S6EP1 - Up to Speed

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true! 

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It is…Sunday, July 17, Two-Thousand and Twenty-New. Time...Disoriented

Theme – Level Up

I sorta hate to admit it but this Theme comes to us via the last season of Flash. I watched the whole season in a week and they mentioned Level Up I’m like every episode. It spoke to me.

Lesson – It All Works Out in the End

You would think one day I would get this and stop letting things rile me up or throw me off balance.it seems time after time I need to be reminded of this. But it is true – no matter why the situation everything works out in the end.                                            

Observation – Que Sera, Sera

I use this phrase so many times in this post one would think it is the Theme. But it was merely an Onservation. All of life is really just that simple. It doesn’t matter what is happening nor the circumstances. You can be poor as a pauper or rich as a prince. You can be celebrating or mourning. But in the end all of it will be what it will be [is what it is.]

The Post

-        If at First You Don’t Succeed, Try Try Again

But…doing the same thing over and over again, with the same results, is a sign of insanity.

For weeks I have been trying to write and get something posted. For weeks, it has not worked for this reason or that. So, I am I dedicated and committed, or…should I just be committed?

It has just been one challenge after another. For a while there I just wasn’t able to find the proper amount of time for writing. Then, when I could find the time I had difficulty focusing. I had trouble with words. [More on that in a moment.] Once, the laptop just shut off on me in the middle of a really good flow. Today, again, I have been wrestling with the laptop. Now, granted it is old at this point and it needs a really good refresh. But, that is not the entirety of the problem. I am having the same troubles that I was when I was using Cuddlebug’s laptop. There seems to be a loose connection in the charging port. So, very often it is plugged in but not getting any juice. I then have to wiggle and maneuver the cord until I get it. On top of that, the battery needs to be replaced. It will charge but not hold it for very long. So even if I do get it all charged up and lose that connection it is not long until I need the cord again.

So, here we are once more, Fellow Travelers – taking another stab at it.

It feels as though I have so much to talk about but nothing to say. Or, maybe, it is the reverse. Perhaps I have so much to say but nothing to talk about. In either case, the words have been lost and the story-telling challenging. I don’t really know why that is, but I can take a few stabs in the dark.

[By the by, I have horrible aim in the light so you really wouldn’t want me to stab you in the dark. Just sayin’. Such a horrible phrase lol.]

The challenges all start with the message – don’t reveal too much too soon. 

There are things on the table at the moment. Thing that have caught my attention and have me very curious. Things I do not understand. Things that, to a certain degree, have me a bit frustrated. [Because I don’t understand them.]

There are energies milling about and in the past it would have been my inclination to give you all the details for each one. The point to this [for me] has always been about demonstration. I believe that life foreshadows itself. It tells us what is coming. So, the point was to leave a trail of bread crumbs for that moment when The Universe truly reveals itself. Then we can look back and say, “There it is.”

But, I suppose, I have done that right now. I have planted the seed. I have laid the foundation of ‘things are brewing and energies are stirring.’ It matters not what the energies are at the moment. When the time comes, if needed, I can always go back and talk about how things unfolded.  For now, just rest assured that [even in our stillness] we are most certainly traveling a path at the moment.

For months, there has been chatter about changes and shifts. There has been no clear indication as to what they may really be – just that they are there. And then these energies start milling about.  They make sense. They make sense in timing and in necessity, in desire and devotion and path and passion. What doesn’t make sense is how to get there, how to activate them.  I think this is because I can’t. They are not under my control and there is very little I can do to influence them one way or the other. It truly is a case of Que Sera, sera – what will be, will be. The Universe knows what it is doing. [The Father knows what you need and tomorrow will take care of itself.]

It would seem that the most I can do at the moment, Fellow Travelers, is to simply live in the here and now; to take care of today for today is all there is. At best, from time to time, I can take a moment to meditate on and connect with the energies at play.

Things seem to be following a time frame. August 26th is the last marker I was given before leaving The Nest…and the furthest away. [Obviously.] Sitting here now it seems like so long ago that I received that marker and it seems so very far off. I do not believe that either of these are true. It is only about 7 weeks away now and it is possible that it is only 7 weeks ago that I first got the message. [I do think that was longer though.]

Time is such a very funny thing.

Nonetheless, whatever the original time frame was, here is the one I am working with currently:

Two weeks from now I will be house sitting for Brother John again. The Princesses will come and stay with me for a at least a few days and we will consider this our second week of vacation for the summer. [Accordin to the custody order we get two (2) non-consecutive.] We do have some plans – things to do and places to go. We will also use this time, as a family – as a hive mind – to feed these energies what we can.

Two weeks after that it is my 50th birthday. I want to do something that weekend. I haven’t been to the beach yet this year [once every year to recharge] so I decided that was what I wanted to do.  This is a fun little something that I can share.

Needless to say, I want The Princesses to join me on this adventure. [originally I had thought about just a day trip by myself, but this is so much better.]  I was contemplating places to go. We have a few beaches we have been to over the years. Each has its own appeal and we seem to love them all. But, one day, while I was driving I started thinking about how I would love for the girls to see Stone Harbor, and what I consider to be its sister town Avalon.

Big ‘D’s family stayed in Avalon every year for many years. There’s not really much to it. It is quiet and quaint. But, that is nice and I am sure a visit will stir some memories. Adjoined to the south is Stone Harbor. This is a touristy town. It’s really more about the shopping experience than anything else. I have only ever explored it once and that was quickly and in a haze. [It involves being 14, faking illness and sneaking out of the hotel room while the family was out to dinner and something else. Don’t ask.]

