Happy New Year!! (Or, The Day Of...)

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It is…Wednesday, January 1, 2020. Time...New.

*Pause*

*Sigh.*

So, it is New Year’s Day - The Day Of - and also the last day of my Yule Observation. Though, we are still not out of the water. Tomorrow remains The Day After. 

Hoagie was all fired up this evening, wanting to party and carry on. I was in a much different mood. I just wanted to be still and quiet. This was not because I was upset or disturbed, but because today was the first day since Yule began that I actually felt a sense of Peace. 

After I finished the post for The Day Before my bodies just melted into existence. I rested. I meditated. I’ve missed that so much. I love the sensation of it - the energies building within, the third eye throbbing. I love the experience of being caught In Between consciousness and sleep - aware of everything happening around you but unable to open your eyes or move. 

So, there are a couple of things to mention. There always are at the end of a day. It’s one of the reasons I always wanted to do some sort of daily post. The videos are fun, but they can make it difficult to get all of the right information out in the proper amounts. The writing is challenging in the amount of time it can take. As I am sure you have noticed my thoughts can bounce all over the place...and that is on a good day. 

So, Looch’s Feedback actually came while I was still finishing up the post. I figured it was a good opportunity to add in the responses. After he read it, he thanked me for the information. He also made an Observation.

When he texted me this morning the first thing he wrote was, “I care.” So, when he read the post, he noticed how many times I made reference to no one caring. He challenged that maybe I am not as empathic as I thought. Perhaps. Or, perhaps, it was designed so that his text would be a reminder to me that people do care. In either case, I decided to leave those thoughts in the blog since that is where I was when I actually wrote it. 

In case you hadn’t noticed - I really do enjoy Feedback. My mind races constantly and I will just go on and on. You may find yourselves with thoughts or question. Unless you speak them, I cannot guarantee satisfaction. I know it is hard to conceive, and I have said it often in the past, but this is an interactive project. It’s not just about me. I am merely the facilitator, or the host. 

So...ask/comment away, Fellow Travelers. 

Like I said, I finished the post and just sank into relaxation. I’m not sure what it was about that post. I had mentioned to Wisconsin that it was important. She had asked why and I didn’t have an answer. I only knew that I needed to write it and put it out there. 

While I was writing it, I had several moments of Deja Vu. The moment flashed before me as if I had seen it before. This is something else that has been happening with increased frequency over the past several days. I have always welcomed those experiences. Based on certain Rosicrucian beliefs I have come to associate those moments with remembering when we are on the right path. So, there was something important about that post. 

I had brief contact with ‘The Car Guy.’ I am sure we will touch base again and then we can figure out exactly how things can proceed. 

Since this was the first day I was actually in a state of mind to receive gifts from Spirit, I did actually receive a gift. It wasn’t easy for me to accept, but I had promised myself and Spirit that once I was done with that post I would just relax and be open and receive whatever was offered. 

Someone came along and paid my phone bill for me. I am greatly appreciative.  So, that is one thing off the thing of worries and I have another month before i need think about it again. On to whatever is next on the list, I suppose. 

This Yule has brought a lot of introspection - deep self-evaluation. [Okay, maybe not too, too deep.] Still there was thought. 

For instance in regards to receiving help: it is hard for me. I was certain this whole time to never ask for help, but instead, to always ask for work. Despite popular belief, I do not like being given things. Since so much of what I encounter in my life seems to mirror the relationships f Old Geistopia, I decided to look there for understanding. 

First of all, being given help is exactly what gets me into the situation I find myself. My parents helped me a great, great deal. This is not something that I could never deny. But, all of that help would eventually put wear on the relationship and cause issues. I realize, of course, that this was not the only issue, but it was there. So, I don’t like accepting help because I don’t like being a burden. 

I also looked at it from a self-worth point of view. I have difficulty accepting help because I have difficulty accepting that I deserve it. This is also something that stems from the relationships of Old. The help was always held over my head and used against me. In fact, it happened that morning in February. “Everything you have is because of me.” She had definitely done a lot for me that is for sure, but she hardly did everything for me. There was so much I had that she didn’t even know about.

[Everything I have, I have because of G-d.] It’s like I constantly had to ‘be worthy’ of the help I had already received. In this year, through all of the help I have received from others, I have had to consider that maybe I was already deserving and that is why it was being offered. 

