phone rang.

It was Brother john.

“Hey…I just wanted to let you know that if you want to see your girls this weekend you can use my car.”

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One moment.

I honestly cannot tell you much about my week after that.

Shortly after my breakdown the Lil Boss came over and we moved some furniture around. We further discussed the possibility of me staying in The Nest a bit longer. When she left I collapsed on the couch. Pretty much everything after that is a blur up until the weekend.

I have absolutely no clue what Tuesday was.

On Wednesday I did manage some hours at The College. This also involved my first trip on a public bus in The Valley. Nothing too exciting there but certainly a learning experience. I am happy with what I accomplished there that day. It wasn’t a lot but it made a huge difference and got me started right. I even managed to overwork my back. Which I would learn on Thursday and still be feeling today. While I was there, I got into deep contemplation mode. I’m sure this added to the fog that is my memory.

I thought about The College and how I am always drawn back there. This fall it will be 30 years since I did my first show there. In that time I have drifted in and out at different times, for varying lengths, and changing roles. I have been an actor and I have been a patron. I have helped entertain alum and build sets. I have had both casual and professional relationships. But, all of that is in my past and I don’t really see it in the future.

So, why keep taking me there? I mean, this isn’t some random fluke. This is a repeated pattern and association for 30 years. [Also, I’m having a Déjà vu moment right now.] It’s even a little deeper than that. I just feel a connection to the land. I’m drawn to it even when I’m not actually there. And when I am there I feel a peculiar sense of peace and calm.

But…why?

It is not just these thoughts that weighed on me that day. You see, The College is so very close to The Place That I Loathe So. Closer than I care to think. Of course, I cannot think of that without remembering the darkness and horror that I found [and left] there. Those thoughts always cloud my head and spirit quite a bit. They make me fearful. They always leave me wondering if what I don’t know could actually hurt me.

Off topic a moment – I remember what Tuesday was [and why I don’t remember it lol.] I just caught a glimpse of my notes. Tuesday was a Safety Meeting. The Safety Meeting may seem frivolous and whimsical but they are always much more important than that. It was much needed after Monday.

Anyway, I digress. *sigh.*

So, I muddled through my week. It was here and it was there. I got to the weekend and things shifted again. There were two great blessings to my weekend. The first, obviously, being The Princesses. The other was a message I received from a friend.

She said she wants to help me. She said she feels it deep inside, like she is being moved to do so. We went over finer details and she told me what she is going to do for me. It is generous and it will definitely make a difference. I can’t quite gauge the exact impact at this point but it will put me where I need to be to feel a little less stressed. It has changed the game.

My time with The Princesses was splendid and blessed. It always is. I cannot find enough to express how much I love those girls. They touch my soul so deeply. I love who they are and I love being able to see life through them. I love our family. We are imperfect. We have our moments. But, together, we are strong.

I did get them early on Saturday, but the day was so very awkward. It all started with having to turn around for those damned cookies. [Which, by the way, I only got a very small sampling of lol.] Then it was back to The Nest and then off to fetch the boyfriend. Then it was time to order dinner, which seemed a struggle throughout the whole process. Then I had to ship us all off to The Theatre so I could work a couple of hours. Boyfriend’s mom picked him up there. The Princesses and I returned to The Nest, ready and excited to face today. And, what a day it was.

I was up early and set to making banana bread. I believe fresh baked goods in the morning make for a good home. Mama makes banana bread often, I guess. So, I was looking to use the girls’ expert knowledge to gauge my work. [It was a success.]

I had to leave for a bit to take Brother John to church. I mean, I did have his car after all.

Somewhere in there I did make an egg sandwich for Sunshine. Cuddlebug had filled up on banana bread. She thought that was breakfast.

When I returned the girls and I spent a bit of time together. Then they took a walk and I set to hiding eggs throughout The Nest. [I guess I didn’t mention that they dyed eggs on Saturday. I knew there was something in that hole of time.] I also set up the two [very] little baskets and small chocolate bunnies that I had gotten for them. When they got back all hell broke loose as they trampled over each other to find the eggs. [There is video.]

We relaxed for a bit. We took some chill time in the early afternoon. But, that was not to last. Before too long it would be time to start dinner. This was a holiday. A Holi-Day. That means family and tradition. For me anyway. So, true to family tradition, we made our honey-glazed ham for dinner. Someone had donated a ham to us. We love our recipe but it is a chore to make. So, we reserve it for special occasions such as this. Along with it we made our own mashed potatoes and some sugar snap peas.