Anyway, the next time Cuddlebug and I were discussing this trip, she brought up Avalon and Stone Harbor all on her own. This combined with silly little signs – from bumper stickers to names of golf clubs – is enough to have us set our sites on that area.

Moving on – two weeks after that [a little more] is The Final Marker.

After that, the only thing I know I have my sights focused on is something for Sunshine’s birthday in early October. But, that is neither here nor there at the moment for it is well beyond The Final Marker. For me, The Final Marker is when time stops. [And, hopefully restarts again.]

It has been a little over a month since I left The Nest. What an interesting month [plus] it has been.  I finished out the last show at The Theatre, got settled into The Lil Red Rocket and my mobile life. I got back on track with my delivery driving.  There have been some twists and turns. I have wrestled with the past, present and future. Honestly it feels like one long meditation or vision quest. I have had so many tripping points its not even funny.

I feel very connected to everything lately. Perhaps that is why I have been cautious in my words and my thoughts.

I believe there is something powerful on the horizon. That’s all I’m putting out there. If you like, please apply your own questions, thoughts, limitations. All I’m saying is that I feel something big and strong encroaching. I don’t know what it is…and I don’t care. It is what it is. Que sera, sera. But whatever it is, it is as real as the world around me. It’s just not here yet.

I don’t know what it is and I don’t care. [more of a dramatic point than a statement of fact.]

The beauty in not knowing is then there is nothing to which I can become attached – no idea nor notion nor hope nor dream. Not even a single iota of a fear or doubt. It could be anything. It could be something of a personal nature – direct or indirect. It could be something more global or even universal. It could be physical. It could be spiritual.

I don’t know what it is and I don’t care. [And I’m not even going to try to guess.]

It is what it is.

Que sera, sera.

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In the meantime…

It has been an interesting little adventure from then until now.

I have gotten settled into The Lil Red Rocket. For the most part anyway. There is always tweaking to be done, but I have laid the groundwork. I am both functional and comfortable. I honestly wasn’t sure I was going to be able to accomplish either of those, let alone both. It is such a smaller space than The Vantasm and I didn’t know how I was going to make it work.

It was a process. I worked at it over three weeks between leaving The Nest and Sitting for Brother John Father’s Day week. I tweaked and twiddled and played. The Goal was to get it all figured out as best I could and use that week as a full reset. It was the one time I could completely emopty The Rocket, sort through things, and put them back where they were best suited or most needed. [And get rid of what wasn’t needed.]

I did that. I came out of that week with an understanding of what I could do and what my challenges were going to be. I only had about 5 days until I would be back at Brother John’s to sit again. That was a rather magickal weekend but one of which I cannot really speak.

I have been back into my vagabond existence for a week now. [And it was a hell of a week.]

I am on a very aggressive and ambitious financial plan right now. Only time will tell how it all works out.

I had this strange advantage when I left The Nest. One that I have not ever known in my life.

I had money.

For the first time I can remember, I actually had money going into a new week. There wasn’t a lot but it was enough to cover, at least, my ‘accounts payable’ [bills] for the week. Honestly, this was a result of The Shutdown and the generosity of certain people before it all concluded. So I am very grateful for that. It allowed me the opportunity to just work each day without worrying. All of last year, more often than not, I was working today to pay my way through tomorrow. Quite a few times I was working just to get through today. And, once in a while I was even working today to keep paying for yesterday. So this was all very new to me.

Another advantage that stemmed from The Shutdown was The Lil Red Rocket. It has brought many financial advantages. I was devastated when I lost The Vantasm but that vehicle was bleeding me dry. I got The Rocket for a steal. [God Bless you, my friend.] It didn’t take any of the work that we thought it would. It passed inspection with just needing a small bulb replaced and has been functioning without any major mechanical issues. [Knock on wood.] Currently, it is simply routine maintenance – such as the oil change scheduled for tomorrow morning.

There is no monthly payment over which to stress. The fuel economy is much better. Truth be told, even though gas prices are at least a dollar more than they were when I stopped driving, I am still paying the same as I was then for gas each week.

The final advantage I had coming into this new cycle [and a correction to a previous statement] – I had no bills that week. So, I had money to cover my expenses with no bills due. That does not happen often. But, occasionally, the bill dates will fall in such a way that not one single payout is due in a particular week.

[Would you believe the laptop shut down again? This is a bigger problem than I can deal with at the moment. I took advantage of the moment to move to my sleeping spot for the night. But now it’s Monday. Now, where was I?]

So, I saw the way all of these blessings were lining up and I found opportunity. I’ve never had it as easy as it was going to be. I formed a plan and set about my way.

Step 1 – just like moving into The Rocket, I was going to take the first three weeks to feel my way through things. I wanted to meet my obligations [and then some] but I didn’t want to push too hard. I wanted to see how things would flow on their own.

I managed. I did what I set out to do. I kept up with my bills and obligations. I paid off the remaining $400 of the garage bill from The Vantasm. I even managed to set aside and/or budget in the money for my first week with The Princesses

Step 2 – Make a plan. Like I said, last year I was just grateful that I was able to manage on my own every week/day. For a very long time, I couldn’t no matter what I did. I decided to see if I can make it all work for me now.

The first thing I did was budget out the expenses I could think of for the coming four weeks. I I estimated my food and gas expenditures. These two things take up a good portion of my income each week. Between the two of them the budget call for almost $400 per week. That budget has been close but always a little over the actual cost. I do that. I try to budget high but close. I’ll round up. I’ll add a little bit here or there. Always better to have more and spend less than to spend more and have less.  I also budget a little lower on projected income. I figure this reduces the occasional disappointments.

