S12EP5: Yultide Quest - The Void

Hey, gang! Welcome to my life – where anything is possible and nothing is as it seems. I’m Freedom and I’ll be your host, coming at you from within the depths of Geistopia. 

DOC: Velcum To My Life ees a prochect, un experiment in Life unt ART. A living storyboard, if you will. Its premise ees zat life ees experiential, unt zat you can, unt do, experience ze life you choose. It ees based on Ze Veel of Life unt Ze ARTs for Ze New Millennium as life building tools. Ja, it’s true! 

WALT: Welcome to my Life is a Geist…House Players Production, in association with the Center for Creative Inspirationalism. JustUs Productions, the parent company, would like to give a ‘Shout-Out’ to the following for their ongoing, and oft-times unknowing, inspiration and support:

Princess Cuddlebug

Princess Sunshine

Company

The Shaman

The Pillar

F’n Bob

The Entire Putt-Putt-Putter Clan

The Warden

FaeriePrincess

Professor Siggy Chong

Sparky Wentz-eclaus

The VanMan and General Ralph Glossop, and Craze (may they R.I.P.)

The Messengers of The Galactic Federation

 Looch

BJ & The Bull

Bert-On

The Baker of the Cornbread

Andy Pandy

The Mudder

Zason

St. Diane & You (4)

Brother John & Sister Jen

The Bee Man

Spooky Queen

Boom-Boom Snuffbox

The Nameless One

Tim-Bo

The Cousins

The Rox

PDT

Sir Richard Slouch

The Wix-ians

The Socialite

The Village of Idiots

Piz-Niffer

Dancing Queen

Downtown Encyclopedia Brown

Chicken Witch

Dick Pointer

Soup, the Son

The Legendary Pink Elephants

Baby-Mama Rabbit

Wisconsin Belle

The Babes

Aaaand, of course, a very generous sponsor who (not-so-much) wishes to remain anonymous.

It is…Sunday, December 10, Two-Thousand and Twenty-Free. Time...Beginning.

Theme – Gratitude

I know this has come up many times before in the Trinity. But, Repetition is Necessary. It’s a Theme this week because I have found gratitude in all of my doings. I’ve been saying for a while now how I am always grateful – for my home, for my bed, for a shower, for food. The list goes on and on. It’s not just a thought of Gratitude either. It is a whole feeling, a vibe. Even if it only lasts for just a moment, it is just a moment filled wholly with Gratitude. But, recently I have ben finding that when I encounter something frustrating or disappointing my thoughts turn to Gratitude. The kids leave dishes in the sink all the time. I wash them in the morning before I leave and I come home to a sink full of dishes at night. Even if they wash those dishes themselves I will wake to new dishes in the sink in the morning. It irritates me. It’s pointless to bring it up because it will only cause tension and it won’t change anything. I will get frustrated and irritated but as I wash the dishes my thoughts and feelings turn to Gratitude. I am thankful there are dishes to wash, that the kids are here to make dirty dishes, that I am able to wash them, that dirty dishes mean people are fed. When I have slower, less profitable work days I turn to Gratitude. I have very good days as well. They have purpose just as slower days must then have a purpose.

Lesson – The Price of ‘Things’

Honestly, I cannot remember the specifics of this experience. I know it came from a debate between Cuddlebug and myself. Perhaps over the blanket. Nonetheless, as I thought on the moment I noticed how attached we were to ‘things’ – to our thoughts on, and feelings about, them. We were letting attachment to ‘Things’ get between us, interfere with our relationship in a way. It matters not how much nor how little something may cost. An attachment to ‘Things’ will always make the price much steeper.

Observation – ???

I got nothing. Lately, I can’t even observe what day it is let alone the events of any given day.

The Post

Sunday, December 10, 2023; 1708

Oh how things can change in what seems the blink of an eye. [Or is that a wink of an eye (and a twist of his head?)]

Life is such a whirlwind. Just when I resign myself to my fates they seem to shift. I feel as though, lately, I have been finding myself facing moments when I have to just “suck it up.” No one likes those moments.

My first was – absolutely – facing the real possibility that my days of Yule time Magick have come to an end – that I have seen the last of them come and go. This was certainly a challenging thought. I live my year to get to this little window. I have seen so much power and so much magick. It has changed me forever – me and my view of life.

In this thought I found some resolution. I have seen so much. No one can ever take any of it away from me. For as long as I live it will all be mine. Whether it continues or not, I will always have what I had. This was comforting. If it’s over then so be it. Now, keep in mind, the problem was that I was lacking any Christmas Spirit at all. If it was done then it was done.

Besides, I suppose one can’t be greedy. I had a good 20+ year run.

Then just like that it all shifted. I don’t even remember what triggered it. Just all of a sudden Yule was starting to come together and I was feeling more of the Spirit. The house is decorated – there are some odds and ends still. Trees are up – one “tree” in every room. There are a couple of candles. I suddenly have a whole collection of holiday coffees. I have recipes and some tools for my first year of baking cookies. And, if I can give nothing else, I have some ornaments I can make.

And it all just kinda happened…SNAP!

