The Journey Home: Ep. 2 - The Whys and Wherefores

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true! 

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It is…Sunday, May 10, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Jive. Time...Igniting

Theme – It's the Thought That Counts

Once again, this is one of those Themes we can approach from different angles. For instance, Spooky Queen told me this week that she had played a very high paying 50/50 raffle in the hopes of winning and being able to give the winnings to me to solve my problem. She didn't win. But...It's the Thought That Counts. I keep a daily prayer list, but I don't actually pray. I just read the list and visualize each person in the best state I can for each of them. Because, in matters of prayer, G-d, Magic, healing, energy - It's the Thought That Counts. What You Put Out Comes Back to You. What You Feed Energy Into Grows. Your Focus Determines Your Reality. Ask & It Is Given. In each of those - It's the Thought That Counts. The way it came to me though was this morning during my rituals. The rituals and devotions are all about visualization to begin with. But there is a point in one of them when I must draw Hebrew letters in the air. There is one that, try as I might, I just can't remember correctly. As I struggled with it this morning, I heard the words, "It's the Thought That Counts."

Lesson – Head Space is Dead Space

 It's so easy to drag ourselves deep into our minds weighed by the burden of thought. We think about our troubles, our hurts, our hopes, the pst and the future. We think about the next bill, the upcoming appointment, the conversation we know we need to have, or the conversation had. It seems natural when we do it. It feels like we're cyphering important things. All we are really doing is keeping ourselves from the important things. I realized this while working. I was driving along, thinking about my woes - the rent, the Landlord, so on - and suddenly I realized that it was such a beautiful day and I wasn't even aware enough to enjoy it. Since that moment I have worked to stay out of my head space. I feel more vibrant and alive. I feel grounded and centered and in tune. I feel happy and at peace.

Observation – It's a Numbers Game

 It's odds and all that. I suppose that's why some people buy multiple draw lottery tickets. The More the Merrier. I saw it in my quest for funds this week. First, there was the dialogue with my nephew last week. "8,000 people - $1 ea." Then, this week as I started to shift my focus of needs, I put it out that "62 people @ $20 ea." could help put me on the right and proper path moving forward. (That's down to 58 now.) I asked that everyone t the very least share my post, if nothing else. Spread the word - far & wide. I shared my post on my page, the Rev. Matt page and the WTML page. I also shared it in video form on those same pages as well as on TikTok and YouTube. Increasing the odds ever so slightly. In a sort of different way I noticed numbers in my GFM efforts. When I post large totals I don't see many, if any, contributions for a long time. But when I break it up and use smaller numbers They almost come flooding in for a bit. I had a time when I wasn't seeing inflow. Then I received money for an odd job. After I calculated what I needed I posted it - $20 till the end of the week. in 30 minutes I had $140.

The Post

 First, let's start with The Weekly Whatnots - all the news that is the news. Life keeps on happening, even through The Journey.

I did get some work in this week. Three longer days. I didn't make a great deal of money, but Just Enough to muddle through this week.

Cuddlebug took it upon herself, this week, to start hand pulling the weeds in the Beast Bed. It takes her a while because she has as many issues as I do. But it is looking nicer. I'll have to try to help a bit as I can. We still have the rock issue but maybe I can still figure that out.

I went to Sunshine's concert. As always, the kids were excellent. I really do enjoy their concerts. As for things between us, I don't really know what to say. It seemed as it always does. The same vague engagement she has every time we go to a show. Maybe it was just my own feelings but it did seem like there was an added distance and disconnect. Of course, I made myself available if she ever wants to talk things through.

Speaking of talking - The Landlord and I have yet to pin down a time to meet and talk. I think this talk is important in so many ways and for so many reasons. I do hope we get to have it sooner rather than later...and before it's too late.

And in relation to that - I have made my "Final Plea" for financial help. I made a GFM Facebook post and just laid it all out as honest as I could. I still have a big mess ahead of me, but if I cxan manage this new Goal it is a manageable mess. It's a big ask but not an impossible task. It just takes a lot of people doing a little bit.

On the flip side - I don't know how I can move forward if I don't make it. With it, I have a strong base and foundation to work with. Without it, I truly have nothing. I don't know how I feel about that.

