S9EP7: I Know Things Now

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

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Princess Cuddlebug

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Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

The Bassett Hound

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (3)

Brother John & Sister Jen

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

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It is…Sunday, January 22, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...Equalizing

Theme – Old Habits Die Hard

I have been dealing with this on so many levels recently. It’s not just about habits themselves. It’s also routines and mindsets and attitudes. Minor example – I have noticed in the last week that [without an alarm] I am waking up at about 0600. This is a little late for me. Especially if I want to get a good start to my day. However, it is also perfectly natural. We just turned the clocks ahead. My body still thinks it is getting up at 0500. Truth is, throughout my week, I had found so many examples in my life. Tonight, I can’t think of any of them. LOL. I think my take away is that habits – whether they are habits or routines or mindsets – are learned behaviors. To change them, one must learn new behaviors to replace them. [Perhaps that is actually the hard part.]

Lesson – The Only Right Choice is the One You Make

Once a choice is made, there is no way of knowing what, exactly, a different choice may have yielded – whether it would have been a better or worse choice. Schrodinger’s Cat. Without being able to see the choice through to its completion there is no way of knowing. Therefore, it would have been both a better and a worse choice. Without being able to know for sure, then, it can only be assumed that the choice you made was the best [or right] choice…for whatever reason.

Observation – Just Do You, Boo

I feel like this may actually be the Observation of the Journey. So much of my life seems to have revolved around my ability [more often, lack thereof] to just be me. I hold back. I resist. Or [sometimes] worse, I will over do it. I’ve just always been so concerned about how other people receive me. I’ve always been awkward and odd. I’ve wanted nothing more than to be ‘normal’ – to live a life like everyone else. But, I do not have a life like everyone else. And, that’s OK. There is a passage in I Corinthians that speaks something about the fingers of the hand. The Moral being that we are all a part of the body of G-d. We each have a different place and purpose in the body and that body is not complete without any one of us. You never know how just being you might help another person. In you, a person my find inspiration, encouragement, support, compassion, any number of things. Be weird. Be different. Struggle against the current tide and go in your own direction. Just do you.

The Post

This was definitely an intense week. Thursday night there was the first ever stage presentation of WTML. So much of my focus and energy this week went into that project.

On Monday, I got up to go work. No different than any other day. As I was getting ready, The Voice was whispering whispers about staying home to work on the show. I argued.

“I can’t afford such a move.”

I finished getting ready and set out for my day. Later than I would have liked, I might add. In two hours, I received three offers and only one of them was actually a viable offer. I sighed heavily and shook my head as I conceded.

“Fine. You’ve made your point.”

No Regrets.

I needed that time. I absolutely did. I needed all the time I took to work that show this week, which was a lot. But, on Monday, I came home and I gathered props and mounted heads and tweaked my needs. I also tweaked the ‘script,’ then walked it and worked it. Then I tweaked it again and walked it and worked it. And again and again and again, until I felt I could tweak it no more. I did this until about 1800.

Then I ran it over and over again for 6 hours straight.

On Tuesday, I was burnt out. No doubt. Still, I got up and headed out to work my day. However, I was home Tuesday night working on the show. The same would go for Wednesday. I did not plan those two days. I knew I was going to work the show Monday night, but I did not expect a whole day. Still, I took it all as it came.

The house was small. Extremely small. Yet, I feel as though it was Just Enough. The whole thing was a test. I needed to see if it worked on stage. I needed to see what worked? How it worked?

It went well. There was a lot of positive feedback. I do think it is something I could do again. But, I would definitely have to tweak some things. There was a discussion afterwards and people had a lot of good input. For instance, I need to use ‘The Gang’ more.

[Everyone likes ‘The Gang.’ No one could give a shit about me lmao.]

So, I have a lot to think about and to process. It felt right doing it. I think it was a good moment in time and we will see where it takes me.

I also came to the conclusion, after some dialogue, that I really need to make videos a priority. [Somehow.] I have been turning over ideas in my mind – for both video and stage. We will see.

My teeth have been bothering me this week. Not only from a self-image space but physically as well. I have that one that was developing a hole. Well, now it is a hole. So, eating has been difficult. Plus it just gets irritated in general. Not to mention, the gums around it have been tender. I’ve just been going through random bouts of discomfort.

It gets into my jaw and into my ears and temples and sinuses. But it comes and goes. Oddly, it also seems to be accompanied by some sort of spiritual zone out of some kind. It’s just been a very intense experience all around.

Looch just happened to message me some information this week as well. It is about a dental clinic coming to the city. I went to it several years ago when they came around. It is quite an experience. [Truth be told, I’m still kind of traumatized by it.] I don’t know if the clinic can do anything for me at this point. I need to look into it. Frankly, the only thing that can help my mouth at this point is to just rip out what is left and get dentures.

I also decided this week that I am going to look into assistance again. I’ve had so many obstacles in getting it for so many years. But now, maybe things will be different. It’s not a choice I want to make. But I need to see if I can do something. If nothing else, maybe for health insurance.

Today I went to my first hockey game. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I am grateful to Spooky Queen and her family for inviting me along.

Needless to say, with how my week ran, I am negative to start tomorrow morning. Normally, I would be very frustrated. My finances have been like running on a treadmill – a lot of work to get nowhere. But, I am trying to take a different perspective.

If I pull back and try to look at a larger picture, I feel a little better about things. I am negative every week. It is true. But I am negative [on average] by the same amount each week. This tells me a couple of things.

First, despite all of my bumps in the road, I have remained pretty steadfast. I’ve held my own. This also indicates that I can do this. Even with all the interruptions I have mostly held my ground. I have been short the same amount of money since the beginning of the year. So, if I just keep plugging away and get it balanced out I can work this. I might be at $0 every week. But 0 is better than less than.

I can do this. I don’t know how it works out or when. But I can do this.

This coming week I am going to try some different things. I have plenty of food so I am putting off groceries as long as possible. Also, I am not buying pellets this week. I just can’t. I have a few scenarios in mind for running the electric heaters. Worse case scenario I just have to camp out in the basement for a while. There is one heater down here already and I can add toit. The space is enclosed and easier to maintain the warmth.

If it gets too unbearable I do have room on at least one of my cards to get a few bags to hold me over until I get caught back up.

That’s all I have this week, Fellow Travelers. I’m sorry if it is kind of blah. That is sort of where my mind is, but not in a bad way. I’m just sort of mellow. Almost as if I am letting energies settle into place.

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt.

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Owl - The Mystery of Magic, Omens, Silent Wisdom, and Vision in the Night

Symbol of the feminine and the night. Ties to fertility and seduction. Bird of magic and darkness, of prophecy and wisdom. Symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection and magic, both black and white. Hints of the light of the sun, alive in the dark of night. Meditation on this alone will reveal much about the magic of Owl within your life. Will be able to see and hear what others are trying to hide. What is not being said. See what is hidden or in the shadows. Detect and pinpoint the subtleties. Unique ability to see into the darkness of others’ souls. And life. Their medicine can extract secrets. If your neck is stiff and inflexible, you are hindering your perceptions to a great degree. Often reflects that you were born very perceptive - with a vision of others that you may or may not have recognized or acknowledged. Unique ability for seeing into the eyes and souls of others. Keep silent and go about your business. Eliminate those aspects that are not beneficial and unhealthy.