Finally, I have a negative attachment to receiving help. It was Wisconsin that pointed it out and helped me recognize it. She had commented that it seemed my family would help, sure, but that there was always ulterior motives, something to meet their own ends. 

I thought about my ‘rash and rushed’ behavior. When I break...I certainly do break. What I need to figure out is how to reduce the risk of breaking. Much of that answer can be found in the other things I have been thinking about. 

For instance, I miss meditating, as I’ve said. It used to be a daily thing. Taking time to just be. I miss my Daily Devotions and rituals. They never take long but they are so easy to skip over. I have been more aware of the times for them each day recently. Though I’ve noticed in the past several days that I wouldn’t give them much of a thought until almost evening. I then realized that I have been rushing and pushing through my mornings to mostly get nowhere for there has been nowhere to go. 

I need to slow down. I need to take mindful steps and actions through the day. Awareness of all things at all times. Waking meditation. Gratitude and love in all I do and see, speak and hear. I should journal more. I should honestly take more time for me. I don’t really. Not productive time anyway. My ‘me’ time lately has been a lot of just resting or watching something on my phone or playing a game instead. I need to do more in my down time. 

WALT: That just doesn’t sound right. 

And, yet, it is. 

I definitely need to work at being more understanding and forgiving. It’s not that I hate or dislike anyone. I mean, there are two people on my list of ‘People I Need Absolutely Nothing to do With.’ It’s not about not liking them. Don’t get me wrong. I certainly don’t care for either of them. That’s why they’re on the list. If I need to interact with them I can be fine. But, when I see them, I go out of my way to not interact with them. 

It’s not so much that I think there is anything wrong with this on my part. I forever said, “Everyone has a place and purpose in life. But, maybe not yours.”

Just because we are all equal and good and Children of G-d doesn’t mean that we can all just get along. In fact, peace and harmony are not always about getting along, but, sometimes, recognizing that you cannot. I mean, you don’t put caustic materials together unless you’re looking for an explosion. 

So it’s not about changing how I feel or associate. It’s more about still being able to hold them in Love and Light. The same goes for my family. I find it is all very fine lines - Unconditional Love and Forgiveness. 

I can love them and I can forgive them. But that does not mean I have to continue to accept the treatment I have received. If that means that we can’t associate with each other then that is just the way it is. I must detach myself from that and still hold them in Love and Light. 

Speaking of my family, I have not yet written the email. I still do not understand it. Perhaps that will be part of my day tomorrow. 

Now, tomorrow is The Day After, and ,therefore, technically still part of my holi-day observation. It is my day of recovery. The day to get anchored and grounded once more. This day is particularly important after Yule. 

I find it interesting that I have very often, in these writings, referenced the patterns and cycles in which I always seem to find myself stuck. The Cycle of my year is one of them. And, what I find interesting is that you, Fellow Travelers, are getting a first-hand account of that experience. 

Every year, without fail, my life shuts down at the beginning of Yule. There are the occasional necessaries to attend to, but for all intents and purposes, things cease. This is what we have just come through. [It’s not generally quite so dramatic and heavy.] 

Then I move into January and it is always a void of a month. There is activity but nothing is ever solid or stable or concrete. It is generally in January that I manage the gifts of Yule. Of course, January brings with it all sorts of energies such as Epiphany and Orthodox Christmas. The truth is, until I get finished making my way through the book-days, there is very little of January left. 

Again, this is where we are. We are preparing to enter January and there isn’t a clue in sight. 

Next stop - Imbolc, February 1st. That is the beginning of Spring, the newness of life. Usually, every year, by February I at least have a clue or a plan. So, we will set forth, on our way to February through the blackness of January. 

As I said, my day tomorrow is about getting grounded and reroofed into my life. I don’t have much on the list of things to do at the moment. My man priority is going to be getting my laundry done finally. Other than that I will focus on the email and take to whatever other miscellany may catch my attention. 

I want to take it easy and slow. I want to focus on doing all of those things that I have ignored for so long - the meditations and the devotions. I want to plant those seeds for my year ahead. 

Don’t worry. There will, obviously, be a post for The Day After. 

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So, without hesitation…

For now and for always, from here in Geistopia, This is your beloved Rev…

WALT: ...and Walt…

DOC: ...unt Doc…

JOHNNY: ...aaaaand Johnny…

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