During dinner prep we had another slight emotional breakthrough in the family. Things were expressed that needed to be. They were also countered and handled. Once again it was a difficult moment for all. Once again, it was good for all.

Dinner was most excellent. But that was not the end of the traditions. We waited a bit and then started a movie. We all wanted to watch The Princess Bride. [I love that they love that movie.] Movie time for us also means Ben & Jerry’s time. This is something that actually started with their mother. The two of us would, every so often, get a container of B&J and eat the whole damned thing while we watched a movie. When the girls were old enough to appreciate the experience, I started doing it with them. Over the years, it has evolved into each of us having our own container, which we then share. [And yes, I do still finish a whole container in that one sitting. It’s tradition.]

Once our bodies settled from the ice cream it was time for one last favorite tradition. Cuddlebug baked a tray of cookies while I laboured away at the family’s hot chocolate. This has become such a passion for us. Me especially. I want to make the ‘perfect’ homemade hot chocolate. [We are getting so close.]

After Princess Bride, Sunshine convinced me to watch Hamilton. I have been openly and vehemently opposed to this show since day one. I have my reasons. I did amend my feelings a bit. I will admit it is a good show. There are just certain aspects to it all with which I will never agree. More importantly though, it was a fun moment for all of us. Sunshine has wanted to see it and she shared it with her sister and I, who both showed appreciation for it. The show also spawned several good dialogues. There was theatrical discussion and historical discussion and even political discussion.

All in all, we had a very powerful weekend…and there is still one more day to go.

In the Grand Puzzle of it all, here is what I have put together thus far:

The Easter ‘marker’ was definitely accurate. There was power in this weekend. This whole week really. The next ‘marker’ is the end of the month. This was when I was supposed to leave The Nest. But it is also Beltane, which makes it something altogether different.

Things will shift in May. I’m not exactly clear on how. I believe the vehicle situation resolves itself in May. I don’t exactly know what it means or when. The next big marker is around Midsummer. I do not know what is in between.

I feel as though things are going to shift greatly. Perhaps even over the next two weeks. There is a piece to this puzzle that is missing. I know it is there. I just have not seen it yet. It’s different. It’s different than anything I have seen before. It has a very different vibe behind it. I like it. Something about it makes me a bit anxious, perhaps even scares me slightly, but I like it. It feels like what I have been searching for. It just makes me wonder exactly what the trade-off will be. What commitments and sacrifices will be made?

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WALT: And Walt…

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The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Robin – Spread of New Growth

You can expect new growth to occur in a variety of areas of your life – not just one. Connected to the Kundalini. Reflects its activation in a manner that will stimulate new growth in all areas of your life. Fights over territory are usually in song. Physical confrontations are more symbolic without injury. Reflects a need to sing your own song forth if you wish new growth. Any confrontations or hindrances are more show than actual threats, so go forward. Powder-blue egg. A color that is often used to open the throat chakra in humans. Reflects the innate ability of those with this totem to assert the will force to create new growth in his/her life. Help you in this process. May reflect you have been doing so inappropriately or ineffectually. Robin will show you how to do it successfully.

Eagle - Illumination of Spirit, Healing, and Creation.

Balance of being of the Earth, but not in it. The soul, the spirit, and warmth of life. The resurrection. Punishment and reward. Greater sight and perception. Reflects an awakening ability or the need to learn to walk between worlds. Heroic nobility and divine spirit. The rediscovery of the inner child. Alchemy. Involvement with creativity. A willingness to experience extremes in a controlled condition. A willingness to use your passions to purify and to use your abilities, even if you get scorched a little in the process. The need to stay connected to and use things of the Earth. Important to know when to speak, how much, how strongly. New vision will open. The ability to hear - spiritually and physically - may also increase. Cooperative responsibility. A healing role. Opportunities (even those thought long lost) will arise - learn to see and snatch them up. A new sense of timing and movement will begin to develop Primal force inherent and easily awakened. Take on the responsibility and the power of becoming so much more than you now appear to be. Events will now fly faster, repercussions for everything you think, do and say (or fail to) - positive and negative - will be both stronger and quicker. A powerful new dimension to life and a heightened responsibility for your spiritual growth. Touch all of life with healing and become the mediator and the bearer of new creative forces within the world.

