S8EP1: If You're Just Joining Us

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

WALT: Welcome to my Life is an I T.V. Studios/Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

The Bassett Hound

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (3)

Brother John

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, November 6, Two-Thousand and Twenty-New. Time...Relaunching

Theme – Sometimes it’s Okay for Things to be a Little Messy

I don’t know if I used this one already or not. I know it was on my mind for a few weeks. I just can’t recall if I remembered to actually post it. This is another of those that comes to us courtesy of television. I was watching Meet Cute on Peacock and it was a repeated line from that movie. It made sense at the time but then I started to see it in action in my life. Sometimes it was things like dishes or laundry. At other times it was a messy schedule. This past week it just so happened to be messy finances. But in each of those situations I realized that messes can get cleaned up. So…Sometimes it’s Okay for Things to be a Little Messy.

Lesson – It’s Just a Matter of Time

Time is the one thing we cannot control. We can not save it, nor make more of it. It can pass in the blink of an eye or drag on for what seems like forever. It is the greatest illusion that man has ever created. In time, all things are made manifest. Some come quickly, others may linger in the shadows before appearing. All good things come to those who wait. Time heals all wounds. There is a time for everything. A time for action and a time for rest. A time for abundance and a time for lack. Time can be on our side, or it can work against us. It can put us under pressure or make us feel relieved. I think once we learn to respect and revere time life gets a little easier.

Observation – It’s Whatever

This was always a Belle saying. She’ll deny it till the day she dies but, “It’s whatever,” usually equated to, “I’m not really happy with this situation.” I respect that though because even in unhappiness or dissatisfaction, “It’s whatever,” acknowledges that it’s also relatively unimportant. The older I’ve gotten, the more I have come to realize that so much of life is actually unimportant. It’s all just…whatever. It’s very rare that things cannot be fixed, mended, even perhaps forgotten. Unless it causes some sort of serious injury – physical, mental, financial – something that cannot so easily be mended, it’s just whatever. I’ve had a crazy couple of weeks. They have been challenging and inspiring and all sorts of things. The one thing they weren’t was the way I had planned. It caused scheduling headaches, financial headaches and several other problems. But, in the end, it all worked out. So…It’s Whatever. I’ve had issues with my family. I have lost friendships. My heart and my soul have been broken. But…It’s Whatever. Life moved on and they do their things as I do mine. No one is lacking nor lost. No harm, no foul. It’s just…whatever. The other day, I picked up a delivery order at The Diner. I talked to The Boy for a few moments. He is opening a new diner. I asked about the progress. I congratulated him [for a second time] and I wished him well. It’s true, when I left there I was done. I was completely done. I couldn’t do that any longer. There were some ill and uncomfortable feelings for a while. But that all happened once upon ago in early 2021. It’s Whatever. I have been feeling the same way towards all of the twists and turns and bumps in the road – my marvelous misadventures – of the past few weeks. Not a week, not even a single day, went as I had planned and hoped. Some things didn’t get taken care of and some unexpected things happened on a whim. Essentially, the scales are balanced. Here I am on the other side of it all and I am no worse for wear. In fact, I might even be better. So that is how I face each day and the events therein – It’s just…whatever.

The Post

If you’re just joining us – Welcome. As I said, I’m Freedom – The Rev. Matt, Matthew, Matchoo, Asshole…it all depends on who you’re asking.

I just turned 50 this past August. I don’t know what that actually means. I get the impression that it’s supposed to make me feel some sort of way. It doesn’t really. I mean it is a little awkward at times when I think how – if I’m lucky – I have gotten through 2/3 of my life span. So, I try not to think about it. I don’t worry about what the future may hold. [Not anymore.] Nor, do I care to mourn the past. I’ve done plenty of that.

It's Whatever.

I choose, instead, to just live today – each and every day. Yesterday is gone. No sense in looking back or holding on. Tomorrow doesn’t really matter until today is over. So, I live today. And, if I’m being honest, it doesn’t matter how many years pass nor the toll they may take on my physical body. The simple fact of the matter is that my soul will forever remain 26. That is how I feel almost every day. [And it has gotten me into trouble more than I would care to admit.]

If you’re just joining us, I do have two daughters – Princess Cuddlebug and Princess Sunshine. They are the light of life. The jewels of my crown. It would not take long, in person, for one to realize that they are my everything and I probably love them more than anything else ever – including G-d. [That there is a dangerous statement. But he’s young. He’ll grow.]

Do not fear. I have actually had that argument with G-d. I understand that we should put nothing else before G-d. But, truly, if that is what he wanted then he shouldn’t have given me two absolutely incredible and amazing daughters. They trump. Ultimately, all of my decisions revolve around them first. They are my everything.

In fact, for the purposes and intents of living today – every day forward – you could say that they are my only family. The statement in and of itself – the words as they are formed and played – is not true. But, the sentiment is, sadly, very real.

My father, Craze, passed last year. My mother, Big ‘D’, still lives. This, however, has always been a tumultuous relationship. [I do not know if the use of that word there is actually English appropriate. But the word really works.] Things have gotten slightly better, in as much as there is occasional communication and some shared meals.