Next, I plotted out the accounts payable for each week – those pesky monthly bills due. Since I had the opportunity to push the limits a bit, I decided that each week’s budget would contain half of the bills due for the following week. That way, I go into each week knowing I have at least some of it covered already.

Next, came the ambition. I decided some time ago that once the garage bill was paid off I was going to keep that $100 in my weekly budget. I have been doing it [mostly] since October. I figure if I just keep on doing it the. That is money that I can put aside [or have aside] for future unexpected or extraordinary expenses.

On top of that,  I decided that I wanted to get money put aside for upcoming adventures with the girls. So, I included $150 per week for that. If that’s enough, since ultimately I want to build up that $100 per week, I thought of some upcoming miscellaneous expenses [such as today’s oil change] and decided to pull $50 a week for that stuff. The funny part is that every week so far I have also ended up budgeting that miscellany as well. So like this week O budgeted that $50 but I also budgeted $75 for the oil change. [We weren’t sure which way it was going to go. It was much less than that.]

It’s a lot. I’ve been adjusting the budget as I go, adding whatever miscellaneous things may arise along the way. For instance, last week, when I knew I had tickets to purchase for the ballgame tomorrow night, I added $30 to the budget for them. [and kept the $50 miscellany fund.] last week my budgeted outflow [all things considered] was $1178. In the end the outflow was just under $1218. My projected income was set to match the original outflow – so $1178 in 7 days.  Aggressive and ambitious. It actually ended up being $1300 but that was not all driving money.

Step 3 – Work my ass off. This is a driving thing. It’s the only way I know that I can possibly make the money I want and still have some flexibility to manage my life. I told The Theatre that they won’t see me for July and we would talk about August when we get closer. In the meantime, my focus is on driving and if something extra comes up along the way then even better.

This upcoming week is going to be my hardest. The projected income needs are much higher than anything I think I can actually make. But, you never know – A – and, B, I’ve already got expenses that were not as high as were projected, I have a few things I can shift to another week if needed and I have the flexibility of the extraneous “savings” I am trying to build up. All I can do is try my best and see how it goes.

My first week I was a little under projection. That was part circumstance and part choices made. This past week I was a bit over. This, too, was a combination of choice and circumstance.  My second week was over. This, too, was both choice and circumstance.

The week coming up is the tough one. I have to make more money each day than I really can. But, I will give it my all. That is my choice. The rest will depend on how the expenditures work themselves out. This is circumstance.

Ok, so just to make sure I got it. [because now it’s Tuesday.]

My current budgeting plans each week are set to cover bills and expenses – however much that works out to be. It includes $100 in ‘savings’ funds. $150 towards Princess Adventures. $50 in miscellaneous expenses/savings. Plus, whatever else I can squeeze out of it.

I am working about a month at a time. Once more, I am working it hard until house sitting week. In that week I will tweak the system and plan out August.

I feel very odd these days. I feel like I have been processing a lot. Everything has been very strange. I feel very peaceful and content…happy, even. I’m OK with where I am at right now. But, spiritually – energetically – things have been wacky.

First, I feel very in tune with everything. The world POPS around me. Colors, sights, sounds…the slightest little breeze. I am just hyper-aware.

Along with this I have gained a strong sense of what I can only call ‘peace.’ I am very content. I also find I am moving much slower these days – not because I have to but because I can.

Each day I seem to make more and more peace with the whole of life – most especially the past. There is so much in the past – loss, heartache, some very very bad moments. There is also a past filled with so much joy and excitement and such very good and powerful moments. None of it matters. It doesn’t matter who hurt me or turned their backs on me. It doesn’t matter to whom I may have done the same. It does not matter how many good times there were. The past is only important when it is relevant. The past is merely a guide, a gauge, to the future.

I have been making peace with the future as well. I may never have a life like everyone else. But, then, I may have a life like no one ever imagined. In either case, it doesn’t matter, because whatever the future holds I will continue to survive and to thrive [in my own way] until I don’t.

That leaves me with the present and I am very [mostly] at peace with it. I suppose that depends on how we define the present though. Some may think, “now. In this time period,” others may call it today. And, still ,there are those that say the present is the moment you are in. Any moment before – even that one just a millisecond ago – is the past and doesn’t matter. Any moment after is the future and it doesn’t matter either.

I am at peace in and with the present moment. Right This Moment, things are perfect for what they are. I live, thrive and survive.

My sleep and Dreamtime have been extremely intense. I do not often recall any of what happens during these times. But, I do know how I feel afterwards. I go in deep. It doesn’t matter if it is a night’s sleep or a random power nap. I go in deep, fast, and hard. There are many times that I am conscious and aware long before my eyes open or a muscle moves. But I remain in that state. I drift in and out. And, when I come to, the reaction I have is always the same. Sometimes it is immediate. Others, like before I sat down to finish this writing out, take a little time.

I had laid for a rest between driving shifts. I went out quickly as I always do. When I did finally awake and move, I managed to put the bed back up, get to the front seat, roll a cigarette and then the reaction hit me and I said it.

“Holy shit!”

That’s it. Each and every time I awake from a sleep of any kind. “Holy shit!” I do not know what is happening in my Dreamtime of late but I can only imagine it is important because it is intense enough to leave an imprint afterwards.

I think I have covered everything. [It is Thursday by the way. It has been for several paragraphs now.]

