Third Time's A Charm (or so they say)

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems.

I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

Welcome to my Life is a project, an experiment in Life ant ART. A living storyboard, if you will. It’s premise is that life is experiential, and that you can (and do) experience the life you choose. It is based on The Wheel of Life and The ARTs for The New Millennium as life building tools.

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The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

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The Looch

The Baker

Bert-on

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The Mudder

The Prodigy

‘Blue 326’

The Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Mama Rabbit

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It is…Sunday, February 4, 2018. Time...Super

Theme of the Week – Keeping It Real

Lesson of the Week – You Always Have What You Need (What You Do With It Is Up To You)

Observation of the Week – Too Quick to Jump

Well, it is once again Superbowl Sunday. The country is amok with frenzied hustle and bustle. Even here in Geistopia things are a bit more exciting than usual. First of all, Craze & Co. is a full-fledged Eagles fandom. Me, personally, I have very little attachment to the game itself. It’s all of the other excitement that goes with it that draws me in. As I said to the princesses – on Monday, if people aren’t talking about the game they are talking about the commercials. If they’re not talking about the commercials then it is the halftime show. The Monday after is always full of Superbowl hubbub. The game is such a staple in our culture and society that, football fan or not, it does not hurt to watch and be aware. For that reason, the princesses are staying the night so they can watch the game. They have never seen a Superbowl because, apparently, Mama thinks the whole thing is “stupid” – the game, the commercials, the show…everything. So, they have never seen a Superbowl. It’s great for them then that the Eagles are playing because this house will be filled with raucous intensity. Of course, they also get to have some of daddy’s nachos. Every year, despite not having a party or the fact that no one really eats them but me, I make nachos. I play around with different ways of making them. This year we are using ‘Scoops’ and making little individual nachos. And, by request, there will be chicken quesadillas as well.

The week was…interesting. I still had a lot of difficulty getting anything accomplished. I don’t know what is going on with that lately. I had weeks of crazy activity and advancements and then the last couple weeks it has been like trying to move through cement. Some of it, I think, is that pieces are still coming in and trying to find their place. Some of it, of course, is plain and simple laziness. [Certainly no sense in denying it.]

When I left last week I was definitely a little frustrated. First, there was the whole lack of accomplishment thing. I did not get nearly enough done last week. But, it was an off week. I just couldn’t seem to bring myself around to where I wanted, nay, where I needed to be.

There was also the employment situation. I found a job but it will be very minimal income. The hours will be 20-25 most weeks and the wage is good for the industry, but bad for the wallet. I calculated it all out and determined that, when all totals are in, I would be making Just Enough to cover my monthly expenses but very little more. I wouldn’t even have enough to reinvest in doing business. So, I wondered how I would make this work. Even coming into this week I am out of funds to the point that I actually had to borrow money from Cuddlebug so I would have gas to take the princesses to school tomorrow. And, there are quite a few bills due this week (not to mention the overdue ones from last week.) Essentially, I am starting from scratch – with less than nothing to begin.

In the week, I managed to find a side job. [Should I really say I found it when it was so obviously delivered to me?] I will be working as a stagehand for a local dinner theatre. It stars sooner than the other job and, because of the hours for each, it will not interfere with it. I can do both. Not only will I have a decent extra income for almost 2 months but I will be working in an industry that I love. I also get to make a few new connections and associates along the way.

(Ask…and it is given.)

I also managed to acquire a few ‘new’ Vera Bradley items to resell. I generally have success with the Vera Bradley stuff. Now I just need to get some photos and make some posts. [Let’s see if these few items can help me out with what I need this coming week.]

So, for the first time in several months, my schedule this coming week is a bit hectic. I have two rehearsals for the middle school, 4 nights of rehearsal for the dinner theatre and three performances. Plus, I have to try to manage everything else – including an orientation for this new job.