On one hand, I can accept if it is G-d's will and I lose my home. G-d always knows better than I and I have learned not to question The Will. THere is a reason.

On the other hand, Nu Geistopia really is the ideal home for me. She has allowed me to know myself better, and more fully, than any other. I waited a long time and went through a lot of shit to find The Homestead. Then, I waited in The Void of Homelessness as The Universe moved the pieces around to put us together. I worked, tirelessly, for 22 months to manage and balance and maintain. I pushed till I started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have literally put blood, sweat, and tears into making this work.

Nu Geistopia is the core of my being.

So, I can accept it if it be G-d's will that I lose her, but it would certainly be sad. [I do not believe it is his will.]

And that is the perfect segue into this weeks episode of The Journey HOme - The Whys and Wherefores.

Last week, we used The Wheel of Life to lay out the guidelines for our Quest - set the stage in a way. This week, we look at a different angle.

It's hard when life throws you such curveballs. It's even harder when you strive to live in Faith. and, I mean that. One would think living in Faith would make it all easier [and it does...to a point.] But Faith challenges our reality and rationale.

Everything Happens for a Reason

That's not reassuring. This is a thing that has happened. An awfully big thing. A life changing [mayhaps even life shattering] thing. What could be the reason for that? [Especially after so much time, effort, and energy.]

We're going to explore that.

Needless to say, I cannot speak for G-d. I cannot possibly know the tru, deep reasons. I can only Observe what I experience and make a good guess.

I have had much time to face myself, and my life. What is it I am really living for?

I can't say I found a true answer to that question. But I do know that whatever I do, I want to put love and light into the world. [and now I find myself wondering how I can oppose the insanity of the current administration without being the exact opposite of what I said.]

The first step in accomplishing that is to find the love and light inside myself.

Let All That You Do be Done In Love

That's the trick. Lately, no matter what I am doing, I find love within it. I feel the light shine from within. I don't know if this is because I love what I'm doing or it loves me. Or if I am just so grateful to be alive and have mobility that I'll love anything that is thrown at me.

I've heard, "If you don't love it, find something to love about it."

I've said, "If can't love it, don't do it."

Do What You Love and the Rest will Follow

All that has come into my life of late is stuff I love.

Did I attract it?

The Meeting Place. Scrapping. Crafting. The driving. The Homestead and all the work that goes with it - inside and out. The Ministry stuff. The videos. This blog. Even therapy.

I love it all and that love grows stronger the more I do it. That makes it easy to put love out into the world as I putter along.

The list above is something else that has come out of all of this.

Like I said, I worked tirelessly for 22 months. I made 2 Meeting Place events in that time. I've only missed 2 since I am home from the hospital. Scrapping was something i did on the fly...if I was lucky. There was no time for crafting at all.

There was no real time for G-d either.

All of those things have worked their way back into my life and have managed to settle into place.

I've been faced with the challenge of change.

I've had to change my perspective and my approach. I've had to change how I physically function. Obviously.

I've also been faced with changing behaviors - such as my addictions and distractions. Like smoking. I'm still fighting that battle. It feels like I'm losing some days. But, as long as I'm still fighting, then I'm winning to some degree.

I didn't have Health Insurance, a doctor, or anything of that nature. Now I have insurance, a primary care physician, I can actually get my blood pressure medicine. I've had an eye exam and I even have an appointment with a dentist. [Finally!!]

I have found a sort of sense of balance as I have moved through this situation. I've created routines. [Or, maybe, they created themselves and I just went along with it.] Daily, weekly, monthly routines and regimens. Even my days themselves have found a sort of balance in all the random things suddenly thrown on my table. It's a process. But it is taking hold and I see the differences.

The disability payments will help me maintain and secure that balance as I work enough to cover myself but am still allowed plenty of time to tend to the seeds that were planted through the spring.

So...I would say this happened to help make me stronger and better so that I can do more with my life and for G-d.

What I don't understand - what I can grab no reason for - is why did my struggle have to have such a detrimental impact on The Landlord? How did my problem become their problem? Why were they made to suffer and sacrifice?

Of course, that reason is really theirs to question, find, and understand. But it still upsets me.

I realize that all things are temporary and that G-d always fixes what he has undone - when it is time.

Still sucks.

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt. And there is the newer TikTok @WTML23

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

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