I cannot see much of the future at the moment. I can not gauge it nor get a feel for it. I only know that it is there. I know that I feel like there is a very big change somewhere in between then and now.  Part of me has been trying to prepare for the winter. I have given serious thought to just going south for the winter. I still haven’t figured out how to make that work. But then…maybe I won’t have to.

When I try to ‘see’ my future I see two different things. One moment I will see a settled, more “normal” life with a home and so forth.  The next moment I will see me making a life on the road. I do not know which is the path I am on…and it doesn’t matter.  It Is What It Is. Que Sera, Sera.

The only way to the future is one present moment at a time. When the right moment arrives I will have the answers I need.

To review real quick –

I have one more week [plus] until house sitting. This is a time for Te Princesses and relaxing and even a bit of magick. That week is slowly falling into place.

After that is The Beach Birthday Getaway. I can see that weekend and it all seems good. It is short, sweet, and to the point. Yet, it will be just diverse enough to give each of us what he or she needs. I won’t even really think about it again until we get there. [I mean, outside of necessary predatory thoughts, obviously.]

The next marker I said I was given is August 26th. I cannot see that far. And, the only reason I can see beyond that is because of the lingering October trip. I’m kind of torn on this trip. I’d like to see it happen and I think it is something, again, that we all need. But, I am not certain that I see it happening. First, I think I have some concerns that whatever the 26th may hold could interfere with future plans. But, also, I’m just not sure how I pull it off financially. But then, a week ago I didn’t know how I was going to make the beach weekend happen either. Then, a tic here. A toc there. Suddenly everything fell into place – abc, 123, and we are good to go.

I said that two things have been put on the table before me that I do not understand. One, for now, is very irrelevant. We will tuck it away for safe keeping. The other is a little more pressing at the moment. It seems time-sensitive. But, then, time is a construct of man.

As I said, it is relevant to my life – both presently and moving into the future. I do believe it is mine to have and experience. There is a story behind it. There is even a connection to it. Yet, practically speaking, there is nothing I can do about it. I cannot find anything I have, nor nothing I can do, that could make it come to full fruition.

As I make my way from present moment to present moment on that journey towards the future I cannot see, the only tool I can wield is Faith. Let us see if my mustard seed can move that mountain.

Lastly, there is a foul of phrases that keep coming up as I journey from day to day. They are all messages previously received and I just want to touch base with them here – the best I can.

[I may not get the wording 100%]

Patience. Be truly okay with it.

It is not so much about time, but focus.

‘Three things’

‘You will be broken down to nothing to be built up stronger.’

‘You can have all you want. (Sacrifices)’

Focus on what you want.

I had a reading a little while ago and it brought up the past – long ago when this all began – it reminded me that once upon a time I had so much love to give. It served as a reminder to return to that state of mind.

I think that is everything now. I do have a long list of Totems. They have been repeated for several weeks now. So, I figured I’d get them all here together. Deer, in particular, has made some very potent appearances. [including the one I hit.]

I have to get back to work. My writing is done for now. Till I get the editing and tweaking done it could be another day or two until I get it posted. But, it seemed very important that I complete the writing before I return to the path of present moments.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

This is a long list of Totems – cumulative from the past few weeks. Some of them are repeated, some just appeared at the right moment. I’m Amy case, I am certain they are telling parts of the same story. Considering it is once again Sunday [like a second Sunday] if I do not have a description of the Totem there just won’t be one this week. Deer has probably been the most significant, appearing at odd times and in strange places – including the one I hit.

Ant - Industriousness, Order, and Discipline

Symbol of work and industry. Wisdom and intellect in their endeavors is often acclaimed. Social. Community activity. Gathering, hunting, growing. May find that the cycle of industriousness and building of goals may increase over a period of twelve years. Cycle of twelve - days, months, years - will be of significance. Teacher of how to build, how to be the architect of your own life. Show you how to construct our dreams into a reality. Greatest success occurs with persistence. Examine your own industriousness. Are you disciplining yourself enough to accomplish the tasks at hand? Are you or those around you looking for the quick and easy way?  Are you neglecting important activities? Are you laying a good foundation? Are you adding new structures to your life with each passing year in some fashion - education, jobs, hobbies, etc? Are you being patient with your efforts? Are you being patient with yourself? With others? Are you making things greater and more difficult than they need to be? Are you missing the opportunity to initiate new creativity and endeavors? Can teach how to harness your own power to design and recreate your life. Can show you how best to work with others for the good of everyone. Regardless of circumstances, if the effort is true, the rewards will follow - in the most beneficial time and manner. The promise of success through effort. 

Blue Jay - Proper Use of Power

It can reflect lessons in using your own power properly. It can also reflect lessons in not allowing yourself to be placed in a position in which power is misused against you. It has the ability to link the heavens and the earth, to access each for greater power. This is a totem that can move between both and tap the primal energies at either level. Higher knowledge that can be used. The main problem will be dabbling in both worlds, rather than becoming a true master of both. Usually have a tremendous amount of ability, but it can be scattered or it is often not developed any more than is necessary to get by. Not unusual to find individuals with the Jay totem being dabblers - especially in the psychic and metaphysical fields. They know a little bit about a lot of things and they use that knowledge sometimes to give the impression that they know more. Wear the crown of true master ship requires dedication, responsibility, and committed development in all things in the physical and spiritual. A reminder to follow through on all things - to not start something and then leave it dangling. A time of greater resourcefulness and adaptability is about to unfold. Going to have ample opportunities to develop and use your abilities. Look for ample time to develop and use your energies to access new levels. Actually a member of the crow family, most crows have no fear. It is because of this the Jay can help you connect to the deepest mysteries of the earth and the greatest of the heavens. This sense of seeking pleasure - often at the expense of others - can reflect an imbalance. Sometimes jay shows up when this is happening in your own life. A tremendous ability for survival with the least amount of effort. They reflect great talent, but that talent must be developed and utilized properly. It indicates that you are moving into a time where you can develop your innate royalty that is within you, or simply be a pretender to the throne. It all depends on you. 

