S12EP2: Yultide Quest - A Very Good Place to Start

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It is…Sunday, November 19, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...???

Theme – There’s a Lesson in There Somewhere

I know when I made this note, I had at least one example in my head. I have none now. Yet, I find that simply put, there is a Lesson in everything. In fact, the less we can understand what is happening, the more of a Lesson we can find. [Sadly, that’s all I have on that.]

Lesson – Gratitude

I have had a strong focus on Gratitude lately. I’ve been feeling it and thinking about it and acknowledging. I’ve come to notice that there is a particular and peculiar power in it. It seems the more I feel grateful, the more I find to be grateful about. Today, I found myself just reveling in the feeling of the breeze blowing against my cheeks. It seems the more I focus on Gratitude the more I feel it. I find that even my Daily Devotions have shifted a bit. They are, after all, all bout Gratitude. I find that the more I focus on my Gratitude, the better the days seem to get. Perhaps, Gratitude Really is the Best Attitude.

Observation – How Odd Am I

This should be a rhetorical question. No one should try to answer it for me. I know I am odd. I have been odd all of my life – never quite fitting in. Never quite belonging. Always lost in my own world of experience. The thing is, I like it. I didn’t always. I didn’t really until recently. My oddities are what make me me. They are what empower my spirit.

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Sunday, November 19, 2023; 1850

Holy crap what a day.

In such a very good way.

I got out between 0900-0930. It was a fairly average day. It was going well, slow but well. Then all of a sudden I got a great package delivery grouping. 12 deliveries. It took me 2 hours and 10 minutes. I made about $150. My Goal for the day was only $165. So, I far exceeded my Goal for the day. I made it through the weekend. I paid what needed to be paid. I have money left going into this next week. That is just what I need. I have to do all of my grocery shopping tomorrow. [Because I am not dealing with grocery stores on Wednesday.]

I scratched 2 more tickets today. I actually did the first one right after I was finished this morning. It was a $20 winner. [I think. I’ve been wrong before.] I’m satisfied with that. Yes, I spent $40. But, $24 of that was money I wasn’t counting. So, in theory, all I really spent was $16. [It’s my mind. Let it work how it wants.] Typically, in a stack of 4 $10 tickets there is 1 winner. I have had plenty of times when there were 0 winners. However, there has also been occasion when I have found 2 winners. In fact, 2 years ago I won $1050 between 2 tickets. There is 1 more ticket left. I am still hopeful, though not foolishly so. I won enough to be content, but something more would certainly take some weight off the shoulders.

This next week could be very challenging. I have more bills than I have days to make money. It is what it is and I will make my way through it somehow. Of course, Thanksgiving is this week. That is part of what is messing me up. I have some extra grocery shopping to do and of course the holiday falls on a what is usually a good day for working.

My plans for Thanksgiving are simple enough. The girls are doing other things, but I guess they are coming here at night. So, I am watching the Macy’s Parade. I’m going to listen to Alice’s Restaurant on WXPN at noon. I am going to decorate for Christmas. In fact, I am doing a whole portion of the day as a sort of tribute to dad. He was the tree man in the house. So, I am going to decorate our tree – my first big tree – with him in my mind and heart. As I decorate the tree, I am going to watch It’s a Wonderful Life, which was his favorite holiday movie.

I think that is all I have for this week.

0535

I’m feeling al il rough around the edges this morning. I think I are some bad chicken last night. My stomach is all in knots. In fact, I had to eat as soon as I got out of bed. I think that is actually what woke me. The last thing I remember before realizing I was in my bed and opening my eyes, are the words in my head, “I have to eat. I have to eat NOW.” And I did need to eat immediately. I was already feeling nauseous.

I was thinking of scratching another ticket this morning, but I haven’t yet. Of course, I have my plans all set for any winnings. [It’s just the way my mind works.] I’m not expecting any kind of big win – just hopeful for something…enough. Anything up to $100 isn’t going to balance too much out so it will be ‘free’ cash. I might pay a bill with it or use it as a buffer to start off my week. My plan then adjusts itself all the way up to $1000 [which is the most I have won on a scratch off so far.] If I win nothing, or only like $10, my consolation is that most of the money spent didn’t exist [on paper.]

