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It is…Sunday, April 12, 2020. Time...Resurrecting.

Theme - Self-Realization

Lesson - What’s the Rush?

I was thinking about how I was having so much difficulty getting myself caught up and to a point where I was making extra money on the side. It seemed every week there was a new setback or delay. Then, this week, I realized even if I had gotten where I wanted over the past several weeks it wouldn’t matter currently. The work has stopped. It will start up again after this is all over, but for now it isn’t there.

Observation - Everything as it Should Be

On the same track as above. I think about how everything was so difficult at the end of the year. I couldn’t get work or get myself straightened out. I look at where The World is now and realize that none of that would have mattered either. The Parent Company would have closed amid the shut down. In fact, due to its location, that store would have been among the first closures. And, I wouldn’t have survived The Distributor. There is no way I could have with the energies that have been surging lately. I have days when I’m not sure how I am going to get through The Job.

The Post

What a very strange week it was. Ultimately, I want to talk about Friday, because I think, somehow, it all leads to Friday.

The Full Moon sent my world spinning. I knew the moon was coming. I was getting ready for it all day on Monday. I knew I worked on Tuesday morning, but I had plenty of time Tuesday night and Wednesday to enjoy the moment if I had myself prepared. So, Monday was the Day Before. I hadn’t known that going into it, but I definitely figured it out by the end of the day.

I worked Monday, which was the first one, I think, since I started The Job. I worked because we had a scheduled inspection. I went into the day feeling good about things. I felt ready for the day ahead.

Then, soon after the inspection began, I got this shooting pain in my temple. It was almost crippling and it lasted for a couple of hours. It had gotten to the point that I actually had to go sit for a minute because I was so off-balance. Afterwards, I would do the banks for the first time alone. I had it all sorts of messed up. I was a wreck.

It was on the way home, as I reviewed my day, that I realized it was a Day Before.

The next several days were filled with meditations and inspirations. I began taking notes on a daily basis, but once The Moon was in place, everything went it’s own direction. Still, let me recall what I can.

For instance, on Monday night there was a focus on The Tree of Life. This is a concept familiar to several paths. To the Celts (and I believe The Norse) it is seen as a literal tree. Hoagie has taken to painting this tree recently. I looked at one on Monday night and I thought about how the roots of trees grow to the same diameter as the branches above. As Above, So Below; As Below, So Above.

I realize there is practicality to this. It is what makes the tree study and stable. If the root system were not immense and secure in the earth, then the tree could not reach high into the heavens.  Now imagine the spiritual implications of this.

In the Qabbala, The Tree is seen a little differently. My best description of it [if you haven’t seen it before] is that it looks like a DNA molecule. Nonetheless, it is said to be a Pathworking tool - showing us the bridge from the kingdom of earth to the kingdom of G-d. Once again, though - The Heavens and The Earth. I realized, then, that all 3 of my Totems from last week spoke of connecting Heaven and Earth.

I thought of this all while working on my latest project. This is the one that I credited Wisconsin with getting me hooked on. It is a Bullet Journal. That’s what I’m told it’s called. I don’t really know much about the notion personally. I’m not sure what the official description of it would be. For me it is a fun way to take notes on things. It is focused and yet creative.

I decided to focus my first effort on all things spiritual. I want to include info for my Daily Practices and other rituals and routines. I want to put as much i for National into one book as I can. This is a fun way to do that.

The first thing I wanted to include was The Tree of Life. I chose this because I believe it is the foundation for all things and, ultimately, anything else I put in the journal will eventually point back to The Tree. I believe The Tree is all we need to know about life. However, one can spend a lifetime studying all of its intricacies and subtleties. It is layered and dimensional - even on paper.

In fact, it is so layered and dimensional on paper that I had to start over at least 6 times. There is so much information associated with The Tree. I could never put it all on one page. [Believe me...I tried once.] Still, I wanted to include as much information at one glance as I could. Everytime I thought I had all the nuances worked out, I would learn to my dismay that they were not.

