Day 289=1

November 23, 2019; 1714

It has been an interesting day. Much different than what I was anticipating when it began. The day just moved from 0630 to like 1230. By then, Spirit and The Energies...

WALT: That should be the name of a band.

You are not supposed to be a part of daily posts.

WALT: I’m a part of everything...the best part!

Get out.

WALT: Don’t you mean ‘in’?

Out, I say out!!!

WALT: Alright. Alright. Sorry...nice broadway reference there. *exits.*

Anyway...

Today was a ‘Questing’ day. I really didn’t anticipate that...at all. I mean, I saw some of it developing, but I never saw it coming as full on as it did.

I enjoyed it. Most of it anyway. As with any journey of the self one must always face The Darkness. It wears many faces and this was a very familiar one. It blindsided me too. It is interesting though that it came n time with a discussion on the very matter.

I didn’t handle The Darkness well. I’m not proud of that, but for the first time, I am ok in it. Though I spoke too much, I said what needed to be said, I suppose. At times I acted out of anger and at times true sincerity. And, at times, a little mixture of both.

The moment, though, did open my eyes quite a bit. I have had my thoughts on the situation. I wrestle with my feelings daily. But, today I realized that my thoughts and feelings are irrelevant. It is what it is and it is not going to be changed by any course of action I could take. This is no longer my creation. It is being driven by a whole other source now. It is what it is and it is over. There is no turning back. No change. No chance. No hope.

That is sad, but...it is what it is. And, it is not, by any stretch of the imagination, my doing.

knowing this is one thing. Living it, another. It’s not about floating, nor being right. It’s about being right-minded. I found myself praying for strength. I should have prayed for temperance. Hindsight, 20/20, all that.

But, it doesn’t matter.

in other realms, things are shifting. Today’s Journey was inspiring all around. It felt like a Quest. I mean, it felt like THE Quests - all those trips here and there.

The world was bright. I was mellow and free. I felt connected [and I didn’t even care that people stared at me as I danced my way through the aisles.)

At this point, I am just awaiting the close of the day and the dawning of the next.