I do have a gripe with the new job. Yes, already. It falls in the category of my gripes with most companies. I feel that today employers really take advantage of their employees. For instance, at my last job, they wanted me to have full-time availability for part-time hours. Yes you read that correctly. I would only be scheduled part-time hours, up to 20 most weeks, but I was expected to be available all day every day. That doesn’t really work out realistically. Maybe they don’t realize that what they were asking was for me to give up availability to other income sources so that I could sit around and not be scheduled with them.

In this case, I am being asked to do all of my ‘onboarding’ paperwork before the orientation. I am supposed to read documents, sign things, spend all of this personal time doing work for them and not getting paid. It’s not the first time that I have had to do this for a large company. I think it’s nonsense. I think it’s unfair. But, if one wants the job then one will do it.

All in all I would say it was a decent week, despite going deeper into debt.

However, for all of my complaining about no money I realize it is kind of my own fault. Several weeks ago I invested in vaping as a way to get off the cigarettes. Yet, more days than not since then, I have managed to have a pack of cigarettes. Some of them even ill-gotten. So, I’ve had money. In fact, I probably had exactly what I needed. But, I spent it all on something I don’t need, something that I am trying to get away from. I do have an addictive personality. I know this. There are many things, besides cigarettes, that I try to get away from but always seem drawn back to – these are the things that have become my ‘demon.’ But still, I had what I needed…I just used it wrong.

I received some Feedback last week from a friend and associate. She suggested that maybe I talk to a therapist. Apparently, she felt I was confused about things and needed to sort them out. Truth is, for the first time in a long time I’m actually not confused. Things seem fairly clear for the moment. I don’t understand the struggle I have had to endure, but that is not a therapy matter…it is a spiritual one. She also warned me to be careful what I put out to the Universe because thoughts and words become actions. I actually thought this was kind of amusing since I had just said as much in my first post back. What we put out…the Be-ing responds to.

My response may have been a bit short. I was kind of taken back by the suggestion of a therapist. Not that I am opposed to one. I have sought help and counsel in the past when I thought it was needed. I just don’t see the need at this time. There is nothing more that can be done than what is being done. Life will take its course. [Based on what I have already put out to the Be-ing.] I thanked her for her concern and pointed out that she was sounding like I was negative in my writings, which I didn’t think I had been. Though, I did go back and re-read the last two posts just to be sure that I wasn’t Too Quick to Jump. I don’t think I was negative at all. As I had said to her I was merely writing about things as they were and as they have been. It’s not an easy thing to write about your own life from a detached point of view. [I know, because I have failed at it many times in the past.] I am on a course. What exactly the course is, that I do not know.

To my response, her reply was that she was not concerned. [I’m really not certain how to take that lol.] And, that she would never say anything again. This is a fine example of being Too Quick to Jump. We went from what could have been a simple friendly dialogue to a defensive and over-reactive stance. There was really no need to take it that far in my opinion. I felt I was polite and cordial despite the fact that I was a bit offended and put off. It was not easy forming a response because…well…I didn’t want to be too quick.

There are always little details that I could include, and sometimes don’t, that may, or may not, make things clearer. Like – in my first post back I mentioned the Spirit of Geistopia was coming that night. And…she did. That experience alone had a lot to do with how my week leading into last week’s post went. It’s difficult doing this because there is always so much that I could write about in a week. I am trying to condense the writings – not that I have been overly successful thus far. So, I include the things that come to mind and that I find to be most important at the time. It is hard to squeeze all the little details into one post. And, after all, the devil is in the details. There are lots of things that do not get written about or only get a passing mention. I figure each week, a little more can be added. For instance, there is a book in the works. It has been in the works for a very long time. I am just recently accepting the responsibility of it.

All of that being said, there is much more I wanted to write about this week. I wanted to get more into The Cycle. The Cycle is very important to it all. It is very distinct and always there. It has played into things for 20 years now. [Though I didn’t recognize it until a few years ago.] That will all have to wait for another time, seeing as I have written too many pages thus far this week.

So, for now and for always, from her in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev wishing you peace, love, light, and freakishness baby.