Convergance

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It is…Sunday, October 27, Two-Thousand and Twenty-More. Time...Repeating

The Post

 ^pauses a moment, staring at the screen. A whirlwind of thoughts spinning around in the mind. No idea where, nor how, to begin.^

Everyday is an adventure. Follow the flow. Do not worry about tomorrow. What you believe is what you'll see. Ask & it is given; Seek & ye shall find; Knock & the door shall be opened. Accentuate the positive. Don't blink. BAM!

Things are happening. I just don't know what exactly. Nor do I understand how. Nonetheless, things are happening.

In essence, at its core, every week is the same as the one before. I set out on a Monday morning to make the money I need and pay my shit. That's it. That's the thought. That's the plan in its entirety.

How that happens is what changes weekly. It depends on what bills are due, what needs are on the immediate horizon, and whatever interference happens along the way. No day - no week - ever plays out the way I plan, nor works out the way I foresee. Yet, somehow it always seems to play out perfectly and work the way it needs to - even if it doesn't look that way.

Like this week.

From where I sit in my life at the moment it looks as though I will be finishing this week short. About $70. That's not as bad as it could have been. I've already looked ahead and I should be able to recoup it by the end of the week and be back on track with the plans. I shouldn't even see an impact from it. I can still do what I need to do in the first few days without stressing.

Sometimes, I think I should take notes throughout the week. And sometimes I have. NO system seems to work lately.

Nonetheless, as usual it was a crazy week.

OK. I'm going to stop there. It is now Monday night. (October 21.) I keep trying to write and keep getting sidetracked by things. Some distraction. Some necessity. this has been a trend for quite some time now. I am only pumping out posts ever 2-3 weeks lately. I'll have to take that for whatever it is.

Perhaps it is about my need to tell all of the stories. I think everything is important. Every detail adds up to something. It's all a part of the overall picture. I don't have time to capture things as they happen. And, if I do, that tends to lead to too many details.

If I do not, then it all becomes so very Once Upon Ago. That happens so much quicker than you may think, Fellow Travelers. For example, this morning I had all sorts of things I wanted to tell you about Thursday through Sunday. Right This Moment that is all Once Upon Ago. And this morning I was in awe at how Once Upon Ago last Monday had become.

I am fascinated by the days because I am fascinated with the Flow of Life. It just always fascinates me how it all unfolds and plays out. The Less You Try to Control it, The Better it Works Out.

This has been a challenge for me. I am blessed that I have the work that I do. It allows me the flexibility to Follow the Flow more easily. However, working (basically) for yourself brings with it greater pressure. If things go terribly awry it is all your responsibility. There is no outside force at which to point fingers - no employers, nor time clocks, nor unions, nor anything of the sort. It all comes back to your choices. So, I find myself driven to work as much as I can.

Lately, I have been getting more lax with this. I always get up with the intention of getting out as early as I can. But I allow the flow to move me through my morning. I have the intention of staying out every day. But I allow the day to shape itself.

Take today, for instance. I intended to work a full productive day. not only to make my budget, but to make sure monies were available when they needed to be in order to cover bills. My day shifted multiple times. Monies came in. Monies went out. Before I knew what was happening, I was on my way home with this week's shopping done.

It would become a day at home. I do not regret it. I got a lot of different things done.

And just like that another day has become Once Upon Ago. It is now early Wednesday morning. I sat down again last night. And again I was just too tired to focus. I have most of my focus and energy early in the morning. So...here I am.

There's so much on my mind. Things I have been wanting to mention. but I get so caught up in the telling of my weeks that I let them slide. I don't mean to ramble on so about the weeks. I just find them so fascinating. I truly do. It's amazing what can happen when one stops trying to make things happen. This whole week so far is an example, and I won't get into details, but it is fascinating.

I really didn't know how this week would go. I have car insurance due and child support and we need to get heating oil. Despite strange work days and a shift in some income, all the pieces seem to still be falling into place and I am moving forward at a steady and even pace. That is all I will say on that for the moment.

Moving on to Thoughts in my Head:

1 - The Fox :

I have been seeing fox for some time now. Random sightings here or there. Certainly notable. However, the other day I was driving to pick up an order and as I came down this one road I had a vision of a group of foxes crossing the road in like an industrial/office park. I remember thinking that was odd. I've never seen a group of foxes before. And, as they got to where they were going, one stopped and looked back at me. It wasn't just a vision though. It felt more like a memory. What I couldn't discern was if it was a memory of an actual or moment or simply the memory of a dream.

