S2:EP 15 - The 2019 Chronicles; Wherefore Art I?

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Yeah, it’s true. 

WALT: Welcome to my Life is an I T.V. Studios/Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Craze & Co. 

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Warden

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Hoagie Snowflake

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop (may they R.I.P.)

The Looch

The Bassett Hound 

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

Oh, Danny Boy

St. Diane & You

Brother John

Thing 1 & Thing 2

The Rox

CCPA

The PA F&AM

PDT

Senoll #5

Superstar

Sir Richard Slouch

The Spirit

All The People in ‘My Neighborhood’

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Baby-Mama Rabbit

My Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous. 

It is…Sunday, September 15, 2019. Time...Regaining.

Theme of the Week – Ego

Lesson of the Week – What If

Observation of the Week - Blessed is the Day That The Lord Made

I’ve really been having difficulty getting any writing done lately. I find just a bit of time to get something started. Then, life takes over and I am taken away from it. When I do return, my thoughts and my feelings have changed and I feel like I need to start all over again. 

So, let’s take some time now to just sit and write...and see what comes of it. 

It has been an intense several weeks. I can feel things shifting, but I do not know what. I can feel it in the energies of things. I can see it in moments. And, at times, such as this morning, I can feel it deep in my bones. 

It’s hard because I still have no idea what comes next. But, I do know that the colder weather is coming in sooner than I had hoped. I don’t know how I survive the winter. But, then, if you had asked me in the beginning I would have told you I wouldn’t know how I’d survive this long. 

I have a lot to work out. I have debts to settle. I have a life to build. I have been waiting for October. I figured I’m not leaving the Seasonal Store until it’s done, So I didn’t see much sense in trying to apply for new jobs so early. But, now, we are getting a little closer to the end and it will take some time to find the next thing. Also, in October, I can finally apply for the parent company, which is what I have really been holding out for. I’m not sure how that will go, or if it is even the right thing for me, but it resonates with me for some reason. I have other places on the list, other jobs to try, but that is really the direction in which I hope things go. 

I don’t know why. 

The Seasonal Store has been good. I do enjoy my job there. I enjoy the work. The hours have decreased slowly. But, they will increase again as well. And then...it will all be over for another year.

If we look at The Numbers, this is my 3rd Season with the Store. 3 is a number of creation. My first season was minimal. Just Enough to get me through the door and acclimated to things. Season two found me getting a little more involved and working more hours, even with The Theatre. This year I am an Assistant. 

There is growth each time around. It is following the pattern. This tells me that it is a good thing for me, and, in as much as it is possible, I should try to continue working there each season. 

There is another thing in my life that is following The Pattern - the weekly trip to ‘My Neighborhood.’ 

Week one - we established the pattern, including one karaoke song. 

Week two - we continued the pattern, building on it just slightly. 

Week three - we broke bounds and pushed forward. We got to know many people on the crew and even some customers. We set the stage for tonight - week four. [The Number of Foundations.]

I’m curious. 

The project itself is slightly overwhelming lately. I like where it is going and how it is getting there, but it has changed my Time of Investment. I don’t mind. It can just be challenging sometimes. 

The videos are doing well. The viewership isn’t ‘t quite where I would like to see it, but I am hopeful that this time it can/will take off. There is a fire behind it, a spirit, like I haven’t known before this. 

But, this part of the project - the writing - is just as important as the videos. It adds a level of perception…

[And, it happened again. I was writing away and then got a call to run an errand and my whole day went away from there. So, let’s try again today.]

I really can’t cover a whole day, let alone a week, in the ten minutes I get for video. The World is constantly turning my friends, and with it shift the sands of time. 

The truth is, I’m not even sure what to write about today. It’s been a long time since I have been able to sit down and write properly. I’m so far behind in moments and experiences and thoughts. I have started this post get every week for the past three weeks. Every time I start and stop, things change in between. I guess I’ll do what I’ve done each time and just start with where I am at this moment and see where we go from there. 

It’s a day off, so I am feeling a little relaxed. Maybe too relaxed. I’m in no hurry to get anything done. All of my other days are filled with pushing and trying to fit things in along the way. On my day off, I prefer to just be mellow and let things develop.

For now, the day’s plans include finishing laundry, tweaking the MattMobile and finishing this post. Later on, I will be going to Hoagie’s for my Tuesday sleep and a shower. If I can get to The College, I would like to do so. It’s been a few weeks since I’ve really been able to do anything over there. So, I would like to continue the project. Of course, the extra money would be nice as well. 

