S9EP8: To Everything Turn, Turn

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

WALT: Welcome to my Life is a Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (3)

Brother John & Sister Jen

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, March 26, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...Expanding

Theme – The Lesser of Two Evils

Choices Were Made. Choices are always made. We choose this or that. Every decision we make is essentially a choice. If we decide to do A instead of B it is a choice. Sometimes, we find ourselves face to face with what seems a no win situation. There appear to be no good – no acceptable [to ourselves] choices to make. Still, a choice must be made. Choices are always made. In these times, all we can do is choose what [we think] is The Lesser of Two Evils.

Lesson – Life is Perfect but Never Perfected

Everything Happens for a Reason – Precise & Perfectly Placed. This is absolutely true. But, why then do we have bad times, hard times, challenges and despair? Because those things make us stronger, wiser, more capable. They teach us about ourselves, the world around us, and The Divine Intelligence. No matter how far we come in life there is always room for more growth, change, evolution, revolution. The same is true for our lives. There is always room for more. So – Life is Perfect [unfolding as it must] but Never Perfected [always tweaking a little bit more.]

Observation – I’m a Lil Slow on the Uptake [a lot]

Oh my god this is so true. Across the board. The whole of my life. It just takes a while for things to click. Why do you think I have never been successful in relationships? I never know that someone is interested until it is too late. “oops. Missed that chance.” That’s with everything. I know what I need to do [or not.] I know where my focuses need to be or shift. It just takes a long time before it comes around and clicks right. The sad part is that I have been slow on the uptake of knowing that I’m slow on the uptake.

The Post

I don’t know how I feel. I don’t know how I feel about my week. I don’t know how I feel about my life as a whole. I might be in over my head.

Well, I guess that’s really how I was feeling at the beginning of the week. I may be a little more comfortable in it at the moment.

I had a very rough start to my week.

First and foremost, I have been having some serious dental issues. [beyond the obvious.] I’ve just been going through periods of pain and discomfort. There is a tooth with a growing hole. I knew that was coming. So that has been an issue. Then places where teeth are missing or broken were hurting.

It wasn’t even a hurt. It was just more of a strong but dull sensation. It would start in just my mouth. Spread to my jaw. Then my temple and my nasal cavity and eventually my crown. It would come and go on its own. Sometimes it would get so unbearable and then it would just be gone. Honestly, it was driving me a bit insane at times.

Interestingly, Looch randomly sent me a link for a dental clinic that is coming to The Valley. I have to look more into it. I have done it before. They pulled out about 4 teeth that day. Honestly, it was [physically] a traumatic experience. My body recalls all too well what that day felt like. I don’t know that I can go through that again. I also don’t know if they can do anything more for me than just pull teeth out. Like I said, I have to look into it more.

Speaking of things which need further investigation – a possible job came to my attention this week. It’s for a school bus driver. I don’t know. I just don’t know. I have promised to follow every lead to it’s own natural conclusion. But I just have so many issues with this thought. [And maybe that’s more of a reason to investigate.]

First, I am not comfortable driving such a large vehicle. I do not have the depth perception for such a task. I almost took out 6 points on this house when I backed the box truck in here on ‘moving day.’ It’s also a whole different kind of driving. More weight. More power. More responsibility and focus needed. In case you haven’t met me – I’m not so good with either of those things. Especially focus.

Speaking of focus, I am a very sensitive person. I can only do other people’s high energy and noise for so long before it starts to tweak me. The I get all kinds of fritzy. That’s a lot of kids to counter balance.

Speaking of kids – I don’t think I like being responsible for that many of someone else’s spawn. I mean…have you met me?

To that end, I have no need to drive a full size bus. But, if they have an opening for a van driver, or maybe even one of those smaller buses.

WALT: You mean like the kind you rode to school on?

Stop it.

WALT: I’m just trying to be clear. I need a visualization.

Anyway, that’s that note.

Lately, my life is like running on a treadmill. I’ve been putting out all of this effort and energy, but not really getting anywhere. Every week I am shifting and juggling things around. Sometimes it minimizes the damage I am taking but mostly, it just shifts it to another time and place. Delays it.

I have been caught in the same rut for months. I’m always starting the week behind. I’m always starting the week with stress. I’m always rushing and pushing to get caught up with last week so I can start on this week. And I am only speaking financially. Don’t get me started on everything else I have going on.