So, I got to the restaurant. It wasn't long after the vision. A few minutes perhaps. I waited a few moments for the order and then I was on my way. The drop off was only about 4-5 minutes from where I picked up. Practically right around the corner. So, I drove down the road and made my turn. A road I havve been on so many times before. It cuts trough and industrial/office zone to tet me to the development behind. I made the turn and focused my eyes on the road ahead ane...there it was.

A fox crossing the road. [I'm pretty sure I saw it turn and look at me too.]

I'm intrigued.

2 - I'm "seeing" again:

I haven't "seen" really since before I officially moved into The Homestead. I had the vision in July of 2022. Standing under the carport, looking out over the yard. It was one of our house/dog sitting ventures here. As I looked at the yard, suddenly I "saw" Autumn before me. Leaves had changed color and had begun to fall, scattering about the ground a bit. I thought "October." This made no sense. There was no way I would find myself looking a tthat same scene in October. I did.

In September of that same year, I was taking notes seperately from the blog. I noted that I had "seen" snow. Out the front window. Again, this made no sense to me at all. The house was under contract to be sold. The day after Brother John and I made the deal for me to rent the house, I looked out the front window and it was snowing.

I'm not "seeing" like this at the moment, but I have been "seeing" for a couple of months now.

It started with Spring. It wasn't so much of a "see" as a sense. I could get a feel for it. Spring seems as though it will be strong.

Then I started "seeing" winter. Now, when I say winter, I mean your Autumn. When I say I'm "seeing" winter I'm talking some time around Thanksgiving. I know you're gonna argue. You're goint to tell me that is Autumn. Just, for now, leave it at [for me] winter begins Oct. 31/Nov. 1. Anyway, I don't "see" anything particular. I'm just "seeing" it. Sort of like the yard.

In the past several days, I have begun to "see" Yule. Again, nothing in particular [and "seeing" Yule at this time of the year is not surprising. Though perhaps a touch early.] I'm "seeing" more like bits and pieces of it. Sort of the aura about it all. [The whole 2 weeks.]

I do not find it surprising that I can't "see" anything between Yule and Spring. Why should I? It is The Void. Nothing actually exists there. Yet, from it, all forms of life and being can spring forth.

Here's what all of that means to me.

My life is on a course. I don't know what nor where. I certainly don't know how. But it is on a course. The timeframe for this is up to Mabon, or mid-Spring. This si when I will either have a much clearer notion of what has taken form or perhaps it will have even come to full fruition. In either case, I foresee shifts in life. It seems to be easier, lighter, even more fulfilling. Balanced. The Thanksgiving vision and Yule are markers along the way. They will bring their pwn piece of the puzzle. [Though we may not see what those pieces are until it is all said and done.]

3 - Death & Dying

It is almost the dead time of the year. Samhain begins it all. I enjoy this time of year. I am very glad when it is over. But I do enjoy it. It is a completely different energy and vibe from the rest of the year. It is filled with more magick than most folks realize.

But, also, today marks y 26th Death-iversary. [Observed.] This was the night everything changed forever. A night will never forget. Except for one thing.

I don't know exactly when it happened. I know it was October of 1998. It was after my return from the 1st Quest. Which means it was after the 15th. It was also before the 31st. I know it was a Friday. That only leaves two possible days. the 23rd and the 30th. The 30th seems too late and I've always felt like it was prior to Big 'D's birthday. [For a long time I just observed int on the 26th - the day before her birthday.] But I know that's not right. So...I go with the 23rd.

What fascinates me about all of this [and only recently as I have really looked back on that time of my life] is that this means I was only at the Emporium for a very short time before this happened. More intriguing, is that I worked there for a long time after. [Of course, in my world a few months is a long time.] This means I worked a lot of time in a very different spirtual and mental place. It wasn't until about Mabon that I started to feel human and alive once more. So this really curiouses me.

I think that is all of that for the moment. I want to go make some breakfast and get to my day.

i am not trying to write for this past week any longer. I am writing for the Sunday ahead. This may have to be the pattern. I don't know. But in this particular post it is required. In this post, the past, present, and future come together in one moment.

Convergance.

 So, here we are on Friday morning. I decided to take a moment to write because my day is already wonky. We got oil yesterday. [Yay!!] So...we learned that is a 250 gallon tank. Now we know and now we have a plan. [Just a plan.] When it gets down to about half we want to be ready to order again. 125 gallons is the minimum we can get. In the meantime, we are going to work a combination of oil, pellets, and electric. It's mostly cold in the house at night - more like early morning. It was just starting to chill in here last night around 2200. I only turned the pellet stove on because I knew I was going to bed soon.

