S3EP8: Up, Down, All Around

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia.

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true!

WALT: Welcome to my Life is an I T.V. Studios/Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

Looch

The Bassett Hound

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (3)

Brother John

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, February 27, Two-Thousand and Twenty-New. Time...Delaying

Theme – Every Act is an Act of Magick

I know this. I know this with every fiber of my being. Every motion, every thought, every word, every deed casts a spell. Everything does something and if something has been done then magick has happened. It’s the simplest way to look at it. We could get more detailed with a definition of what Magick is and how it works, or explanations of how something as simple and ordinary as turning a doorknob is casting an act of Magick. However, keep it simple. Magick is simply change. When magick has been cast, something will change.

Lesson – Focused Breaks

I have difficulty stopping. I can always think of things to do. So, if I do sit it is either very briefly or it is at the end of the day and I sloppily spending my time anyway. This is really my biggest take away from the experience that has been the accident. I have not achieved a work/play balance. Since, I seem incapable of just stopping, it seems I must find a way to do so. First, I need to have a list of things to do in downtime – such as, reading, watching a movie, wrapping a hemp cross – whatever the activity may be. Then when I find downtime, most likely at the end of the day, I will have things to do that will keep me from boredom and distraction, but also be feeding my spirit. If this doesn’t work, or perhaps in conjunction with it, the second thing I must do is schedule downtime. I simply need to designate a time for No-Thing, a time when things can just flow on their own.

Observation –Be Careful What You Wish For

I had difficulty pinpointing an Observation this week. And, perhaps, I cannot do this one justice with an explanation. There has been a list of things I wanted to do or to get or to look into. All things that get put on hold for one reason or another. Some are bigger and more important for this reason or that and some are seemingly inconsequential. Still, they are there, constantly whispering in my ear. The accident has jarred things enough to shake some of these things loose. I may be doing them or looking into them or getting them soon. But at possibly quite the cost.

The Post

It’s been one of those weeks that I can’t quite put my finger on. I can’t say that it has been bad. But, then, I can’t say that it has been good. It’s just been what it’s been. To be honest, I feel like a lot of it is a blur to me.

Monday, still reeling from the combination of a bad body slam and small doses of muscle relaxers, I set out to work. I made breakfast for The Princesses first. This is a thing we like to do. They enjoy my breakfasts [no matter what I’m making] and I like to make at least one solid breakfast for them while they are here. We did not have a chance Saturday because of The Market and on Sunday we were scurrying off to The Art Museum fairly early in the day. So, those days, everyone fended for themselves. But Monday was breakfast day.

I then headed out to make sure my finances were covered. [In other words – I worked.] I only did the lunch shift and I had a pretty strong day. Then, back to The Nest to round up the girls and take them home. I have absolutely no idea how my day went after I got home.

Tuesday, I went out and worked. I made the amount I needed to [And Then Some.] I was comfortable and confident in my day. Again, I cannot tell you what happened once I was home.

Wednesday was a little rougher. I had the money I needed to cover the day, but there were still some upcoming expenses on the horizon. I had a really tough time getting moving on Wednesday. I just couldn’t find the oomph and motivation to work. I put it off at every turn.

I left late. Then, by the time I did get to my parking area I decided to start the laundry. Ultimately, this was going to move back my starting until about 1130. I figured I could get two hours in and be satisfied. While the laundry washed I chilled out and worked on editing some video. Then, once it was in the dryer, I headed to The Putter’s to return something from the weekend. This is where my day changed.

I made mention to him that I just couldn’t find the groove to work. His response?

“So don’t.”

This is what I ultimately chose. Like I said, I had my current finances covered, including into Thursday. A day of just chilling sounded in order. So, I hung around The Putter’s for about two hours, then headed back and pulled the laundry from the dryer. From there, I was headed over the mountain to take Sunshine to her appointment. [Till all was said and done, that alone was about 4 hours of my day.]

Once again, home is a blur.

Thursday, I set out to work. My plan was to work breakfast and lunch, then stop to visit The Professor while he was down and then do dinner. That changed, but not because of The Safety Meeting. The weather was supposed to get bad fairly early. [It didn’t. Not early anyway.] Nonetheless, when roads are like that I don’t want to be out trying to drive. So, I came home.

And, things are a blur.

I knew because of the weather that I wasn’t going to go out to work early in the morning. I also had changed my insurance appointment from that morning to this Tuesday because of the weather forecast. By the time I was into my day, I had realized that I wasn’t working that day either. Not on the road anyway.

I needed a day to me. I can’t remember the last time I had that. [And, I feel like I have said that often lately.] I needed to just chill and let the day happen – naturally and of its own accord. It did. I managed some paperwork and financials and phone calls. I straightened up, went through piles, organized, did dishes. I soaked in a ritual bath. I worked on some video editing. I even started this post. But, it was all fairly slow and even paced. There was no hurry or no stress. I even took time to just sit and relax.

This puts some strain on me for the weekend. I am going to have to get up and work. But, on the upside, things are supposed to be slower at The Theatre this weekend. Only two shows and, last I heard, they were small houses. That should make my nights a little easier.

I’m not worried about the workload or the income for the weekend. Even though I need to generate quite a bit each of these two days, I am confident that with some focus I can do just that. I’m also monitoring and managing my expenses.

I cannot deny that I am a little on edge about what my future may hold. I came into The Nest, believing that this may be the doorway to something better. I saw it as a chance to know my life so that I could manifest my life. I have found a lot of that. I have returned to old systems and routines. I have developed new ones. I learned a lot about myself as a person and a “home-maker.”