I said last night that one of the things I wanted to write about was Gratitude, but I realized it is Lesson of the week.  That leaves The Darkest Moment. I do want to write about that, but first, I must go do my Morning Whatnots.

Ok. So, I’ve been mentioning anniversaries lately. A year ago, on October 5th, I became aware that Spirit was up to something [in regards to The Homestead.] A year ago at Christmas, we know that I will be renting The Homestead. And, come New Year’s Day it will be a year that I am officially here, paying rent and all of that.

Before Thanksgiving, a year ago, I entered my Darkest Moment in life. It’s a strange moment. I have mixed thoughts and feelings on it. It’s certainly not a proud moment – not something I care to discuss unless I must. Yet, I find that I am not necessarily ashamed of it either. What I mean is, I can talk about it openly and honestly if I have to.

On the surface, at first glance, it was a terrible moment. There’s not a whole lot of information that can change that impression much. However, like everything else in my life Nothing is as it Seems. There was so much more to the moment. So much before it and behind it. The biggest thing I took from it [other than my own stupidity] is that Spirit is always talking. I received the message – through Owl – to not make the choice I was about to make. I made it anyway because I am human and riddled with ego.

Moving ahead, the moment does not stay a secret. People were going to know and there was nothing I could do about that. The people I did need to discuss it with I did. We talked through it and moved on. Besides them, only one person brought it up to me. We discussed it enough to suffice – not many details – and moved on. No one else said anything.

Until a couple months ago.

This person didn’t ask questions. She threw it out there, publicly, to be spiteful and hurtful. No one else said anything at that time. Since then, though, there have been a couple of passing moments that have made me aware just how widespread the damage from my  moment may have been. Needless to say, this has had me reliving it and processing it all over again.

Again, not proud of the moment. But, I also won’t shy away from it. I can own it. I’m not ready to tell the story. Mostly because of all the subtle nuances involved. The whole thing is what has had me delving deep into my psyche these past several months. I want to tell the story because I think it is important. In fact, I think I’ve known [long before the moment] that it was a story I would one day have to tell. But not now. Not yet. However, if someone asks me about it I will tell it. But they have to ask the right questions to get all the right answers.

As I have thought about the widespread knowledge, I also thought about what people must think. Suddenly, I realized that I don’t care. The moment was what it was and my life had moved on. It’s actually this whole line of contemplation that put me on my kick that living life is no big deal. We make such a stink over what we do, what work, what titles, what monies, what rights or wrongs. None of this actually matters. Thinking it did is how I ended up in The rabbit Hole that would lead to the moment.

The only thing that matters is living – being, expressing, dreaming, believing, loving. We have created a world that tells us how we should create ourselves. There is no mould. There is no definitive path. All we can do is be. Let our lives be. And, revel in every single moment of it…for it is Divine.

So, things I have taken from The Darkest Moment. First, that Spirit always has our back [even when we are too dumb to get it.] Second, people’s opinions don’t really matter. They are going to have them no matter what you do. Know yourself and be yourself. Third, the path doesn’t matter. It is yours. You must simply walk it.

Ok. I’ve lost that train of thought. The morning is ticking by and I still need to get myself together for work.

Later.

Saturday, November 18, 2023; 2121

The time looks like it should be a lottery number. But, it also looks like a lottery number that would be way overplayed lol.

Whew! What a day. Once again, I had no clue how it would play out. Once again, I cannot call it anything but perfection.

I got out just slightly later than I had planned. I had a high number set as my Goal. As usual, I had no clue if I was going to be able to make it. The days have been so fickle of late. I had a good early part of the day. I got like 3 package deliveries that totaled a little more than $70. At the end of Lunch I was left with only about $50.

My challenge in the day was that I needed to get The Boy to work by 1600. Now, I had already communicated with everyone that that would depend on how the day flowed and whether or not I got any of the higher paying package deliveries in the afternoon. I did not. This had me back to The Homestead by 1500, which gave me Just Enough time to get a rest in and be ready to go again.

I dropped The Boy off at about 1600 and I was home before 1830. The second part of my day went very well. It was a total of 3 offers [5 deliveries.] I made my Goal plus $4. I was able to unload The Rocket, sort out the Christmas stuff, chill and relax, and eat dinner. Then I ran and got The Boy and visited at The Theatre for a bit.