Butterfly – Transmutation and The Dance of Joy

The process of metamorphosis should be studied closely. Make note of the most important issues confronting you at the moment. What stage of change are at in regards to them? You may have to examine and determine what you wish the outcome to be, and how best to accomplish it. Was a symbol of the soul. Was a symbol of conjugal bliss and joy. A symbol of change, joy, and color. There has long been an association in folklore between those of the Faerie Realm and butterflies. They remind us not to take things so seriously within our lives. They awaken a sense of lightness and joy. They remind us that life is a dance, and dance, though powerful, is also a great pleasure. Can be reminders to get up and move for if you can move you can dance. Look at how much or how little joy is within your life. Lighten up. Look for change. Don’t forget that all change is good. Reminds us to make changes when the opportunities present themselves. Transformation is inevitable. Growth and change does not have to be traumatic. It can occur as gently, as sweetly, and as joyfully as we wish.  

Cardinal - Renewed Vitality through Recognizing Self-Importance

They remind us that, regardless of the time of day or year, we always have the opportunity to renew our own vitality and recognize our own life roles. Whistles are often reminders to listen closely - to pay attention to what is blowing on the winds. Reflects that we should be listening to the inner voice (the feminine) more closely for our own health and well-being. Almost always reflects a need to assert the feminine aspects of creativity and intuition more strongly. Can reflect a need to b more careful about your diet, that what you are eating may be injurious to yourself and affecting your overall vitality. Reflects the rhythm of 12 that is going to become more predominant within your own life. Reflects lessons associated with responsibility and the recognition of the task at hand. May reflect past-life connections with the church, or even a reviving of more traditional religious beliefs, regardless of denomination. Remind us to add color to our lives, and remember that everything is of importance. 

Cat – Mystery, Magic, and Independence

Goddess Bast, Goddess Freyja, Goddess Shasthi. Study Mouse and Dog as well.

Crow - The Secret Magic of Creation is Calling

Magic and creation are potentials very much alive during the day. Alchemy. Represents “ingredients,” the initial state of substance - unformed but full of potential. A reminder of what an happen if we are not looking for magic and creation every day. Magic and creation are ‘cawing’ out to us every day. Health, home and respect. Working with crows can help you to see how the winds are going to blow into your life and how to adjust your own life flights. Finding a dead crow was a sign of good luck. Wherever crows are there is magic. Symbols of creation and spiritual strength. Look for opportunities to create and manifest the magic of life. They are messengers calling to us about the magic that is alive within our world everyday and available to us. 

Deer – Gentleness and Innocence – Gentle Luring to New Adventures

They have been able to adapt to every sort of habitat. Buddha is often pictured with a deer. Antlers are symbols of antennae, connections to higher forms of attunement. Look for new perceptions and degrees of perceptions to expand for as much as the next five years. Can indicate that there will be opportunities to stimulate gentle new growth increasingly over the next few years. Leads us back to the primal wisdom. A deer’s senses are very acute. Find increasing ability to detect subtle movements and appearances. Begin to hear what may not be said directly. Time to be gentle with yourself and others. A new innocence and freshness is about to be awakened or born. There is going to be a gentle, enticing lure of new adventures. Are you trying to force things? Are others? Are you being too critical and uncaring of yourself? An opportunity to express gentle love that will open new doors to adventure for you.

Dragonfly – The Power of Light

Inhabit two realms – water and air. The significance of these should be studied. There must be expressions of the emotional and the mental together. You may need some fresh air in regards to something emotional. You may need to gain new perspective or make a change. May even indicate that you are neglecting your emotions. Are you being too rational about everything? Are you not keeping the colors of emotion alive?

Eagle - Illumination of Spirit, Healing, and Creation. 

Balance of being of the Earth, but not in it. The soul, the spirit, and warmth of life. The resurrection. Punishment and reward. Greater sight and perception. Reflects an awakening ability or the need to learn to walk between worlds. Heroic nobility and divine spirit. The rediscovery of the inner child. Alchemy. Involvement with creativity. A willingness to experience extremes in a controlled condition. A willingness to use your passions to purify and to use your abilities, even if you get scorched a little in the process. The need to stay connected to and use things of the Earth. Important to know when to speak, how much, how strongly. New vision will open. The ability to hear - spiritually and physically - may also increase. Cooperative responsibility. A healing role. Opportunities (even those thought long lost) will arise - learn to see and snatch them up. A new sense of timing and movement will begin to develop Primal force inherent and easily awakened. Take on the responsibility and the power of becoming so much more than you now appear to be. Events will now fly faster, repercussions for everything you think, do and say (or fail to) - positive and negative - will be both stronger and quicker. A powerful new dimension to life and a heightened responsibility for your spiritual growth. Touch all of life with healing and become the mediator and the bearer of new creative forces within the world. 

Elephant – Ancient Power, Strength and Royalty

Royalty and fertility. The Hindu god of wisdom and success, Ganesha. Symbol of great sexual power. Neptune, prophecy, fertility and even family. Higher forms of discrimination. Open to energies and worlds otherwise unaccessible. Ivory from a spiritual and metaphysical aspect should be studied. The Maiden, Mother, and Crone. The opportunity to reestablish powerful family and societal ideals will occur. Prepare to draw upon the most ancient wisdom and power. Opportunity to help yourself or others regain your most primordial royalty.