Eventually, I just started chuckling about it. And, I would find myself shaking my head and thinking, “There has to be a lesson in this for me.” I mean, I was just having so much trouble getting it started properly, let alone finished at all. So, I slowed down and thought my way through it more. Turns out, this was one of the lessons. In life in general, I must slow down and think my way through things more. Plan them out before acting.

I worked on Tuesday as well. This really threw off the rhythm and groove that I have developed over the past several weeks. The shift was easy enough, but the headache returned ever so briefly. I returned from work and rested for an hour. Then, I set about preparing for my Full Moon activities. I soaked in a tub that night. I did my Practices. I cleansed and cleared my stones and my cards. It was a long time since I had put this much effort into a Full Moon and now I have done so two months in a row. It felt good. It felt right.

Wednesday was a typical Day After. It was also a Day to Quest. Remember? A Day to Rest, A Day to Quest, and a Day to Test. This pattern has held true every week since it first appeared. Wednesday was my day to do things. I have a very specific routine these days. Wednesday is one of my two possible laundry days. Laundry day takes me to the other end of The Valley. So, on laundry day I also do all of my household and grocery shopping. It is three stops in one, and typically done in less than three hours.

Such was the case on Wednesday. I was done with it all by 1000. Suddenly, I had the whole day before me. Normally, I would stop by The Putters’, but with The -Vid that is not an option. I had packed for a day though. I had a sandwich and snacks and drinks. I had books and things to do. I ended up going to the park and just sitting in The MattMobile, chilling and grooving. Eventually, I would make my way back to The Dormitory where I would put away the shopping and the laundry and spend some time with Hoagie and ‘Jim.’

I had a few experiences on Wednesday. For instance, there were quite a few totems that day. Except, I didn’t make note of them and I only remember one at the moment - Horse. I remember it, because it sticks out to me. It sticks out to me because of how it appeared.

I have taken to using back, mountain roads on my travels lately. There is a route that will take me, both, to the other end of The Valley and down to The Princesses. I take it out, and I take it on the way back. At one point on the way back, the road splits. You can either go forward, or follow the bend to the left. The bend is my direction. However, I have learned that I can go forward and get back on track. So, Wednesday, I was driving back to The Hill and as I approached the split I thought about going forward.

“I have been thinking about checking it out,” I thought, “One day.”

“Why not today,” came The Voice.

I realized that there was no arguing the logic. After all, there was nothing keeping me from checking it out. I had no schedule to keep. Why not today? One to Quest.

“Besides,” I thought, “Maybe I’ll see something important along the way.” [Or was that The Voice?]

Sure enough. There was The Horse.

In my day I faced 2 ‘financial’ tests. If you know me, then you know that me and money are ill-fated lovers. So, usually any moment that challenges my perceptions of and relationship with money I consider to be a significant one. I have yet to be disappointed. Personally, I believe it is these two moments that helped lead to Friday.

The first moment came while I was shopping. In fact, it was in the first store. I always go to the dollar store first. I can take care of many of my needs, and then some, right there. I didn’t go in with a big list. There wasn’t a whole lot I needed this week. But, I did go shopping with a budget in mind. I was, once again, behind in my insurance payment. So, I wanted to get what I needed, but still spend as little as I could. Suddenly, I found myself picking up random things. I realize that everything is only a dollar, but I did not want to spend needlessly. This was not the plan.

Then I heard The Voice, “Just get what jumps out at you.”

I shrugged and set about doing just that. I spent a little more than I had originally planned, but I was satisfied with what I had gotten. When I went to the next store, I kept that same attitude. I got what I needed and what caught my thought along the way. Again, I spent a little more than I had planned originally, but all in all it was worth it. However, this left me just a little more strained and restricted than I had wanted to be. But, the point is to trust and have faith.