Now I am writing and gaming and chilling and soon it will be time for that wonderful bed.

Always so many things running through my mind. I don’t know if I ma up for it still tonight but I have – Gratitude, The Darkest Moment, and The Lottery Ticket. I am not going to force myself to write them out at the moment [or in any particular order.] However, I am going to be sitting here and chilling a bit before bed. So, I may write out something.

Let’s do The Lottery Ticket.

I’ve been feeling the vibe to do a round of lottery. 2 summers ago I was playing a lot and winning enough from time to time to make it enjoyable. Then life shifted and I cut back a lot. However, when I have played, I haven’t really won.

Not too long ago, I realized that I had stopped playing my system Instead I have been buying one ticket at a time randomly. Several weeks ago I followed my system. I spent $40 and won $50. That’s good enough for me.

Anyway, like I said, this week I’ve been feeling the vibe. I don’t know if it is spiritual inspiration or a deep desperation that is motivating me. I was holding out for another $16 in cash. I had $24 in my wallet that I was not counting towards any part of my budget. So, I figured if I lose it, I haven’t actually lost anything.

My original plan was to get them Monday morning after I got through my weekend. This morning I had a failed delivery from Wally World. As I was leaving the lot, I got the vibe to stop and buy the tickets then. I only get my tickets at one place and there is a reason for that.

I hemmed and hawed about it to myself. Suddenly it seemed as though I should buy them today. I thought about waiting until later in the day – see if I could make that cash [I didn’t.] But, no. The vibe was to do it then because I wouldn’t get back around to it later. [I didn’t get back around.] Nonetheless, I bought the tickets. I have scratched 1 of 4. Nothing yet. I’m going to casually scratch them off before Monday morning and see what happens.

0609

I slept good last night. It was restful. Deep.

I feel good this morning. Lately, I have been waking up feeling very energetic and upbeat and positive.

I think Gratitude is the Theme of the Week. Ok…well I thought it was, but I put something else in that slot. So, I guess it is Lesson.

The power of Gratitude is

Friday, November 17, 2023; 1826

Well, that was certainly a day.

It wasn’t bad. Not at all. It was just…a lil rough around the edges.

I didn’t get out quite as early as I had planned. Just as I was preparing to get ready to leave [yes, that’s what I said] the kids said they were making pancakes and asked if I wanted any. I was certainly hungry, and, just as every other morning, I was ignoring the hunger to get out on the road.

Financially, the day wasn’t too bad at first. However, it did start to drag out and at 1500, I wasn’t sure I was going to make my day. It is critical that I make my days for these three days. If I don’t, I’m going to start next week in the hole and I really can’t afford that.

Now, somewhere around 1400-1430, I got a “pre” offer. These are offers that they send to multiple drivers and wait to see who matches with it. It was for $102. I needed $96 at that point to make my day.

I saw the offer banner come across the phone [I was playing a game.] I switched to the app, saw the number and the destination and hit the button. I no sooner hit the button and it went to someone else. I was pissed. That order would have made my day and gotten me home very early. Mostly, I was pissed at the Universe. Like, don’t even show it to me then. It is one thing to not make my day. It is another to have seen opportunity to do so and know I lost it by no doing of my own. I was insistent that The Universe then make it up to me later. I would brush it off and get over it, but then I needed my day.

Time moved on. I managed to put another $20-30 dent in my day. Then it happened. I heard the ding and saw the number flash across the screen. $330. I didn’t look at a thing. I just pressed the button. This offer was for me. It was not a “pre” offer. This was going to make almost my whole weekend.

I got to Wally World and waited. I was calm and relaxed. With the fare offered, it really didn’t matter how long it took. However, somewhere around 30 minutes in I started to have some doubts. Finally, I flagged down one of the workers just to make sure I was checked in. That has happened many times – I check in but it doesn’t show up on their system. The reply was worse than I had expected. Not only was I not on the list…the orders were gone. They had already gone out.

“Pissed” doesn’t even begin to do my feelings justice. Oh, I was livid. Not only did I now waste almost 40 minutes just sitting there, but I also had to wait to go back to work until I called support and had them cancel the orders.