Anyway, this wonks my day because the tank was empty. So, Brother John wants to bleed the line, prime [I think], and relight it. He wants to come around 9 for that. So, I wait to start my day until he leaves.

Right now I am budgeting about a $60 shortage for the week. It could be a little more. It's nothing I can't work with. I've already looked ahead at the budgets.

And now it is Friday night. I was writing this morning and then all of a sudden I was like "oop time to do other things." And now here we are.

Brother John did come by and bled the furnace line. It is up and running. In fact, I'm using it right now. Heating is going to be a delicate matter this winter. We have the oil furnace, a pellet stove and two radiant heaters - as well as a heater in the basement I'm still not sure about. We had no problems with it all last winter but a couple of weeks ago that outlet got "sparky." The tv and xbox turned off and the heater plug got hot. May have even burned a bit. We have since changed the outlet. The kids say they have used the heater and it has been fine. I'm not sure how I feel about it at the moment.

I want to find balance in the heating. The electric is always a last resort or used as a little extra bump [like in the bar room.] I try to keep the electric as minimal as possible. We'll get to that. Maybe not this post, but we will get to that.

The pellet stove is nice. It certainly helps. But, at full use, I go through at least a bag a day. Right now, that is $31 per week - at least. Also, it heats the office space almost too much. It warms the two bedrooms upstairs and even the kitchen a bit. BUt, the bathroom, my bedroom, and the Spirit room - unless it is on full blast - they stay chilled.

The oil is the most overall heat. It covers the house, including the bar room/basement. It is even heat througout. It may even be the most economical. Where it gets me at the moment is how much it costs at one time when you get the oil.

So, I need to find a healthy balance. Especially right now. The days are still fairly warm and it is cold by morning. but the evenings and nights stay cool. NOrmally, I would probably run the pellet stove tonight, but we are low on pellets at the moment and I am not sure when I am going to be able to get them. The other thing with the pellet stove is using up the gel every time I start it new. Not that that is a big deal but it does add expense along the way.

I'm not trying to be cheap or even throfty. Simply economical.

While I waited for Brother John to get here I took care of all the papers surrounding my desk. I have to get better about keeping up with mail and such. In fact, I need to get better at keeping up with everything. I've noticed recently that I got far behind in everything. it's like life went stagnate for a while.

We realized during the Great Flea War that we needed to clean the house more frequently. We just got off course with it at some point. Just like my paperwork. Certain tasks and to-dos. Even my finances went on a slump for a bit. [I'm having another financial slump this week but I am pretty sure it is only a minor one.] Nonethless, I can trace it back to starting sometime in August. When exactly, i don't know. Nor do I know why - what caused it. I also don't know what brought it to a close.

In the grand scheme of things, I've also shifted polarities, I guess. Whereas I was getting stopped up, life was clogged, it is now flowing and almost with more force. This week itself is a little bit challenging, but I'll figure it out and get through.

And...now it is Saturday Night.

It just all happens so quickly. Life that is. Let's see if we can round out the thoughts for the week. I do not foresee having time to write tomorrow night. Part of my journey the past few days has been to not look at anything financial. I haven' looked at budgets - this week or next. I haven't been in quicken. I haven't logged into my bank account. I came into this leg of the journey knowing that what I needed in there to cover gas and such was there. So, I just haven't looked back.

In fact, I've been rather casual as a whole the last day or two. I'm not setting alarms. I'm staying up a little later. I'm not pushing hard on the road.

I'm also going to be challenged financially. I have already cut one biull out. I will have to deal with it when the time comes. [Which should only be a few weeks.] And, even with that, I may still come up short. This could skew the plans for next week. I'll figure it all out tomorrow.

I think it is a necessary setback. Balance and all that. I have had a strong several weeks. I have made changes and advancements. A little setback should be expected. I'm treating it much like The Grounding. It's going to play out as it plays out and I will deal with it. I'm going to see it as a reset. I know what I am working towards and the challenges I face. So I just need to take it one step at a time and rebuild.

I think the timing is perfect. (Of course.) With Samhain just around the corner it is the perfect time to "die" a little.

So, let's see if I can round out some thoughts.

There is definitely energy moving about. Though I don't usually see much change during The Void, I feel like something is looming close.

I'm going through some sort of healing or transmutation process. its moving slowly but I am definitely aware of it.

I'm having another cycle in which I am ever so grateful for my home. I revel in it constantly. It still feels surreal sometimes. But I am glad we are here.

I feel an intense Yule coming on. That is all I can say on that at the moment.

I think that's everything for now.

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So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak

Fox

Hawk

Porcupine