On the way home, I was thinking about the financial arrangement with Hoagie. It’s been awkward for me. In December, I had offered to give him some money each pay when I was working. Of course, my projected income was about 50% more than I will eventually be making at The Job. So, it is significantly more than what I am actually making. Still, he brought it up some time ago.

I know he struggles financially as well. I explained my situation and told him that I would see what I could do. Within a couple of days, I won some money . It was enough to do what I needed to do at the time and give Hoagie about half of what I had originally offered. Half was where I was at. The original amount I offered was nothing great, but it hits my pay harder at the reduced salary. Especially now that hours are being cut back each week. So, I figured if I could get him half that would be fair. Besides, I am always buying things for the apartment - cookware, kitchen linens, food, etc.

Then came the next check. I had lost quite a bit of time in that check and things were going to be tight. I waited until the mid-point of the oy period, once I knew I had myself straightened out. I looked and, again, I could give him that same amount. So, I did. I wanted to get him something because I know he has been out of work and things are always tight for him. He was already stressing over money. And, this is where my problem arose.

Both times I had given him money, I had done what I could to get it to him. I manifested and manipulated. I did this because I was worried about him and the money would help him a little. Both time I gave him the money, he went on petty spending sprees - buying movies, and candy and milkshakes. This is what I was thinking about on my drive. It offended me a little bit. But, then, I had different thoughts.

I have a tendency to give money to homeless folks. Panhandlers do not upset me. In fact, it is so commonplace in my life that for a while, when we would go into New York City, Cuddlebug would take money just to give to people on the street. I have heard many debates over the years about this. Some people won’t give money because they don’t want it spent frivolously. Those people will buy food, but not give money. I’ll do either. My thought on the money is that giving it to them is my only concern. If I give freely and without restraint then I have done my part. [What you do unto the least of these…] How a person chooses to use that money is on them. If the bottle is going to bring a person satisfaction, if that person is willing to choose it over food, then who am I to judge?

I realized that this was no different. In reality, I am not giving the money to Hoagie for Hoagie. I am doing it for me. I am doing it because it is the right thing to do and because it will keep my own relationship with finances on the up and up. How he chooses to use his blessing is entirely up to him. So, I returned home, with the cash in my pocket. Hoagie and ‘Jim’ were outside having a few beers. I decided to wait to give him the money.

A little while later there was talk about ‘Jim’ and Hoagie running up the street for more beer. Hoagie commented that he needed to see how much he had to put towards it. I slipped him the money on the sly, “here’s what I owe you from this check.” And, off they went. [Ironically enough, Hoagie didn’t actually pay for any beer with that money. But...he did drink ‘Jim’s.]

Thursday is mostly a blur. I worked and then...I just don’t know. I do know that Wisconsin had asked for some Reiki. I was going to try to do it on Thursday night, but we decided to wait until Friday.

This is what made my Friday so spectacular.

First of all, what a way to start a day. I awoke to find a text from Wisconsin that gave me permission to just go ahead and work on her when I woke up - in the morning or the middle of the night. Whenever. I decided that I would start right after my Morning Devotion at 0600. I did my devotion and then followed up with my Daily Practices. The energy was just so intense. I was looking forward to this.

I did the session and it was pretty incredible. I started at 0617 and at 0636 I had to take a break. I needed to ground and get back in tune. I had received so much information in those first twenty minutes. It was like one constant stream. So, I had a few sips of coffee, did some breathing and relaxing, and got my head back in the game. This took several minutes and then I was back to it.

When I was done, I felt incredible. I can never truly explain to someone just how awesome a Reiki session is for me. It is a trip and a half. Each one is different but powerful. It lifts my Spirit and energizes my soul. I felt ready to face the world. I felt at peace and balanced.

But, mostly, I felt accomplished. By 0730 I had made a fair enough chunk of money. I worked. I earned money. I felt good. I really can’t think of a better way to start a day. I felt so ready to face the world. I thought about how much I would love if I could do more of it. Then there was a slight moment of sadness, but only slight.