Cat – Mystery, Magic, and Independence

Goddess Bast, Goddess Freyja, Goddess Shasthi. Study Mouse and Dog as well.

Owl - The Mystery of Magic, Omens, Silent Wisdom, and Vision in the Night

Symbol of the feminine and the night. Ties to fertility and seduction. Bird of magic and darkness, of prophecy and wisdom. Symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection and magic, both black and white. Hints of the light of the sun, alive in the dar of night. Meditation on this alone will reveal much about the magic of Owl within your life. Will be able to see and hear what others are trying to hide. What is not being said. See what is hidden or in the shadows. Detect and pinpoint the subtleties. Unique ability to see into the darkness of others’ souls. And life. Their medicine can extract secrets. If your neck is stiff and inflexible, you are hindering your perceptions to a great degree. Often reflects that you were born very perceptive - with a vision of others that you may or may not have recognized or acknowledged. Unique ability for seeing into the eyes and souls of others. Keep silent and go about your business. Eliminate those aspects that are up beneficial and unhealthy.

Turtle - Motherhood, Longevity, Awakening to Opportunities

Help unite Heaven and Earth within your own life. Fairy connections. ‘Keeper of The Doors.’ Symbol of the Primal Mother. Long life and grounded was within life. Can teach new perceptions about time ad our relationship with it. The mystery of awakening the senses - physically and spiritually. Stimulates hearing/Clairaudience; Help with vision/Clairvoyance; Develop sense of smell and higher discrimination. Are you not seeing what you should? Are you not hearing what you should? Are you or those around you not using discrimination? A reminder to use your own head and knowledge to right yourself when your world gets tipsy-curvy. Sometimes Turtle shows up as a totem to help during these times. A reminder to pay attention or you will miss opportunities. A symbol of Mother Earth and that she provides all our needs. Turtle can slow us down to help us see our opportunities. Is our life becoming too hectic? Are we not taking time for ourselves? Are we so busy that we can’t really see what is going on? Are we going too slow and need to pick up the pace a little? Also study Raccoon. Vitamin D/Diet. Link between water and land. Water is the creative source that we can draw on and live in, but we must also come out of it and apply that creativity within the physical world - the land. Also hints at needing to think things through before you act on them. It is time to get connected to your own primal essence. Go within your shell and come out when your ideas are ready to be expressed. It is time to recognize that there is abundance out there for you. It doesn’t have to be gotten quickly and immediately. Take your time and let the natural flow work for you. Too much, Too soon, can upset the balance. Reminds us that all we need for all we do is available to us, if we approach it in the right manner and time. Reminds us that the way to Heaven is through the Earth.

Opossum - The Use of Appearances

Sometimes it is necessary to ‘play dead.’ Sometimes it is necessary to put up a particular front to succeed most easily and effectively. This is the medicine Opossum teaches. It can also show you when others are putting up false fronts and deceptions. Helps us to use appearances to our greatest greatest benefit and help us to recognize when others are using false impressions. Help us to learn to divert attention or to get attention any way we need. Sometimes it is necessary to behave in a strategic manner. Opossum is the supreme actor. Help us draw from our own bag of tricks that which will most benefit us. Are you acting or about to act in an inappropriate manner? Do you need to strengthen your own appearance? Are others putting up false appearances in front of you? Do you need to divert attention away from some activity? Are others trying to divert your attention? Is it time to go into your bag of tricks and pull out some new strategy? Learning to pretend and act in ways and with realism is the magic that opossum teaches.

Rabbit - Fertility and New Life

Often seen as an animal that can lead one unknowingly into the Faerie realm. A symbol for sexuality and fertility. Usually, you will begin to see a cycle of 28 days beginning to manifest in your life. Those with rabbit totems will see movement occur in their life in varying degrees of hops and leaps. It won’t be steady step-by-step movement. The leaps and hops do not usually take more than the cycle of The Moon (28 days) to occur. Plan for possibilities. May indicate the need to do some more planning or review those you have already set in motion. You do not want to box yourself into a corner. Important not to foreshadow your moves. Learning to shift from freezing to great speeds will aid in your success and enables you to take advantage of opportunities that may present themselves for brief moments. May need to examine the kinds of food being consumed. For the greatest health and well-being, a vegetarian diet, even if only temporary, will strengthen and heal. How to recognize the tides of movement within your life. This in turn will enable you to become even more fertile in your life.