Here’s the thing. Good with the bad. Two sides to every coin and all of that. When the app cancels out an order like that, they typically give a small flat rate to compensate some. My understanding, through other drivers, was that it was $4. It actually turned out to be $5. There were 14 orders.

I still managed to make my day and I still managed to get home in time to enjoy a boit of the stillness and silence with the kids gone.

I feel a little worn from so much stress and irritation. But other than that I find myself extremely grateful. Of course, there is a Lesson in it all. I assume it is about not getting to attached to or engaged in thoughts and feelings.

You Always Have What You Need When You Need It

[No matter what the illusion says.]

0724

Another week is almost through. It has been quite the adventure so far. [I still haven’t looked up my toe.]

Today is where the post title comes into play. I will forever be a Fool for Faith.

How could I not be?

The week started with me in a terrible financial mess. It was not a strong income week in the beginning. Still, somehow, throughout the week, I have managed. I have gotten this far and at this particular moment it looks as though I can actually take care of the last few things that must be taken care of this week.

It is next week that worries me. However, being a Fool for Faith, I realize that next week is not yet here and therefore not worth giving consideration at the moment. It will be what it will be and it will work out…somehow.

I feel particularly positive and energetic today. I’m not sure why. I know that, at some point in the night, I pulled the amethyst onto my head. Also my left knee is hurting a bit this morning. Hmmm?

Anyway, I just wanted to touch base. Do my thing. I am waiting about 10 more minutes for The Rocket to warm up and then I am heading out for whatever this day may be.

Thursday, November 16, 2023; 1840

Sigh Whewwwww!

Finally. A day I can feel good about. I mean – I feel good about every day. They are what they are and they are perfect…no matter how crappy they may be. And, I can sincerely say that about these past several days. They have been crappy. They have not flowed the way I wanted. But, I survived them. Things got done. In their own way, they were perfect. As was today.

Things went well at The Mechanic. The Rocket is [mostly] functional. My income wasn’t outstanding, but it was better than it’s been and more than enough to set me off on the right path. I feel balanced once more. I mean, I’m not at the place I’d like to be, or maybe even should be. But, I am at a place from which I can work towards better.

The money is slowly balancing itself out. Next week is my biggest concern and since it’s not here yet it doesn’t matter. Things are slowly tweaking around The Homestead. I even have myself mostly together for tomorrow.

It was a good day.

0452

It makes me a lil sick to think that it is Thursday and I have made next to no money this week – with a lot of bills ahead. Plus, I have to start the day with an hour at The Mechanic. [At least.]

I cannot stress. I cannot panic. I cannot worry.

All I can do is face each day as it comes – moment by moment. All I can do is my best at maneuvering my way through it. [I honestly can’t believe that I spelled that correctly on my first shot.]

deep sigh

That’s about all I can write this morning. That’s about as far as my brain can get.

I still can’t help but feel [believe] that, despite how it appears, things are working towards a good end. I don’t know how it plays out. I don’t know what the Goal actually is at the moment. [The End Game.] But I feel like things get better- exponentially better

Wednesday, November 15, 2023; 1852

Well, today sucked…again!

First, the mechanic forgot to order my part. No biggie. Shit happens. But I sat there waiting for him to change my headlamps [which was not as easy a task as it sounds] and now I have to go back tomorrow morning.

Whatever. I flow with it.

The workday was terrible once again. Things just aren’t gelling. I don’t know why.

Anyway, I am just about ready for bed. [Which saddens me.] It’s still a little too early for that, but I know it is coming quickly. I did, though, want to stop and at least mark the day.

0457

After I finished writing last night, I sat and played a little Civilization on the 360 [it’s my most recent distraction.] I did not play long before I went to bed. Cuddlebug had come through the room while I was playing and she said, “you look like you’re asleep.” I replied, “Just about.”

I’d love to know just how early I went to bed. I slept all night. I did wake up at about 0300 and contemplated getting out of bed. But then I decided to just continue to sleep. So, I was up at about 0420 [hehe.] This is about my normal time of the morning so I am OK with that. However, I jumped out of bed ready and raring to go. Then I realized that, not only, do I pretty much have my day prepared but, I can’t leave until later. This is my morning for The Mechanic.