I have 3 sisters – two are half. None talk to me. One hasn’t in decades. One just fell between the cracks of the broken floorboards of our family relations. The last, Boom-Dee-Aye, hates me. Let me stress that so you get it. HATES me. This woman loathes my very existence and she has no problem living that reality. Now, me? Eh. It’s Whatever. We were close once. We’re not now. Life goes on. I do not have any problems with who she is. Instead, I am put off by how she behaves.

Though, be certain, that whenever The Princesses and I do vent about her and her ways, at the end, I remind them – She may frustrate and irritate us. She may even piss us off. But, remember, people like her are the ones that need our love and understanding the most. Now, this is not to say that I wanna like hang out with her. Certainly not. She is as she is and it is a vibe that is just not for me. I can’t be around it.

Not to mention the fact that she HATES me.

There are cousins. More than enough actually. There are a few who will keep in touch with me from time to time. Or have a relatively decent and respectful conversation. Most, fall into that typical category of when ya see ‘em its all good and when ya don’t its “catch ya at the next holiday.” Of course, there is a handful of them that feel towards me the same as Boom-Dee-Aye and they have no qualms in showing it. I don’t really know why. For the whole of my life I have had minimal contact with these folks – mostly at holidays and other gatherings. I can’t imagine what I could have done to upset them so.

In fact, my relationships as a whole are kind of askew. I am the captain of a ship with no crew. There is no first mate. No best friend. I do not have a crew, a gang with which I hang. Most of my friendships are like ports on the ocean of my life. I think of them often and fondly. I long for the days when my travels will allow me to visit once more. And, when those times come, I relish in every single moment of the experience. No matter how long I have been at sea, they always welcome me back warmly.

If you’re just joining us – my life, as a whole, is a shit show. It has not been anything like the life you sit down and imagine for yourself when you’re young. It has not been steady nor stable. For 25 years it has been a roller coaster ride. I have worn so many different hats. Walked innumerable paths. I often look back and wonder how it is I fit all of that into just 25 years.

I am not the poorest mother fucker on the block. But, most days, I’m pretty damn close. I get by. I survive. I suppose that is all we can really ask for and it is worthy of gratitude. The truth is, for the past 3+ [almost 4] years, I have been technically homeless. I have lived in all sorts of situations in that time -in a car to a treehouse back to the car; To a friend’s basement studio apartment. Back to the car. Into a van when the car got hit in a parking lot. Then a tent. Sleeping in a friend’s basement. Back to the van for almost a year. Into an apartment, after which I returned to my vehicle which was no longer the van [which had been totaled in an accident] but something different and much smaller.

It is What it Is.

Choices Were Made.

My health is eh. Considering I don’t really take care of myself in any way and I don’t go to the doctor, I suppose eh isn’t so bad. It could be much worse. The worst part of my health is my dental health. I have a mouth full of rotting and decaying teeth. It is what it is. I have tried several times to pursue paths to correct the situation. Each time I have hit a dead end. It’s frustrating. Somewhat dejecting and degrading. There is a level of discomfort that I cannot properly describe to you unless you have experienced it. I never know when the next one will go, nor which one it will be.

In fact, I have tooth right now that has been developing quite the hole over the past few weeks. Eventually it will break off and the following few days will be difficult to get through as my body stays infection and pain; While I figure out how to eat now without that tooth. Of course, it also has me not liking to talk or smile. Unfortunately, those two things are pretty much the whole of my existence. So that kinda sucks.

It's Whatever.

I actually consider it one of my many Blessed Curses. Yes, it sucks. It’s uncomfortable - physically, mentally and even emotionally. But, it all could have been much worse. I could have had major infections or crippling pain at any time and I did not.

AMEN.

If you are just joining us – The only thing that has actually been a constant in the last 25 years has been my insatiable devotion to a Divine Spirit which I cannot define. There is no doubt in my mind that there is a Divine Intelligence behind all of existence. At this point in my life, I think that is all we really need to know.

This need of ours to define Divinity merely convolutes the whole experience. Stringently defining Divinity is pointless. It only serves two purposes. First, to frustrate ourselves. Second, to limit Divinity. Both are truly exhausting experiences.

G-d is.

G-d is good. G-d is great. [Bless the one who clears his plate.] G-d is singular and multitude. G-d is The Universe. G-d is The Goddess. G-d is science and G-d is music. G-d is the sunrise and the sunset. G-d is everything and nothing.

G-d is the beginning and the end and everything in between. G-d is in every breath, every experience, every moment.

G-d is.

If you are just joining us – let me say once again, Fellow Travelers, “Welcome.” Welcome to Geistopia, the most mystifying and magickal of all the realms within the Earth Mind. I have traveled the realms far and wide – Wonderland, Neverland, Middle Earth, Oz. I have even take a journey or two into Sheol. I tell you, none [not a one] are as intoxicating and delectable as Geistopia. Here – truly – anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. You never know what is around the next bend.