Flamingo [spirit-animals.com]– Flamingo symbolism is reminding you to get in touch with your emotions. It is a good idea to allow yourself to feel so that you can process your feelings. Furthermore, this spirit animal will enable you to grow through releasing issues. In other words, if you bottle things up, you will find yourself reacting rather than acting appropriately. Therefore, the Flamingo meaning dictates that you must allow yourself to release your feelings so that you can come into balance again. Alternatively, like the Prairie Dog, Flamingo symbolism may be letting you know that it is time for you to get out and socialize. Therefore it is time to have some fun in your life. Moreover, socializing will help let go of stressful situations and coming to terms with changes in your life. Correspondingly, this bird also brings new ideas and options that will come to you while immersing yourself in the company of others. It will also allow you to find balance and gratitude for what you have. It will give you a greater appreciation of those around you. Conversely, Flamingo symbolism may be pointing out that you are blending in a bit too well right now. In other words, you need to allow yourself to be different and to think for yourself. Thus, the Flamingo meaning prompts you to maintain your individuality within the crowds.

Fly – [*from trustedpsychicmediums.com*]

 When the fly spirit animal makes its way into your life, this usually serves as a warning that there’s danger lurking somewhere.

It means to catch your attention when you are spending too much of your time with someone or on something that has a destructive influence.

The fly meaning brings to focus to anything that’s causing harm to your life, whether of your own choosing or not. An example of this is giving in to societal pressures and indifference.

Just like the cricket spirit animal,the meaning of the fly also speaks about hate, spite, malice, or blame. It buzzes to be heard and flies overhead annoyingly until you are forced to swat or kill it with anything you can get your hands on.

However, before you dismiss the fly as nothing but bad and undesirable, the fly symbolism also speaks about cures for sicknesses (just like the deer symbolism).

The meaning of the fly also serves as a reminder that you reap what you sow.

What you put out there to the world will come back to you a hundredfold, so make sure that your actions, thoughts, and words come from a place of love and goodness.

The fly spirit animal symbolizes abundance and prosperity during times of adversity.

It sends the message that by being persistent, consistent, and determined even in the face of tragedy will result to victory.

The fly signifies encouragement, because it does a very excellent job of goading you with its presence until you surrender to what it wants and let you be.

It will always fasten on you, arouse you, reproach you, or persuade you, and will not be satisfied until you get on your feet and achieve what you set out to achieve.

Fox - Feminine Magic of Camouflage, Shapeshifting and Invisibility. 

New world opening up. The process of creation is beginning. Guide to enter the Faerie Realm. Unless a male can recognize the magic of the feminine - in himself or others - and learn to use it to Shapeshifting his own life, it will ultimately lead to destruction. The Kundalini, and the freeing of the creative life force. Practicing and using camouflage. Working to blend in with surroundings, to come and go unnoticed, moving silently about without revealing your intentions. Learning to control the aura. Adjust its frequency and intensity so that you harmonize more with others. Levels of energy and fertility. If the focus stays on the creative energies, any sharp turn in the individual’s life will be handled with ease. Fox people have the ability to insulate themselves from anything that may seem cold, especially in relationships. Can appear larger than they are - for personal protection or for making greater impressions. Establish a trotting pace. Ability to move into new directions. Call upon new resources instinctively. Excellent ability to hear what is not being said. The ability to hear spirit. Size people up accurately. Develop the ability to see spirit. Aromatherapy. Awakening of the Kundalini. Higher forms of discrimination and discernment. Capture any prize. 

Frog – Transformation Through Water and Sound

Water and Land. Faeries and elves. Linked to rain and control of the weather. Lunar energies. Have been known to be heralders of abundance and fertility. You may need to get in touch with the water element. It may reflect that there are new rains coming or that you need to call new rains forth. Maybe the old waters are becoming dirty and stagnant. Frog can teach you how to clean them up. It is a totem of metamorphosis. It is a symbol of coming into one’s own creative power. Usually frog people have strong ties to their mothers. [Hint? Clue?] Are you becoming too mundane? Are you becoming too mired in the mud of your day-to-day life? Are you needing to dive into some fresh creative water? Are you feeling waterlogged, becoming bogged down, or drowning in emotions?

Groundhog – Mystery of Death without Dying – Trance - Dreams

The ability to get deep within an area of interest. A time when a new area of study is going to open up.  Two years to come to full fruition. Important to give definite signals to the boundaries you wish to have respected in your life. Death without Dying. A time of initiation. A symbol of opening fully to the Dreamtime. Increasing ability to develop lucid dreaming. Clarity and power of altered states will be amplified. Dreams will become more significant. Opportunity to explore deeper states of consciousness. Lessons associated with death and dying. Revelations about its process. Knowledge of metabolic control.

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill. 

Heron - The Call of The Quest andTravels to Legendary Places.

Reflects a stimulation of the childhood thrill and belief in legendary places. [The story(s) we most loved in childhood often reflect the life quest we have come to take upon us in this lifetime.] Can also aid in communication especially through the use of stories. Individuals wishing to write can facilitate the process by working with a goose totem. It will stimulate the creative process and help to move through creative blocks. Also a symbol of fertility and marital fidelity. May reflect a need for more vegetables in the diet. An ability to move forward or backward. Reflects movement. A call to the spiritual quest. It reminds us that as any one individual makes his or her quest, it becomes easier for others to do so as well. We should not undertake any quest in life without having a full view of what it entails. Opening to new possibilities. Affix ourselves to a new path. Great fertility that should be acted upon if growth is desired. Greater vision, physical and spiritual, will occur. Can reflect that you are about to break free from old childhood restraints and begin to come into your own. You can expect to have the imagination stirred toward new travels and distant places - whether in the body or in the mind. 