This is my life. This is how it goes. I’m not going to dissertate on it. In the past, as recently as this year, I would get all into my head – calculating and cyphering; worrying and wondering. Not now. I can’t. It is wasted energy. You Always Have What You Need When You Need It. Do not Worry About Tomorrow for Tomorrow Shall Take Care of Itself. I will worry about things when the time for things comes.

Timing is an interesting thing.

Not just the timing of all of this going on – The Yuletide Quest, but other little things. For instance, the other day, I saw an ad for an app called Balance. It’s all about meditation and harmony and, well…balance. They were offering the app services free for a year. They did ask for a donation. I wasn’t able to give one. Anyway, Last night I finally got a chance to open it and start looking at my “program.” What is the first area of focus? Breathing.

I think, this week, there will be 2 entries daily – 1 in the morning and 1 in the evening. I will try to keep them as brief as possible – for your sakes and mine, Fellow Travelers.

So what else do I want to touch base on this morning?

There’s the whole pinky toe thing. My back is feeling a little weird – tight in that trouble spot. It’s not sore but it is definitely tight. And, opposite it, there is all sorts of energy in the ‘Secret Chakra.’

Today, I have The Mechanic. Hopefully, I can be out of there by 1000. At some point today I need to swing by Olde Geistopia. Big ‘D’ made vegetable soup and has some for us. Other than that, it is just working. I do not have any bill due today. So no stress and worry over how I am going to pay it. I’m good on tobacco and I am not desperate for groceries.

I think that’s all for now.

Tuesday, November 14, 2023; 1806

Today SUCKED!!

I had like almost no business. Granted I got out a little later than usual [0900] but it wasn’t so late that I should have seen the morning that I did. Even lunch was pathetic. I could be tempted to say that it was pointless to even go out. However, at this point, the bills are still being paid. I even have just a little moving into tomorrow. I don’t know how I make my week financially at this point, but I suppose that is part of the adventure.

In my head, I try to rationalize these things [from a more Divine viewpoint.] Everything Happens for a Reason – Precise & Perfectly Placed. This holds true even, and especially, when things seem to be working against you. I could think of several reasons why the last two days have been slower. For instance, there is a list of work to be done on The Rocket tomorrow morning. Perhaps the situation is worse than we are aware. Perhaps too much driving would have left me in a jam. It’s possible. One can never be too sure. Perhaps the lack of night driving is a safety thing since I don’t have one of my headlights at the moment.

Perhaps it is all just a matter of testing my faith – of seeing if I can hold my own even in the face of adversity.

Yet, as I sit here now, I wonder if it is something more. I am so worn right now. All I want to do is go to bed and that is exactly what I might do when I am done writing.

Also, my toe really hurts. It was very black and blue. All day long it was rubbing against my shoe. Good thing it was a slow day and I didn’t have to walk much.

Heh.

0547

Ugh. Sorry about last night, Fellow Travelers. I had gotten very nauseous all of a sudden and after that I just lost all of my energy.

I want to finish with yesterday before today begins.

So, I set out in the morning with a Goal. I needed to make enough to cover my Mechanic check and as much of rent as I could get. I also wanted to get Cuddlebug some money I owe her from a sort of emergency pick up last week. Plus I wanted to get money to cover two very small bills because I wasn’t sure if they would process yesterday or not.

It’s not as bad as it sounds. All in all, I needed an amount that – on an average day – I should be able to make by the end of lunch.

It all started kind of slow.  Then I got a package gig from Wally World. It paid enough that it could take up to 2 hours and still be worthwhile. I get to Wally World and they have so many orders going on that the drivers are parked in regular spaces, right in the aisles, along the sidewalks. There are people just standing and waiting. It seems there was a system issue the night before and they were now trying to get all of those orders out as well as the ones from the morning.

I sat for about an hour and 40 minutes and still didn’t receive my orders, even though someone had come over to double check with me. At that point 2 out of the 3 orders canceled and once again I was left with no choice but to cancel the other.

That became a big waste of time.