[*in a whisper* I strongly suggest that you keep arms, legs, and any other valuable appendages inside the car at all times.]

Welcome to My Life is a place where we can explore these mysteries and magicks. Where we can delve into the depths and darkness of existence together. Our paths are seldom as straight as we would imagine and they are lined with inconceivable hidden treasures.

If you are just joining us – you will find that I have a language and way about me all my own. I use nicknames and code words. Very often I will tell you precisely what you need to know without ever saying the words you want to hear. I like to play with language as I like to play with all of the ARTs. It is how we learn and grow and ‘evolve.’

Though, personally, I find evolution and ascension to be such naive and elementary notions. How can we evolve or ascend when, from the moment of our birth, we are everything? There are no great secrets hidden in The Universe waiting to be found. They lie within each and every one of us. All we must do is acknowledge and accept them.

That is not evolution. It is awareness.

If you are just joining us, you will find that I tell the most fantastical tales. You will sit in awe [and question my sanity] as I spin yarns of the times I have walked with angels or held court with the gods. I’ve even met Santa Claus.

In fact, I just ran into him the other day. Not the real Santa Claus, of course. I don’t know what happened to him. It was many years ago that we met and he came and went like a frosty whisp of winter’s wind. This one was there as a reminder. It is the Yuletide Season once more. Soon The List shall arrive. Duty calls.

If you are just joining us then there is so much more I could tell you. I could tell you about my week and it’s frenzied folly of fabulousness. I could tell you of my sudden multitude of jobs or my work [which is something completely different.] I could tell you of the ups and downs of my most recent and current living situation.

All that will come.

It’s Whatever.

For now, Fellow Travelers, if you are just joining us, I have shared with you all that I can and told you all that you need. At this point, you know me better than most and understand me about as much as you ever will.

The Wheel of the Year has clicked once more and a new season is upon us. Not only in the Cycle of the year but in the cycle of WTML as well.

Buckle up, kiddies. Uncle Matt thinks it’s gonna be one helluva ride.

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt.

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Raven - Magic, Shapeshifting, and Creation.

Bird of birth and death; mysticism and magic. Messenger of the great spiritual realm. Bring forth life and order. Can help you shape shift your life or your being. Knowledge of how to become other ‘animals’ and how to understand their language. Teach how to stir the magic of life without fear. Strong creative life force. Can be used to enter The Void and stir energies to manifest what you most need. Expect Magic. Somewhere in your life, magic is at play. Activates the energy of magic, linking it with your will and your intentions. Teaches how to take that which is unformed and give it the form you desire.

Fly – [*from trustedpsychicmediums.com*]

When the fly spirit animal makes its way into your life, this usually serves as a warning that there’s danger lurking somewhere.

It means to catch your attention when you are spending too much of your time with someone or on something that has a destructive influence.

The fly meaning brings to focus to anything that’s causing harm to your life, whether of your own choosing or not. An example of this is giving in to societal pressures and indifference.

Just like the cricket spirit animal, the meaning of the fly also speaks about hate, spite, malice, or blame. It buzzes to be heard and flies overhead annoyingly until you are forced to swat or kill it with anything you can get your hands on.

However, before you dismiss the fly as nothing but bad and undesirable, the fly symbolism also speaks about cures for sicknesses (just like the deer symbolism).

The meaning of the fly also serves as a reminder that you reap what you sow.

What you put out there to the world will come back to you a hundredfold, so make sure that your actions, thoughts, and words come from a place of love and goodness.

The fly spirit animal symbolizes abundance and prosperity during times of adversity.

It sends the message that by being persistent, consistent, and determined even in the face of tragedy will result to victory.

The fly signifies encouragement, because it does a very excellent job of goading you with its presence until you surrender to what it wants and let you be.

It will always fasten on you, arouse you, reproach you, or persuade you, and will not be satisfied until you get on your feet and achieve what you set out to achieve.

Fox - Feminine Magic of Camouflage, Shapeshifting and Invisibility.

New world opening up. The process of creation is beginning. Guide to enter the Faerie Realm. Unless a male can recognize the magic of the feminine - in himself or others - and learn to use it to Shapeshifting his own life, it will ultimately lead to destruction. The Kundalini, and the freeing of the creative life force. Practicing and using camouflage. Working to blend in with surroundings, to come and go unnoticed, moving silently about without revealing your intentions. Learning to control the aura. Adjust its frequency and intensity so that you harmonize more with others. Levels of energy and fertility. If the focus stays on the creative energies, any sharp turn in the individual’s life will be handled with ease. Fox people have the ability to insulate themselves from anything that may seem cold, especially in relationships. Can appear larger than they are - for personal protection or for making greater impressions. Establish a trotting pace. Ability to move into new directions. Call upon new resources instinctively. Excellent ability to hear what is not being said. The ability to hear spirit. Size people up accurately. Develop the ability to see spirit. Aromatherapy. Awakening of the Kundalini. Higher forms of discrimination and discernment. Capture any prize.