Lazy I am not. I can’t say it enough. This was always a big thing when I was at Olde Geistopia. The word on the street was that I was lazy and didn’t work or do anything. There were times some of this may have been true – especially in terms of doing ‘things’ around Olde Geistopia. But, I know now, that it wasn’t me. It was the circumstance and the environment. Here, I can’t sit still.

Cuddlebug will confirm this if you ask. I can only sit for a few minutes and then I have to get up and find something to tweak with. It doesn’t take me long to find, of course, because the list is already going in my head.

I move so much that Spirit is actually driving home the point to rest. Furthermore, if I cannot figure out how to do it otherwise, I am to actually schedule down time. I have an opportunity here to really unwind in a way I haven’t been able to do in about a decade or more. Yes, there are things that need to be done. Yes, work must happen. But we all need downtime. Some more than others. [I’m not saying I am one of those ‘some.’]

I’ve taken notice to a 3-Week pattern. It made me look at things a little closer. So, I moved in on December 21 and I must be out by like the 29 or 30 of April. [A little over 21 weeks – or, 131 days.] The 3-week pattern came to my attention on Wednesday when the message received was, “three weeks.” Once I started looking at it, I could see the pattern emerge.

In the first 3 weeks, I settled in and got set-up. In the second 3 weeks, I continued tweaking this or that and started clearing through The Cave. I was building my systems. The next 3 weeks I worked at keeping those routines and developing more of a pattern to them. I was trying to tweak the systems basically.

I am now coming to the end of the 10th week. It certainly has been a sort of Void, hasn’t it? [You can’t make this shit up, folks! It just happens.] I will start the 11th week by dropping off The Vantasm and taking charge of the rental car for a few weeks. *deep sigh.* I do not know what the future holds, nor can I spend much time thinking about it.

For now, I know I will have the rental car for a few weeks. After that, I do not know. Maybe I can extend the rental for another week or two. Maybe The Vantasm will get fixed and put back on the road. [Doubtful, but Anything is Possible, and Nothing is as it Seems.] Maybe I will end up without a vehicle at all. Perhaps I will be able to get something else. Worst case scenario, I can try to borrow Craze’s truck for a while. It just sits there. I couldn’t use it for deliveries but at least I could get around and find other work. If nothing else happens, I would like to be able to extend the rental until the same time I leave The Nest. At least that way I could continue working for a while and I could also get things loaded out of here [easily] when the time comes. [Though I can do that with the truck as well.]

I cannot focus on the future for it is too uncertain. I must focus on what it is. Despite my current challenges, it has been nice being able to be at The Nest and to learn myself anew this way. It has been nice to see life with my daughters – the way I always wanted it. [I should say, “it has been..,” because it’s not over yet.]

For all of the uncertainty and wariness, I feel quite good about life right this moment. I still feel as though things are ‘right.’ I have had so many Moments of Recollection [what one may call Déjà vu] since coming to The Nest. I had several on Friday alone. So, I just need to Relax, Release, & Realize. I need to Let Go & Let G-d.

Let us see what is over the horizon, in the great beyond, Fellow Travelers. We just cannot be sure what adventure awaits.

But, in the end, I suppose, only time will tell.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC: Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill.

Falcon - (whatismyspiritanimal.com)

Time to sit in the seat of power. Help creating strategies.

Fox - Feminine Magic of Camouflage, Shapeshifting and Invisibility.

New world opening up. The process of creation is beginning. Guide to enter the Faerie Realm. Unless a male can recognize the magic of the feminine - in himself or others - and learn to use it to Shapeshifting his own life, it will ultimately lead to destruction. The Kundalini, and the freeing of the creative life force. Practicing and using camouflage. Working to blend in with surroundings, to come and go unnoticed, moving silently about without revealing your intentions. Learning to control the aura. Adjust its frequency and intensity so that you harmonize more with others. Levels of energy and fertility. If the focus stays on the creative energies, any sharp turn in the individual’s life will be handled with ease. Fox people have the ability to insulate themselves from anything that may seem cold, especially in relationships. Can appear larger than they are - for personal protection or for making greater impressions. Establish a trotting pace. Ability to move into new directions. Call upon new resources instinctively. Excellent ability to hear what is not being said. The ability to hear spirit. Size people up accurately. Develop the ability to see spirit. Aromatherapy. Awakening of the Kundalini. Higher forms of discrimination and discernment. Capture any prize.

Raccoon - Dexterity and Disguise

Also study Bear. Diet - vegetables and fruits. Expert at disguise and secrecy. Can teach you how to mask and disguise and transform yourself. Can teach you how to become dexterous in the masks you wear. Can show you how to wear a healing mask or show you the face of what you will become. Holds the knowledge of how to change our faces. Do you need to present a different face to people for greater success? Are you hiding your true self? Are others hiding their true selves? Learning to use masks to put one area of yourself to sleep so that another can be awakened. Will help you develop dexterity in using masks to achieve new and altered states and dimensions. 20 week cycles.

Mouse - Attention to Detail.

It is either time to pay attention to details, or an indication that you cannot see the forest for the trees. You may be getting so locked into details that you forget the big picture. Are you taking care of the trivial, yet necessary, things of life? Are you getting so lost in big dreams that you are neglecting other aspects of your life? Are you becoming so focused on one or two activities that you are neglecting other opportunities? Are you missing what is right in front of you? Is there something obvious that you are missing or need to focus on? Are you trying to do too many things at once and therefore scattering your energies? Mouse can show how to pay attention to detail; how to attain the big things by working on the little things. Lessons associated with attention.