I entered the session into my hours tracker - fee and all. Directly under that entry was my entry for The Job from the day before. I worked 6 hours the day before and I made only 10% more than what I made in my hour session. That made me a little frustrated. Irritated, even. I have this gift, this ability, that not only allows me to do good works, but also to feel good myself, plus it makes me decent money. It raises my worth - not only my self-worth, but what I am worth for working. This only increased the longing for more of it in my life.

I made a passing comment to Hoagie about it, saying how it just makes me feel like The Job is a waste of my time and energy. I mean, after all, not only does it not pay me near what I am actually worth [just for The Job, let alone adding this to the mix.] But, it also doesn’t lift me up. In fact, it drains me. More and more every day it drains me. I find that, more often than not, I have to come home from a shift and crash out for a bit. Part of it is sleep and rest. Most of it is realigning, and attuning.

So, I made the comment that this all makes The Job seem worthless and pointless. His response was typical, I suppose. “But, The Job is [steadier/more reliable?]”

“Well, then I need to make this steadier and more reliable.”

“How do you do that,” his face all scrunched up with doubt and cynicism.

“I work at it.”

I was probably more stern than I needed to be with that statement, but these conversations irritate me. It irritates me that people treat it all as if it is secondary. It is a calling. It is something deep within me. That means that somehow, someway, it is to be a part of my life. His point was that, though there may be people out there doing this work, he is sure they all work regular jobs and do this on the side. No, I don’t think all of them do. I’ve known quite a few who don’t. Many may have secondary incomes, but very often they are other things in the Healing Arts, or things that are flexible and manageable, such as the Retail Merchandising. I’m sure there are still some who work a 40-hour job and just do it on the side. But, not all of them.

Still, why should it be so unthinkable that I wish to pursue more in my life? That’s the feeling I get from others in this type of exchange. It seems as though the thought is that I am foolish and wasting my time for wanting or chasing more. Why? It makes me feel whole. It makes me feel like me. It makes me feel right. And...there is definitely something to it.

Wisconsin has validated this for me three times now. With 1,000 miles between us, our only course available has been Long Distance Reiki. I had never really gotten into that before Wisconsin. It was all new to me. The first session went well. It was potent and I think we both came to a better understanding of the connectedness of it all. The second session was extremely powerful. Many of the notes I took for her that day related to things she was going through or even visions she was having during the session. But, this last session, for me, was the most powerful.

First, she was asleep when I began working on her. She had given me permission to just go ahead and work, so I did. I figured I should get it out of the way while Hoagie was still asleep and I was free to do as I needed. Also, we haven’t really spoken in a while. It’s not like it was before - chatting every day. We touch base from time to time and chat when we can. This is a bit sad, but I realize it is what it needs to be. Aren’t things always?

Anyway, this has left us with a certain disconnect. This was a good thing. I went in knowing nothing and a lot of what came through for her was exactly what she has been going through or dealing with. She even had dreams in the beginning that correlated with visions I was having...or I was having visions that correlated with her dreams. Either way, we were one for a moment.

Wisconsin said that this stuff will never cease to [amaze/intrigue?] her. Yeah, me too. I know it’s real. I know it works. I know that there is truly no such limitation such as time or space. I know that everything is one. I know that we can transcend the physical into a spiritual plane where truly anything is possible. I know that once we accept these facts that our perceptions change and we can begin to see it, feel it, experience it for ourselves.

So, it doesn’t surprise me that information would be accurate. Still, it fascinates the hell out of me.

So, anyway, Friday was a good day. It started good and strong. The reason I feel it was an almost ‘Karmic’ experience is because the money I made from that session helped me to pay my car insurance bill. I had been stressing over it. It is the one bill I have not quite been able to get under control since I am back to working regularly. And, it has been costing me extra money. Now it is paid up and I have 2 paychecks before it is due again - one this Friday and one the morning it is due.

[How quickly we go from Saturday night to Monday morning.]