Now it was mid lunch. I managed another quick order. Then I got another big Wally World delivery. Reluctantly, I accepted it. Maybe they got themselves straightened out. They did not. I canceled the order as soon as I saw the mess again. I decided to hit wally World for my shopping. Before I could park, I got another package delivery. I don’t know why, but I accepted it. I drove back to the other side of the lot, up and down the two aisles. Just loads of people hanging outside their cars and it was easy to tell by looking at them that they had been there for a long time. Again I cancelled.

At this point, I was pretty much done. I didn’t even go to the store. I couldn’t. I didn’t make enough money. I made enough to cover the two most important things. The rest just falls under Some Goals are not Meant to be Met.

I still feel accomplished. All day long I was still referring to it as my day off. I was just spending time on my day off trying to balance things out.

At home, I managed a few things. I’ve been working on a set of shelves for the bathroom, including a small corner shelf to hold spare toilet paper. They are finished and up.

To be clear – they are not done. No paint no nothin’. I basically just finished slapping them together. I have been piddling with them for months – working at them bits at a time as I could. To finish them properly would still take me too much time and we just needed them in. So, they will do until spring when I can get out to the shop and work again. Perhaps by then I will have mastered this day off thing.

I also managed a very good meditation. Again, it did not take me long to drift into that headspace. I t was almost automatic. There was a lot of info. First, as always, I have a lot of personal work to do. I must. I must. I must.

WALT:  I must adjust my bust.

I’ve never been good at the deep personal work – the changing of habits. I am weak like that. I always have been. But, I will give it another go round.

My breathing is challenged. This is obviously due in part to my smoking. But I do not think that is the whole of it. For a long time, I have noticed that when I meditate my breathing is difficult and tight. I think this is because I do not tend to breathe properly…if I breathe at all. [I have a tendency to stop breathing when I become very focused on something.] So, I need to take some time to focus on breathing. Just breathe. Nothing else. Allowing even thoughts to go by the wayside.

I spent a good portion of the night just walking around The Homestead in revelry. I have commented several times now how I am just always so grateful to be here. The more I think about it, the more I recognize it in every moment. The more I recognize it, the more I think about it. The simplest things, such as flipping a light switch, can fill me with gratitude.

Overall, I think things are good – despite last week’s setbacks and challenges.

I just need to become fully self-aware. I need to just live each moment as it comes. No real plans or schedules. No doubts, nor even hopes. I just need to be…and, in turn, allow my life to be. Speaking of, it is now time for my life to be productive and abundant. I need to go face my day, but I will check in tonight.

Monday, November 13, 2023; 2155

It’s the New Moon. Let’s start with that.

Next – I stubbed my left pinky toe earlier. I mention it because it hurts. I see this as significant. I will have to look that up then.

Finally [in regards to precursor notes (which you’re reading at the end)] – This is a Quest. This is only a Quest. If this had been an actual emergency you would have been instructed to tune into one of the broadcast networks in your area.

This is a Quest and this is important to remember. [For both you and me, Fellow Travelers.] It has all the pieces. It’s all lining up. It just makes sense.

Last week was such a Void. Everything sort of fell apart and then came back together. It was about midweek that I recognized The Void. After that, it just kept getting deeper and deeper until all I could do was give into it. This is important to note because the rules of living and being have now changed.

So, let’s move on to this week and today.

It seems we are beginning a series of daily entries. It seems, also, as though they are to be read from end to beginning. I don’t really like when we do posts in this manner. My logical and linear mind has difficulty with it. If you are of the same mindset then you will just have to read from the end to the beginning. [Of course, this is the end, soooo…maybe next week. shrugs]

One of the things about The Quest is that I cannot ‘know.’ I must see and hear and learn. A Quest is all about expansion and growth. So, one must be willing to step outside of the norm and the comfort.

Plans become almost pointless. Instead of pushing onward it is best to be guided. One must feel the way through the Quest. Today was the perfect example of that.

For many, many months, The Universe has been putting a stress on the importance of a day off. I have heard and understood. Still, I haven’t seemed to make it work for me. Recently, the stress has been put on making Monday that day. I have been doing so reluctantly.

Today, I wasn’t really able to take the day off. I needed to get myself caught up financially.