Tomorrow is going to come and go so very quickly. I work 9:30-6:00. It’s a longer day and I don’t mind that. But I will have a couple of hours in the morning to just sit around in the MattMobile. After work will be much of the same. I’ll have about an hour to an hour and a half before the sun sets, and sunset changes the rules each and every day. 

I really have no clue - what is going on or what to do. It has been seven months, just shy of eight, since this part of my life began. Never did I think it would go on quite this long. I knew things would be challenging, but I believed that by now life would have found its way and moved onward. 

Instead, it has been the same old, same old for me. I make what I need to survive and get by, but I still can’t seem to find that thing that moves me forward. The truth is, though I do survive each week, it is just barely. 

I get a little nervous because the colder days are moving in. It hasn’t been too bad yet, except for a morning here or there. Still, it’s coming and I am far from prepared for it. I have a total of three long sleeve shirts and none are very thick or warm. And, though I do have a few comfortable hoodies, I have no actual coat for the winter. 

There my be some stuff at Old Geistopia, but that would require contact with them and I am just not in that space these days. Which is actually interesting, because one of the tasks I have been handed in the past few weeks is to write an apology email. It’s all very odd. The only thing I must apologize for is that morning and I don’t really think I did anything wrong that morning. I mean, I didn’t call anyone any names or flip out beyond control. There was no violence on my part. It was just an argument blown out of proportion. But, it was out of proportion and I suppose I should apologize for my part in that. 

I’ve been given one or two other things that I may touch on, yet it remains delicate, because I cannot be negative, disparaging, nor attacking. I’m not sure I can express these things without them at least coming across that way whether I try or not.

So, add that to the list of things. 

Also on the list, is a task in regards to this project. I have been tasked with writing something - a paragraph, a post - about each one of the Shout-Outs - who they are and how they got on the list. That is no easy task. Also, some of that was planned for The Book anyway. Does this mean I am not to write the book now?

Beyond those two things I have nothing. Not a clue.

If I begin to think too far in the future [which is only a few weeks away] then I get stressed and worried and depressed. So, instead, I am trying to keep it in The Now. 

If I look at, and take, my life only one day at a time it’s really not so bad. I eat, sleep, live, breathe, do and do not. I have a life. It’s just not much of one. Still, I am blessed. The days are good and the nights aren’t so bad. 

I have food every day. I certainly do not go hungry and very often that food comes to me for free. Or, at least, very very cheap. 

I have my car in which to sleep and take refuge. It’s cramped and often cluttered, but I have it. It’s there and it’s mine. 

I have a job and I have another paying project. There are more things I can do, if I can ever get myself together enough to manage it. 

I have my friends/extended family. They have been very good to me. The truth is, that in the past several months my life has been more full with friendship, experiences and moments, than it has been for years. 

There are things in the air. Things of which I am aware, but that I cannot quite define. For instance, all of these little trips to ‘My Neighborhood’ have found me doing mini-card readings each week. One of the servers suggested that bring a tip jar next week. I just might. 

I’m not sure what’s going on with that or why now. I don’t have business cards or a place to read from. I wouldn’t know how to promote myself or make anything out of this. So, all I can do is continue on and let it be whatever it will be. 

It has turned to October now and I can look at jobs within the Parent Company. I just don’t know that they have something that can cut it for me financially. And, if they don’t I don’t know what I am going to do. But, for me, I’d like to stay within this family of companies if I can. I like the company. I enjoy the work. 

I do have a short list of other places where I can submit an application. Like I said, I can start that now. Before it was all a matter of timing. I wasn’t going to leave The Seasonal Store so I saw no point in trying to get a job that far out. But, now, I have a bout 4-6 weeks to get something worked out...or am I letting it work itself out for me?

I guess that clears my mind for the time being. There are always questions and thoughts swirling around, like The Daemon for example. But, Each as it Comes. So, I suppose those things will be discussed when the time is right. 

Let’s see if I can kick this all up just one more notch. 

So, without hesitation…

For now and for always, from here in Geistopia this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

JOHNNY: And Johnny…

Doc: Unt me…

And, all of those guys, wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT:…and Freakishness, baby! 

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Totems:

Chipmunk- Something Good is on its Way - A Totem of Friendship, Preparation and Abundance

Eagle- Illumination of Spirit, Healing and Creation

Cricket- Good Luck, Genuine Happiness, and Good Cheer

Blue Jay- The Proper Use of Power

Deer- Gentleness and Innocence - Gentle Luring to New Adventure