I keep trying to tweak and adjust and figure out how to make it all work.

This week was no different.

I came into the week behind – that same dreaded $150. So, I delayed my rent until Monday instead of doing it on Sunday. That let me make up the balance without incurring any fees. But it also had me a day behind in my weekly funds. I also had two scheduling interferences this week – Friday and Saturday nights.

Sunshine was in her first high school musical. I, of course, went both nights. They did an excellent job. Sunshine was awesome. She was in the ensemble and had quite a few speaking parts throughout. But what I noticed most was that she was just beaming. I saw that same soul of my sweet lil girl that I have been missing so much.

A side note from that experience is that I would love to direct school shows. I just feel like there is so much talent on some of these stages and director’s just don’t know how to use it. In true high school fashion, the staging was a lot of – walk, stop, stand. Walk, stop, stand. Nothing with depth or dimension. Not only are these kids capable of so much more than that, but that kind of staging just makes them look sloppy.

But I digress.

I also lost a chunk of my day on Tuesday. I can’t even tell you now how it started. But I know it all had to do with the moon. Tuesday was the New Moon. I was sure to take a ritual soak that night and it was much needed.

I found myself drifting off quickly and to places I would have never suspected. For instance, Sleepy hollow, NY. I have been there once before. On a work trip. That’s actually what I saw. Pulling up to the hotel we stayed at.

I don’t know.

So, once again, I cannot regret the time off. It was needed. I thought about it that day and I can’t tell you how long I was just on the go. It was at least two weeks of non-stop pushing.

I managed my life well enough throughout the week. I cut things out – like groceries [which was fine] and pellets for the stove. I resorted to the electric heaters.

In the end, I still came up short. I had software charge me for a subscription. It was my own fault. I didn’t realize what I had done. I don’t regret having the software but I wouldn’t have paid out like that at this time.

I had a hard choice to make. I had to skip a credit card payment. It was either that or delay my rent or cut it short and try to make that up somehow. I couldn’t do that again. So, I chose the lesser of two evils. I can recover from the credit card payment quicker and easier than recovering from missed rent. [There’s also less repercussions.]

I am giving things through the end of April. See where I stand at that point. Something needs to shift because I can only keep up like this for so long. To be fair, a good part of it all falls on my own shoulders. I am caught in a rut of frenzy and foolishness. It goes back to habits – learned behaviors. It is also a matter of time management. [Which shifts without the habits.] Basically, I need to, as Johnny says, be focused and disciplined.

JOHNNY: Well, it’s about time.

WALT: Aw, look what ya did. You validated him. Now he’ll never shut up.

Be nice.

WALT: Oh, I was.

I just have to put my best foot forward. For every ‘bad’ habit, I need to find a replacement habit. When I want to drift into distraction, I need to latch onto something productive. Even if it is the simplest and smallest of tasks. I need to get back to To-Do lists.

I need to get back to a lot of things. I don’t think I have done anything administrative all month long. I can’t even tell you how that happened. I mean nothing. No mile tracking. No Quicken. No email. Nothing. I know that up until the 16th-17th the show was taking up a lot of my energy and consciousness. I hope, somehow, it ends up being worth all of the effort that has been put into it.

It has become this whole thing. I have been uploading ‘Reels’ of the show on Facebook every day. I am timing my uploads of fuller videos on YouTube with the Reels. Somehow, this has all led to trying my hand at TikTok as well. So, I had to make some new videos for TikTok. I am intermixing those with the same reels clips from Facebook.

The show was received well. I believe everyone who was there would come to see another. I received strong Feedback. Some was pretty standard, like slow down a bit. Especially with the characters. Though some of that would be resolved with the use of a mic. More use of the characters was a repeated Theme. I get that. I used them to use them. Then I kind of put them on the shelf. So more balance. Also, mom suggested a new character. Well, not new for me, but to WTML.

I think my favorite piece of Feedback was when someone said that he likes my stories because I believe. [Have Faith.]

Well, I think that is all, Fellow Travelers…for now.

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt.

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

No Totems to speak of this week. I mean, I’m sure there were some. But I cannot remember enough of the week to recall what they may have been.