The Reiki experience from Friday has made work a little more difficult for me. I have been getting restless with The Job. I have been getting restless for the same reasons I have gotten restless in the past. For instance, what should have been a 6-week training process has dragged on now for 10 weeks and it is probably at least 2 until it is complete. [There is that May marker again.] So, I feel inadequate at times. There are things I don’t know yet and can’t do, but I can find myself in a position where I nee to know these things. Not having finished the training process means that I am also still not getting the full pay that was agreed upon. [Not as far as I can tell, since we don’t have easy access to our paystubs.]

I also find myself in a situation where a lot of people do not do the job the way it is supposed to be done. Training is the perfect example. The Job has a very specific training regimen. Speaking from experience, if we had just followed that regimen I would be trained and ready to go. But, even in daily operations, people do not do the things that are supposed to be done. Admittedly, some of these things are simple and petty and don’t seem to really impact anything, such as how the patty should be placed on the bun. Still, those are the procedures and that’s how it should be done. Other things are more critical, like cleaning and temperatures. These are things that could bite us in the ass if they ever catch up to us. For me, it becomes frustrating because the systems and routines are there, and laid out, all we have to do is follow them and we could have a great store.

Systems and Routines Save the World.

Still, it is a job and pay, and I am grateful to have both.

[And...on to Tuesday evening.]

This is how I get all messed up. I started this Saturday night because I knew it would be difficult to get it finished on Sunday. That was before I knew I would have the distraction of ‘Jim’ all night. I’m not upset by the distraction. I do enjoy his company. ‘Jim’ is a good soul. Still, it kept me from getting to this.

I then took a stab at it yesterday morning before work. I got as far as I got. Last night, after work, I was just to exhausted. I think I was in bed within an hour of getting home and that was very early. Like 1900-ish.

All of the starting and stopping makes it very challenging to stay on track. I lose the groove of what I was writing. It also makes it more difficult because things happen in between. And, so, things shift as well. Of course, it crosses over weeks and so energies change too,

But, I keep on keeping on.

Just a guy….dopin’ along. Doing his best to make the most out of the worst.

So, let’s stop whatever rant I was involved in…

WALT: I’m pretty sure that’s already been done.

Shh.

Let’s switch gears and look at the weeks for a moment.

We are in Week 14 of The Experiment. 2 sets of 7 weeks. The first 7 weeks devoted to Realization of The Self. The second committed to awareness of The World around me. I would say that is a fair assessment of my recent experiences. By that pattern of thinking, the next 7 should be focused on bringing the 2 together.

For The Job, we just finished Week 10. [Which very much explains the strange way I was feeling for the past week.] And, now we have started Week 11. A new Beginning. Evolution. Ascension. The Disciple. Again, this works perfectly Based on what I can put together, the rest of this week and next week will focus on getting done what needs to get done to get me certified. I would project including the third week in there as well.

All markers and indicators have been pointing to May for major changes, shifts, and decisions. [Perhaps even realizations and understandings.] In particular, there is a focus on Beltane weekend.

This is the weekend that I was supposed to be taking the girls to The Canyon [which there has also been messages about.] Of course, with things being as they are with The -Vid, it’s hard to know whether or not that will still be possible. If not that weekend, then as soon as possible.

I have received my stimulus check, which is going to pay for most of the adventure. I am also putting some of that money towards getting the gas tank replaced finally. In fact, I plan on going about that tomorrow. I’m going to be down that way. I have the money. I might as well stop and see about setting it up. That is, if they are even operating.

Those two things alone will eat up my stimulus. I am ok with that. The tank needs to get done and the Princesses and I need that time together...and away. Still there are so many other things that I need to do or take care of along the way. I have past dues and registration is coming up. I could use a new rotary tool. Mine died around Yule and I have been hindered ever since.

However, I don’t want to go crazy, getting or doing everything right away. I want to keep things slow and steady. What I need, but only when I need it. Prioritize. So, tonight/tomorrow morning, I must sit down and figure out how to use this money best and where to place it for now. The stimulus is just that for me. It is a little boost at just the right time. I am finally, back on track with my monthly bills. May should be the first month that every single one of them is paid right on time, if not early.