My other instance came today. I came into this morning needing to make more money than I have on any given day thus far. There was just no conceivable way. I resolved that I would just do what I could and do what I had to tomorrow to make up the difference. This is such a terrible week for such shenanigans. I mean any week is a terrible week really. Some are just harder than others.

I did it. I don’t know how I did it. In fact, I not only made what I needed, I made just a slight bit more. It was a record-breaking day…and I did it in record time.

I honestly do not expect to see that ever again. Nonetheless, I saw it today – right when I needed it most. And, everything happened so smoothly, so easily. This has changed my week ahead. I have two larger bills due in the coming week. One is my insurance payment. The other is my new phone bill. This month is a double billing [the first one.] They are 2 days apart. Now, I can put off the insurance payment for about 9 days. It would make this week a little easier, but add some stress later.

One of the things I must consider this week is Christmas Cookies. This is my first year ever being able to make Christmas Cookies. I even got mom’s “Famous” recipes. I am looking forward to this. Cuddlebug would like to be a part of this, so I need to work around her schedule. Unfortunately, she begins training for her new job this week. She works nights and I work days.

I’m still fighting the refrigerator battle. 2 units. 1 working fridge and 2 freezers that don’t seem to know what they want to do.

The rocket is back to acting up. But only slightly at this point. The engine light came back on. The noise has returned on occasion and from time to time she still wants to hesitate.

shrugs

I got nothin’.

It is The Day Before. The Day Before the New Moon. I’m not quite sure what that means but I am definitely feeling it.

I think that is all I have for now. We are two weeks out from Christmas…and only 11 days till the start of Yule.

I’m intrigued.

Saturday, December 9, 2023; 0405

Well, it must have been one hell of a week so far. It has been 4 days since I sat down to write. I’m not even sure how to recall it, let alone retell it.

Let’s talk first about The Rocket.

For many, many months, The Rocket has not been running properly. We knew about it, The Mechanic and I. We believed we knew what it was. Last week, the “running” got less. There were times when I would pull out from a street or parking lot and she just wouldn’t want to go. I could put the pedal down to the floor and she would just lose momentum. Then, all of a sudden…BOOM! She’d take off. This was becoming more and more frequent and also a bit dangerous.

Wednesday morning I took her in to get fixed. Of course, if I didn’t mention previously [see below,] I had stopped at The Mechanic on Monday to let him know what was happening. His kid hooked up the machine and The Rocket just lit up the screen. There were so many codes and at least 1 no one was expecting. Still, it all seemed to come down to one part – The Oxygen Sensor. [Which, by the way, was bent.]

So, Wednesday morning, I took her in. The part got replaced. The Mechanic took her for a spin and came back with a thumbs up. I got in and started her up. The check engine light was still on and now the traction light was on. We agreed that if it didn’t go off that we would check it on Friday when I came by with my payment.

The light never went off. And…the problem came back. In fact, I still think it was more frequent than it had been previously. Nonetheless, when I went in yesterday morning, I let him know. I also let him know that I wasn’t overly concerned [if he wasn’t.] He nodded his head towards the door and said, “Bring it around. I’ll hook it up and see what it says.”

I had been waiting quite a while and had just thought to myself that it didn’t seem good, when he came into the waiting room and said, “I couldn’t get her to start.” He turned The Rocket off to reset codes and what not. When he went to start her up there was nothing. This went on for a while.

First, he found a broken wire. He spliced it and now The Rocket would start, sputter and immediately shut off. This went on and on and on. Eventually, he discovered a blown fuse. Once that was changed The Rocket ran beautifully. In fact, she is running better than she has in some time.

To tell you the truth, I was so happy and relieved that I called later in the day – close to closing time – to let him know how very appreciative I was.

The problem is that this took up my breakfast shift and part of lunch.

I still have so much I want to talk about but my morning is ticking away. I still have freezer issues to which I am trying to tend before we lose all this food, and I really want [need] to be out and working by 0800 this morning. I have a lot of financial ground to cover.

Tuesday, December 5, 2023; 0418

sigh

Sob

sniffle

sigh

I don’t want to take forever to write this morning, but, as always, there are so many thoughts.

The past several days have been very difficult. I would say it started with my “fight” with Cuddlebug, but I think things were already stirring within. The fight was ridiculousness. It’s all over this blanket I have. It has The Princesses school pictures from 2013 on it. They hate it. I mean they seriously hate it.

I love it. That blanket has gone through everything with me since I got it. It went on work trips when I was doing fiberoptics. It went on my Quest with me. It was with me all through my homelessness. I have carried it because it was always my connection to them. So, it has a fond spot in my heart and soul.

Nonetheless, I like it out over the couch where I can see it when I go downstairs. I keep going down there and it is folded up and moved. I finally said something to Cuddlebug and she like flipped on me. [She doesn’t think so.]

The whole thing kinda broke my soul a bit. I was hurt and confused and even angry. I was also feeling disrespected. She was absolutely insistent that I should put the blanket somewhere else – maybe my bedroom.

I was hurt and offended and disappointed.