Horse - Travel, Power, and Freedom

Associated with burial rites and birth. Associated with appeal and persuasiveness. Symbols of freedom. Powers of divination. Can express the more magickal side of humans. Can represent movement and travel, or maybe it showed up to help you with movement. Symbol of desire - especially sexual. May be time to examine aspects of travel and freedom in your life. Feeling constricted? Need to move on or let others move on? Time to assert your freedom and your power in new areas? Doing your part to assist civilization in your environment? Are others? Are you using what this civilization has given you? New journeys. Teach you how to ride into new directions to awaken and discover your own freedom and power. 

Ladybug - (worldbirds.org)

The main meaning of ladybugs centers around good fortune, true love, innocence, needing to make the right choices in life, happy resolutions, etc. So what does it mean to see a ladybug?

When you encounter the ladybug spirit animal at any point, you can be sure that positive transformations are on the way.

You can trust this humble creature to brighten even the gloomiest of days and brighten your outlook on life should you come across it. The symbolism represents the time of the fruition of your dreams and wishes.

Understanding the symbolism meaning helps you understand how reaching newer heights and higher goals are possible. In due course, with the right approach and positive changes, your efforts and desires will come to pass if you follow the true preaching of the ladybug symbolism.

What do ladybugs mean when they cross paths with you or visit your homes? You could take it as a sign to halt a bit in life, perhaps, if you have been going too fast to achieve your dreams.

Sometimes, we need not to try overly hard but wait in faith for things to come around. Sometimes, there is success in being patient and the ladybug cautions to be just that. In time, your worries will dissipate and new happiness will set in.

Lion - Assertation of the Feminine and the Power of the Female Sun

Fixed element of Sulphur. Parents are patient and affectionate. Will find those same qualities within. Expect lessons dealing with community and groups to surface. Examine your own role within groups. Do you need to do more than you are? Do you need to be more protective Do you need to cooperate more? Avoids confrontations. Leave the scene of danger if possible. Be stealthy for the greatest success. There will be opportunity to awaken to a new sun. Trust your feminine energies - creativity, intuition, and imagination. Don’t be afraid to roar if you feel threatened or intruded upon. 

Owl - The Mystery of Magic, Omens, Silent Wisdom, and Vision in the Night

Symbol of the feminine and the night. Ties to fertility and seduction. Bird of magic and darkness, of prophecy and wisdom. Symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection and magic, both black and white. Hints of the light of the sun, alive in the dar of night. Meditation on this alone will reveal much about the magic of Owl within your life. Will be able to see and hear what others are trying to hide. What is not being said. See what is hidden or in the shadows. Detect and pinpoint the subtleties. Unique ability to see into the darkness of others’ souls. And life. Their medicine can extract secrets. If your neck is stiff and inflexible, you are hindering your perceptions to a great degree. Often reflects that you were born very perceptive - with a vision of others that you may or may not have recognized or acknowledged. Unique ability for seeing into the eyes and souls of others. Keep silent and go about your business. Eliminate those aspects that are not beneficial and unhealthy. 

Opossum - The Use of Appearances

Sometimes it is necessary to ‘play dead.’ Sometimes it is necessary to put up a particular front to succeed most easily and effectively. This is the medicine Opossum teaches. It can also show  you when others are putting up false fronts and deceptions. Helps us to use appearances to our greatest greatest benefit and help us to recognize when others are using false impressions. Help us to learn to divert attention or to get attention any way we need. Sometimes it is necessary to behave in a strategic manner. Opossum is the supreme actor. Help us draw from our own bag of tricks that which will most benefit us. Are you acting or about to act in an inappropriate manner? Do you need to strengthen your own appearance? Are others putting up false appearances in front of you? Do you need to divert attention away from some activity? Are others trying to divert your attention? Is it time to go into your bag of tricks and pull out some new strategy? Learning to pretend and act in ways and with realism is the magic that opossum teaches.

Rabbit - Fertility and New Life

Often seen as an animal that can lead one unknowingly into the Faerie realm. A symbol for sexuality and fertility. Usually, you will begin to see a cycle of 28 days beginning to manifest in your life. Those with rabbit totems will see movement occur in their life in varying degrees of hops and leaps. It won’t be steady step-by-step movement. The leaps and hops do not usually take more than the cycle of The Moon (28 days) to occur. Plan for possibilities. May indicate the need to do some more planning or review those you have already set in motion. You do not want to box yourself into a corner. Important not to foreshadow your moves. Learning to shift from freezing to great speeds will aid in your success and enables you to take advantage of opportunities that may present themselves for brief moments. May need to examine the kinds of food being consumed. For the greatest health and well-being, a vegetarian diet, even if only temporary, will strengthen and heal. How to recognize the tides of movement within your life. This in turn will enable you to become even more fertile in your life. 

Raccoon - Dexterity and Disguise

Also study Bear. Diet - vegetables and fruits. Expert at disguise and secrecy. Can teach you how to mask and disguise and transform yourself. Can teach you how to become dexterous in the masks you wear. Can show you how to wear a healing mask or show you the face of what you will become. Holds the knowledge of how to change our faces. Do you need to present a different face to people for greater success? Are you hiding your true self? Are others hiding their true selves? Learning to use masks to put one area of yourself to sleep so that another can be awakened. Will help you develop dexterity in using masks to achieve new and altered states and dimensions. 20 week cycles. 