If I focus and keep my head on straight, I can use these next two weeks to set myself pretty right. I have the stimulus money, two paychecks and a wedding. If I stick to getting what I need when I need it, I should be able to get some more ducks in a row. And, if I am lucky, I will be able to get a little bit of money into each of my accounts and start using them the way I need to.

April showers bring May flowers.

It has been a trying several weeks for The World. The -Vid has us all a little tweaked one way or another. Some are risking their health working. Others are going out of their minds not working or being trapped at home. Companies are getting more cautious and many people are getting more paranoid.

So, let us see what blooms in May.

I foresee good things.

I have been saying since all of this began that it is a good time for self-exploration. I have been trying to do this myself, even though I am not stuck at home twiddling my thumbs. But, this week, I got to thinking about how does one go about exploring the self. We all think we know ourselves so well. So, it becomes difficult to dig deep and uncover new understanding.

I have thoughts on that, but rather than share them here, I am going to put them out on my Rev. Matt Facebook page.

I think that is all for now, Fellow Travelers. I is time for me to start taking advantage of my time off from The Job.

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So, without hesitation…

For now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

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JOHNNY: Aaaand Johnny…

And, those guys, saying, “stay tuned in Fellow Travellers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: ...and freakishness, baby!!

TOTEMS:

**from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak**

I want to say, that from this point forward, Hawk should just be assumed a Totem. It has been with me every week for some time now. It has been abundant and poignant in its appearances. See past posts for a description.

Horse - Travel, Power, and Freedom

Associated with burial rites and birth. Associated with appeal and persuasiveness. Symbols of freedom. Powers of divination. Can express the more magickal side of humans. Can represent movement and travel, or maybe it showed up to help you with movement. Symbol of desire - especially sexual. May be time to examine aspects of travel and freedom in your life. Feeling constricted? Need to move on or let others move on? Time to assert your freedom and your power in new areas? Doing your part to assist civilization in your environment? Are others? Are you Yo outing what this civilization has given you. New journeys. Teach you how to ride into new directions to awaken and discover your own freedom and power.

Cardinal - Renewed Vitality through Recognizing Self-Importance

They remind us that, regardless of the time of day or year, we always have the opportunity to renew our own vitality and recognize our own life roles. Whistles are often reminders to listen closely - to pay attention to what is blowing on the winds. Reflects that we should be listening to the inner voice (the feminine) more closely for our own health and well-being. Almost always reflects a need to assert the feminine aspects of creativity and intuition more strongly. Can reflect a need to b more careful about your diet, that what you are eating may be injurious to yourself and affecting your overall vitality. Reflects the rhythm of 12 that is going to become more predominant within your own life. Reflects lessons associated with responsibility and the recognition of the task at hand. May reflect past-life connections with the church, or even a reviving of more traditional religious beliefs, regardless of denomination. Remind us to add color to our lives, and remember that everything is of importance.

Rabbit - Fertility and New Life

Often seen as an animal that can lead one unknowingly into the Faerie realm. A symbol for sexuality and fertility. Usually, you will begin to see a cycle of 28 days beginning to manifest in your life. Those with rabbit totems will see movement occur in their life in varying degrees of hops and leaps. It won’t be steady step-by-step movement. The leaps and hops do not usually take more than the cycle of The Moon (28 days) to occur. Plan for possibilities. May indicate the need to do some more planning or review those you have already set in motion. You do not want to box yourself into a corner. Important not to foreshadow your moves. Learning to shift from freezing to great speeds will aid in your success and enables you to take advantage of opportunities that may present themselves for brief moments. May need to examine the kinds of food being consumed. For the greatest health and well-being, a vegetarian diet, even if only temporary, will strengthen and heal. How to recognize the tides of movement within your life. This in turn will enable you to become even more fertile in your life.