We didn’t get to talk about it after that. I didn’t see her in the morning and then she was off to her mother’s for the weekend.

I was so worked up on Friday. I found that I had no Christmas Spirit. I was ready to take the decorations down. I wasn’t able to watch movies or listen to music. I was even ready to take the decorations down. I don’t know that this was actually caused by the whole Cuddlebug thing. I think that was more of a catalyst for things already brewing inside.

I’ve been so stressed about Yule. All I really have wanted is to be able to pull off something. I have nothing at the moment. [I still can’t find the damn ornament bucket.] But it seems like everything is working backwards.

I had to take a step back with this yesterday.

Ask & It Is Given

Be Careful What You Wish For

Perhaps all of this working backwards is my gift. Perhaps it is time to give up my love affair with the Spirit of this Season. I thought about it. I thought about it some more. For 20 years Yule has been a very special and magickal time for me. It has been a good run – but all good things come to an end. I suddenly found that I wasn’t sad. I was grateful. I was grateful for the experiences and the years I have had. I came to peace.

This is starting to drag out time wise and I am getting restless in my day. So for now, I am going to stop here.

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Wherever you are and whenever you are – Like, Comment, and Share – we’re on a Journey and it takes you to get there.

So, without hesitation, for now and for always, from here in Geistopia, this is your beloved Rev…

WALT: And Walt…

DOC:  Unt Doc…

JOHNNY: Aaaaand Johnny…

And those guys, saying, “Stay Tuned-In, Fellow Travelers,” and wishing you Peace, Love, Light…

WALT: And Freakishness, Baby.

The Totems & Archetypes

from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak

Blue Jay - Proper Use of Power

It can reflect lessons in using your own power properly. It can also reflect lessons in not allowing yourself to be placed in a position in which power is misused against you. It has the ability to link the heavens and the earth, to access each for greater power. This is a totem that can move between both and tap the primal energies at either level. Higher knowledge that can be used. The main problem will be dabbling in both worlds, rather than becoming a true master of both. Usually have a tremendous amount of ability, but it can be scattered or it is often not developed any more than is necessary to get by. Not unusual to find individuals with the Jay totem being dabblers - especially in the psychic and metaphysical fields. They know a little bit about a lot of things and they use that knowledge sometimes to give the impression that they know more. Wear the crown of true master ship requires dedication, responsibility, and committed development in all things in the physical and spiritual. A reminder to follow through on all things - to not start something and then leave it dangling. A time of greater resourcefulness and adaptability is about to unfold. Going to have ample opportunities to develop and use your abilities. Look for ample time to develop and use your energies to access new levels. Actually a member of the crow family, most crows have no fear. It is because of this the Jay can help you connect to the deepest mysteries of the earth and the greatest of the heavens. This sense of seeking pleasure - often at the expense of others - can reflect an imbalance. Sometimes jay shows up when this is happening in your own life. A tremendous ability for survival with the least amount of effort. They reflect great talent, but that talent must be developed and utilized properly. It indicates that you are moving into a time where you can develop your innate royalty that is within you, or simply be a pretender to the throne. It all depends on you. 

Falcon - (whatismyspiritanimal.com)

Time to sit in the seat of power. Help creating strategies. 

Hawk - Visionary Power and Guardianship.

Messengers, protectors and visionaries. Visionary power and leading you to your life purpose. There is a message coming. What you eat, you become. Kundalini. Childhood visions are becoming empowered and fulfilled. The ability to soar and glide upon the currents. Great Heights while still keeping your feet on the ground. Attacks by people who won’t understand you - attack your ability to soar. Teaching of higher expression of psychosis and vision. Beauty and harmony in moderation. Lead you to using your creative energy in manifesting your soul purpose. Hope and new ideas. A need to be open to the new or shows ways that you may help teach others to be open to the new. Be observant. Life is sending signals. Careful in expression. Comments and actions will be strong and powerful with the ability to tear and/or kill. 

Ladybug - (worldbirds.org)

The main meaning of ladybugs centers around good fortune, true love, innocence, needing to make the right choices in life, happy resolutions, etc. So what does it mean to see a ladybug?

When you encounter the ladybug spirit animal at any point, you can be sure that positive transformations are on the way.

You can trust this humble creature to brighten even the gloomiest of days and brighten your outlook on life should you come across it. The symbolism represents the time of the fruition of your dreams and wishes.

Understanding the symbolism meaning helps you understand how reaching newer heights and higher goals are possible. In due course, with the right approach and positive changes, your efforts and desires will come to pass if you follow the true preaching of the ladybug symbolism.

What do ladybugs mean when they cross paths with you or visit your homes? You could take it as a sign to halt a bit in life, perhaps, if you have been going too fast to achieve your dreams.

Sometimes, we need not to try overly hard but wait in faith for things to come around. Sometimes, there is success in being patient and the ladybug cautions to be just that. In time, your worries will dissipate and new happiness will set in.

Peacock – Resurrection and Wise Vision (Watchfulness)

Examination of the mysticism and symbolism of feet. Support system. Foundation of our structure. Greater vision and Wisdom. Traditional descriptions of the phoenix.