Raven - Magic, Shapeshifting, and Creation.

Bird of birth and death; mysticism and magic. Messenger of the great spiritual realm. Bring forth life and order. Can help you shape shift your life or your being. Knowledge of how to become other ‘animals’ and how to understand their language. Teach how to stir the magic of life without fear. Strong creative life force. Can be used to enter The Void and stir energies to manifest what you most need. Expect Magic. Somewhere in your life, magic is at play. Activates the energy of magic, linking it with your will and your intentions. Teaches how to take that which is unformed and give it the form you desire. 

Squirrel – Activity and Preparedness

The gray squirrel is the most common and the most enthusiastic. If confronted the gray squirrel will usually run away and avoid any fight. Predominant predators are foxes and raptors such as hawk or owl. Two litters per year. On their own in 12 weeks. All squirrels can be quite sociable. Individuals with squirrel totem learn better by doing than studying. Squirrels are also quite communicative. Examine your own activity and preparedness. Are you too active? Not active enough? Are not planning at all for the future at all – distant or near? Are you becoming too erratic – running to and fro and not accomplishing anything? Do you need to learn how to save and ration on any level – money, time, energy, etc? Are you afraid you will never have enough? Are you too hung up on collecting and accumulating? Are you gathering and not giving? Squirrels can teach us the balance within the circle of gathering and giving out. Masters at preparing. Also reminders that in our quest for our goals, we should always make time to socialize and play.

Tiger – Power, Passion, Devotion and Sensuality

Element of water. Find their most effective work accomplished at night. Mysticism surrounding new and full moons. There will be awakened a new sensuality – a sensitivity to touch. White tiger is a symbol of the west, autumn, and all metals. Expect new adventures. Begin within 6-8 weeks and last for about a year and a half. Do you need more passion for life? Are you expressing your life passion inappropriately? Has your energy been down? There will begin to develop new adventures and renewed devotion and passion for life.

Turtle - Motherhood, Longevity, Awakening to Opportunities 

Help unite Heaven and Earth within your own life. Fairy connections. ‘Keeper of The Doors.’ Symbol of the Primal Mother. Long life and grounded was within life. Can teach new perceptions about time ad our relationship with it. The mystery of awakening the senses - physically and spiritually. Stimulates hearing/Clairaudience; Help with vision/Clairvoyance; Develop sense of smell and higher discrimination. Are you not seeing what you should? Are you not hearing what you should? Are you or those around you not using discrimination? A reminder to use your own head and knowledge to right yourself when your world gets tipsy-curvy. Sometimes Turtle shows up as a totem to help during these times. A reminder to pay attention or you will miss opportunities. A symbol of Mother Earth and that she provides all our needs. Turtle can slow us down to help us see our opportunities. Is our life becoming too hectic? Are we not taking time for ourselves? Are we so busy that we can’t really see what is going on? Are we going too slow and need to pick up the pace a little? Also study Raccoon. Vitamin D/Diet. Link between water and land. Water is the creative source that we can draw on and live in, but we must also come out of it and apply that creativity within the physical world - the land. Also hints at needing to think things through before you act on them. It is time to get connected to your own primal essence. Go within your shell and come out when your ideas are ready to be expressed. It is time to recognize that there is abundance out there for you. It doesn’t have to be gotten quickly and immediately. Take your time and let the natural flow work for you. Too much, Too soon, can upset the balance. Reminds us that all we need for all we do is available to us, if we approach it in the right manner and time. Reminds us that the way to Heaven is through the Earth. 

Vulture - Purification - Death and Rebirth - New Vision.

A guardian to the mysteries of life and death and the road of salvation. A coming time when you will be noticed more for what you do than how you appear. You will probably start to see auras and energies around people and things. Distributing one’s energy so that gravity does not weigh and hold one down - be it the actual gravity of the earth or the gravity of mundane situations and experiences. Associated with higher forms of discrimination. Assist you in developing your own sense of ‘smell’ that you can use effectively in all areas of your life. Aromatherapy. Changes in the digestive system. Pay attention to how you feel physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually after eating various foods. Acting rather than talking. May take as much as three months before an individual begins to truly move past the death stage to rebirth. A promise that the suffering of the immediate was temporary and necessary for a higher purpose was at work. Reflects that no matter how difficult the life conditions, rescue is imminent in your life. 

Wolf - Guardianship, Ritual, Loyalty, and Spirit

Teaches you to know who you are and to develop strength, confidence and surety in that so that you do not have to demonstrate or prove yourself at all. Very expressive with hands, face, posture, or some other manner. How to empower your verbal communications with appropriate key language. Teach the lesson of proper governorship - the balance between authority and democracy. How to use ritual to establish order and harmony in your own life. Helps us to understand that true freedom requires discipline. 22-24 months. Need to make use of all that is available to you. Remind us to not waste, as much as to remind us to keep our spirits alive Great discrimination. Listen to own inner thoughts and words. The intuition will be strong. Learning to trust your own insights and to secure your attachments accordingly. Help you to hear the inner and guard from inappropriate actions. Time to breathe a new life into your life rituals. Find a new path, take a new journey, take control of your life. Do so with harmony and discipline. 

Woodpecker – The Power of Rhythm and Discrimination

Drumming. New Life Rhythms. Applications of shapeshifting. Are you looking at aspects of your life rationally? Are others around you not discriminating in their activities? Are you or others in your life jumping into situations with little or no analysis? It will become increasingly important for you to follow your own unique rhythms and flight. Do what works for you in the manner best for you. The foundation is there.