First of All, All of Firsts

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true! 

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It is…Sunday, July 14, Two-Thousand and Twenty-More. Time...Jabberwocky

Theme – Illusions

 I don't think I actually have an explanation for this one. It's just the word that makes sense to me as I look back over my week. It's really all just an illusion. I guess the question is - who is the illusionist?

Lesson – I Deserve

First, let's be clear. This is a statement for all. To whoever is reading this, you deserve. If you can dream it, you deserve it. It is yours to have after all. So, on my more personal note - I Deserve. This is a hard Lesson learned and one that stems from an underlying Observation. [One that I will not get into at the moment.] I Deserve. I deserve happiness and peace and contentment. [Not that I don't feel these things.] I deserve love. I deserve abundance. I deserve my home. I deserve to have passions and pursue dreams [and maybe even succeed at one of them.] Just by virtue of being, I deserve to live and to take up space.

Observation – All You Need to Know is Nothing

 Now keep in mind, please, that this is an Observation by someone who truly knows nothing...about anything. [I just make some good guesses from time to time.] I was just kind of looking at life this week. The way we behave and carry on and communicate - most especially on social media. Everybody just knows shit...and they will fight to the death to prove they know more shit than you. [And, in my experience, most facts are still just a matter of perception and opinion. Studies are forged towards a particular outcome. Statistics vary based on source and point.] I only 'know' what I have experienced or come across. I don't know politic. I don't know science or history or math. I've never been much of a reader nor researcher. I'm more like the guy who grabs the research and says, "Lemme see what I can do with that." Anything I could say I do 'know' is really more like what I believe. I believe that its good to lift spirits - lend a hand or a smile or $10 or forgiveness. [That list just goes on and on.] I believe that this includes lifting our own spirits. We must maintain peace and balance- both within ourselves and outwardly to all with whom [or what] we come in contact. I believe that, no matter how hard it may be at times, we should love what life throws at us - the good and the bad alike. All of the heartache and suffering and ill moments are just as beautiful as the successes and love stories. [But this is no longer part of the point.] But, these are the things I believe. I believe that no matter who you are or what your life is, these things are all you need to 'know.' Since, they actually come more naturally then we realize, All You Need to Know is Nothing.

The Post

 Holy...what the...guggenheimflobberschnozzle.

It is late and I am truly just beginning.

First note of order - Sometime ago, I started counting the days. I think it is time to mark the weeks. However, I still need to check on what 'days' certain things took place. (This is day 49. Other days of interest - Day 34 [Rocket], Days 38 & 39 [July 3 & 4.])

So this is the first week.

And, what a week it was.

It was a week of firsts

This was the first week since I moved into Nu Geistopia [probably longer, but let's stay focused.] This was the first week that I actually came into the week with decent funds in the account. They were claimed funds but that bill doesn't actually process for a while yet.

So, I had funds. I was able to get through Monday and take care of gas and whatnot without having to think about it. I didn't have to plan it out around cashing out or anything else. I could just live.

In fact, I lived most of my week that way. This was also a first.

This was the first week that I did not cash out everyday [or almost so.] As a matter of fact, I cashed out today [end of week] and I can't tell you [without looking] when was the last time I did cash out.

I managed to carry all of that prefunded money through the week. This is a big first. Money does not remain in my possession for long - no matter how promising the plan may appear. It's one of the reasons I am glad to have the weekly rent payments. I wouldn't want to try to hold onto that much money for that long. Sheesh!

I not only carried it through, I added to it.

Another first.

This is the first week that the cat actually let me pet him. And it is the first time he actually brought us a mouse. [Well...left a mouse.]

It was the placement of it that I found curious. On the stairs. halfway between his two realities. He spends most of his time upstairs and he is Cuddlebug's cat. His food is downstairs and he is welcome downstairs. but, he rarely comes down if I am here. [Though he has been down several times tonight. Another first.] He didn't take it up to her room. nor did he drop it at my desk. He left it on the stairs where he knew either one of us could find it.

This is the first Sunday in a very long time when I feel relaxed an in tune. The first any day really. I wish I had better words for it. I feel connected. I feel calm and reassured.

This was the first week that I was able to attend a Safety Meeting, continue to work throughout it, and not lose the rest of my day.

This is the first time in a very, very long time that I have managed to remain focused on writing the post without numerous distractions.

This was the first week since I moved in that I have had the option of variety in food. Because I stocked up last weekend there was all sorts of stuff here to choose from. Choose. I actually had to make real choices. I didn't have just the same old rotation of things to eat.

It was a good first filled week.

I still have a long way to go and a lot of struggle ahead. But, that's ok. I just have to take it one week at a time - day by day...just for a moment.

I could have a rough week ahead. There is a big number ahead of me. There always is. But this one just kind of sprung up. It is a combination of things. For instance, I still have money to make towards the prefunded bill. It comes out next Tuesday. I have about 3/4 of it and I have to Tuesdays before it all needs to be there. I also have a larger grocery list than usual. It's about 50% more than I would usually budget. I also have to renew my DL this week.

The challenge is making all the money. Overall, the weeks have been...well...weak. It's been hard to make a decent day. Too many factors to concern myself with why. It could be just a lack of business. It could be too many drivers. It could be the fact that the heat and humidity have been taking a toll on me. So, I have to come back to the Homestead more regularly than I was before. With no A/C in The Rocket, this combination has been just plain brutal. And it has been an ongoing cycle. Everytime it has looked as though there was a break just a week away, by the time that week has passed it is just as bad.

So, I have to come home every few hours to cool my body down and recuperate. [Which unfortunately, includes sleeping.] In the worst of it, I can stay out maybe 4 hours before it really starts to take a toll on me. If I'm lucky, I can push it for 6. But then my recovery is harder.

I already start tomorrow a little off because The Rocket needs to go for an oil change.

I need to make some transportation things for Cuddlebug and Sunshine in the week.

And, of course, all of this is compounded by the fact that I am trying to take next Monday off.

In true 'Me' fashion, I have looked ahead at possibilities. It is possible that I make what I need each day. Sadly, it is just as possible that I won't. I have had several Mondays now when I haven't made more than like half of what the daily Goal was.

It is possible that a few smaller bills won't actually process at all. [A Penny Saved is a Penny Earned.]

In that same vain, it is possible that I will spend less on fuel. [I usually do. At least by a bit.] And, there are several ways I can slash at the grocery list. I hope I don't have to do too much of that. Again, for the first time, my pantry stocked and versatile. I owuld like to be able to keep it that way. It's just gonna take another good push.

I have a list of things to focus on this week. This isn't a first. I love lists. But, this is the first time in a while that I feel in control of the list. For the first time, I have been making bits of progress across the whole board of my life.

This is the first time in I don't know how long that I actually finished a post in a sitting.  

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So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak

Dragonfly

Butterfly

Cat

Fox

Eagle

Deer

Mouse