[I gotta stop. I’m just at a done point in general. I was going to soak and I’m not even sure I’m going to do that. Suddenly, all I want is to lay down.]

If you’re not already there, go to the Welcome to my Life Facebook page – WTML. Or the YouTube channel – WelcomeToMyLife08. You can also find me on Facebook under Rev. Matt.

Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak

Deer – Gentleness and Innocence – Gentle Luring to New Adventures

They have been able to adapt to every sort of habitat. Buddha is often pictured with a deer. Antlers are symbols of antennae, connections to higher forms of attunement. Look for new perceptions and degrees of perceptions to expand for as much as the next five years. Can indicate that there will be opportunities to stimulate gentle new growth increasingly over the next few years. Leads us back to the primal wisdom. A deer’s senses are very acute. Find increasing ability to detect subtle movements and appearances. Begin to hear what may not be said directly. Time to be gentle with yourself and others. A new innocence and freshness is about to be awakened or born. There is going to be a gentle, enticing lure of new adventures. Are you trying to force things? Are others? Are you being too critical and uncaring of yourself? An opportunity to express gentle love that will open new doors to adventure for you.

Fly – [*from trustedpsychicmediums.com*]

 When the fly spirit animal makes its way into your life, this usually serves as a warning that there’s danger lurking somewhere.

It means to catch your attention when you are spending too much of your time with someone or on something that has a destructive influence.

The fly meaning brings to focus to anything that’s causing harm to your life, whether of your own choosing or not. An example of this is giving in to societal pressures and indifference.

Just like the cricket spirit animal, the meaning of the fly also speaks about hate, spite, malice, or blame. It buzzes to be heard and flies overhead annoyingly until you are forced to swat or kill it with anything you can get your hands on.

However, before you dismiss the fly as nothing but bad and undesirable, the fly symbolism also speaks about cures for sicknesses (just like the deer symbolism).

The meaning of the fly also serves as a reminder that you reap what you sow.

What you put out there to the world will come back to you a hundredfold, so make sure that your actions, thoughts, and words come from a place of love and goodness.

The fly spirit animal symbolizes abundance and prosperity during times of adversity.

It sends the message that by being persistent, consistent, and determined even in the face of tragedy will result to victory.

The fly signifies encouragement, because it does a very excellent job of goading you with its presence until you surrender to what it wants and let you be.

It will always fasten on you, arouse you, reproach you, or persuade you, and will not be satisfied until you get on your feet and achieve what you set out to achieve.

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill. 

Mouse - Attention to Detail. 

It is either time to pay attention to details, or an indication that you cannot see the forest for the trees. You may be getting so locked into details that you forget the big picture. Are you taking care of the trivial, yet necessary, things of life? Are you getting so lost in big dreams that you are neglecting other aspects of your life? Are you becoming so focused on one or two activities that you are neglecting other opportunities? Are you missing what is right in front of you? Is there something obvious that you are missing or need to focus on? Are you trying to do too many things at once and therefore scattering your energies? Mouse can show how to pay attention to detail; how to attain the big things by working on the little things. Lessons associated with attention. 

Raccoon - Dexterity and Disguise

Also study Bear. Diet - vegetables and fruits. Expert at disguise and secrecy. Can teach you how to mask and disguise and transform yourself. Can teach you how to become dexterous in the masks you wear. Can show you how to wear a healing mask or show you the face of what you will become. Holds the knowledge of how to change our faces. Do you need to present a different face to people for greater success? Are you hiding your true self? Are others hiding their true selves? Learning to use masks to put one area of yourself to sleep so that another can be awakened. Will help you develop dexterity in using masks to achieve new and altered states and dimensions. 20 week cycles. 

Raven - Magic, Shapeshifting, and Creation.

Bird of birth and death; mysticism and magic. Messenger of the great spiritual realm. Bring forth life and order. Can help you shape shift your life or your being. Knowledge of how to become other ‘animals’ and how to understand their language. Teach how to stir the magic of life without fear. Strong creative life force. Can be used to enter The Void and stir energies to manifest what you most need. Expect Magic. Somewhere in your life, magic is at play. Activates the energy of magic, linking it with your will and your intentions. Teaches how to take that which is unformed and give it the form you desire.